Chapter 208 – Promise

“Go away, son of a bitch.”

I have no desire to talk to anyone right now.
Anyway, this guy. You said you waited knowing when I would wake up? It’s about to give you goosebumps.

“So many people came and went.”

It’s a different story because it’s off…
Come to think of it, look at me and say something like a sword of light. I said I want to see your memories, but did you see my memories?
It’s a trivial memory, but it’s also true that it’s an unpleasant memory.
If you had seen it all, you would have thought that my humanity had deteriorated, but in the meantime, the Geumtaeyang massacre incident broke out, so it’s natural that you don’t like me.
It is also worth considering that he came to give a warning as a hero because he was branded as a dangerous element.

“I saw your memories.”
“Yes.”
“Yeah. It’s very peculiar.”
“Is it unusual? There’s nothing special about it.”

Okay. Nothing special.

“Originally, people live by killing each other. Not just people, but all living things. It’s natural like water flowing down.”

No matter how many I’ve killed, it’s a matter of nature.
It is not self-rationalization.
Those who were killed by me took the law of the jungle for granted and wielded their power, so it’s no big deal to be eaten by the stronger.

“Is it time to die? Poetic.”
“Chew…”

This guy is special.
In my vague memory, when I was in full swing. Most of them treated me like a ticking time bomb, but even after seeing my memories, this bastard hasn’t changed his attitude.

“I’ll tell you one thing.”
“What.”
“You…”

Bang!

It was L who opened the door and entered.
And as I was about to say hello to her, I blinked her eyes in surprise.
Do you think your body has grown?
If I had an elementary school body before, now I am a middle school student… No, the size of my breasts makes me a high school student…?
Is that the real face of L?

“Dre!”

Crying, L runs to me and hugs me tightly.
He’s not close enough to hug me normally, but I wasn’t too embarrassed to know that he liked me through the rice cake simulation.
But I would have thought that he still had that heart.
There are a lot of handsome men next to me, so I thought he would soon forget about me.

“You. Passed.”
“…Eh?”

Kitz, who had a dog sound like a dog, went out when she thought she was not a place.
Outside the door are Ashita and Refeld. Gold-back was watching my movements with only his head sticking out.
What. Wasn’t Kitz alone?
Thank god. It must have been creepy.

Whimper.

I can feel L’s cute crying tears wet the nape of my neck.

“I was worried…”
“…”

To be honest. Thank you.
But at the same time it was painful.
Am I the one who deserves this concern?

I closed my eyes.
I didn’t want to talk to anyone now.
Just. I wanted to sleep.
Perhaps seeing the day when her eyes slowly closed, Ashita left her room reading El.
Again, slept.

While dreaming, I saw many nostalgic scenes.
When I played a game with Sihyeon, when I cleared a difficult boss together and cheered.
While Siyoung laughed at the manga, she said that it would be better if she knew it, and as she read it with me, she cried out loud before she knew it.
The day I went to the dojang with Seo Ye-rin.
And, when I talked with Su-ryun…
…
Also. I saw something that was both enjoyable and disgusting.
It’s like thugs begging for help.
The masked men begged to see their lives because they would reveal the location of their colleagues.
Gu-Jin Kang was begging for his son Gu-Han Kang.
Shin Jin-seung looked like a clown crying and begging.
Bully. Bystanders. Golden suns. Allies… All die by my hand. Eyes looking at me with fearful eyes.

Really. I want to think that a bastard like me is a bastard.
The eyes, which should normally be traumatic, made me feel good.

But. One memory was not pleasant.
When dad died

At that time.
Dad looking at me and unfamiliar expressions I don’t know.
That expression softened, and the words he left me.
That was so unpleasant.

‘

When I opened my eyes, bright sunlight was shining through the window and into the room.
And then, where are you?
I didn’t pay attention to it yesterday, but the interior of Heart Garang is quite different.
I did apply for a dormitory. Maybe an academy dormitory?
However, no matter how Fryunar Academy was, it seemed overly splendid.
…Anyway, the sun is mid-heaven.
Let’s get up
As I tried to get up, I felt a heavy feeling.
It was only then that I found the child sleeping with his face buried in my stomach.

It was Lena.

