Chapter 13 – An Old Tradition.

A street illuminated by lanterns. People were roaming the streets proudly exposing their bare skin regardless of who looked at them. That alone was shocking, but it was not uncommon to see people mixing their flesh in the middle of the street. If it was simply a man and a woman sharing affection, she could have turned a blind eye. However, some of them could be seen lying in groups. One woman with two men or one man with women. In the meantime, it was bizarre to see only their faces covered with masks.

The men grabbed any woman who was walking down the street, opened her mouth, licked her tongue, touched her body without hesitation, and put their things in her. What’s absurd is that women take such men’s behavior for granted and allow their bodies. After mingling once, they part and mingle with others. They seemed to make a connection before they even thought about who they were touching. As if it didn’t matter who the opponent was, they mixed and mixed. If you can call it a dance, it was a frenzied dance in which people’s bodies intertwined.

“Ha! Ha!”

The sound that Usher thought was like the roar of a beast was the voice of people brimming with pleasure. Usher shuddered as he noticed his self-inflated appetite. Her eyes ran over the body of a woman passing by the roadside and swallowed an object larger than his. It was a flesh-colored feast all over. Their bare skin reflected in the red lanterns disturbed him.

“Huh!”
“Whoa! Whoa!”

Slapping, the sound of their bare skin colliding with moans continues to be heard in my ears. The slimy skin reflected the light of the eerie lantern. His cock, which looked like the head of a large snake, pierced and shook it, ignoring whoever’s semen flowed through the dark hole. It vomits up semen without making the slightest distinction and swallows it voraciously. The hole continued to crave the whitish liquid, and the snake’s heads continued to dig into it to vomit their desire.

The smell that brushes the nose is hot and musty. It was a dizzying, poisonous smell that made people’s heads go blank. Why didn’t I notice it sooner? That this alley is full of smoke that blurs your vision. If you look up, you can see the sky, but instead of the sky, a roof made of wooden boards covers the sky. As if trying to stop the smoke that filled this road from escaping. On the smoke-filled road, they continued their mad dance.

“Aang!”

A tingling feeling crept into his eyes as he watched. Their overflowing desires seemed to be contagious to him. But it was so horrible and dirty. It was as if the stopper had been pulled out of a full manure barrel, and such emotions stirred his head. The most terrible thing about that feeling was that it was no exception to myself, who was lusting after their appearance right now.

“Usher.”

Then, a warm voice embraced him. Even though he wanted to take his gaze away from them, he was swept away by desire and couldn’t take it off. The girl covered his eyes, which suffered endlessly from the thought that he was no different from them, with her delicate hands. And the cozy darkness that came. The colorful but insidious colors of the lanterns eased my eyes that were suffering.

“Let’s go back today.”

Usher nodded at Belka’s words. I didn’t want to stay in a place like this any longer. As the girl led him, he made his way out of the dark alley. People wearing masks passed by in the remnants of the smoke that still remained, and I walked absently through the streets. How long had he walked without knowing where the girl was taking him? Suddenly, I felt my stuffy chest open up. Looking around, they found that they had left the town where the festival was taking place.

The sound of an unknown grasshopper crying. Shoot, the sound of a wide field made of crops swaying and brushing in the wind. It was the first time I had been awake at such a late hour, so the sight caught my attention. It was different from the pitch-dark night I had seen the last time I briefly woke up. The night with the pure white moonlight was not darker than he thought, and the clear, cool air cleared his mind, which was dizzy with smoke and the fishy smell of people.

“Are you okay now?”

The girl was taking off her mask and veil at some point. A girl exposed under her moonlight, her hair red poppies. The redness of her girl’s flowers flowed down her girl’s shoulders as always, tied at both ends, and the dress she was wearing fluttered like a butterfly’s wings in the wind. Belka was watching him with worry in her marigolds.

“Except her head is a little dizzy.”

Usher, who came to his senses, turned his head in shame, but forgot what the girl would do at his words.

“Are you dizzy?”
“Huh?! Now, wait a minute!”

