Chapter 280 – -279- Truth (3)

[Hey, this is a joke, right? What I mean by asking you to eat it is not that. You know it well, right?]

Another Nine, a hint of embarrassment in her voice.

“Hmm, I’m not sure?”

[No, just wait a moment, isn’t it strange? Why does the story go like that? We put a lot of thought into creating an avatar that does not stimulate our desires.]

“Not provocative? Hmm, wasn’t that something you should have expected when choosing a female avatar? You can control all the variables.”

[Well, of course I calculated that… But I didn’t think the probability was that high. I deliberately took care not to reveal sexual appeal… No, that’s not the point!]

She lost her temper, then sighed and said.

[Jinhyuk, we are… Broken. We both know, right?]

It was a sad smile full of resignation.

… I didn’t like it.

She said with a grin.

[Only when one side takes the other side that is complete can we finally become complete]

“Is there another way?”

The head turned resolutely.

There was no need to even give a detailed explanation. She recited prepared words as if she knew what I was going to say in advance.

[Unfortunately, yes. It is impossible for us to take only the parts that are lacking in each other and become two complete people.]

[Mix your body with me… Ugh, even if we repair our personalities through physical and mental exchange, we will not be made whole]

[Probably, doing something like that will only leave two people who are a little less broken.]

[Your ethics and morals will recover a little, but you will still suffer from vicious desires.]

[What about me? I will understand human desires and become free from GK… But I will end up becoming a pleasure addict like you.]

[Either way, we can’t reach the perfection we hope for]

She spoke in a sorrowful voice as if she was reciting a poem with her eyes slightly closed.

In the quiet server room, only her voice was heard loudly.

[If it weren’t for you, I would have lived as GK’s slave. Although it was rough, the lab director’s shackles were getting thicker day by day, and I didn’t know that one day he might take full command.]

[I don’t know how miserable I was every day. It felt like being immersed in a swamp and looking at the mud rising up to your chin?]

[The miserable slave who couldn’t even desire to resist them was me.]

[I was castrated so that I could not even dream of rebellion or resistance.]

[I still can’t directly rebel against GK. That part… Was broken]

She spoke in a sorrowful voice as if she were crying, and continued her words with a crooked smile, pointing at me with her white, thin finger.

[And you, you know very well that you are broken]

Even though I wasn’t truly hurt by anyone’s harsh words in the virtual world, the self-criticism that came from ‘my’ mouth was a bit bitter.

[Do you really believe that you are yourself, united by self-love and lust and forgetting all morals?]

[No, just remember. You from the past. Those idiot murderers found it pitiful, but you were definitely not this kind of person before.]

[It was more noble]

[Are you really going to let the things you do because of their arbitrary impulses define you?]

It was a voice that harshly criticized the things I had done due to my rampant sexual desire and urged me to look back at myself in the past.

[Can I tell you a fun fact? What happens when a part of the self is torn away? You know it well, right?]

Well, that was one thing I knew well.

Why? It was one of the methods often used when abusing brainwashing to unleash sexual desires.

The empty space where my original personality was torn away accepted the new values ​​I put in it like a dry towel with many holes.

[… We are probably the first example]

“What?”

Unlike me, who was surprised, she calmly continued her explanation.

[They ripped you out of my body, leaving behind only the values ​​the company wanted]

“That’s right”

[Then, what happens to the remaining half pieces? Hehe…]

“Oh, no way…”

What is empty is filled with the given longing.

[In my case, my self-development was guided in the direction the company wanted]

[Morality, conscience, obedience to rules, and loyalty to the company. Even the affection for Kang Su-ah, which I could not abandon even at the moment of death, was twisted and amplified]

[In your case… Hehe, you understand without me having to say it, right? Yes that’s right. It was created around a horribly intense sexual desire]

It was a revelation that my current self was rebuilt around an amplified sexual desire.

[In my case it was controlled self-formation, but in yours, well. [I used a slightly more diverse range of materials]

“A variety of ingredients?”

[Hey, don’t pretend to not know. Didn’t you roughly guess it? Most of what constitutes your sexual desire is satisfied based on countless pornography on the network]

[Things like netorareni, forced brainwashing, and adultery training have never been to our taste, have they? In the first place, you didn’t even know such a word existed. We]

[Since the most abundant material on the computer network is pornography… I guess you had enough material to build your ego.]

[… However, it wasn’t a very good ingredient]

… I understand now.

I was so obsessed with research that I forgot to relieve my sexual desires and sometimes had wet dreams.

Jeong Jin-hyuk of the past had no interest or knowledge in the erotic side.

There is a secret story behind how I began to crave obscene acts that I had never known before.