In front of my bed I was sitting in a chair, and I dropped my head on my stomach, probably unable to overcome her drowsiness. New fluid. Make an even breathing sound.
I was quite tired, so I couldn’t even open my eyes.
Blinking her eyes, I reached out my hand to Lena.
I was going to get up and put her to bed.
But in the end I couldn’t touch her
This is because the people who were suffering from this hand overlapped each time I stretched out my hand.
Is it okay to touch this kind, innocent child with dirty hands like this?

I was staring at him while hesitating, but maybe it was because his gaze was intense. Lena groaned … Her eyelids trembled as she let out a moan.
Soon after, my eyes opened and seemed dazed and confused, but soon after discovering that I had woken up, they became startled and jumped up.

“Stop, sir! Did you cough!”
“…Yes.”

She is restless and has a guilty expression on her face, perhaps ashamed of not being able to hold back her drowsiness.
I wanted to comfort her that there was nothing like that, but I don’t know how to talk to her.
I just stood up and said a word.

“You look tired.”
“That, that’s not it…!!”
“Let me lie down here and sleep…”

I stopped talking and looked at the little girl’s trembling hands.
My tone now. Does it sound scolding?
I have no intention of doing so.
But I still don’t know what to say. I sat in her chair and just stared at her.

…What.
This enemy I think it’s happened before…
It’s not Lena and me, but Dad and me…

Smart.

“May I come in?”

A voice in memory.
However, he is not a friendly person. So I didn’t answer.

Profit.

“I didn’t say you could come in.”
“… Excuse me.”

You might be angry, but here you go. One of the leaders of the Rize family, Marien, bowed her head as if she was really sorry.

“If you wake up, I’d like to have a meal. How are you?”
“I have no appetite.”
“Is that so?”

Momentary silence.
Marien seemed to notice me, but she opened her mouth again.

“If it’s okay, miss…”
“Hey.”
“…”
“Can’t you hear that I’m bothered?”

At the sound of my sharp voice, Marien shut her mouth.
Receive the vicious hostility I exude. You would have understood that I was dangerous now.
Okay. It’s different from Mirf Village.
If you come out like a dick like that time, I won’t be alone this time.
In other words, there is no need to act as a good hogu idiot anymore.

But then I realized that Lena looked at me and was trembling with her face as if she had seen something unfamiliar.
I felt sorry for myself.

“Miss Lena.”
“Yes, yes sir…!”
“I’ll be back soon after I’ve done business with Marien. Please wait here.”

As Lena tried to make her more sad face, she quickly added.

“That… Never. It’s not that you hate it.”

I don’t know if it’s because of my mood, but Lena’s face seemed to be a little relaxed.
It would have been nice if I could have given you a little better comfort.

“Will you guide me?”
“Yes.”

In response to her disrespectful command, Marien bowed her head respectfully.
He must have thought that there was nothing to be gained by arguing with me.

After leaving the room, even the hallway is gorgeous.
It seemed more splendid than the Royal Palace of Entiaer that I had been to before.

“As expected. Is this the Gryze family’s mansion?”
“Yes. Because the lady had a strong will.”

El?
It’s nice, but there’s something bothering me.

“Did Gold stay still?”
“No. You expressed your firm intention to take Instructor Dre to Heart Street, but lately, Heart Street has had several unpleasant incidents, and in response to Elysia-sama’s opinion that it would be possible to rest comfortably in such a place… Has been affirmed.”

Be final
Was there even a quarrel?
That’s nice
It’s definitely a pleasure to have fought for me.
But. Even so, it feels like there is a hole in my heart somewhere. So what? She felt the same way.
Why are you so frustrated?
Something helpless
I trudged along behind Marien and realized her sense of incongruity.

Instructor…?
Am I still an instructor?
After all that fuss, with swords thrust at her headmaster and her fellow instructors?
I was curious about what happened, but it’s not urgent because it’s a question that can be solved by going directly to the academy.
Let’s go after saying hello to El and Grise’s head Leor, who took care of us.

“El, didn’t she go to school?”
“It’s the weekend.”

Right.

It was then.
In the distance, L wearing a pretty outfit that looked like a school uniform or a suit, and a lady in a dress were walking this way.
I don’t know what they’re talking about, but they’re arguing.

