Chapter 139 – Homophobia (7)

Homophobia (7)

It was dizzy.

Lee Hye-ji was so dizzy that she could only feel that one thought.

The current situation itself, where I can’t think of a way to deal with it–

Tok-! Tok-! Tok-! Tok-!

The tapping of someone constantly ringing the goal.

‘I’ll give you one last chance- I’ll give you one last chance- I’ll give you one last chance-‘

And until that someone’s last warning.

All of this became a loud siren, echoing in Lee Hye-ji’s head.

“Look at this— even at a moment like this, are you the only one who feels sorry for yourself and is the only one who feels unfair? What a disgusting, disgusting bitch.”

Even in these moments, there are toxic clear things.

“Why are you cosplaying as a victim in front of us, the real victims? Who made you gamble with your life like this in the first place?”

Kim Hyo-jin looks down on herself with contempt and contempt.

“Yeah, keep on procrastinating and pretending to be unfair. No. Why don’t you just run to the president and tell him everything that happened here?”

And her campers huddled behind her.

All of them were angry.

“Boil the president one more time with that disgusting pity. Will it be a bit difficult this time though? We will do anything to live. No, should I tell you that I won’t do anything at this time?”

I was also delighted.

Conflicting emotions of anger and joy were burning together in their eyes.

“I heard that three people can make a tiger that didn’t exist, but at least one idiot-“

They were angry about something, and they were happy now that they could get rid of that anger.

In this place, only Lee Hye-man did not have the same eyes.

“What are you doing? Hurry up and run to the president and tell him everything?”

Lee Hye-ji’s precarious eyes scanned the place she had hoped for.

Jeong Da-jung and Park Seul-ah.

Now, her last ties to her past remain to her.

A thread of salvation that reminds me of peaceful and happy days that I can’t even dare to imagine now.

They look away in surprise as if they were electrocuted.

However- that was enough.

The smile of that brief moment, the eyes no different from Kim Hyo-jin’s, were very clearly stuffed into Lee Hye-ji’s pupils.

“… Ah-.”

Only then did she realize.

The reason why meeting with friends again was more awkward than I thought.

Why is Kim Hyo-jin so hostile towards her?

In the first place, she was not in their ‘us’.

There was no Lee Hye-ji in ‘we’ who continue to gamble desperately to live.

Why?

Because he wasn’t there

Because they didn’t go through the hell they went through together.

In the words of Jeong Da-jeong―In the words of Kim Hyo-jin―

Because he was ‘luckily’ quarantined at that moment.

“… Ah-.”

Only then did she realize.

I realized how painful it was to be mortified.

They were angry

To this unknown disaster that plunged them headlong into hell…

In this garbage-like reality that is rolled here and there like a plaything—

Unable to grasp even a single thing that was taken for granted in the past—

No, I was angry at all these moments that made me give up that I would never be able to hold it anymore.

So they will be happy now.

No matter what happens, Lee Hye-ji, who has nothing to do with it, must be happy to fall into a hell worse than themselves.

No matter how much you lick each other, you will be enjoying the pleasure of the lump that has not disappeared.

He will gain the power to live one more day by comforting Lee Hye-ji, who will soon face the worst ending.

“…”

Lee Hye-ji was so disgusted by the facts that she closed her eyes.

However – it was useless.

The scenery in front of her, already stuffed in her eyes, was so clear.

All the camp members, including Kim Hyo-jin, would still be looking at him with the same eyes.

Only one person.

Lee Hye-ji, if only one person was sacrificed, he would be forcing a future where everyone would be happy.

There was not a single ounce of regret or guilt.

Because there was no Lee Hye-ji in their ‘us’ in the first place.

“… Under-“

He opened his closed eyes and let out a dry laugh.

He raised his head with a hollow laugh in a cracked and cracked voice.

At this moment, Lee Hye-ji had to do one thing.

The actions to be taken to complete the tasks given by the president were determined from the beginning.

She shouldn’t have succumbed to the madness of this moment.

I had to calmly refute Kim Hyo-jin’s one-sided argument and ventilate her atmosphere.

I had to complete the reinvestigation ordered by the president while calming the girls who were rushing into the worst situation.

To live, not to get sick.

I had to somehow convince him that everything Kim Hyo-jin had argued so far was sophistry.

“This fucking bitch.”
“… What?”

However, the words that came out of her mouth were much shorter than expected.

Kim Hyo-jin asks with a dumbfounded expression as if she doubts what she has heard.

Facing that expression, Lee Hye-ji felt a strange sense of liberation.

Barely, very barely, it was as if the dam had exploded in an instant.

“Do you know that you are really fucking stupid?”
“… What?”

Her face was spectacle that she could never have imagined that the punching bag she had been quietly beaten up to would do this.

“What the hell do you know?”

Kim Hyo-jin and the girls were overlooking it.

That everyone in this world is angry in the face of a sudden disaster.

That there are so many people who want to solve the unsolvable eung-Eoli.

Now, it was clearly divided into those who could take that anger out on others and those who couldn’t, but that didn’t really matter.

Whether you took that anger out on someone else or not—

It’s because they still live with the person who won’t be easily solved.

