Chapter 177 – Advanced

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Even if the balance of the world tilts and the situation of the kingdom continues to decline, the moon in the sky repeats its tilt and rise only with the passage of time.

The falling moonlight is bright and beautiful, and while looking up at it, it is tempted by its magic and disturbs the viewer’s sleep.

However, her heart her, looking up at the sky from the garden inside the monastery, was not the same as the brightly rising moon.

After safely returning the two people who had escaped to the monastery, Eustes, whose mind was complicated by the truth he learned through his reaction with his with Iona, could not fall asleep.

In the end, after setting up the bed, she leaves the room and goes out to the garden where the cool breeze blows, looking only at the sky.

Still pounding, pounding … And the sound of her heart beating every time she breathed was so loud that it made her ears dizzy.

It was as if her body and mind were not meshing together, causing a reaction of rejection.

In order to calm her down even a little, her still recovering Mistil Thein is also wrapped around her waist her …

“Leona…”

In my mind, a brief memory comes to mind.

Black hair, beautiful swordsmanship. And strong women.

Although her ending her was not very beautiful, it was thanks to Leona’s admonition that she is the person she is today.

Neither from her father her, nor from her responsibilities her, it was her voice her and the sacrifice of her Tio her that changed her cowardice who tried to run away from everything that gave her a hard time.

And, Cleon.

To be honest, she didn’t think too deeply about him, even when he came face-to-face at Elesia.

It’s just that she saved Rubera and that she is Tal Chek’s disciple. And a magic swordsman who acts together with Iona.

And, that her father was a brave man who averted disaster at any cost.

An adventurer who is close to her her ideal figure her, her own goal her. She only had that much thought.

If there is one thing the two have in common, it is that they are a clan of black demons who like to take care of others. It is a test of great skill.

‘That’s right, since he’s Talchek’s disciple, is it natural?’

When he was excluded from the adventurer’s guild in the royal capital, he was hardly mistaken in predicting her blood relationship with her with Leona.

It wasn’t at the level of blood, it was because he was himself.

“…Cleon, Leona.”

Eustes muttered as if to recall the fact once again.

Why did Cleon appear in front of her in the form of a woman herself… It was easy to make the same guess.

At that time, it would have been easier for him to approach him as a woman rather than as a man.

However, she did not put up with her own opinions about the fact that she was not right, and she broke up with Eustes after one day.

Maybe. Considering what he was originally trying to do, it would have made sense to allow himself to be fooled, or to placate himself.

But the reason I didn’t do that was because others were hurt because of me.

I knew all of that in her memories that flowed from her when Iona was captured.

Therefore, Eustes’ heart continues to waver.

Like a small ember swaying before the wind.

Where did his own heart his, this yearning, turn?

Eustes decided to be honest in order to organize his thoughts once again.

After this body changed into a woman, every time I saw Cleon, her heart raced and her face burned. Sweet thoughts passed through her head.

When he was a man, he felt no different than she felt for Leona.

In other words, to be honest, although he knew that Justina, not Eustes, had feelings of love for Cleon, Eustes continued to deny it.

Yes it is

Eustes Woodnocker has lived as a man for ten years since he was born.

Even if the curse of the succubus turns her body into a woman, and her mind gradually changes into a woman.

His own identity His is still that of a man.

A man shouldn’t love a man. Even though he thinks he doesn’t have to be bound by the same, old-fashioned ideas.

He was proud of himself as a man who loved women.

She tried to deny her feelings for Cleon, and tried to suppress the growing Justina inside her whenever she touched his strength or kindness to her.

However. The character Leona she loved is a fictional character who does not actually exist.

If only Cleon existed in the world.

Isn’t ‘Eustes’ love’ meaningless after all?

If you admit it to yourself. His heart his aches, and his head his goes blank. I feel like I have a fever in my body. His limbs his tremble.

As his breathing gets tight, his nose crinkles, he involuntarily starts to have tears in his eyes.