“So, Clarir…”
“L. A little more…”

Then they found us on the front.
The lady covered her mouth with a fan, and when El saw me, her face lit up.
Both are beautiful
The lady had a face that made me wonder if it would be like this if El put on her extremely cold face.
I must say again, she is a very beautiful person.
But. It’s like a beauty that doesn’t look like a person. I felt a little out of place.
By the way, El was back in his elementary school body the other day, whether I was mistaken or not.
[Well.]
The delusion speaks vaguely.
Didn’t you see it wrong?
…What happened?
Not really curious. Everything bothers me now.
Seeing that Marienne next to her is extremely polite, this lady must be El’s mother.

“Dre!”

What should she say to this girl who approaches me with her bright face.
Thank you? Or say something else?
I was annoyed at myself for not being able to speak.

“Your body is okay now?!”
“…Yes. Thanks to you, the fatigue is completely gone.”

Before I knew it, I bowed respectfully to the lady standing next to us.
At the end of his gaze, he caught a glimpse of the deeply sunken breastbone. I didn’t think much of it because I was lethargic.

“It caused trouble.”
“Oh my God, that can’t be the case. Whoops.”

Contrary to her impression, her voice was bright and lively.
No, smoke.
The tone is not strange, but the eyes look like they treat people calculatedly, or rather, judge them.
Does not matter.
Acting or whatever, as long as you treat them well on the outside, that’s enough.

“He, he… He, would you like to eat together? Dre?”
“No. From now on. I’m going to go to Pryunar Academy.”
“Uh, that…Is it?”

Seeing her visibly disappointed Elle made her feel a little guilty, but she didn’t want to talk to her now.

“I put my seeds in the room you rented, but could you lend me a room for one more day without shame?”

Rude request. If you accept it, that’s fine.
If you refuse, take Lena out and that’s it.
Either way, I had nothing to lose, and the lady and El nodded without hesitation.

“Sure! A request from the instructor at the academy. Can’t you just listen to the request to sleep?”
“Yep!”

Elle, who agreed with her mother’s words, was very cute.
By the way, she said hello to the hostess, so she wouldn’t have to meet Leo.
Would be uncomfortable with each other.
Even if Leo says no, he won’t go because I’m uncomfortable with it.

“Marien. Let the instructor accompany you.”
“Yes.”
“…”

He said no, but it seemed that he had an ulterior motive.
Or suggest something. Watch or You must have given such an order beforehand.
Say yes.
Now that I’m indebted to you, I intend to allow you to accompany me to the academy.
L’s passionate gaze and the lady’s strangely praising gaze did not leave my back until I bowed her back deeply and left.

She arrived at the academy.
I broke up with Marianne naturally.
While moving. She told her many stories.
Many people. In particular, it is said that people from teenage families, including Ashita, have visited several times.
Even though he knew I hadn’t woken up, he came and waited outside the door and went back.
It’s a burden.

And she was also told how the case had turned out.
First of all, it is said that the gold sun clan that I annihilated was roughly buried.
It’s self-defense, but it’s because there’s nothing good about knowing the fact that thousands of people died.
However, everyone who knows will know.
And, befitting a teenage family, he has good intelligence, so he figured out the number of people I saved in this case and took measures so that there would be no problems later.

The ones I didn’t kill were the male victims and the lovers who betrayed them.
I am, after all, disgusting women named victims. I didn’t kill them, I sent them back with only the memories erased along with the men.
A few people asked not to erase their memories, but most accepted the amnestics.
However, I ordered that the victim man’s subtle anger and the women’s guilt be left behind because of my small grumpiness, so I don’t know what will happen in the future.

And. Most important event.
Inlith, the Demon King of Color Dreams.
Perhaps it wasn’t the condescending Kolli form, he is a big man among big players.
And he was completely destroyed.

Yes it will
When the contract was signed, the body was annihilated, and I confirmed with my own eyes that the spirit was completely extinguished as the authority ended.
The problem was that he was such a big man that, as the Gryze family already knew, no matter how far away he died, the fact that he had disappeared was confirmed in many places… And the Pandemonium was turned upside down.

I don’t know if that’s a big deal, but they say that it won’t be a very good thing for my name to spread widely in the Pandemonium. There could be warlike demons coming.

It was known even in the demon realm, so the system that sounded the alarm directly. That is, all users know.
Maybe guys like Poise will come looking for me.

It’s bothering.
I want to rest without thinking.
…Rather. Should I just kill them all?

I stopped walking.
I can’t.
Even a little bit of annoyance makes me lively.
Even if this is my nature and I can’t help it, I shouldn’t be like this to live my daily life.

