Chapter 129 – Guilt (1)

Returning to the dormitory after training with my temporary master, Jang Tae-sik, I briefly washed my body and reviewed my first sparring with him.

‘My speed, strength, and stamina were far superior to me.’

But the attack didn’t reach and I was much more tired.
The reason could easily be guessed.

‘Compared to Master, my movements are too big.’

He always dodged my attacks with minimal movement.
The fists and feet that always reached him just barely passed by.

That much would have made it easier for him to read my movements, and I must have been even more exhausted.

‘But there’s no way I can avoid all of my attacks with just that.’

No matter how good his torso vision is, he lacks the agility to avoid my attacks.
That means obviously predicting the fact that I’m going to attack before I even do it.

Immediately I remembered the second couple.

‘This… Isn’t very helpful.’

In fact, I was beaten all day, but there was no noticeable result.
I just remembered his posture and movements.

‘The preliminary motion is a little shorter. And I can’t find any useless movement.’

His fists were sharp and quick.
To the point where I doubt whether he really practiced sparring with the same stats as me.

Unlike me, the way he used power was different, and even if he pulled his arm a little and threw it out, more power was exerted.

‘I think it’s his posture…’

I needed to train a little more about martial arts.

The last couplets where I had observed the movement of the eyes for the last time.
This was a bit more successful.
To some extent, my prediction was correct, but his eyes were not looking at my fists and legs, but elsewhere.

As he ordered, I finished the restoration of Dalian.
I haven’t had much success yet, but one thing is certain.

‘Senses are important.’

A more primal instinct, if not the senses.
Could that be the clue to the enlightenment that Master talked about?

“It is difficult.”

It certainly wasn’t easy to achieve enlightenment.
But in order not to be impatient, I erased the idea of ​​enlightenment from my mind.

There was still plenty of time, and I had an unpromising hunch that one day it would come suddenly.

Did the mental strength stat have an effect?
By the time I finished the review, it was already 12 o’clock.

I am in a relationship with a total of 4 people and I have set one rule for a smooth relationship.
It is taking turns one day at a time and spending the night with me.

To be honest, rather than setting up a separate rule, the fact that I went on dates with me one day at a time during the ranking match has just continued.

And she said that according to Laysha, who has 3 wives, her father, and what I have looked for separately, it is often this way, whether polygamous or monogamous.

Anyway I liked this time.
What kind of man doesn’t like spending time with the woman he loves?

But now my heart was uncomfortable.
Since I had sex with Yuri in a dream a week ago, I have been treating them as usual and avoiding spending the night with them on the pretext of being busy.

‘It’s too wide…’

The bed, which was always full when two people lay down, seemed particularly narrow these days.

‘I have to tell you.’

I thought I should be honest and ask for forgiveness.
Even if you can’t ask for forgiveness, you can’t help it even if you are resentful.

But I didn’t have the courage.

-Don’t settle for the present, focus on the future…

I remembered a story my master had told me.
Looking back, it seemed that it was not just training.

‘Tomorrow must be…’

It’s already too late.
I closed my eyes for the next day.

∴

The night Siwoo closed his eyes promising the next day.
Four women gathered in a narrow dorm room with serious expressions on their faces.

“Something seems strange.”

Ayeong looked around at the women gathered in the room and said.
If Ah-yeong and the girls have one thing in common, is it that she has the same boyfriend?

“I think so too.”

Seo-in, who was sitting uncomfortably among the four, opened his mouth.
Laysha and Chloe nodded as if they were of the same opinion.

Their expressions were infinitely serious.

“Has anyone had sex with Siu recently?”

Ayoung looked around at them and said.
It’s already been over 10 days since she spent the night with him.

She thought that maybe she was just getting tired of herself and not spending the night with her, and maybe she was spending the night with another woman.

However, Ah-young believed in Si-woo.
She would have been sure that if his attitude towards her had changed, she would have grown tired of her, but she could feel that she cared for and loved her in every single action of his.

“Doesn’t exist.”

“Does not exist.

“… No.”

They, too, were feeling the same kind of insecurity as Ah-yeong.
However, she seemed relieved, perhaps because she found out that other women were in the same situation as herself.

“I got another girl… No, not this one.”

She thought about the number of other cases for a moment, then Ayeong shook her head and said.

“Has something happened to Siwoo? Has anyone heard anything?”

As her insecurities faded, Ah-young, whose worries about Si-woo grew even more, said as she looked around at her lovers.
But, unable to hear anything from Siwoo, they shook their heads.

“Have you ever had a problem with your sexual function…?”

Laysha, who was the only one of them to have had sex with Siu only once or twice, except for her first experience, asked them.
Her father, Kayden Leopold, had no further children due to her impotence after giving birth to her.

She thought it was a reasonable reasoning for her part, but the reaction of her other women was subtle, with awkward smiles.

“Didn’t Siwoo hug us every night? I thought it was possible.”

At Laysha’s words, each of them recalled different memories.

Ah-young and Seo-in recalled his unsatisfied appearance even though they had sex until they passed out, and the bed soaked in semen.
Chloe recalled that when he was trapped in the glass world, he spent all his time having sex except for breaks, sleeping, and eating.

I remembered his cock, which had not been able to get out of my erection no matter how much I ejaculated.

Erectile Dysfunction?

No matter how old he was, he thought he would never get that disease.

