Chapter 194 – Manaman Kim Katt

“Enlightenment.”

I came out of the castle gate as if possessed.

It was around noon after morning training. Normally, I would have gone back and devoted myself to image training, but today, for some reason, I felt the need for a change of mood. Recently, I didn’t have a single day off, and I was completely absorbed in training.

ㅡShoot it.

Cold wind.

It felt chilly as if winter was slowly coming.

It’s winter.

Winter in another world has always been bitter, but at least this year it will be warm. Winter is a terrible season in many ways. It was like that when I was in the military, and it goes without saying in another world. At least he changed his job as an adventurer and spent the winter, so if he had faced the winter as a homeless person, he would have frozen.

How did you survive it twice?

I have fresh memories of renting a corner of the barn together with other beggars and sleeping together. If you don’t gather, it’s easy to freeze. And when I woke up, I got 3 coppers and a loaf of bread and cleaned the snow all day.

That was a big job too.

Seeing the trees about to turn red reminded me of that time.

When I think about it, it just feels like shit.
I shook my head vigorously, erasing the memory.

“…Is it winter soon?”

Anyway, outside the walls.

A world where monsters live.

Of course, I didn’t intend to go hunting for monsters alone without my friends. Anywhere near the city. In other words, I just needed some time to be alone for a while, breathing in the fresh air outside.

As usual, the guards’ procedures were sloppy. It felt very friendly to me that I had never seen them do anything.

ㅡ Jerking and bucking.

We entered the forest on foot for about 30 minutes. I deliberately chose a road where no one goes. It was a very large place, so it was difficult to see other adventurers even after entering this far.

A quiet space with no one around, only the sound of the wind. Are there monsters? Looking around, it doesn’t seem to be there. Because it was so close to the city. Quite a few monsters live at least an hour away from the city. There was nothing here.

I checked safety and drew my knife.

Then let’s get started.

ㅡPapapapat!

There.
Without looking into anyone’s eyes.

“Black.”

Dance a sword dance

“Lightly.”

Real sword dance starting from the first ceremony of the real sword method. ㅡBung Zi Bung Zi! Like the enchanting killer dancers of a foreign country, they dance as if they were seducing blood and violence, holding swords and waving their bodies.

Can you reach it?

I can’t know.

It’s just a sword dance that has reached the limit, and it’s just trying to communicate with mana. Sword trail. Flow of air. Body movement. The truth must be somewhere in there, said Karin. Is that what I need? Or an inner realization?

“Stand up.”

Extreme chopping skills that have been improved through actual combat.

The sword slashed through the air and exploded. It is an incredible power. Quite a few monsters will die without being able to catch my sword. There aren’t too many beings that I can’t cut.

「Strength」

It seems.

“Get on your feet.”

What percentage of my odds against Orcs right now are? I passed 50% through endless review and technical inspection. However, now that mana cannot be used, it will be 60% at best.

If you fight 10 times.
Die 4 times

That’s what racial differences are.
A normal human could never defeat an orc one-on-one.

If humans acquired intellect, Orcs acquired physical strength. In other words, it is not an opponent that can be matched one-on-one in the first place. It is correct to carry a spear and fight in groups.

“Contains mana.”

Therefore, anyone who can kill an orc alone will be recognized. Come to think of it, were Orcs in general a monster that stood on the borderline between D and C… Maybe it was.

ㅡTuk.

I stopped sword dancing.
Also, mana was not loaded.

Even though it is clear that it is in my body, I cannot freely control it. Bloody battle. After all, can you achieve results only if you repeat real battles instead of training? The burning sense of fighting spirit sprung up spontaneously, so it was difficult to understand now.

Take a break

Drew the knife again.

ㅡWhoosh!

Recall the murder experience.

Now, the experience of murder is passed on unimportantly. Then I felt something ominous stirring. Something that glows dark red.

Of course, I didn’t know what it was, so I dug in.

Kills people.
End that life

It is to kill one’s own people.
It is to kill the intellect.

Humans are capable of thinking… But the people I killed were unable to think. Are they really human? From my point of view, they are beings that cannot be called human beings.

Robbers are not people.
Then I’m not beating people.

Recurrent thoughts.

Inflated delusions.

Is it positive or negative?

To me living in a different world with the sensibility of a modern person, it was not a problem that could be discussed and passed on with simple logic, so I tried to ignore it.

Rationalization.

After all, suffering is evidence of hesitation.

In the end, suffering

Proof that you are not forage.

In the end, suffering…

“…It’s difficult.”

When I came to my senses, my whole body was drenched in sweat. The high level of concentration made them forget even the notion of time. I was thirsty and drank the water from the canteen. The time is… It’s been about two hours?

Compared to training in the inner world, I realized that I was getting tired rapidly.

After all, this is how I am in reality.

Hyper bitch.
Kat Kim.

In the end, he returned to the city without much income.
The stuffy mind didn’t go away.

There was no change of mood.
I just thought of last winter as Ipai.

Am I too hasty?

In fact, dealing with mana in one month is a very funny story. If that could be done just by working hard, where would there be a man without mana in this world? Hard work and talent. And natural luck and sensibility. Only those with such complex factors working become mana users.

It is greed.
It is greed.