…No.
Do I want to live a daily life…?
I don’t know my own heart.
Everything sucks now
Like the sword of light that Kaitsu said.
I wonder if my role isn’t just Love Heart.
Like the strange notification sound you heard when you forgave Miles.
That the Demon Realm or users are paying attention to me.
Or, the secrets of this world like the eight kaiju.
Whether it’s Pryunar.
‘Headquarters’ or…
It was all annoying

Really. Why are you so helpless?
…
…
Someone is following me
Have you already been stamped by some force?
…No. This is Prunar Academy, right?
It was a place that was difficult even for me, who had techniques that were no different from cheats, such as a cutting sword and a space sword.
I’ve been hiding my presence as much as possible since I entered the academy, but when you see me recognizing me, the level is high. Maybe the same instructor?

Who is it
There’s a corner right there. Let’s wait and see.
I turned the corner with a quick step and erased my presence even more.

After a while.
Someone who has been chasing me gaspingly finds me right in front of me and is startled.

“Mom!”
“…Uh.”

Unexpected person.

“D-Dret. Ehehe.”
“…Mayall.”

Matchy Love Yarte.
Nickname Mayall.
She was right in front of her eyes.
I haven’t seen you in a week… No. I haven’t seen Mayal before, so it’s been a little over two weeks.
It’s been a long time since I’ve seen her, but she’s still cute, and at the same time, she shows off a contradictory yet beautiful appearance with a strange charm.
It’s plain clothes. It suits you.
I got the impression that he was a fashion leader, that he was very well dressed.

“It’s been a while. Drett. Hehe.”

Why did you follow me
…No. You don’t have to think too hard.
May Yal is a sweet girl, and she must have just come to say hello to her because she’s spotted something like her friend from afar.

“Yes. Long time no see Mayal. Then see you later.”
“…Huh? Uh uh uh?”

I heard a panicking voice behind me and grabbed my sleeve.
I turned to see May Yal puffing out her cheeks as if in pain.

“What is it, Drett. Where are you going?”
“Uh… The teachers’ office?”
“It’s the weekend, so the teachers are hardly there.”

I have nothing to say about this.
She should have said that she was having a hard time right now, instead of just putting it off.

“I’m going to meet the instructors because there’s something I need to find out.”
“Okay? Then shall we go together?”
“…”

Mayyal sticks next to me with a friendly smile.
I was honestly happy. On the one hand, she was uncomfortable.
She also has a desire to be alone. Also, like Lena, she wondered if a good, pretty girl like May Yal could hang out with someone like me.
Even now, I’m worried about her friend, so I wonder if this good person who followed me can be friends with someone like me.
I killed thousands just a few days ago.
​
…No. Can not be done.
Realized through this
I like being alone that he is a better human being.

“No Mayall. I’ll go alone.”
“Don’t do that~ I haven’t seen you in a while, and this older sister will give you a drink!”
“…”
“Uh… If you get in the way, I’ll wait outside while you do your business?”
“Hey.”

When I called it coldly, Mayal flinched.
It hurts her heart, but I have to take her heart.

“Can’t you hear me saying it’s annoying?”
“…”

Mayyal blinking her eyes. As she was about to walk behind her, this time her back was caught and her clothes were caught around her neck.
Unknowingly, when I made a pathetic sound, Mayyal laughed.

“Dret. I can’t act!”
“Kek… What?”
“If you can’t look into my eyes properly and say it with an anxious face, it won’t be convincing, right?”
“…”
“Anyway, Instructor Dre. Rumors are spreading that he only believes in his strength and his back and doesn’t even teach. He has a very bad reputation among instructors and professors, but if it’s business, ignore that much!”

Uh… Do you? My gossip. Not so good…?
No, I’m going to quit or get fired soon anyway, so it doesn’t matter too much…
…No. It is also quite shocking.

“Let’s go. You have to rest on holidays, right?”
“What.”

May Yal wraps her arms around mine and grabs her hand and pulls tight.
Her strength and grip are great, but the touch of her soft hands and her arm brushing against her huge, voluptuous chest make her destructive power unbelievable.
It was difficult in many ways.

“I will follow with my feet.”

May Yal smiles as she removes her hand and says that.

She dragged me to her bench surrounded by her bushes. The simple impression is that it feels like a cool place.
It was in a very private, to be honest, corner, but there were no people there.
I have a stern thought that it would be good for couples to do it.

