Chapter 232 – Collapse, Addiction #2

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“So… The way I use it at times like this is…”

The doctor, who was discussing future science with Marcella, narrowed his eyes.
Then Marcella asked in a worried tone.

“Why are you like that? Is there anywhere that makes you uncomfortable?”

“No… Nothing… I’m sorry, could I get you some coffee?”

“Of course.”

Marcella got up from her seat and turned on her coffee pot.
The doctor, who was watching her from the back, tilted her head as a mysterious emotion welled up in his heart.

‘Why are you doing this…?’

Something is strange, but I can’t figure it out.
She turned on her portal site to search for something, but she forgot the content and felt like writing only consonants and vowels.
The confused doctor came to his senses when Marcella, who had finished her coffee, put down her cup.

“I’ll have a good drink.”

“Are you okay? You look deeply troubled…”

“I’m fine, thank you.”

To the doctor who forced her smile, Marcella looked at her and said.

“Are you very frustrated…? I’ll tell the queen so you can go out for a walk.”

It’s a walk… It was what I was hoping for.
She said she was desperate for her outside air.
But will Sehwa allow it?
Yesterday he had shown a defiant attitude. That’s why she seemed to refuse with a single knife.

“No… I’ll tell you later.”

“I see. Aren’t you hungry?”

Not very hungry. The doctor who was about to say paused.
Because the food was strangely soggy.
I wondered if it was because yesterday’s porridge was so delicious.
I could eat three bowls and get bitten, but to do this… I must have had morning sickness, which is an appetite.

“You seem hungry, but could I have some porridge?”

“Kill? Would you like vegetable porridge?”

It was the dead chicken porridge I ate yesterday.
The doctor asked cautiously.

“Is it possible with chicken porridge?”

“Sure. I will make it soon.”

When Marcella left her room, the Doctor slumped on her bed and covered his forehead with her arm.
Yesterday’s series of shocking events should have made you sick to your stomach, but it wasn’t like that at all.
Perhaps he has already adapted to life here.

I wanted to see Jihyeok. What is he doing now?
He said he’ll be busy for a few days, but he knows he’s not in touch and he’s trying to find himself?
But he couldn’t find this place even after searching the earth dozens of times using all kinds of methods, and there was no way he could find it as Ji-hyeok.
He had to escape on his own.

‘Jihyeok…’

When I think of his face, my body heats up.
I want to be embraced by Jihyeok’s big chest. I wish we could share love sweetly.
Naturally excited, the doctor brought his hand down, but stopped when he realized there was a camera there.
I want to comfort you… But I can’t notice because of that.

As I was passing my time thinking about this and that, Marcella came in with her tray.
The doctor, who had a great appetite, quickly went to the table and sat down.
Yes, you can plan to work by eating. Let’s be strong
Thinking so, the doctor thanked Marcella for putting her tray down and raised her spoon.

Chicken porridge with a much more savory smell than the one I ate yesterday.
It’s obvious that it will be delicious even if you don’t look at it.
The doctor who brought the porridge to his mouth with expectant eyes,

“…?”

He frowned slightly.
Because the taste was completely different from yesterday.
Taste was there. However, the porridge made by Sehwa did not have the unique… Hard-to-explain taste.
Eventually, the doctor scooped up a few spoonfuls of porridge and put the spoon down.

“Don’t you like the taste…?”

Marcella asked with an impatient face.
The doctor smiled and shook his head.

“Tasty. But… I suddenly felt uncomfortable…”

“Okay…? Shall I bring some digestive medicine?”

“Nope. It must have been something like morning sickness, and his whims got worse. Sorry.”

“No. Would you like some fruit?”

“No it’s okay. I just… Want to get some rest.”

“I know. Then I’ll go out. Shall we clean up the dead?”

“Yes. Please.”

Marcella nodded her head happily, nodded at her, and she took the tray and left.
Crawling back into bed, the doctor pulled the blanket over her as the room, which had always been warm, seemed somehow cold.

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“Doctor. Wake up.”

A friendly voice in your ear.
The doctor’s eyes opened softly.
Slowly raising her upper body, she rubbed her eyes and asked Sae-hwa next to her.

“Why…?”

“Marcella is worried. You scooped up a few spoons of porridge and put it down, right?”

“I’ve lost my appetite… I can’t believe I’m not being punished for not eating…?”

Saehwa smiled softly and reassured the doctor.

“There is no punishment.”

It was fortunate. I really hate to press the switch again.
Said the relieved Dr.

“Thank you… But why did you wake me up?”

“It’s past 2:00 PM. If you’re already pregnant, you shouldn’t starve. I came here because I was worried. I brought you lunch, so eat it.”

Today’s Sehwa was really sweet.
Until yesterday, it seemed like Gi-gi would show a violent side by default.
I felt grateful for being taken care of.

Come to think of it, a savory scent wafted through the room.
The smell you smelled before. It was chicken porridge.

“Are you going to kill me again…? Can I eat something else?”

Sehwa said, turning her body around and holding a bowl of porridge.

“I made it myself, so let’s try it at least once.”

The doctor’s ears perked up.
If it was chicken porridge made by Sehwa… I could feel the taste.

“Okay…”

The doctor who pushed the blanket aside reached out his hand.
It means to ask for a bowl. However, Sehwa scooped up the porridge herself and brought it near the doctor’s mouth.

