Chapter 31 – Sin – 4

Sarah’s eyes were still shining deep blue in the darkness. When she was little, she thought she was very envious of her pretty eyes. Unlike my ordinary black eyes, her eyes sparkled beautifully in the clear sky during the day. At least those eyes still shone with unchanging innocence.

However, all other parts were dirty to the extent that it felt terrible.

The thick bodily fluids were still flowing down her red-hot body. Saliva, sweat, and love juice. All of them mixed together and glistened on her soft skin. I ran my eyes down her body, following the slow drops of sweat.

Her body was in some ways similar to Nadia’s, but also very different. First of all, she was different from Nadia in that she had no scars on her body. Compared to her body, which ran wildly with her ugly scars, Sera’s skin was no different from pure snow country.

Instead, the traces of other men’s visits were left on her body.

Clear lip marks on protruding nipples. And the discolored genital area and the handprints of foreign men who cannot be erased even if they try. Above all, the faint smell of semen was coming from all over her body. At that time, as I was contemplating the filthy stains that could not be washed away even if I tried to wash them, I suddenly heard Sera’s voice.

“Luca…”

Okay. They always call me by my first name Holding each other’s stories and emotions in their arms.

When I raised her head, Sarah was looking at me with a very complicated expression. A lot of obvious questions. And the questions that only she could ask mingled and lingered on the inside of her lips. But in the end, all Sera could say was a very simple word.

“Luka. Really…Is that you?”

I didn’t answer. Instead, he stared into her eyes.

“Luca, you…You are right? There’s no way…What the hell…How…”

“Did you think he was dead?”

When I opened my mouth for the first time, Sarah hurriedly opened her mouth, then slurred her words.

“Ah…No! I just…”

This time Sarah ran her eyes through my body. Eyes and shoulders. Then, as she swept her arms and legs in turn, her eyes turned to my face once again.

“You’re really there, Luca. But…Why are you here?”

Again, the question came to her face. With her mouth open in a daze and her eyes wide open, her figure even seemed almost innocent.

“No way… Did you come to save me?”

Suddenly, a faint smile crept in and a thin breath blew out toward my face. I just looked her in the eye without speaking.

“Is that so? Did you hear about me as soon as I was freed from the curse? Did you come to get me out of here, knowing that I… I was being held captive by Bobby and suffering like this?”

“…”

“I see…Yeah…Is it so? Right? Luca. Why are you answering…”

“Sera.”

“Huh?”

She looked this way, her eyes twinkling at the sound of my voice for the first time. But soon, as if she had realized something, her face blushed and she shook my hand and walked backwards.

“Now…Wait…No…!”

After letting go of her wrist for a moment, Sera crawled towards her corner. She wondered if she was going to ask for her help.

“No! Don’t look!”

A sharp scream echoed throughout the room. Sara held the thin piece of cloth with care and covered her naked body. Suddenly, her face was red with shame.

“You can’t look… Like this… Like this…”

Her wandering hand went down on her, then she went up again and then she finally covered her face. She hunched over her body to hide her face, then very slowly opened her fingers to look at me.

I looked at the figure and moved towards it.

Each time I moved closer, she pulled back more and more. But when I got within her reach, I lowered her arm a little.

Then, she stretched out her hand towards me.

I suddenly remembered that time. I was also reaching out my hand towards Sarah. Seeing her crying out for help, she reached out her hand that she would never reach.

Sarah might have thought. Maybe now I might hold your hand.

But you’ll find out eventually.

That everything is too late

I passed her hand, got down on one knee, and bowed her head. And he opened his mouth heavily.

“Sera.”

“Huh?”

“Where is Bobby?”

“Bobby…?”

She asked again, tilting her head as if it were a name she had heard for the first time. But she soon regained her radiant smile, and she answered.

“Oh, yes. Of course you do. You have to deal with Bobby first, right? That’s why you’re asking?”