The desire to become stronger in a short period of time is like the stubbornness of a child. Willpower alone cannot make you strong. Effort alone cannot make you strong. Then what you need is…

Still.

Anything faster.

I want to shorten the time.

He wanted to freely deal with mana as quickly as possible. And I want to tell Cloudy as if it’s not a big deal. ‘Mana? Oh, that? I came and picked it up on the road. It was nothing.’ How much would you like it I’m sure you’ll like it a lot. You will be very happy.

That is why they are so obsessed with training and enlightenment.

“To do that.”

Should I try to retrace the taste of a handful of people in the slums? Karin said that killing people is a true experience. In fact, it is also true that whenever she cuts people, she felt as if her powers her were growing bizarrely.

That thought occupied me strongly.

“…”

Simma.

…Isn’t this really going to become a serial killer like Karin said? My heart was shaken. I was so impatient that I lost my reason for a while. The road leading to Sima Oedo (邪魔外道). That seduced me

Is this what it means to have a demon in your heart?

I’m not crazy.
I caught my trembling heart.

ㅡ Kikkiik.

As if walking in a dream, I walked the streets where reality and unreality are mixed. At some point I had arrived at the inn, and in an unnoticed moment, she had her circlet her in her hand her. Reality is frustrating It seemed that training in the inner world was more efficient and more visible.

Can’t resist the temptation
Wear a circle

Locked world.

At the same time, darkness filled, and I stepped into my inner world.

“Almighty.”

What is in front of me is an iron grate.

This place is not real. That made me strong He immediately struck the iron grate with a knife. Just randomly. You don’t have to think about anything for now. Concentrate on destroying the target in front of you. It’s never too late to think about it later.

ㅡQuaang! ㅡQuaang!
ㅡQuaang! ㅡQuaang!

Amidst the noise of strong clashing of metal against metal.

ㅡ…

Something faint

“What?”

It sounded like something was heard. Even though it was my inner world, it was something I couldn’t exactly know… But what’s certain is, whatever it is, it must have come from me.

ㅡQuaang! Quaang!

The more they hit the iron bars, the louder the sound got. Listen. However, even though the sound got louder, the contents were indistinct as if there was some noise. It didn’t get sharper, it just got bigger.

—-A sad howl.

Is calling me

“How.”

Instinctively realize

“What do you mean?”

The owner of this voice.

“My inner self.”

That it would be my inner self.

“Is it possible to know only by breaking this thing? But I can’t break it yet. I haven’t been able to make a single scratch despite my efforts so far.”

ㅡQuaang! ㅡQuaang! Load up the mana and strike again with an intense slash. Unlike reality, it is not tiring. Boiling power. A sensation that could only be felt in a life-and-death battle. That feeling ran through my fingertips and exploded.

“Because I don’t know about myself yet?”

Cut over and over again cut, cut again

Throwing eggs at rocks.
I thought so.

“Because you haven’t attained enlightenment?”

Will the rock break someday?
If you repeat it tens of thousands of times, it means that the rock will crack.

It won’t.

It doesn’t work because an egg is an egg.

“Maybe it’s both of those things.”

However.

“I’m not worried.”

I am not an egg

“Do not agonize.”

If you have to ask, it’s a non-repellent grenade launcher.

“If it doesn’t work, just move on.”

Rocks are just dog chewing gum.

“That’s Kim Katt.”

ㅡQuaang!

“…!”

The iron bars began to crack. ‘I did it.’ I thought about it for a moment, and I stabbed the knife with the intention of completely destroying this surging realization before it disappeared. ㅡQuaang! Metal shards splattered. It’s being eaten, my attack.

“A being that can be broken.”

What I can destroy
Getting hurt.
In the end, something I can overcome.

“Blazing confidence.”

Contempt for the weak.

ON.

“I won.”

A mythical power bursting out from the depths of my heart enveloped my whole body. There are causes and there are consequences. So, where there is a result, there is a cause.

In the end, if the result is that I destroy it.
No matter what the cause.

The result is enough.

ㅡQuaang!

Cracks began to appear in the cracked iron grate. The rift spread like black ink poured out, scattering painted shells and debris. Then—-uuuuu! The trembling lump of iron howled strangely.

Are you saying don’t do it?
Or faster?

“…”

Even if it is the former, it is not acceptable to give up because there is still time poured into it. Without hesitation, just upright. Finally, he cut through the iron bars that were about to be destroyed.

Cut

Cut

—Suddenly.

The blade did not stop.
It was cut and passed.

“You succeeded.”

ㅡ Burrrrrr!!!

At the same time, the iron bars were broken.

The broken thing collapsed and disappeared, and where the huge barrier disappeared, the land of the inner world, which was infinitely close to nothing, spread out. As if it never existed in the first place, the iron bars are gone forever.

ㅡThump!

“…This is.”

Calling.
An irresistible urge consumed me.

ㅡ…!!!

An inner voice was driving me strong!

“How…”

What is at the end of this?
I looked at the place where the iron bars had disappeared.

“…”

And.

It was at the end

“…That.”

A distant, blurry figure.

It was like a cage for birds, and at the same time it looked like a prison for people. Yes, it was ‘us’ in a complex way. All the hanging bricks were cracked or broken, and our bars didn’t look very good either.

Strange urge.
The pressure to check that out.

As if possessed, I approached it.