‘Ah…’

Chloe, who hadn’t had sex with Siu recently, felt that her vagina was getting a little wet.
She glanced at Ah-young and Seo-in and looked at the other women with a surprised expression, as if they were the same.

A moment of silence passed.
The women were immersed in their own thoughts and thinking about a solution to this situation, but no one opened their mouths as if they had not gotten a specific answer.

“Let’s quietly make Siwoo speak for himself.”

“Why don’t you ask me directly?”

Siwoo always tried to be honest with Ayeong about anything.
Also, even though all of them noticed that Siu was strange, they were waiting for him to speak directly.
Ah-yeong knew that too, and it was the first time that he was hiding something from himself.

The other women also nodded in agreement with Ayeong.
She believed that if he had experienced Laysha’s coexistence in her room, she would know how dangerous a lack of communication could be and she would be honest about it.

“No, it’s completely different between Siwoo saying it himself and asking us to answer.”

Seoin said.
Clearly, as her life’s senior, her words contained confidence.

“We have to trust and rely on us to talk about our worries. Will it help if we force them to answer? I don’t think so.”

“Then what should I do?”

At Chloe’s question, her eyes focused on Seo-in.

“Just do it as usual. Just trusting us a little more and being able to speak honestly. The most important thing is not to show off.”

“… All right.”

After hearing her words, Ah-young nodded her head after thinking for a while.

“Then let’s break up here for now.”

Each of them began to think about how to make Siwoo open his mouth in his own way.
He had no way of knowing that he had already made up his mind to atone for them.

∴

The day was bright.

Over the past days, emotions that had been somewhat dulled by focusing on midterms and training came flooding back.
No, did the feelings just grow bigger as time went on?
Anyway, it was so lonely to greet the morning alone on the bed.

“Ha…”

How pathetic and indecisive he was even though he promised to become a man suitable for them.

Mate.

The sound of flesh colliding echoed in the quiet dorm room.

‘Let’s wake up right now.’

I got out of bed and went to the bathroom to wash myself.

After taking a shower, she put on her academy uniform and opened the door.
There was Ayoung in front of the door.

“Good morning? Did you sleep well, Siwoo?”

A-Young took one of my arms and looked up at me and said with a beautiful smile.
Seeing her bright smile, I seriously thought about what to say right away, but now it’s time to go to school.

I have to go to school, but do I really need to make her feel down right now?

“Yeah, did you sleep well?”

“Thanks to Siwoo, I always sleep well.”

Ah-yeong put one cheek on my arm and said.

Maybe he’s already noticed that I’m hiding something, and he’s trying to make me feel comfortable talking.
Today, her aegyo is more than before.

Side.

She lifted her tiptoe and kissed her lightly on my cheek before opening her mouth.

“Let’s go to school together.”

“Okay.”

Right away, Ayoung and I went to school, and Chloe was standing in front of the first-year student building.

“Welcome. Siwoo.”

Chloe looked at me and bowed slightly.
She was expressionless as usual, but she could sense that her eyes were watching my expression.

“Good morning. Were you waiting for me?”

I spoke fluently as usual.
If she had been her usual self, she would have confidently said yes or denied, but today was quite different from usual.

Stepping proudly next to me, she blushed slightly and grabbed my hand.

“Huh…?”

I couldn’t help but be surprised by Chloe’s behavior.
She is usually the one who didn’t even hold hands well in front of other students.
Even before her last ranking, she just held her hand so the other students couldn’t see it.

But now it’s on the way to school.
If it was her usual, I wouldn’t have done any act of love holding her hand.

“… Let’s go.”

Chloe said as she slowly turned her head toward me, then swung in the other direction, as if she couldn’t bear to look at my face.

“Huh.”

With Ah-Young crossing her arms on one side and Chloe holding her hand on the other, I headed towards the classroom.

Could it be some kind of lover course?
Ayoung was waiting for me in front of the door, Chloe was waiting for me in front of the building, and Laysha was waiting for me in the classroom.

“Welcome. Siwoo.”

Looking around, it seemed that the students in my class hadn’t gone to school yet.
And as if I had waited, Ayoung and Chloe fell away from me.

“Yeah, did you go to school early?”

“Yes. I have to live faithfully. This is the chocolate we prepared for Siwoo, can you try it?”

Lay Sha approached me as I sat down and handed me a pink paper bag, she said.

“… Of course.”

A sudden gift of chocolate.
A little embarrassed, but I replied by accepting the paper bag she handed me.
Inside the paper bag was a small box of chocolates wrapped in pink, light blue, and gold wrapping paper.

After carefully unwrapping the wrapping paper so as not to tear it, I tasted the chocolates inside one by one.

The pink chocolate was slightly sweet, the light blue chocolate was slightly bitter, and the golden chocolate was luxurious.

“What do you like best?”

“Hmm… Everything looks delicious.”

I couldn’t decide exactly because they tasted different, but I was told that they were full of affection and sincerity.

After that, other students went to school and class started as usual.
Whenever it was break time, they would gather with me and talk about various things.

I felt that he was considerate of me, but I also felt that he was not showing off as usual.

And lunchtime came.

“Are you going to see your sister right away?”

Among the girls who gathered to have lunch together, Ayoung asked me.

“Hey kids, I have something I want to say. Can you come with me?”

Now I just couldn’t stand it.
It seemed that if I didn’t tell them everything quickly, even for a second, I would become irreparable trash.

As if they thought that something had come, they nodded their heads nervously and replied.