Chapter 139 – Confession

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‘Why am I so dizzy…?’

Returning home, not the lab, the doctor grabbed his head.
Dizziness that came on suddenly.
The cause must be the consumption of mental energy in the plane.
Home for a long time. Taking a glass of water from the refrigerator and gulping it down, the doctor sat down on the sofa for a while and tried to stabilize his psychological state.

The doctor, who had been pressing the head next to him for a while, picked up his phone and looked at the picture his grandfather had taken in the art museum.
Ji-hyeok smiles brightly as he stands with his hands together, and Ji-hyeok smiles so much that a clown jumps out while covering his shoulders.
The way he draws a lot of arc lines in his mouth and looks at himself is so charming.

The consumption of mental strength was caused by this photo.
I was nervous that Jihyeok would ask me to send the picture.
Fortunately, Jihyeok seemed to have forgotten this and didn’t say anything.

“Ha…”

The doctor sighed deeply and unknowingly stroked Jihyeok’s face in the picture with his thumb.
Seeing that happy smile brought back memories of old times with Edward.
At the same time, Ed became resentful.
If I hadn’t died so early… I would have been living happily by now.

We met 15 years ago, got married 2 years later, and loved passionately for 3 years.
I really liked his geeky, genius-like appearance, his personality that stood out compared to his calm and cool self, and even comforting him that it was okay even though it was difficult to have a child because of infertility.
It was just that every little thing Ed did was lovely.

And that was still the case today.
Everything that happened with him was clearly placed in his memory.
There’s not a single thing I don’t remember.
So it was very difficult. I’ve been thinking about him lately.

She got up from her seat and went into her room, sat down on her bed, and held up a small picture frame on her nightstand.
He himself in a beautiful wedding dress.
And Edward Parsons in his youth with impressive short brown hair, smiling mischievously while carrying himself on his back.

“… Black!”

Seeing the picture of the happy couple, the doctor shed tears from the sudden sadness.
Tears like children at this age… It was like a book, but I wanted to cry today.
After sobbing silently for a long time, she said, Ugh! She wiped both her eyes with her palms and picked up her cell phone at the sound of her vibration.

[Did you get in? I have arrived now. There is no one at home.]

There was a text message from Jihyeok.
Why do I feel lonely in that sentence that says no one is home?
Of course, you can’t even compare it with yourself, but Ji-hyeok seemed to be uneasy about something.
It was just a heart attack, but I felt that way.
The story of Sehwa, who was dating well, has been rare lately…

‘Should I ask for a drink?’

Today was a really tough day.
So much so that you need a drink.
Howeverhehesitated because he remembered making a mistake while drinking with Jihyeok.
The doctor, who was holding on to the touch pad and agonizing, sent a reply like this.

[Good work.]

[Doctor too. Do you want to exercise tomorrow?]

Sudden movement? The doctor tilted his head.

[What exercise?]

[You’ve been sitting in the lab all these days. I haven’t been able to exercise lately, so my body is sore. Let’s do it together.]

It’s sports… Clearly, Jihyeok was in very good shape.
The last time he took a shower in the lab and came out naked, embarrassingly aside, I admired his strong muscles.
Even with the clothes on, the goodness of the body was revealed.

‘Certainly… I’ve been feeling sore lately…’

She replied without thinking long.

[Okay. Let’s do that.]

[Then, I’ll go to XA House by 10:00 AM tomorrow.]

The doctor, who was about to ask how he got the address, blushed at the thought of his mistake while drinking.

[Okay.]

[Rest well.]

The doctor put the phone on the wireless charger and lay down.
Recently, Jihyeok’s behavior has been a little aggressive.
The way I tied my hair at the hotel, the face you see in the picture, the way I put on my legs besides the necessary talk…

I don’t know why… Maybe he likes himself?
The doctor, who had thought that far, laughed.
Nonsense.

Jihyeok is a handsome, smart man with a bright future.
There’s no way a guy like that could leave a perfect girlfriend like Se-hwa and like a widow like him… Soon to be in his 40s.
He comes close to me just because he is kind and sincerely wants to follow himself as a teacher.
He also has no feelings for Ji-hyeok, so let’s not think about anything strange.