Lee Hye-ji was also a person who held back her anger just like them.

She was and she was also the one she didn’t have to put up with anymore.

“What on earth do you know, you bitch, who only eats rice here like a pig and a dog?”
“… Finally show your true colors-“
“Shut up!”

Lee Hye-ji interrupted Kim Hyo-jin and shouted at her.

The gnats and rough breaths that vomit all remaining breath.

Eyes shining red like blood.

“… As much as I was shutting up, I want you to shut up and listen to me! All right?!”

Kim Hyo-jin’s face gradually hardened at her completely unexpected and bloody attitude.

Her finger, which had been pointing at her hardened face just before, pointed at her face once again.

“Not a single thing you’ve ever said is certain! They are all reasonable assumptions! You are standing in front of me with those assumptions!”
“…”
“What do you know! What the hell do you know-!”

They don’t know anything

“What is the situation outside-! What kind of hell has it become!”

You won’t even remember.

Because the only person who could recall that hell in this place was Lee Hye-ji.

“No one knows— you bitches—!”

Hell, hell, hell.

It was the hell they lived in her mouth, but she was the only one who knew the real hell here.

“Sister.”
“…”
“Kim Hyo-jin’s older sister.”
“…”
“This fucking Kim Hyojin unnie!”

One person’s angry shouts weighed heavily on the atmosphere.

Now, beyond congestion, her eyes are stained red with blood.

The eyes of Kim Hyo-jin, who were facing those eyes, trembled.

“What on earth do you believe in me?”
“…”
“Ah~ Are you Rinnea unnie?”
“…”
“Are you trusting Rinnea and acting out?”

Like decalcomani—

Now, a cold mocking smile lingers on Lee Hye-ji’s lips.

“Again, do you know how fucking stupid you are?”

It was such a world.

“It’s a world where our bodies explode like slugs even if that tantara who only danced gives a little bit of strength.”

An era in which a person’s memory can be erased just by touching their head, and another person can save that memory.

In a world where zombies are already tough enough—

A world where people with special powers who wear scars are roaming around.

“In a world like this, what are you so sure about and what are you willing to gamble on?”

There was no human like them in this world.

No, as an existence that can hardly be called a human anymore, it is just sticking close to a person with special abilities.

“How I gave my body to the President-“

Thud-

One step narrowing the remaining distance.

“How can you be sure that you are the President’s family or an acquaintance and risk your life like this?”

Gamble of life.

Those words that flowed out of Kim Hyo-jin’s mouth.

Lee Hye-ji smiled even thicker at a distance where they were close enough to touch each other’s breath.

Lie.

“If you really value your life, you can’t gamble like this. If it was a real gamble with my life, I would never do something so lame.”
“…”
“Don’t lie, sister. Unnie just doesn’t like the situation right now.”

I don’t like having my second person’s seat taken away by a stone that suddenly rolled in.

“It’s because I don’t want to bow my head to a young bitch, you fucking bitch.”
“…”

Hyojin Kim was working hard.

In order to reverse the atmosphere that is gradually deteriorating into a bad situation–

She was trying to somehow open her mouth and say anything.

But she said nothing came out of her mouth.

Her lips, which trembled incessantly, were unable to utter any words.

“Look forward to it, sister.”

Hyeji Lee smiled as she faced the stutter.

She smiled even more brightly as she felt the tingle of pleasure in her stomach.

“Soon I will make you feel the price of a failed gamble.”

Reward and punishment.

It was something Lee Hye-ji learned the most deeply from the president.

Clear punishment and unclear punishment.

Among them, the fact that an unclear punishment makes people more afraid-

Lee Hye-ji knew her well enough to be desperate.

Thud- thud-

So, that was enough for her.

Lee Hye-ji passed Kim Hyo-jin and stood in front of her campmates.

“Then I will begin the reinvestigation.”
“…”
“Just like yesterday, get up one by one and tell us what supplies you need.”
“…”
“At this point, you can see why the investigation is being done again, right? We will investigate only necessary items as reasonably as possible.”
“…”

After Lee Hye-ji’s words, no camp members stood up.

Of course it had to be.

The reinvestigation will take place in a completely different atmosphere from yesterday.

Because no one wants to be beaten first for that reinvestigation.

Everyone avoided Lee Hye-ji’s eyes and put her head on the floor.

She was desperate to avoid this moment, like an elk that just slammed her head into the ground to avoid the hunter.

“…”

A chilling stillness that lasts forever.

Lee Hye-ji broke the chilly silence and called her name.

“Jeong Da-jeong.”

One camper was startled by the name and raised her head.

“Wake up, Jeong Da-jung.”

Even as he slowly raises his body, his eyes can’t believe this moment.

Eyes full of resentment, as if you didn’t know you would, as if suddenly asking why.

“Tell me first.”

Lee Hye-ji’s body trembled at the completely different eyes.

Kwak-

He squeezed the ballpoint pen in her hand and bit her lip.

“Apart from the floating demands of yesterday, tell me the minimum necessary supplies properly.”

It’s your fault that things turned out this way in the first place.

You guys made me like this

“Or I’ll write it down on my own.”