Chapter 44 – Death to the False Archbishop – 4

Eye.

…

My… Eyes?

“Yes?”

I asked stupidly. Then Luca opened my eyes with his thumb and forefinger and tapped my open eyelid with his middle finger.

“Yes. Snow.”

“Why…Why…”

“Because you and Bobby are similar in body type. If anyone is willing to volunteer, it doesn’t matter…”

He looked up and I followed his gaze to the surrounding priests. They trembled and averted their gaze, but said nothing.

“I don’t think there is. What’s your name?”

“Yes?”

“Vanessa. Do you know what this guy’s name is?”

When I didn’t answer, Luca spoke to the woman who was stacking chairs at the door. She turned her head this way and smiled.

“Yeah? Ah… Haha. I know that guy. Her name is Creighton. She remembers her raping young boys. Do you remember Jake? His older brother was killed by him. “

The tone was light, but there was obvious hostility. Luca nodded slowly and looked me in the eyes.

“It’s not as much as Bobby’s, but it’s a lot of guilt, Creighton. Why don’t you think of it as an opportunity to dig yourself out. Then it might be less painful.”

The fingers that opened the eyelids gradually gained strength. Gradually, the cold air hit my eyeballs, and they began to sting unbearably. It felt like my eyes were slowly rotting away. You can’t see it, but it’s probably bloodshot red.

Then, out of nowhere, a fact flashed through my mind. Yes damn The mobsters out there might not know what color my eyes were, but Luca most likely did. It was dangerous to keep him conscious of my eyes like this.

Even if you don’t know, you’ll remember my voice as clearly as possible. If I kept refusing, the conversation would continue, and then one day he would find out that I was Bobby. If so, I’ll be like that pig…

…

Okay. What had to be given up had to be given up. It was not possible to fully preserve everything when the situation was like this.

Actually, compared to my life, I can give up an eyeball… And now that I knew the method, I could take the missing eyeballs from other priests or followers later.

“Ah…Okay! I’ll do it. I’ll do it.”

I finally nodded and Luca took his hand back. I let out a sigh of relief as I felt the cold, jarring feel of my eyeballs under my eyelids.

No, isn’t it time to be relieved?

“Do you need a knife?”

Luca’s low voice rang out. Even at first glance, kindness was mixed in the innocent question.

“That is…”

“I’ll do the selection. This is my specialty…”

As I hesitated to answer, a priest stepped up and opened his mouth. But Luca indifferently shook his head.

“No. I told you earlier. I’ll give you a chance to dig up your own sins. Now that it’s like this, you’ll have to do it yourself. Don’t you, Creighton?”

He looked straight in my direction. I wanted to refute, but there was no point in exposing my voice any longer. I just nodded without saying anything.

Then, slowly, he raised his finger.

As the tip of my blunt fingernail caught on the tip of my pupil, my eyes kept closing without realizing it. It was the first time he felt his own hands so scary. That means I have to take out the eyeballs with my own hands.

I raised my eyes and looked towards Luca. He was still staring at me with a nonchalant expression. Still didn’t seem to notice that I was Barbie.

If I get caught, I’ll fall to the floor and scream like that pig.

Okay. This is a small sacrifice.

There is no choice but to live

So I cast a spell on myself. Then, after taking a deep breath, he recited a prayer in a trembling voice.

“You who wander in the bloody darkness. You… I will give you the miracle of opening your eyes.”

Prayers that had never been memorized during the decades of church life kept slipping out of my mouth. It felt like my tongue was rebelling, as if this wasn’t my job.

“Goddess. Allow your poor son to perform miracles. Forgive me for daring to borrow your…Your name to show mercy.”

I deliberately recited the order very slowly. Even if that’s the case, the upcoming future won’t change.

“I will perform this miracle to prove that your will illuminates the whole world. As you will, I will…Dedicate…This eye…To this poor, sick child.”

