Chapter 77 – Chapter 77

Even after the phone call with Seo Mi-hye ended, I couldn’t leave the park right away.

[What are you doing, not going?]
[Still, you got an answer that might be the right answer. In fact, I think it won’t be bad if you go home and do that.]

“…”

“Why don’t you go home and kiss me and tell me I love you?”

Love you…
To be honest, kissing was easy. But should I say that I am too ashamed to tell those children that I love them?

“In the first place, would you really like it?”

I expressed my doubts.
I know that my parents tell me they love me because I have heard it quite a lot. Because Especially, if I don’t know about her dad, my mom said that to me quite often.

“I love you, my son!”

It was worse on days when I was a bit drunk.

“You know how much my mother loves my son, right?”

Each time it bothered me more, though I had never thought of it as good.

[That’s because you’re already quite grown up.]
[It’s not right to compare you back then with a kid like Miho or Noah. What is it that you are so ashamed of?]
[It is rather natural for a father to tell his child that he loves him.]

“I love you…”

I’d rather say it in English, but I’m going to say it in Korean.

“Sah, I love you… All?”

Ugh, it already felt like my tongue was twisting.
Even though I mumble alone in a place where no one is around, my face is all hot. Come to think of it, I’ve never told anyone that I love them.
I’ve heard a lot from my mother…

[Think of giving back to your children what you received from your mother.]

“Sah, love… Ha. Oh, really…”

I stayed like that for a while in the middle of the park, sweeping my face. Was it that difficult? Telling someone you love them
Or am I simply overdoing it?

‘It often appears in dramas.’

A scene where a father or mother always kisses their children when they come home from work or says ‘I love you’.
Come to think of it, it seems that not everyone did it for nothing.
That one word may have instilled confidence and self-esteem in his children without realizing it.

“Miho, Noah… I love you, I love you.”

Say this and give me a kiss?
It’s scary…

[It doesn’t mean you can’t do it, right?]

To be honest, I didn’t think I could.
I took a deep breath and said.

“How can you say no?”

If a father couldn’t do that to his child, that would be so cruel and pathetic. In the first place, if I didn’t make an effort for him myself while hoping that the children would change, that would be a bad thing.
Even the children were not strangers.
Rather than hoping for something and changing, I had to change little by little for them.

“Okay, let’s go.”

After struggling for over 30 minutes, I was finally able to step out of the park. And on the way home, I could have ordered delivery, but I stopped by the chicken shop and deliberately bought some chicken and took my time with the excuse of going back.

「Jeobuck, Jeobuck, Jeobuck!」

‘I love you, I love you guys. I love you my daughters!’

… Change from me

Rather than expecting a lot from the children, it was first for me to change for them.
Seo Mi-hye was right.

What do young children know?
What can you do alone

In the end, it was the parents’ responsibility to raise them well.

“I love you, I love you…”

I murmured one last time and walked to the front of the house. Today, the walk to my house feels closer than usual.
Is it because you wished it was a little farther away?
And it’s the last moment when you stop a few steps away from the front door to make up your mind.

“Noah, hurry up!”
“Yes, uh, sister… !”

I thought I could hear Miho calling Noah, but then the front door opened with a rattle, and two children jumped out to me and hugged me.

“Kyaaaaang! After all, tongue-in-cheek!”
“Oh, Dad… Uh, welcome. Oh no. Everyone, you’re back!”
“How did you know?”

Like before, it must be that Miho has really good ears.

“The only person who walks so unscathed at this hour is Tongunu.”

Where else did you learn the word magari?
That bastard’s nutube is the problem…

“Uh, sister.”
“Yes?”
“Oh, my sister said that dad might come. Go, I was waiting for you at the front door. That’s why I was able to hear it.”
“…”

I glanced at Miho and Noah.

“I was watching You Tube, so it didn’t matter. Rather, is that chicken, or chicken? Wow! It’s fried!”
“Oh, Dad. Noah will prepare a meal for you in no time. And, you worked hard.”

They were small children, no more than about my waist.
But, isn’t it funny?

Those children look more mature and taller than me.

‘Anyway, I guess I’m really lacking.’

I opened my mouth.

“Miho, Noah.”
“Yes?”
“Love.”

Then, without missing this moment, he lifted the two children into his arms and plucked up the courage to kiss their soft, small cheeks.

“Side!”

It was the first time.
Come to think of it, it was the first time.

Although Noah had given me surprise kisses, this was the first time I had approached and kissed these children first.

“Uh…?”
“Oh, Dad…”

At that moment, unbelievably, Miho dropped the chicken bag he was holding onto the floor.
Noah’s wide-open pupils were constantly trembling.

Then, water begins to form in the eyes of the two little by little.
The moment I saw it, I had no choice but to realize my lack.

I thought I did my best.
Still, he said he did everything he could do as a father… I thought so. However, if you look closely, your cell phone, clothes, and food.
All of them were filled with something tangible.
Families can’t be bought with money.

