Chapter 34 – Chapter 34

For a moment, I wondered if I was hallucinating.

No, why is Seonwoo Yerang here? She drank enough to drink, and had a series of pleasant climaxes, so a woman who must have relaxed in many ways should just sleep in the room and go home.

‘You said this was after me?’

Either he took a taxi and followed me right away, or he found out the address of where I live from Gi-pyo Ahn and followed him.
Both were slightly appalled.
100 million, 1 billion, 10 billion… I knew that Seonwoo Yerang had a positive personality from the time he shouted at the end to even get married, but isn’t this too much to pass on just because he was like that?

“Sister, are you crazy? At this time, where is this place?”
“If I sleep there as it is, I feel dirty and I feel like I am going to jump off the Han River bridge tomorrow morning. How can I endure this?”

… Because of this kind of personality, if I just played games every time, I would die often because I couldn’t stand the push.

“Rather than that, what is she? It would have been better if she was a pretty, sturdy adult woman. What I’m looking at right now is Jin… Whoops, whoops!”

I flinched and felt Miho tremble behind me.
It’s late, I feel sorry for Seonwoo Yerang, and even the fact that she was drunk… There were many things that bothered her in many ways, so it was ambiguous to kick her out like this.

“First, come inside. I’ll help you throw up in the bathroom.”
“Shut up… I can do it alone, ooh ooh ooh…!”
“Come quickly. If you throw up on the porch for no reason, that’s more of a nuisance. And it’s a nuisance to have a conversation here at this late hour.”

I can’t help it, I don’t know if I can move on.
I brought Seonwoo Yerang, who was struggling, inside her, closed the door, and led her straight to the bathroom.

“Oooh, ooh, ooh, ooh…”

No matter how good alcohol was, alcohol was alcohol.
If you drank a lot, moved vigorously, and even rode a car in such a state, it was bound to lead to this result. Even though the hosts were well versed in this field because they repeatedly drank and vomited.

I gently patted Seonwoo Yerang on the back and rolled her head.
How can I end this situation safely?

I don’t know anything else, but Seonwoo Yeerang should n’t spread her story her about her her Miho her to the host bar. She said that being a host with a child was tantamount to a death sentence.

‘There are many women these days who prefer married men, and there are many women who say that it doesn’t matter as long as they are good at contraception and good at sex…’

Anyway, it’s just a story about a positive direction.
To be honest, nothing good ever happened.
No, with Sunwoo more than that… What should she do with this woman. When I saw that the breakup a while ago wasn’t going to be the last, and that they were pushing it this far, I felt like I had to tie a knot somehow.
I had a gut feeling that if I didn’t, it would be annoying in the future.
Usually this kind of intuition has never been wrong.

By the way, how?
This was not a host bar, but a studio where I live. However, that did not change the position between Seonwoo Yerang and I.
Such was the position of society in the first place.
Equal democratic society is not wrong at all, but there was still an invisible class pyramid in this world.
I was the woman at the bottom of the pyramid, and Seonwoo Yerang was at the far top.

Even I was exposed to a weakness that should not be discovered in a way.
Rather, the ‘knife’ had to be seen as being held by Seonwoo Yerang.

“Drink some water, and I’ll get you a taxi, so go home first. Yes?”

Nevertheless, for Miho’s sake, I thought I should get Seonwoo Yerang out of here as soon as possible.
Did my urging get on her Seonwoo Yerang’s nerves once more?
Or was it that she could not stand her temper because she was drunk?

“He, what is it?”
“…”
“Are you my daughter? Is that blonde, blue-eyed girl your real daughter?”

To that question, I wanted to say.
Just like on the bus today, I have a daughter. She says that she is a daughter who won’t hurt even if she puts it in her eyes her, and that just looking at her gives her her energy.
But, am I really an asshole?
Why can’t I face this issue head-on like a coward when I’m good at tackling other things?

“My daughter, no.”
“… !”

I was worried about Miho’s reaction, but I was sorry, and I was so pathetic that I couldn’t look back.
This was also my biggest mistake.
It was a stupid, cowardly stupid answer. She should have added something before Seonwoo Yeerang opened her mouth, she should have shown at least a little of her sincerity towards her Miho.

“Of course not. There is no resemblance at all.”
“Sister!”
“Did I say something wrong?! I honestly don’t even know how things are going right now. Even if I try to understand why you are raising a girl who is not your real daughter, and who seems like an elementary school student, I can’t understand!”

That’s for receiving a ‘blessing’, but now it’s not just because of that…
But talking about it only made the story more complicated.

“Since it’s none of your sister’s concerns, just go quickly. What kind of nonsense is this? This is not it.”
“You are right! It could just be a crime! Raising a foreign girl who is not your real daughter like this without anyone knowing is enough to give you goosebumps! Aren’t you crazy?”
“…”
“Did you ever imagine how difficult your life would be because of such a mass of nuisance? Report it right away and find your real parents, or send them to an orphanage…”

“Match!”

Committed
No, I screwed up

It wasn’t even a weak hit. It’s just really, I couldn’t stand the anger at the moment and slapped Seonwoo Yerang on the cheek with half of my strength.
Poof, she turns her head to the side and at the same time, looking at Seonwoo Yerang’s cheek her, which is burning red in an instant, I wonder what all this is all about, and I feel dizzy and dizzy.