The last word escaped with difficulty through twitching lips. Suddenly, his hands were wet with sweat. I still couldn’t believe this reality.

But now I had to.

“Uhhhhh…”

His thick fingers came closer and closer to his tiny eyes. For some reason, today my fingers looked particularly ugly and large.

“Huh…Huh…”

Really a moment. It’s just a moment. Once this moment passes, anything will happen. The protesters outside will soon leave, and Luca will disappear with that fake Barbie. Then I just have to wait until Leo comes.

I kept repeating it over and over again until my eyelids opened and my fingers squeezed between them. It’s hope that holds consciousness in this situation.

But the moment my fingers touched my fragile eyes, everything became meaningless.

“Quaaaaagh!”

I forgot the fact that I had to keep my voice out as much as possible, and I screamed in tears. Even though I tried to keep my fingernails out of contact as much as possible, the blades of my nails scraped at my upper eyeball, and thick liquid leaked out.

“Huh…Ahhhhh! Aaaaa!”

But I couldn’t stop. If you can’t quit, it’s best to do it quickly. I didn’t stop even when I felt the creepy sensation of something being cut off in my brain, as the eyeballs I was clutching were shaking as if they were about to crumble, and each nerve connected to the eyeballs sizzled.

“Kheup…”

Then I heard the laughter of a strange woman. The voice, as if mocking me, was very harsh to her ears. Okay. It would be funny It must be funny to see some pig trying to pluck out my eyes. But I want to live like this

So in the end I’ll win. In the end, I’m the one who wins!

“Aaaaagh!”

I continued to pluck out my eyeballs. The nerves connected to the eyeballs were still clearly floating the last sight. Sweaty fingers. Red eyes. A thick veil of blood. Instinctive fear raged madly telling me to stop. But I had to. We are almost there. Just a little more…Just a little more…!

“Ughhhhh…!”

“It’s taking too long.”

“…Ah?”

At that time, Luka’s cold voice woke me up. For a moment I forgot the pain and looked up.

The next moment, Luca’s hand grabbed my hand as I was plucking out my eyeballs.

Then, he roughly pulled out my eyes and wrists at the same time.

“Aaaaa!”

“Oh, dear.”

As pain burst out from unexpected places, my brain burned white and the nerves throughout my body screamed. Even the wrist was ripped off precariously, and the veins and nerves that were still connected were dangling. Luca pondered and pulled them slowly, and every time the lines connecting my body and wrist were cut, I burst into tears and went mad.

“I made a mistake. I was just trying to help.”

“Ugh! What the fuck! Fuck!”

For the first time since entering the church, low-level swear words came out. As if he had made a minor mistake, that carefree tone of voice aroused hatred.

“Still, compared to your sins, these are probably minor costs. I hope the Goddess forgives you.”

One day, I felt like I had heard that tone of voice in a similar situation. But I quickly put that thought out of my head. Anyway, once it’s over. Luca will be foolishly harassing that pig for the rest of his time.

“Huuuuu…!”

Still, the pain remained. Eyeballs, wrists. And in all parts connected to it, hot blood was boiling, scattering a terrible bloody smell. It would have been nice if I could have fainted. Even that couldn’t be done because of the Goddess Damn Ennesic’s blessing.

Fuck. It’s like a fucking goddess year. This year, at the decisive moment, it was no better than a bug that didn’t help at all.

“Ugh… Ugh…”

“I…I’ll do the rest. Now all I have to do is put it in…”

Fortunately, a good-looking guy stepped in instead. Still, they’re not all worms. A little relieved, I lowered my head and saw my reflection in the thick puddle of blood on the floor.

…

Pig.

Pigs being slaughtered.

That was the expression that came to my mind.

However, this was not my appearance, and soon I would return to my original form. So, I quickly erased that image from my mind. And in its place was filled with cynicism. Have fun, Luca. Sooner or later my time will come.

“Uh…Huh?”

