Chapter 15 – Chapter 15

To be honest, I did my best and thought I was confident.
Isn’t it?
After resisting so many temptations, this time, I didn’t waste time or deliberately break promises to fulfill my own desires.

‘The circumstances of an adult are inconsequential.’

It’s not just me, everyone is like this.
Aren’t all grown-ups who have to come from outside to earn money like this?

[… ] …]

Even though I implicitly know that it’s bullshit, I feel like the bullshit is real when I get drunk.
Should we call it human self-preservation?

‘Yes, I… I wasn’t wrong.’

So, if Miho just bursts into tears or gets angry with me here, I have something to say.
You also bought chicken.

“I’m home.”

Something awkward.
When I was young, I said these words even when there was no one at home, but from a certain point on, I completely forgot those words…
Well, because no one was there to welcome you back.
However.

“Have you come?”
“… Oh, here you go.”

As soon as I could speak, a young voice returned from the darkness.
A room with no lights on, a girl with blond hair that seems to glow slightly even in a dark space.

“Oh no, turn on the light. No, did you just wake up?”

「Crush, rustle.」
「Click!」

I fumbled along the wall and turned on the light.
And he met Miho’s eyes.

Miho, who has pretty blue eyes, looked at me and said something.

“Goddammit…”

I knew it would be like this!
It was the moment when I was about to line up the excuses I had prepared right from the entrance.
Neither cry nor get angry… Just looking at Miho’s calm expression.
Words completely different from what I had thought came out reflexively.

“Sorry.”
“What can I do?”
“… I was wrong.”

At my words, Miho nodded her small head up and down.

“It’s fine.”
“…”

Ah… It was something I taught before going to the host bar.

“I’m sorry, I was wrong… I’m saying.”
“Then, I usually say, it’s okay, it’s okay, and forgive me.”

At that moment, I felt a surge of sadness.
I got a little emotional because I was drunk, but I think I would have felt this way even if it wasn’t.
Not empty words… Heartily.

“… Sorry.”
“Are you okay?”
“Did you wait long?”

At my question, Miho vigorously stretched out ten of her fingers and said.

“Ugh, it seems like I’ve cut the heat by far and wide… !”

You don’t know how long I’ve been waiting for that.
Does this gluttonous idiot not know how to count properly?

“Anyway, it’s okay. I didn’t wait for rice.”
“Then, good luck.”

I asked, putting down the envelope containing the chicken on the floor.

“Where is the bathroom?”
“I need to rest…”
“Yeah, it seemed so.”

I smiled while watching Miho, who had been keeping her legs together since earlier.

“I’ll teach you how to use the bathroom by yourself, so remember.”
“Yes…”

It’s like I can’t even get up on my own right now.

“It’s okay.”

As I lifted Miho up from the futon with a smile, I hardened my face slightly. It was because it had already been washed there once and was soaked with urine.
It was n’t that the child had peed on the futon, so his expression his didn’t harden.

‘I waited for a long time.’

Although Miho was a young child, she was not a girl of 3 or 4 years old though.
Still, she was the kind of child who could figure out how to use the bathroom if taught, and she could tolerate peeing to some extent.
That such a child was so tired of the futon meant that she had waited for me for as long as she did.

“Jaa, I was trying to catch up! Miho, do your best…”
“Know.”

It was a situation where I had to apologize, but seeing Miho looking at me on the contrary, I felt sad for no reason.
What kind of life have I been living, is this child always looking at me?

[These are poor children.]

Shut up.
There’s no way I know what I haven’t even heard of.
Of course I can’t understand either.

“This is a toilet. When you need a break, or when you need to poop, you can sit here and deal with it.”
“Are you sitting here?”
“Yes, right here… Just sit like that.”

“Shhhhh…」

Seeing that Miho, who had an expression that he would survive only after doing his errands, was about to get up without wiping his face, I urgently held on to Miho.

“If you’ve done errands, you should wipe the front or the back first.”

I don’t know because I’m not a woman, but I knew that usually.

“Wipe it?”
“You have to wipe it with a paper towel. This is toilet paper OK?”
“Hem! OK!”

It wasn’t for nothing that they said that children really need a lot of hands.
From one to ten, I knew nothing.

After taking care of the errands and washing her lightly, I rolled up the wet blanket with Miho’s urine and put it in the corner.
I thought I would have to go to a coin laundromat to solve this later.
If I put it in my back washing machine, it was certain that the washing machine would be damaged before the duvet was washed.

“Sniff, tongue. I’m hungry.”

Looking to the side, I saw Miho, who had only worn one T-shirt, tugging at my collar and complaining of hunger.

‘Tomorrow I will go shopping for clothes. And let’s set the phone unconditionally.’

Oh, but don’t you need personal information to match your phone?
For the first time, the number in front of the resident registration number…

[I’ll try to solve that much somehow, so you don’t have to worry too much. You just do your best to take care of the children.]

Thank you.

[… ] … It was nothing.]

I teased Miho to avoid an awkward conversation.

“Are you hungry again after eating cup noodles like that? Isn’t this a complete pig?”
“If that’s a pig… Miho, I just want to be a pig.”

… Uh, isn’t that a real pig?

“Didn’t you mean I stopped by a chicken restaurant and bought chicken for you on my way home? Should you thank me Okay?”
“Chicken?”
“Yes, chicken, not chicken. Eat and do not be surprised.”