He wants to cry out, but the reason he can’t is because of his own pathetic feelings.

Rather, Cleon did not feel sorry for Eustes chasing after Leona.

Eusthesra knew how important she was to her human beings, so even if it were to be her deceitful form of her, she was unwilling to crush Eustes’ dreams of her.

If it’s cruel, of course it can be cruel.

Eustes, who was complacent with Cleon’s kindness of her, could not shake off his pathetic feelings of her.

And. Even now, unable to hold on to the reeds of his heart his, unable to do this or that, he could do nothing but look up at the moon with a sigh, feeling even more pitiful about himself.

“Are you looking at the moon?”

At that time, she turned her head to the benevolent voice coming from behind Eustes.

The owner of the voice was the abbot of this monastery, a man Eustes knew well.

After talking to Eustes, she walked slowly and stood beside her.

After Eustes also entered her monastery, it was not the first time she and her words her were mixed, but whenever she hears her voice her, it reminds her of her mother her in her childhood her.

Was it because she was a clergyman like her and she was a kind person?

“No. …More than the moon, I was looking back at myself.”

“Oh my. That’s quite a philosophical story. Should we open the penance room?”

“Uh, uh… No, not to that extent…”

As a result, it became possible to easily bring out the stories in the heart that could not be easily revealed to others.

“…That’s how the body has become. Humans, of course, feel anguish. I’ve seen Eustes-kun and other people wandering around late at night several times.”

Eustes was silent for a moment at her words.

She was soaked in the impression that she had become the protagonist of a tragedy, but when she thought about it, she herself was on the slightly better side.

“… Among those who became women… Some had families. Some had wives and children.”

At Eustes’ words, the director quietly nodded.

Among those who came to this place for the first time and came to their senses, there were not a few who asked to be returned home.

Especially those with families.

However, some of them have now accepted themselves as women.

The curse of the succubus had eaten away the memories he had as a man and his ego.

Another fact that made Eustes anxious was that.

If her own body changes into a woman and her ego as a woman emerges, would n’t the current ego of ‘Eustes Wood Knocker’ disappear?

Maybe she is trying to be a`Justina` who takes it for granted that she is a woman and tries to convey her feelings to her to Cleon.

“Eustes-kun. Can you tell me the troubles you have in your heart?”

“… Director.”

Perhaps reading Eustes’ expression, the director carefully held his hand.

“…Before I became like this… There was someone I liked.”

“Oh, it must have been a love problem.”

When Eustes said that, the director changed his expression as if he was slightly surprised.

Eustes also made eye contact with her, but I could see that it was her consideration her to lighten up her mood her so that she could easily tell her story her to Eustes even a little.

“Yes… It’s a little, complicated love. The person I loved was strong, beautiful… He was a precious person who held me back when I was walking in the wrong direction.”

Every time she spoke a word, Leona’s figure flickered in front of her eyes.

However, it is soon covered by the appearance of Cleon.

“I aimed for that person, and became her adventurer her. And. I tried to make her a person she was n’t ashamed of, enough to be with her someday… He was a person.”

“…”

Eustes’ words were emotional and didn’t go through his head properly. That’s why, if someone who doesn’t know the situation hears it, it’s a word that doesn’t know the reason.

However, the director quietly listens to Eustes without denying or questioning what he has to say.

“Ah, no… It’s strange that it doesn’t exist. It’s strange that someone else in real life was a disguised identity… “

After Eustes said that, he hesitated for a while—

“He’s It’s a man… But it’s a problem.”

“Aha.”

At Eusteth’s words of her, she raised her voice as if she understood and nodded her head.

“That’s definitely a problem to worry about. She thought she was a woman and had feelings for her, but she was actually a man… And, maybe it’s because her body became a woman, but she’s confident that she’s attracted to him. ” Okay?”

At the director’s words, Eustes slowly nodded her head.

The brown hair that reflected the moonlight, and the slightly raised chest his.

The narrowed waist and the fleshy buttocks.