“Ah do it.”

“My, I can eat by myself…”

“Hurry.”

The doctor hesitated.
I was sad to be treated like a dog, but if I didn’t listen, I might be punished.
So you should follow it.
After finishing his thoughts, the doctor opened his mouth slightly, and when Sehwa fed him porridge, he chewed on it.
Then he looked at Sehwa with a brightened complexion.
Because it tasted like yesterday.

“Is it delicious?”

“Yeah… It’s so delicious…”

“I do it with sincerity.”

The doctor opened his mouth this time.
In response to that natural action, Sehwa’s eyes turned into a crescent shape.
So the doctor began to accept and eat the porridge without a word.
When Saehwa hesitated to give her spoon, he even jerked her body as if impatient.
It’s like a baby bird whining to its mother bird for food.

In the end, the doctor ate all the porridge like that.
I didn’t forget to savor the faint taste that remained in my mouth.
Seeing this, Sehwa giggled, and when she removed the bowl, the doctor put on a desperate expression.

“Sehwa… Can you give me more?”

“I only made one serving.”

“Make more.”

“No. It’s right after waking up, so if you eat a lot, you’ll be bloated.”

“Please… I’m hungry…”

“I said no.”

The doctor lowered his gaze.
I can’t help it because I can’t Sehwa’s orders must be followed.
Only then can she avoid punishment and protect Yuria.

I want to scrape off the leftovers from the bowl, but let’s be patient… It’s for YuRia’s sake.
The doctor, who thought, brushed away her thoughts when Sehwa held out a pink cup.

“Drink some water.”

“Drink all?”

“That’s the doctor’s heart.”

“Yes.”

The doctor who received the cup drank the water.
I don’t know if it’s because I ate the porridge so deliciously, or because the aftertaste lingered in my mouth, but I could feel the pleasant taste even in the water.
The doctor, who drank all the water in an instant, forgot his face and stuck out his tongue to lick the water in the cup.

“You must have been very thirsty. There is also a water purifier, but why didn’t you drink it?”

“It’s not like that, it’s because I choked right after eating…”

“I see.”

“Yes. But I… It’s Sehwa. By any chance… Could you please remove the camera in the room?”

“Why?”

“I feel like I’m being watched and I’m going crazy…If you’ve investigated me…”

Sehwa interrupted the doctor and came in.

“Did you have a history of schizophrenia?”

“Yes…”

“You can’t put the camera away. Because the doctor is too smart. It looks like they’re going to do something by taking out the parts of the electronics here one by one.”

“That’s speculation…! If you get caught, why would you do something big? Besides, you and Marcella visit every day. I will never do anything else…! Huh? Please…”

Dr. Who almost started to appeal to emotions.
Sehwa hugged the doctor with a beautiful smile.
In her arms full of her body.
Chills could come, but strangely, it was cozy.
It was like a familiar blood relationship… It felt like that.

“I’m sorry, Doctor. Not yet. However, if you continue to show a calm attitude like today, I will really think about it positively.”

The doctor let out a sigh of relief and replied.

“Okay…”

The doctor is not to the point of adding an adverb like ‘like a stone’ right now, but he believes in Sehwa.
The promise not to trust the words of monsters had disappeared from my head.
Furthermore, he has forgotten what Saehwa had done to him and betrayed his humanity.
She was not even aware of her inner thoughts, she was just going with her natural stream of consciousness.
Like when you eat porridge.

“I will tell Marcella to bring some books for you to read. Have a good rest today.”

Why are you treating me so kindly today?
It feels like something is uplifting.

“Thank you…”

Saehwa silently touched the doctor’s cheek and went outside.
Sitting on the bed with her excited face, the doctor pulled the ends of his hair and sniffed her.
And then, within a few minutes of rising from there, his face turned red.
He hadn’t taken a shower since he was caught in the park, and he must have been soaked in sweat from the many hardships he had been through.
Saehwa must have smelled this, but she didn’t even show it… She was really embarrassed.

The doctor suddenly went into the bathroom and took a shower.
After washing her body thoroughly with warm water under her dim lighting, she looked at her face through the small mirror installed on her sink.
Then she tilted her head.

“…?”

Her skin seemed to have turned a little pale.
The color of her lips was also darker than usual, and her face seemed younger and more refined.
Is it because you can’t see the light? Or are you mistaking it because of the lighting?
Whatever the reason, it wasn’t bad. Because it felt beautiful.

The doctor, who came out of the bathroom with a fresh face, smiled brightly as Marcella was waiting for him holding two of her books.

“I’m here?”

“Yes. I picked out the books at the Queen’s command. I brought a novel because I thought most of the books related to future science were not interesting or read most of them. Is that okay?”

“Anything is fine. Thank you.”

“No. And I have good news.”

“Good news? What?”

“The queen really liked the doctor’s attitude today. So, let me see Yuria-nim.”

The doctor’s eyes doubled in size.

“Really?”

“Really. But there are limitations. You must wear an eye patch and ear plugs when you go outside. Also, Yuria is sleeping, and I can only see through her window. Do you still mind?”

Even though there are restrictions, just being able to actually see Yuria and confirming with her own two eyes that she is safe is a great harvest.
She was also good at trying to look good to Sehwa!
In the future, I will be obedient in this way and receive many benefits.

“I do not care. I want to go see you right now.”