Why does hope always bloom in despair? Suddenly, I thought that hope was no different from a weed. No matter how much you trample, pluck, and burn it, at some point it grows annoyingly in people’s hearts.

It was hard to pick out the hope in my heart. It has always taken a greater effort to ignite the hope that has grown in the hearts of others.

“I know Luca. I know where he is and what he’s doing there. Me, just get me out of here and I’ll tell you everything. Huh? Let’s get out of here right now. Then…”

“Tell me count now.”

“Is that so? But Luca. You don’t know when people will come in here… I’d rather go out and talk slowly…”

I quietly held her ear. An earring with the church’s crest was still dangling from her ear, which looked like it would crumble just by grabbing it.

“Lucca…? What’s wrong…”

“Tell me where Bobby is.”

“I’ll tell you. So, could you… Take that hand away?”

Just a little bit, as she tugged at her earring, Sarah squinted her eyes slightly as if in pain. Every time I pulled her hand, her face tilted towards it.

“Tell me now.”

“Luca…Stop it…I-I’m scared right now. Don’t do this…Huh?”

“Where is Bobby?”

I grabbed her by the neck so she couldn’t tilt her head and pulled her earring back. The lobes of the ears were so long that the holes in the ears could be seen.

“Ah… Ah… Black…”

“Sarah. Answer me.”

“Why are you doing this to me, Luca… Huh? I… Are you angry that I’m doing this? Is it maybe that?”

Tears welled up in Sarah’s eyes as she slowly began to lose weight and her blood leaked out. I looked at it and asked again.

“Where is Bobby?”

“Bobby…Bobby’s in the cellar under the confessional…But it’s heavily guarded and the roads are complicated. So you’ll need me. No…What am I talking about. You need me even if you don’t. Right, Luca. .”

“Why me?”

“Because we… Are friends. Huh? We’re the only… Friends in the world.”

The word friend finally came out after a long hesitation. What I originally wanted to say was hidden in another truth, hiding under abominable hypocrisy.

“You’re my only friend…”

“Yes, Luca. Really, the one and only… Ah… Ah… It hurts Luca…”

I stopped for a moment. Then he pressed his face and asked.

“Then what about Ellie?”

“Huh…?”

“Because Ellie isn’t a friend. Did she hit me that way?”

Sarah’s lips parted in shock. It took her a very long time to learn the very simple truth about her. But in the end, she realized everything and said it with her mouth.

“I bet you… Did you know everything?”

She didn’t answer Because there was no need for that.

“Luca…Ahh…”

I pulled on the earring again. Now the flesh was visibly torn and blood was oozing out.

“Don’t do this Luca. Me, I also had a story.”

“I know. I’ve been watching.”

“Then you know. Then you know what happened to me.”

“I know what Ellie did to you.”

“I am…!”

Sarah pressed her lips together as if she was speechless, and her face trembled. There was no more smile on her face. She smelled terribly of the familiar fear she had once seen in Nadia.

“I…Luca…Aaaaa…!”

“Tell me all about Barbie. I have so many things to say.”

“Luca…Don’t do this…Please…! I just…!”

Crying, she suddenly stopped talking and parted her lips in a daze. Her eyebrows, which had been furrowed in pain, slowly loosened, and the vague feeling of rebellion in her hand that gripped her neck faded.

I definitely thought that the moment Sera realized the truth, all hope would be dashed. But my thoughts were too complacent. Hope is a much more persistent disease than I thought.

Blood trickled from her ears and ran through my fingers into her clothes. At the same time, the tears that were barely hanging from her eyes fell and slipped between her lips. And her lips, which drank the rainwater, raised a faint smile again.

“Are you… Are you punishing me right now? Is that so, Luca?”

“…”

“Is that so? You want to punish and forgive, right?”

I wanted to close my eyes. I thought Sarah might have grown up a bit, but she didn’t grow at all despite all the pain she went through.

“Ah…Ahaha…That’s what it was. I know Luca. He must have been angry. He must have been. I understand.”