It wasn’t the form he wanted, but his mind and soul his were drawn to this body.

Become masculine.

“How about Eustes-kun? Are you disappointed that the person you longed for was actually a ‘man’?”

“…Yeah, that’s right… No… Actually, rather than being disappointed, I was ‘convinced’ for some reason. Maybe it was because I sensed traces of ‘her’ in him. I don’t know if I was attracted to ‘him’.”

Because he was not disappointed, Eustes was not angry.

He wasn’t outraged that he had been tricked.

Leona was actually a man. Even if he wasn’t ‘relieved’ by the fact.

He thought it was no big deal, he was on his own.

“If so. Wouldn’t that actually have nothing to do with ‘gender’?”

“…?”

At the director’s words, Eustes tilts his head in disbelief.

Then the director spoke with a smile on his lips.

“In the end, Eustes-kun was attracted to ‘one person’ both before and after changing his body. Of course, there is a wall called ‘gender’ that was determined by God. It’s by fate.”

At her words her, Eustes slowly nodded his head.

Exactly. He thought of himself as separating Leona and Cleon to some extent. He reminds me of something like `common point`. The two are ‘one person’.

“The attraction that people have to people is not necessarily love. There can be friendship, and there can be longing. But if Eustes-kun felt ‘love’ for either side, that love was a precious heart that transcended ‘walls’. Could it be?”

“…”

“Since your body has become a woman, it may be that your resistance to falling in love with a man has decreased. However, that alone will not make you simply fall in love with a man. Eustes-kun’s heart ‘hasn’t changed’ since the beginning. It’s because you’re loving ‘the same person’ until the end.”

At that, Eustes opened her eyes wide and felt the impact of a hammer hitting her head his.

Leona, whom Eustes loved.

Cleon, whom Justina loves.

After all, the same person. `Self’ always looked at, admired, and was drawn to `that person’.

He did not become a homosexual himself. ‘That person’ is Cleon, but she was also Leona at the same time.

Therefore, there was no relationship between his gender and his gender.

I felt that the complicatedly tangled lines of emotions were being untied the moment I understood it.

“How is it, Eustes-kun? Have you calmed down a little?”

“…Yes. Thank you, Director… It’s as you said. I, I haven’t changed. My body has become like this. Regardless of the curse of the succubus.”

The director nodded at Eustes’ words.

Pounding, pounding. The beating of my heart gradually subsides, and the worries and anxieties that filled my head disappear like salt dissolved in water.

As she said, it was a simple story.

If you think so, as for today’s troubles. Everything that held you back until now disappears.

Himself is himself

Whether the body is female or male. The direction of this heart has not changed.

And, no matter what the opponent looks like, no matter what gender.

This heart is your precious one. If you can consider it that way.

He was able to admit his feelings for him regardless of whether he was a man in the past or a woman now.

With that thought, the small ember that had been shaking regained its strength.

Just like the day I moved to the Adventurer’s Guild after clearing things up about my father.

“I… Cleon-“

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Dark room. A space where demons spread their magical powers over the royal capital and exist to watch over everything.

The women were scattered at my feet, foaming at the mouth and trembling, showing only the whites, as if their souls had been pulled out of their bodies.

They are all failures. Even if the seeds were planted, they did not bloom, let alone germinate, failing to meet the standard.

The flow of dark magic flowing into the royal capital has stopped in two places, but his own magical power that surrounds the royal capital has not disappeared.

“…”

Ishtal rolls her feet over the women on the floor of her room with cold eyes, then snaps her fingers with her sigh.

Then, her men waiting outside carried the dead woman’s body her and went out of the room.

“It’s not that easy to come by…”

She said that while looking at the miniature of the royal capital.

Sparkle. And I saw something shining.

The outskirts of the royal capital… The ‘monastery’ that didn’t pay attention.

“…It germinated.”

The corners of Ishtal’s mouth she went up.

Flowers in the heart. The seeds to bear fruit called crystals had sprouted now.