“You talked too much.”
“…”
“Let’s not say things carelessly without knowing what kind of circumstances Miho is having.”
“… Didn’t I say something wrong?”
“Sister!”
“Do you know how hard it is to raise a child? Do you think you can do it on your own? No, you’re ruining your life. First of all, this situation itself is strange, right!”

All of these were things I had been thinking about.
But even with all those problems, I couldn’t convince myself, and I couldn’t beat the single reason and basis for me to be with Miho.

“I’m Kim Mi-ho, Kim Mi-ho…”
“What?”
“… This child may not be her real daughter her. Still, Miho Kim… They are my family.”

Late.
It’s too late. It should have been like this from the beginning, but why do humans… No, is a bastard like me so pathetic?

“I can’t communicate.”
“I know.”
“… It’s ridiculous.”
“Perhaps everyone does.”
“Why did I come to you at this hour, so pathetically, and say this to you, slapped on the cheek, like this, like this…”

Seonwuyerang quickly wiped away her tears, saying, “Sure,” And left without me having time to hold onto her shoes.
Time is time, and states are states.
There was no desire to follow her, but it was impossible.

“Tongue…”

It was because the little girl, who barely opened her mouth after Seonwoo Yeerang had left, was holding onto the crotch of my pants with her face full of guilt and worry.
Said Miho, who looked as if she had been driven into a precipice by her thumb and forefinger her, which were so small that the two of her fingers would be the size of one of my fingers her together.

“… Miho, are you a nuisance?”
“…”
“Uuuuu, did you just get in the way? Is Injjaeng having a hard time because of Miho? Miho is a bitch… ?”

It was none other than me who made a child who was still loved and deserved to be loved by his parents to say such things.
It wasn’t like he was blaming Seonwoo Yerang.
If I, if I did a little bit better, I could have made a different result. I could have made this child not look like this or say things like this.
Just… I was sick

“Absolutely not. Never.”
“… !”

I hugged Miho tightly.
I couldn’t figure out how best to comfort her in this situation. All I knew was that my parents comforted me like this when I was little too.

“Because of you, I am who I am now, and I am not pathetic… You can become such a wonderful adult. Really, so.”
“Heukgeuk, heheuk!”
“Do not cry…”

Because I feel like I’m going to cry too.

“Haaaaa… ! Miho, Miho Kim… Kim, Miho…”
“That’s right. Miho Kim. You are Miho Kim.”

I patted the back of Miho, who was crying and shaking his shoulders as if he was out of breath. This poor child made me cry so much again.
All because of my lack.

“Hehe, tongue.”
“Why.”
“Go quickly… It’s too late.”
“That person isn’t even a child, it’s okay.”
“Yeah, you never know. So go quickly Miho, wait here quietly.”
“…”

I could n’t help but laugh a little at Miho’s attitude of pushing my back his. I wondered if he had such an adult side.

‘It’s something you don’t know…’

Muttering to myself, I carefully stood up.
It wouldn’t take long if I just chased after him and quickly caught a taxi. Besides, whatever it was, he didn’t even apologize for slapping me so hard.
It wasn’t because he was afraid of Seonwoo Yerang, but he wanted to keep the minimum manners that a human being should observe.

“I’ll be back soon.”
“Yeah, got it!”

Looking at Miho, who is extremely dignified, I quickly put on my shoes and left the front door.
And not long after, I was able to find Seonwoo Yerang crying in a corner of a nearby alley.
Far from catching a taxi, she was sobbing like a child without her shoes on.

“Sister, what are you doing?”

When I asked cautiously, Seonwoo Yerang answered in a snoring voice.

“Remorse, regret… And expect.”
“…”
“Sorry, I was so excited I just said what came out. Adults shouldn’t be like that.”
“What is alcohol? I drank too much. And me too… Cheeks, sorry.”
“No, drinking isn’t an excuse just now. It was just too ugly. One cheek isn’t enough.”
“Sister…”
“No, I can’t. Being jealous of a child like that, I’m afraid I’ll just hit my head on a telephone pole and die. There are things you can say in front of a child, and there are things you shouldn’t say. How many foolish things have I just done?”

We quietly shut up for a while and had time to reflect.

At the same time, I suddenly thought that I and Seonwooye were still very young. I’ve been living my life thinking that I’m over 20 years old, take care of myself, completely get out of the shadow of my parents, and become a full-fledged adult.

I felt that I still had a lot to learn.

“Nuna, if you’re going to blame yourself like that, why don’t you go and apologize to Miho? By buying me a chicken.”
“Are you kidding me?”
“Would you forgive me right away for one chicken?”
“… If that’s forgiven, just open a chicken shop… No, I can even buy a whole small brand.”
“Don’t do that. It’s because you’re spoiled.”

Thinking that Seonwoo Yerang might really be like that, I quickly stopped her.
As the atmosphere brightened, Seonwoo Yerang carefully asked me.

“… My leg her hurts too. It’s not fast enough, it’s hard. Can I just sleep over at your house for today?”
“Hmm, if Miho allows it.”
“You are really serious. Aren’t you completely captured by the child? Somehow, I thought that the person suddenly changed to be soft and warm.”

Seonwoo Yerang said.

“It was like being a ‘dad’.”

At that, I stood tall, stopped, and nodded slightly.

“Yes, and I want to be a better dad.”

Waiting for me to return while talking about which chicken to order in such a warm atmosphere was an empty studio.