At that time, I heard the sound of embarrassment from the guy who said he would continue the operation in my place. Again… What else? I slowly raised my head.

And, I witnessed my eyeballs crumbled in his hands.

“What.”

“That…Nu…The eyes suddenly…”

“What…What the fuck?”

Without realizing it, I spat out abusive language in a harsh voice. Then, wanting to be sorry, he hurriedly turned his eyes to Luca, but he was looking the other way.

“Aigoo, this is pure badass, but this.”

A sarcastic voice came from the side he was looking at. There was a woman who had been with Luca earlier. Before I knew it, she threw off her fake legs and walked using her spear as a walking stick. She crouched down in front of me and slapped me on the cheek.

“It looks like the prayer didn’t reach it anyway. It’s strange. The Goddess refuses to do something with such good intentions. Are you really a bad person?”

A hand full of scars slapped his thick cheek, and a wave rippled through his skin. I stared blankly into her only eye.

“What are you looking at, you idiot.

“Can this even happen, Vanessa?”

“Yes. Well, I’ve never had anything like that happen to me. I’ve been killing a lot of people too. From the Goddess’ point of view, this bastard seems more like a bad guy.”

I could feel the sincerity in the smile, but there was hatred in the eyes that didn’t blink. When she turned away because it was hard to look into her eyes, a word from Luca fell on top of her.

“I can’t help it. I have to pick another one.”

“Yes…?”

I stared blankly at him, forgetting that I had to hide my eyes and voice as much as possible. Luka came back to me and lowered his head. Then, with one hand, she gripped her hair vigorously.

“Don’t worry.

“Yes? That…Aaaaa!”

Without hesitation, he raised his hand and directed it to his eyeball. And he held not only the eyeball, but the entire bone surrounding his eyeball in his hand, and tried to rip out the whole part. My fingers only touched it, but when the sensation of bones crunching and breaking resounded, I screamed in haste.

“Ah…No! No! I! I’ll do it!”

“Is there any reason for that?”

“Well, no, actually. I know it well because I’m a vegetable expert. Just memorize the spell and pull it out and that’s it.”

From the side, the bitch chimed in again and intervened. I even got down on my knees, grabbed Luca’s hand, and begged desperately.

“Ah…No! Please! Please, I want to! I don’t dare to spill the blood of this filthy sinner on you. I will, Luca!”

The last words came out without a moment to feel contempt or misery. Luka heard that and tilted his head slightly. And he exhaled slowly.

“Would you like to do that yourself?”

“Yes. I would like to. Please let me choose…”

“Do you want to go that far and pluck out your own eyes?”

“Yes. Yes Luca-sama. Please…Please let me do that…”

His fingers were still in front of my eyes, so I begged and begged. Even during the party days, I deliberately didn’t give Luca any titles. For a while, she called Sarah, who looked young for a while, and Miss Sarah, and Ellie, who was treated as a useless burden in the party until the truth was revealed, was called Miss Ellie, but only Luca was different. Because I thought he was just a country boy. Because he thought he could ignore it.

But…Now…

…

Now is not the time to question things like that.

“Okay.”

Luca nodded and took his hand away. And he threw out a word.

“I will allow you.”

“Yes…”

My head drooped in an instant. A sigh of relief came out. The moment I heard that word, my feelings like hatred and anger were forgotten for a moment.

Then, to my shame, I felt grateful.

“Damn it…”

Again, the swear words came out. But this time, I tried to comfort myself. You just have to go through this one again. Only this one… Just this one should get over it.

…

Only this one can I skip it?

Suddenly, I thought I could hear the tearing laughter of a strange woman. It was her again, she did and turned her head, but she was looking at me with a cold, hard expression. Is it an illusion? I thought about it, but I heard laughter in my ears again.

…Geuhup…Ahaha…

Asshole.

Asshole.

Asshole.

The voice didn’t stop. And like an echo, it continued to ring in my ears.

As if implying that the pain I will go through is just beginning.