“Here. My exclusive seat.”
“Exclusive seats?”
“Yeah. Almost no people come. In my class, it’s a place that no one knows but me. Sometimes when it’s hard. When I’m lying here alone, it’s very cool, and should I say that my mind just calms down?”
“Okay?”

May Yal sat down on her bench first and she patted her side with her hand.

“Sit down, Drett.”
“…”

I was about to refuse, but I just followed without a word.
Just by sitting next to her, the fragrant smell of May Yal stings her nostrils.
She was about to laugh for some reason.
To think that a scumbag who has abused people countless times is sniffing and liking girls his age.

“Eight.”
“Oops.”

Mayal suddenly tugged at my hair.
Why? Seeing with her kind eyes, May Yal laughed.

“The secret of our Love Yarte family!”
“Biggie?”

Fang Fang.

Mayyal slammed her suddenly down the area around her own springy thighs, and in a confident voice she said:

“Knee pillow!”
“…”

I was about to say what kind of secret it was, but the feel of my elastic and sensuous thighs. Even so, the beautifully balanced knees come into view, so I want to call it a draw.
…What are you doing me.
Let’s deny
I don’t think I deserve to enjoy such a celestial touch…

“Ah, he’s making a serious face again.”
“Eh.”
“Don’t talk nonsense. Come on!’

Eventually, Mayyal forced my head into her lap.
Her thighs, on which her head rested, were soft enough to make her feel like rebelling against them. The smell was good… Anyway, it felt good.
Just to the point where my thoughts are blown away for a moment.
But it was really short-lived. A sense of bewilderment soon set in.
Can I be treated like this? Doing.

“Again. Your expression is serious.”
“…”
“Dreat, you seem to have a lot of worries.”
“…Hmm. Maybe.”

Something was comfortable, so I picked up whatever came out of my mouth and served it, and Mayal said kindly.

“I see. Drett is thoughtful while being considerate of many people, so Drett’s worries are incomparable to those of mine.”

Like me
I couldn’t believe Mayal said that.

“Mayyal. If you’re like me, your worries will be much deeper than mine.”
“I’m glad that Drett thinks so.”

The words are cut off.

“Me too. Neither do we, Drett.”
“…”
“Dreat, when she demeans herself that Dre is like me for nothing, it’s very depressing.”

At the end of my words, a fern-like hand runs through my hair.
What. This service.
Could it be that this isn’t Mayal, but that the devil or demons have changed and are trying to corrupt me?

No, maybe?
Looking at her, she had a sudden question.
A curious question that makes me feel like a dick just imagining it, even knowing my topic.
I noticed
Then she took a deep breath and asked.

“Then did you do this…To your boyfriend…?”
“Huh? Didn’t I tell you I don’t have a boyfriend?”
“No what…”

I was like an idiot for being relieved while feeling relieved.

“Ah. I think I’m used to using lap pillows.

You had a brother
That guy is this sight. I saw this scene where her breasts were so big that I couldn’t even see her face properly.
I can’t forgive my younger brother.

…This. I had another thought.
A sense of bewilderment sets in.​

“Dret.”
“Huh?”
“I am. I think that talking about your worries usually eases your mind, right?”
“…”
“Can you tell me? Even if you can’t solve it, can you sympathize?”

Watching Mayal pounding on his chest, I had no choice but to speak in a low voice.

“I don’t even know what my troubles are.”
“Huh?”
“It’s just. It’s very depressing and lethargic. I don’t know why.”
“Um~”

Mayal, who had been thinking about putting her index finger to her lips, clapped her hands as if she had a good idea.

“Sure. Tell me everything.”
“So I’m fine with myself…”
“No no. I’m not asking you to point out. I’m asking you to tell me every single little thing.”
“…”
“Missing the car, overhearing someone whispering in the back. Things like that.”

I don’t think it’s trivial that someone is talking behind your back.
But with that being said, there were certainly a few things worth mentioning.
But, if I say this, Mayal will hate me.
…
What are you worried about now?
It is thanks to him that he has been taken care of so far.
Rather, a good boy like this should stay away from people like me.
With such a desperate heart. He told me about his recent travels.

Meeting the Golden Sun Clan.
Unable to endure their actions, he committed all sorts of terrible acts.
I checked Mayal’s expression here, but she still smiled benevolently and brushed my hair.

…Would it feel like this if I had a mother?
Somehow, I felt relieved.