Unknowingly, even my family was trying to solve it with ‘money’.

“Tongue, tongue who? Why?
“Aaaaagh! Whoa, Dad. Dad… !”

Unlike Miho, who somehow tried to hold back her tears, Noah couldn’t hold back right away and hugged me tightly.
I was a little surprised because I couldn’t imagine that it was the power of a child, but that was short-lived.

“I love you, my daughters.”

The first is hard, the second is easy.
No, it’s not a pretense, it’s a word that comes from the heart. I was able to say ‘I love you’ to them in a much more natural and warm voice than before.

“Aaaaa… !”
“Huh, Dad!”

I thought as I patted the backs of the children who were trying to cling to me a little more.
I think children can cry like this.
You don’t just cry when you’re sick or sad… I’m happy, but I realized that I could burst into tears because I didn’t know how to react.

‘Sorry.’

I couldn’t help but say I was sorry.
Because I didn’t want to break this impression.
I regretted that I had never given these kids a single word or a kiss because it was so difficult.

‘It was me who had to change.’

It wasn’t just for children.
I had to change first so that the children who were growing up looking at me could also change.

‘Even on the playground…’

Miho and Noah are scared.
It frightened even me, so I made it so they couldn’t even try.

“It’s okay because Daddy is by your side.”
“Next time, shall we join in and play?”

… I could have said something like that.

I was just playing with the kids at the same level as if I was joking around.
I was no longer a child, but as the father of these children, I had to become an adult.

「Kikiiik!」

At that time, I heard the sound of the front door or window opening from above, below, and from the side, so I quickly patted the children and said,

“Sorry. Is it too noisy these days?”

In response, the person who appeared to be a female college student did not show her face her, only her voice her.

“… It’s okay, what about that much. It’s nice to see people watching. However, please do it in moderation in the morning. Children grow well when they go to bed early.”
“Yes, I will. Let’s go in, boys.”
“Yeah, whimper…”

I still hold the children who are still sobbing in my arms, and the chicken envelope that has fallen on the floor is neat, so I put it on my little finger and go into ‘our’ house.
It’s a cramped house for three adults, no matter how you think about it, but it was still a pretty good space for a father and two daughters.

“Let’s go, wash your face first and eat chicken. Look at their swollen faces, like these crybabies.”
“Yes!”
“Yes, Dad!”

I just kissed her while saying I love her, but the effect was greater than I thought.
Already, the children’s faces were more lively than usual, and it seemed that their voices were also confident.

‘The more parents show confident or positive sides, and the more they show affection to their children… That alone can make it better…’

Washing their faces together with the swollen-eyed children, opening the small desk and eating chicken.
Miho, who was excitedly eating the chicken I plucked, said.

“It’s been a while since I heard.”
“Yes?”
“That word… In the past, Miho, I heard it over a thousand times a day…”
“…”

“Didn’t the first one make you cute?”
“Usually, children’s personality and emotional development are determined by their parents’ physical contact, love, and various actions during infancy. Parents make children.”

Noah also shouted that he would lose.

“No, Noah… Noah, I’ve never heard of that word.”

I felt like I knew how the two children grew up.
Miho would have grown up receiving all kinds of cuteness from her parents her, who were also elves, and Noah would have grown up receiving only bullying from strangers, let alone love from her parents her since she was very young.

‘I originally had no intention of blaming it, but it’s absolutely impossible if I do this.’

Even though I looked at him with a pitiful look, Noah replied with a grin.

“Yeah, so I was very happy. To the point of bursting into tears… Because, ah, isn’t Noah just a hindrance to Dad? No, I wonder if you don’t like Noah… Black, ugh So, whenever you throw it away, buy it so that it will be okay, even a bunch of photos…”

It was an unexpected confession.

I just…

It’s just that Noah likes to take pictures… Because the only people to take pictures of were me and Miho.
I thought I took a lot of pictures of myself because I liked my dad more.
However, I never dreamed that I would be thinking like that.

‘You stupid bastard, Miho did that too.’

Upon hearing what Seonwoo Yeerang said out of anger, she interpreted the words more seriously than anyone else and ran away.

Children are different from adults.
Their world is small and narrow, but their thoughts were not short. Rather, the world is too narrow, so they work harder than anyone else to find their own answer by rolling their small and small heads.
Because I didn’t give you the right answer.

“Forward.”
“…”
“From now on, I will do it every day, telling you I love you. So, Noah. Shall we cut down on our picture taking?”

At my question, Noah put down the chicken he was eating and rubbed her face while hugging her chest.

“I will, Dad. But, Noah… Now I just love taking pictures of my dad. And, Dad.”
“Yes?”

Suddenly, Noah lifted her head and suddenly pressed her face on her, then she put her lips on my cheek.

“Noah likes kisses the most.”

Side-.