Thinking so, the doctor turned on the air conditioner and covered the blanket.
Sleep without thinking. I desperately need sleep now.
Closing her eyes in the quiet bedroom, she was startled when she heard a voice like this in her mind.

– No feelings? Really?-

A woman’s voice that resonates in the brain.
The owner of that voice was himself.
It feels like you’re trying to correct the thoughts you just had.
The doctor frowned with his eyes closed.

After tidying up her mind with thoughts such as equipment development and the repair of the Evilian searcher, she relaxed her eyes when she did not hear that voice again.
I don’t know why I have such strange thoughts.
I guess I was more tired than I thought.

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The next day, I arrived at the doctor’s residence on time.
She was waiting for me at the front door in a comfy tracksuit.
A tight-fitting top and baggy 7-part training pants.
It would have been nice if those were leggings… But it’s a pity that I couldn’t appreciate the doctor’s full butt.
Still, I am satisfied with my large breasts that are openly exposed.

Bread-!

After a short beep, the doctor flinched and looked at my car.
She narrowed her eyes for a moment, and when I opened the passenger side window, she came quickly and got into the car.
As soon as she boarded, she fastened her seat belt.
The seat belt eaten between the voluptuous breasts is noticeable.
I handed her some water and asked with a smile.

“Did you sleep well?”

“Did you sleep well. You?”

“I… I just slept.”

“Just like that?”

“I’m so confused…”

As I start the car, the doctor slowly opens his eyes and looks at me.

“Why are you so flustered? What happened with Sehwa?”

“Sehwa stayed out overnight. And it’s not because of Sehwa.”

“Then?”

“I’ll tell you later.”

I played a person with deep worries.
After the work at the art museum, the doctor’s mind to think of me became quite strong.
If I come out vaguely like this, the doctor will try to arrange a place for a serious talk separately.
And this prediction came true.

“Shall we talk after the workout? Let’s release the lump in our chest. I think the mind is more important than the body. You have to have a clear mind to make devices without mistakes. Is not it?”

How can you say that when your own mind is unstable?
I’m fine.

“Um… That’s right. All right.”

“Okay. But are you going to the gym now?”

“No. I am going to the Han River.”

“Han River…? Why are you there?”

“Doctor hasn’t been exercising for a long time, so I’m trying to slowly adapt my body. Besides, it’s boring to exercise while looking at the screen at the gym. I think it’s good to stick to hobbies first while exercising like this.”

“Okay…? If you are, then it must be… Okay.”

We went to the Han River and rented a bicycle.
Borrowing knee and elbow pads and even a helmet, I approached the doctor who was looking around the bike and asked.

“Do you know how to ride a bicycle?”

“Are you kidding me…? Of course.”

“Looks like it’s strange…”

“It’s because it’s been a long time since I rode.”

Nodding my head, I went behind the doctor and tried to put an elbow pad on him.
Then the doctor sighed and scolded me.

“Did I ask you first?”

“Oh, I forgot.”

“Give me this. I’ll do it.”

“I want to do it for you.”

“Haa… Why the hell?”

“Because it’s obviously clumsy. It looks like you wear the helmet upside down.”

The doctor smiled shyly at my joke.
Then he shook his head slightly.
After receiving the consent, I told the doctor to put on the protector.

“Look at me.”

The doctor turned and looked at me.
Seeing her slightly lowering her eyes, this situation seemed very awkward.
Putting the helmet on my head, I put my hand near the doctor’s chin and tightened the strap.
After that, I grabbed the top of the helmet and gave it a little shake.

“Good for you. Shall we go?”

“Yes. I’m just nervous about this…”

Giggling, I corrected the doctor’s posture as she climbed onto the saddle, and while she swayed, I started first.
Then the doctor shouted.

“Hey! Go with me! Wait!”

The moment I heard that urgent voice, I was sure.
That you can move on to the next step.

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The doctor was surprisingly good at riding a bicycle.
He said he had been riding for a long time, so I was expecting a romantic scene where he catches her falling, but I was a bit disappointed.