“I see.”
“…”
“Dredo, you know how to get angry.”
“Ok?”

Wasn’t I relatively angry…?
Mayal chuckled, as if I was putting on a questionable expression.

“Clarit or Layette. A lot of people don’t get mad at me even if they’re being very rude. I thought Drett wasn’t the type to get angry!”
“…”
“It’s not like that, it’s about holding back! It’s wonderful, it’s wonderful.”
“Now, just sleep…”

It’s embarrassing to stroke your hair.

“Still, I understand why Drett died.”
“Uh?”
“Because of guilt.”

Guilty.
It’s a word that doesn’t suit me at all.
I unknowingly snorted and pinched my nose with my index finger.
​For reference, Mayal’s grip is several times mine.
In other words. It hurts so bad

“Turn it off…!!”
“Who wants to snort!”
“Now, wrong…!”
“Joy!”

He withdrew his hand as if he were only looking at it this time.
There are three weak powers…
As I was about to rub my sour nose, May Yal put his hand on my shoulder and put on a benevolent expression again.

“Dret just doesn’t know how to feel.”
“That’s a novel interpretation.”
“It’s real? I’m guilty. You don’t know that. Dre’s attitude right now is exactly what I’m doing?”
“What is that.”
“For example, am I the type to go out?”

Not active

“At that time. Sometimes I think of this. Didn’t I come out too much? Did I overdo it? Like.”
“…”
“When I feel like I’ve made a big mistake, I’m lethargic all day and I keep thinking about it. I don’t want to do anything.”

Mayyal laughed, saying that this is exactly what I am now.

“And you’re saying that Drett hates himself for not feeling guilty? Real bad people don’t think like that.”
“I will.”
“Is that so? But Drett was such an immature person! I thought I was a grown-up!”

I wish I could stop stroking my hair.
No, I want you to continue.
Contradictory emotions collide.
But. Guilt.
Something reassuring.
With Mayal’s words, I wanted to think of myself as a person capable of feeling guilty.

“Also?”
“Huh?”

Also? I looked up in wonder at her and saw that she was still smiling benevolently.

“Looks like Drett has a lot more to say.”
“…”

Okay.
In fact, there is much left to be said.

I’m talking about the past this time. I briefly told the story of Su-ryun and my friends who were similar to each other.
I didn’t have to say that I killed someone or something. I said everything like a confession.

This time it must have completely broken. I looked up and Mayal was still the same.

“Dreat is an acquaintance. She doesn’t know how to feel.”
“What else…”
“Drett might have needed an excuse to get her way. But from what I’ve heard. At least I seem to be more upset with her friends being bad than her desires?”
“Eh?”
“Yeah, Dre says all she does is that she blames herself and that her friends shouldn’t be involved with me.”
“No… I…”

Actually, as Soo-ryun said, I knew that those kids were in a crisis.
I didn’t know if I could prevent it in advance, but I didn’t.

“Well, it might be her fault for not helping her friends beforehand, but the bad ones are the people who bullied her friends in the end. Drett got mad at them for them.”
“That’s not going to be it. I’m not one to take my anger out on others… And…”

I didn’t deserve to call them friends.
I… Knew something bad would happen and I let it go halfway, and in the end, those kids suffered bad things.
Just because of my feelings, those kids. I left those who would have been friends.

“They’re not friends.”
“…”
“They’re like friends.”

Mayyal stared at my face… And smiled bashfully.

“This sounds like proof that Drett felt guilty.”
“Huh?”
“Actually, I want to go wild at first. I may have stayed still knowing the crisis with that intention, but isn’t that intention so sorry that I can’t call her friend? That’s what guilt is!”
“…No. I don’t feel like that kind of person.”

Mayyal stared at me for a moment.

“Dre is such a nuisance.”
“…?!”

Huh Eok.
It’s a very hurtful statement.
It’s scary because it seems to mean that I’m tired of calling him by his first name instead of Drett.

“Because I’m sorry, we can’t even be friends. It just seems like that mindset… But I don’t want to leave at all, so I’m like a friend… Hmmm… Maybe I’m like that too? Are we like friends?”

Seeing a face mixed with anxiety and pouting, I said in bewilderment.

“…No. You’re a friend.”
“Right!”

Good job. Stroking her hair again.
How to say I think I know the feelings of the monarch who is corrupted by the words of the gansinbae.
I feel like my actions are justified because everything is packaged nicely.