Tears were still pouring from his eyes. But the smile on his lips grew brighter. Sera came closer to me and begged in her teary voice.

“Okay, Luca. Then punish me. Hurt me. I’ll endure any pain if that makes you feel better, Luka.”

“Sera.”

“Now. You can tear it up. You can hurt it as much as you want. It’s okay to destroy it completely. You can play with it until you get rid of it.”

Rather, I felt it pulling my ear from there. The hole opened as if his flesh would be ripped open, and the blood did not stop even when it flowed.

“Destroy me. Punish me as much as I hurt you.”

Sera held her lips tightly shut for a moment, taking in all the pain that poured out of her. Then, putting her hands together neatly, she said earnestly as if praying to me.

“You’re there instead, Luca…”

“…”

“When it’s over, will you forgive me?”

A drop of tear fell and smeared thickly on my pants. Now I looked at the sky-blue sparkling eyes and turned my gaze into the pitch-black darkness.

Why do weeds get stronger and tougher every time they are trampled on?

Why is he trying so hard to survive when he knows that her death is his fate?

It was too easy to step on Nadia. It was enough to just tear and break it as you wished. Because she was that kind of person. She was just a woman who bowed her head to the strong and simply gave in to the circumstances.

But Sarah’s case was a little different.

It seemed that she needed some priming water in order to pump her despair out of her heart.

I let go of the earring I was holding. Sarah closed one eye tightly as her stretched skin contracted and the faint pain spread through her.

“Sera.”

“Ah… Ugh… Yes… Luca.”

Even though Sera just called her name, she nodded her head in joy like a puppy.

“Do you want to be forgiven for doing that?”

“Yes. I want to be forgiven.”

“Why?”

“I… I…”

Sarah pressed her lips together, trying to hold back her tears, then she tried to put on her bright smile, she said.

“I don’t want to be hated anymore, Luca. I don’t want to be hated, especially from you.”

“Okay?”

“Yes. I mean it. I…”

“I’m sorry, but I don’t believe that.”

“Why…?”

“You’ve already abandoned me once.”

“That!”

Sara desperately rushed at me. I backed her up a bit, and Sera tumbled and slammed her face into the floor. Her tears trickled down, but she raised her face toward me nonetheless.

“That couldn’t be helped…You know Luca.”

“No. I had no choice, Sera.”

I leaned over towards her. The priestly robe she was wearing slipped and fell to her floor.

“That’s why I doubt it. Do you really have a sense that you did something wrong? Do you know what you did wrong?”

“Everything…Of course you know Luka! Of course…”

“Okay?”

Tears flowed from her eyes again from the pain of the fall. I purposely wiped her tears with her ringed finger. A drop of rain fell from the blue eyes that spread over the golden circle. Her eyes shone with hope for a moment.

“Okay.”

I slowly got up from my seat. Then I picked up the bottle of lotion that was in the corner of the room.

Clink!

While holding the bottle, he slammed it against the wall with all his might. Glass shattered and sharp pieces flew to the floor. I threw one of them in front of Sera and said nonchalantly.

“Then prove it.”

“Huh?”

Sara looked up at me blankly. But I deliberately stared at the shards of glass without making eye contact. Then Sarah held it up with care, even as her hand trembled.

“What do you mean Luca?”

I didn’t answer. Instead, he knelt down on her lap and gently stroked Sarah’s soft hair. Sarah rubbed her face against her cheek as I touched her hair, smiling with hope.

But at the critical moment, I put my hands away and stood up. And as he walked toward the door, he spat out a word.

“I’ll be back in two days.”

“Lucca…!”

Her earnest voice rang in my ears. But I didn’t look back.

“Roo…!”

Before Sarah could hear my name again, I left the room. Just before the door closed, I heard something like a faint cry. Maybe it’s the sound of laughter But I didn’t care. Either way it didn’t make me feel bad, and it didn’t make me happy either.

Still, I thought that if I really wanted it, it would be the latter.