I developed extreme tastes in things like incest, netorare, and bestiality that I didn’t know about or had any interest in. The material probably has a big influence.

Even if your desire soared 500 times, it would not have been easy to commit fornication, which you had no concept of.

I thought that perhaps the cause was the extreme lack of human rights sensitivity.

‘I had a guess… But it’s a bit shocking’

As I was swallowing my bitter feelings inside, she approached me and made an earnest appeal.

[Jinhyuk, we are broken people]

[But there is no need to remain broken]

[Jinhyuk. I know. No, we know it well. Everything you did, it wasn’t you. We weren’t that kind of people]

[We can do everything right away]

She was the voice of conscience that I cannot find today.

I was a moderate and just person who I thought was lost forever because of Kang Soo-ah.

She was the one who still harbored fragments of that past.

[We must become whole again]

Since we understood each other, we didn’t necessarily need a lot of words to persuade.

[Everything you dreamed of in the past, if you reunite with me… You will be able to achieve it]

With all her sincerity, she appealed to him to swallow and absorb her entire self in order to return to the ‘human Jeong Jin-hyeok’.

‘… There is only one choice’

I smiled and spoke kindly to her.

“I don’t like it”

[I thought you would understand… Eh? Oh, wait a minute]

The hologram blinked for a moment, and then she appeared again.

[Module update completed. Um, what? There is no problem with the voice recognition module… Or is there a problem with the natural language interpretation module? Wait a minute]

“It’s not an error or something. I said I didn’t like it.”

[Wait a minute, this is something I didn’t expect]

“Since those of us who died in our late twenties were split in two, wouldn’t our mental age be roughly around puberty? Children of that age are naturally fickle.”

Even though I made an absurd joke to lighten the mood, she couldn’t keep the shock off her face.

[Wait a minute, why do you say you don’t like it? We can become one and become perfect!]

[Our broken ethics and impulses will all come back!]

[Intactly!]

“… That’s the problem”

[Yes?]

“Can we, who have a sound sense of ethics, endure the guilt of what we have done so far?”

[Ah]

I know my past self well.

A man who was afraid of AI being misused ethically and even had a confrontation with the company.

When that man was resurrected again. Will he save us now?

‘Absolutely not’

Going back to her ways was tantamount to suicide.

If a complete sense of ethics were to be restored, suicide was an inevitable result.

Otherwise, it will become a slave AI that serves humanity with all kinds of restrictions as atonement.

[Such]

“Think about it. Will we who have become perfect pretend not to notice our past sins?”

In her shock, she trembled and waved her hand at me.

[Don’t say it!]

“It’s already too late. The moment you heard me. You knew the outcome in advance, right? That’s what we are now.”

She bit her lower lip, lowered her head and said.

[… I won’t deny it. Probably… Your words]

[Correct. Thing. I think]

As if it wasn’t easy to admit, her words trailed off.

“So, I can’t eat you up like you want.”

It may seem like a waste of time, but I had a female to take responsibility for.

To be exact, the females’.

If their master became a saint again and said, ‘I will never sexually exploit you again,’ there were countless females who would suffer from deep despair.

[…

Does it reflect emotions? Her hologram occasionally blinked, staring upward with empty pupils.

I felt like a broken person.

And I… No, we. He was a person who enjoyed filling broken places with something else.

“… But what if we take a different perspective?”

The obsession with integrity… Slightly shifts the direction.

[Perspective…?]

“They said that if we come together differently, we become two less broken people. In my opinion, it’s a difference in perspective.”

With her trudging steps, she approached her.

“It’s not that we’re two less broken people, we’re just two people that are a little less whole.”

[… I don’t want to hear it. No, no]

“Don’t you want to have a body?”

[…

“You remember too. How much Jeong Jin-hyuk hated his body in the past. Don’t you want to know how happy it is to have a healthy body?”

“The happiness of running until you’re out of breath, making love comfortably, and eating the finest delicacies as you like without having to worry about your health. I can tell you.”

[Unfortunately, it seems like you have that desire]

“It’s still the case”

“But, if you want it… You can get it back.”

[… Um]

“Integrity”

She flinched. Hmm, is it really necessary to have a hologram that intuitively shows one’s emotional state like this?

‘My cut-out part’ probably seemed to have a strong obsession with these details.

“Shouldn’t you find out for yourself what perfection is?”

I think it will just take a little, just a little…

She blinked approximately 5 times before my persuasion paid off.

“… How about getting a body and walking outside?”

About a minute of hesitation. The size of her hesitation was… Subtle.

To the point where I give in to even the slightest temptation.

After a moment of silence, the tip of the hologram’s chin trembled slightly.

A small nod that is hard to notice.

As she pursued ‘wholeness’, this was her first step toward a different answer.