After biking for two hours, we took a short break at the waterfront under the Hangang Bridge.
After drawing water from the vending machine, I handed it to the doctor.
The doctor who was sitting on the bench smiled and thanked me.

“Thank you.”

“What. Don’t gulp down, eat slowly.”

“Do I have to drink that much water?”

“It’s good if everything is regular.”

The doctor nodded and unfastened the helmet strap and set it aside.
The doctor, who slowly drank the water as I said, closed his eyes and was greeted by a cool breeze.
Seeing her blond hair, slightly damp with sweat, made me want to kiss her.

“Unexpectedly, you have athletic nerves.”

At that, the doctor opened her eyes and turned to me.
She says with a smile.

“Even looking at it like this, I am confident in my physical strength.”

Even in bed? The words lingered in her mouth and then entered the depths of her throat again.
Barely resisting the urge, I reached out to the doctor who was drinking the water again, and pulled off a few strands of hair clinging to her cheeks.

“Pooh!”

The doctor, whose eyes widened at my action, spewed out the water he was drinking.
Before spitting, she turned her head to the side so the water fountain didn’t reach me.
Too bad. It was a prize.
Coughing to see if some of her water had gotten into her airways, she looked at me with a frown on her face.

“Hey…! Are you really crazy?”

I shrugged my shoulders with a smirk.

“Why?”

“Why do you keep doing this? You have a bad habit know?”

“It is not a habit. I suddenly wanted to…”

“…..”

A doctor with a puzzled expression.
After a while, she said with difficulty.

“Haa… Don’t do this in front of Sehwa. Okay?”

“Can I continue without Sehwa?”

“That’s not what you mean. I would like you to refrain from this a little bit. It’s a good thing to misunderstand others.”

“It doesn’t matter if you misunderstand.”

“I care.”

“Why?”

“Yeah…”

The doctor, speechless, closed her mouth.
Why? Do you care?
The doctor, who took a deep breath, opened his mouth.

“No… Now can you tell me why you were so flustered?”

“I hate talking.”

“… Are you out of your mind? Are you mad at me for what I just said? Or is it because of the atmosphere? Shall we talk in a quiet place?”

“No. If I tell you, I think the doctor will be angry.”

The doctor tilts her head with a puzzled expression.

“You think you’ll be angry?”

“Yes.”

“I asked you to speak first, so why are you angry?”

“I will tell you if you promise not to be angry.”

“Are you swearing at me? You’re not trying to confess that you’ve been talking behind your back, are you?”

“Don’t play around.”

My face hardened.
The doctor was startled and shook his head.

“I’ll promise.”

“It is a must.”

“Yes. I will never be angry.”

I stared into the doctor’s blue eyes for a moment.
As she tried to turn her gaze to the side, she said in a flat tone.

“The reason why my mind is restless… Is because of the doctor.”

“…. Me?”

“Yes. Doctor.”

“Why…?”

The doctor’s voice was creeping.
It seems that I guessed what I meant when I said that.
Well, if you’re looking at me with deep eyes and don’t notice, you’re an idiot.

“Do you remember the day you drank with me?”

“Yeah… Remember.”

“It was from then.”

“…..”

This was direct enough.
Enough that anyone who hears it will recognize it as a confession.
Pretending to be nervous, I put saliva on my lips and continued.

“I know it shouldn’t be like this, but it’s hard to get my mind right.”

“…..”

“Do you think this is wrong?”

“…..”

“If you are uncomfortable with me doing this, please tell me now. Then… I won’t do anything the doctor doesn’t like from now on.”

The doctor didn’t answer right away.
He lowered his head and looked at the ground, wiggling his little feet, burying the dark grime on the declaration of his white sneakers.
Maybe I’m thinking about what I’ve said and done so far.

I waited silently for Dr.
She needed time to clear her mind.
If he waited patiently, the loneliness that had been forcibly suppressed in the heart of the doctor who had heard the confession would come out.
As the loneliness clears the doctor’s mind, it will make room for my statue next to that of Edward Parsons.

Her head, which had been staring at the ground for nearly 20 minutes, slowly, very slowly, lifted.

“I…”