But no.
I know it’s definitely trash to be aware of, and Mayal is just being considerate.

“Also.”
“Also?”
“Yes. Again. The remaining worries.”
“…I don’t have any more.”
“Lie.”

Mayyal’s hand landed on her cheek, and her heart almost stopped.
What.
Her heart is pounding
Let’s fuck off
Hopefully at a time like this Did your love cells even wake up?

“I think you still have the biggest worry left?”
“…”
“Like being kind? Malice for evil, good for good? Difficult words like that. There are a lot left, right?”
“Uh…”
“You can’t fool this Mei-Chi’s eyes. Speak the truth.”

Clear eyes, contrary to the condescending tone of voice.
He looked away from her, feeling that his gaze was defiled.

But before I knew it, my mouth was putting my deep worries in my mouth.
Things that have bothered me so far. Can a villain like me judge the same villain… The same gomandeul.
No matter how much time passed, Mayyal listened silently, and sometimes she played with my hair.
She might have been moved by her casual, benevolent attitude, and I was telling her everything, even the smallest details.

And then.
The words came out without realizing it.

“…Dad.”
“Huh?”

Dad… What’s next.
I don’t know what to say because it’s a really casual story.
But even though her brain thought so, the words that her mouth was a gaping hole came out softly.

“When dead.”
“Huh.”
“…I told you to live kindly.”
“Huh.”
“I didn’t know why you said that. I think I do.”

Okay. I seemed to know now.
Dad, he recognized my ssuksu, trash bastard.

“I was adopted. I had some… Problems before I was adopted. My dad took me in for that. I didn’t know it at the time, but he knew I was going to grow up to be a dangerous person.”
“…Um. Is that so?”

May Yal tilts her head in disbelief.
It’s a story I’d never brought up, but now I couldn’t bear not to bring it up.
After that, I didn’t hear Mayal’s reaction.
It was a voice I spoke to myself.
I was strongly reminiscing about those days with my dad.

“I was always filled with anger somewhere in my heart. I don’t know why, but there were times when I thought I wouldn’t be satisfied even if I burned the whole world… So. It was. I.”
“Huh.”
“Dad must have recognized my true nature, the bottom. I’m usually a rough-and-tumble person, so I wondered why he adopted me… Looking back on it, he might actually have taken me to correct me. I thought no.”
“Is that so?”
“It will. But, in the end, it must have been poorly corrected. That’s why I said in my last will to live a good life… At least live a life that doesn’t cause harm to others.”
“Dret has had enough of that life.”
“I don’t know what he meant to be nice, to be honest. He tried to keep his word.”
“Good job!”

Feeling a gentle hand caressing my hair, I continued to spit out words.

“But now I don’t know. Why did my dad say that? Why should I live a good life…”

And. And…

“Dad. Right before he dies.”

A very unfamiliar face came to mind.
The fierce eyes that seem to tell you to go away come to mind clearly.

“He made me look like he was very annoyed.”
“…”
“It’s not an illusion. He made an expression of irritation and interruption. At that time, I looked at him silently, so my father’s face soon relaxed… Then we talked a little, told him to live a good life, and he died.”
“Hmm…”

My eyes were filled with tears.
The memory still lingers in my head and never leaves.
I didn’t want to see her cry, so I did something I wouldn’t normally do: turn my head and bury my face in Mayal’s belly.
Nice scent and soft touch.
Mayal might push me away, but she didn’t want to show her face right now, and luckily she stroked my hair.
For a while. It’s like taking care of a child.

“…Why did Dad look at me like that?”
“Um… I don’t know…”
“…I wonder if I was a hindrance to my father.”

Even if I was a hindrance to my dad, I still remember.
I remember the red sunset as we walked hand in hand with my dad.
When I arrived at the front of the house, I remember hugging me and entering.
Even when he knocked me down during sparring, I remember that he was careful with his hands so that he would never get hurt.
Even though it’s annoying when I say something, I remember what I heard in any form, other things, and all of my memories.

“Maybe it’s obvious. I didn’t like Dad either, so Dad…”
“There is a drett.”
“Huh?”
“You really like your father.”
“…”

Huh?

“What?”

I’m about to wake up at the words I can’t ignore. And forced me to lie down. While resisting, he said with a voice that was profitable.

“Do you like it? How much did I fight with that man?”