With my skillful hands, I quickly tore off the wrappers of the chicken radish and half-and-half chicken, discarding the radish soup, and set them in front of Miho.

“…”

Blink, blink
Even in front of such a chicken, Miho just blinked her eyes as if she didn’t know what it was.
The only sure thing is, when I saw saliva dripping down my chin.
I was certain that the food in front of me would be delicious.

‘This bitch, she really covets at least one food item.’

I was genuinely worried that there might be ghosts who died of starvation somewhere.

“First, taste it.”

I very naturally lifted the legs of the fried and seasoned chicken, tore the flesh into bite-size pieces, and placed them in front of Miho.
It’s something I did often while working as a host, but it wasn’t something I learned while working as a host.

“Is it delicious, Hyeonu?”

… Those were the things her mom used to do for me.

Now, chicken is a food that anyone can easily order and eat even through a delivery app. In the past, even when I was young, a family that ate there once a week would be called rich.
Even under such circumstances, my mother always yielded to me as much as her legs.

“Habeom, habeup!”

As soon as I was about to tear the meat, Miho picked it up with his bare hands and put it in his mouth with his hands.

“Is it delicious?”
“Yes! It’s delicious!”
“Haha, eat really well, eat well.”

It was really hard to keep up with the tearing pace because it ate so well. Just put it in front of something and the meat disappears like lightning.
If I had known this would be the case, I would have taught myself to pick it up and eat it instead of eating the meat I ripped badly.

“Eat radish one by one in between.”
“Radish?”
“I mean, this.”

When I pointed at the square white radish, Miho nodded and picked up one chicken radish with her dainty index finger and thumb and put it in his mouth.

“Have!”

Then, a slightly sour reaction pops out compared to when I ate chicken.
I wanted to write a little bit for a child.

“Tongue!”
“Yes?”
“Since we eat together with chicken and radish, it’s so good!”

At that moment, I couldn’t help but laugh while holding my belly button.

“Puhahaha, puhaha! Haha, I’m really going crazy, going crazy.”
“Give me more! Hurry up.”
“Yes, yes, I will give you more.”

I was dumbfounded even while tearing the chicken apart.

What I was doing after giving up 100 million won was eating chicken for children. It’s just that that’s all, and I didn’t hit the jackpot at the casino, and I didn’t buy a new expensive foreign car.
A much more relaxed and pleasant laugh than those cases.

More than anything…

“… Have you already eaten?”
“Are you kidding me after eating one whole?”
“Chew, huh, huh.”

Just looking at Miho, who was burping and yawning too scared to eat again, made me feel warm in this studio, which had always felt cold and cramped.

“You went to sleep, are you sleepy again? Hmm.”

I wasn’t in a position to say anything like that.
It was because he used up his concentration to the limit to play the game, and furthermore, he shook his back violently to satisfy Seonwoo Yerang.

“Huaam.”
“Huh.”

I said while alternately yawning with Miho.

“If you’re sleepy, you should sleep.”
“That’s right…”
“But there is something I need to do before going to bed. What did you say I should do after I ate?”
“… Chi, hemorrhoids?”
“I just realized that a single syllable can change a word. Brush your teeth, brush your teeth.”
“Sheep… Jjiji…”

Having said that, I take Miho into the bathroom and pick up the toothbrush, and Miho covers her mouth with both hands.

“That’s shit…”

[Strong Mint]
[No. 1 toothpaste for intraoral solution]

Oh right.
I forgot to buy children’s toothpaste. I have a feeling that I will have to buy a lot of things tomorrow.

“Ahhh! Let’s go!”
“Be quiet, bitch.”

“Chica, Chica, Chica!”

I forcibly grabbed Miho’s cheek as she tried to run away from toothpaste, and after brushing her teeth of her, I brushed my own teeth as well.
And the moment I lay down on the filthy matrix to relieve my tired body, I realized that the only blanket in our house was stuck in the corner with urine on it.

“…”

Ah, now that I think about it, going to the laundromat is the best thing to do.
I was too sleepy to do that.

“I can’t help it.”

I took out the coat from the closet.
Today, I had no choice but to use this as a substitute for a blanket. Even if it was a blanket, I wondered if the two could cover it at the same time, but there was no need to mention a coat.
I had to reduce the area as much as possible to cover the two together somehow.

“Hey, come here.”
“… Yes.”

After hesitating for a moment, Miho meekly entered between my open arms her and pushed his body her into him.
Just in case, I adjusted Miho’s posture her several times so that he would n’t choke, and then quietly closed his eyes her.

“Are you cold?”
“No, there is something sweet and fruity in Tongunu’s mouth.”
“Doesn’t it smell like toothpaste?”
“Nope!”
“Oh, then it must smell like alcohol.”

One of the characteristics of Royal Salute is that it has a rich taste of dried plums and raisins.

“Dude, I gave up 100 million because of you, 100 million.”
“One million?”
“… Ten thousand chickens gave up her money to buy…”
“Ugh!”

Miho is immediately surprised when he compares it to chicken.
Then, with trembling hands, he gripped my chest tightly and carefully asked.

“Tonnu, this time… Will you wake up?”

I grabbed Miho by the back of his head and pulled him closer to me.

“Yes, I will stay here.”
“Yeah, okay…”

At that moment, a sweet drowsiness rushed in and I felt it as I lost consciousness.
For some reason, the studio seemed warmer than usual today.