But Mayal wasn’t listening to me anymore.
She thought hard, and then she said:

“What do they say about someone like Drett… Um… Padercon?”
“No. Listen…”
“But what. I don’t quite understand what Drett said. You said you were selfish… Don’t people all want to smash something when they’re angry?”
“…”
“Dreat’s range is so terrifying. It’s wide, but it’s not going to be put into practice anyway, right?”
“Hmm…”

I recently moved to practice.
I killed a few thousand, is that okay?

But May Yal didn’t seem to care about her recent affair.

“I think bad people and good people are determined by whether they act on it or just imagine it. But Dre is the type to put up with a lot of absurd things, right? I think I’ve been in a lot of accidents.”
“Mayall?”
“Yeah. There was a time when I slapped a foreign princess on the cheek.”
“…”

Oh wow

“Even though our family was moving away from the teenage family, we had a major accident and it was so… Puck puck! I was scolded, what the heck. Ahaha.”
“That, yes…”

If Mayal did that, there must have been a reason…
Then, Mayal stared into my eyes.
Her face close up
Her gorgeous yet attractive makeup and pretty face combined to create her wonderful charm.
No.
The light…
It was so dazzling and hot that I couldn’t look straight at it, like it was burning beyond it.

The moment she turned her head away in embarrassment.

“What were you thinking now?”
“…Uh, yes…Isn’t it pretty?”

Mayyal was dazed, then blushed in an instant.
I did too.

“…! That, thank you. Ehehe… That, but that’s not it! What did you think after hearing me!”
“Uh… Just, if it was Mayal, did you do it?”
“Yeah I think so too.”

Ohh… Her self-justification is crazy.
But she wasn’t her own story.
Mayyal said with a laugh.

“If it was Drett. If it was the eight days I knew, she would have done whatever she did because she deserved it. I think so?”
“…”
“I don’t know what a psychopath is… But she does have Drett. She’s willing to help her friends when they’re in trouble, and she’s patient with self-blaming. She’s even in the toughest situations.”
“No, that’s…”

Before I could speak, Mayal stroked my forehead.

“Normal people aren’t like that. And me. I’m a little selfish, but all the people Drett killed are bad people, right? Maybe that’s why I don’t care. Rather, when I think about the intruders in my house, I feel like I did a good job?”
“…”
“It’s not that slaughter is something to be praised, but usually bad people kill so many people that I’m trash… I don’t think I’m going to go through something like agony.”
“Is it?”

That seems to be the case

“Is that so? Dre is different from those people. I’m trash~ Why am I like this~ and she’s writhing with guilt.”
“No, when am I?”
“Now.”
“…”

Me, who raised her upper body completely, and May Yal, who met her eyes, laughed.

“You said you were curious about why you should live a good life, right?”
“…”
“Well. I don’t know, but I think Drett is already a very nice person. I want to be close to him, and I want to help him when he’s having a hard time. I’ve been wanting to meet him since I haven’t seen him in a while, but I happened to see him today. He had a gloomy face, so I wanted to give him something to comfort him. “

To me who opened her mouth a little, May Yal, who was rummaging through her pockets, put something in a surprise attack.
Sweet.

“Delicious?”
“…Huh.”
“I made it for my friends. So… Drett. I was originally going to give it to you. I’m glad it tastes good.”
“…”

It was unexpected chocolate, but I chewed it deliciously.
Sweet.
Whether it’s the actual taste or the mental part, it was sweet.

“And I’m sure I’m not the only one who thinks that Drett is a good person. Ashitadu. Eldou. It’s a bit unexpected, but Clariddu thinks that Drett is a very nice person… Hmmm… He’s popular, Drett?”

Suddenly, he said he was embarrassed and hit him with his forehead.
It didn’t hurt, but rather it felt like itching.
Hook. And my heart beats at the good scent.
With her head raised, May Yal was back to her usual lively gyaru.
She smiled like the sun.

“All I can do is say this, but if you’re in trouble, find me anytime. Since you’re my friend, I can give you any advice.”

Mayyal smiled broadly, saying that she would always be a talk partner or exercise partner.

“…”

Something. It wasn’t a proper question and answer.
Stories that are not very logical, only comforted one-sidedly as if they were reading extensively.
However, her mind was greatly at ease.

[…Kid.]
“?”
[Fuck him for real.]

The fuck.
Don’t break the impression…