She belatedly recalled the fact, but Belka was already close to him, placing her hand on his forehead. Then, as she approached, the sweet fragrance of her camellia flowers caught on. Unlike the dizzying smell of smoke in the village, the scent is not burdensome. Yes, because the girl was always worried. Any lingering feeling of dizziness disappeared as her cold hand touched his forehead. However, it was embarrassing because the scene full of flesh and the excitement of the smoke that I had seen in the village still remained.

When she looked at the girl’s golden light, which was as clear as spring water, she, on the contrary, kept thinking strange things, and she was ashamed of herself and avoided her gaze. The girl’s eyes follow him wondering whether she knows his heart or not.

“Where does it hurt again?”
“Hey, let’s go home!”

I took her to her house thinking I would be more embarrassed if I met her innocent eyes any longer. His house he arrived. This old, creaking house was as desolate as the love he had given it. If there is still a bit of affection, this is the place where he lived with his older sister and stayed with Belka for a while. Still, feeling a bit relieved that a house is a home, I threw off my shoes and socks and lay down on the floor, which made it easier. However, when I close my eyes for a moment, the flesh-colored feast comes to my mind. The frenzied dance of people intertwined fiercely flashed through his mind.

“Ugh!”

Feeling disgusted with him, he frowned and opened his eyes. A sight that makes you question if it’s really someone like him. I thought that the truth of this village that I had heard from the village idiot had run out of affection, but after learning the true purpose of this festival, even the absence of affection fell away. However, Usher could not forget to demean them as subhuman beasts. The fact that he was excited by the sight. He felt disgusted with himself for thinking he was no different from them. Because of this, it was when Usher felt skeptical about himself.

“Usher.”

Belka called his name. The girl always called him like this, as if his name was special. In fact, even though he himself knows that he is not a special human being. When I open my eyes to her call because I love the call of the girl who seems to be talking about him as special.

“Ah.”

Usher let out a stupid sound of his own accord. Because right above him when he opened his eyes was the golden light of a girl.

“Are you in pain?”
“I think I’m going to vomit a little.”

He had no choice but to answer honestly. No matter how hard I try to hide it, this little girl will soon notice.

“It’s okay if you don’t have to suffer.”
“But Belka.”
“It’s instinct and it’s natural. Denying what’s natural will only hurt you.”

Usher wanted to say something, but the girl slowly brushed his hair as if she knew what he was thinking. Then, while he felt a little more at ease, he was a little dissatisfied with Belka’s words.

“They say that it’s between people you like. But it’s as if they don’t care.”

He barely managed to control his nausea at the sight of the people resurfacing, and got up. Although he still looked face to face with the girl.

“Do you think it’s wrong?”
“Oh, I believe what Belka said.”
“…Thank you.”

The girl continued her words, keeping her expressionless even as her cheeks were flushed.

“But, Usher, it’s really dangerous to make assumptions about anything. My words can’t always be right, just as someone else’s words can’t always be right.”

Especially for you, making conclusions can create stereotypes and create a vicious cycle of hating and loathing each other. And it may take many years in some cases to solve it.

“Then Belka doesn’t mind if I join them?”

Usher, who was brooding over Belka’s words, said that because he couldn’t understand it. He had no intention of doing so, but at his words, the girl paused and looked at him restlessly.

“Uuuuu, it’s hard to accept that. It’s a difference in how to live. Separating yourself from others is also an important thing for you guys. Hey, that’s why… Don’t go.”

The girl was visibly flustered and seemed to be gibberish before she came up to him and grabbed her by the hem. He seemed anxious that he would go to the festival any time soon. Does Belka know? That her appearance is the reason he is mischievous. The girl who knew a lot didn’t know this very well. When he soothed the crying girl, she belatedly realized that he had been teasing her, so she puffed out her cheeks.

“Usher is so mean.”
“Because Belka’s words are too difficult.”

As he muttered dissatisfiedly, the girl who puffed out her cheek smiled softly as if she had never done that before.

“If it’s difficult, it’s okay not to think deeply. Just remember my words every time something like this happens. I’ll be happy with that alone.”

Usher looked up at the ceiling and sighed. It’s late at night, so I open the blanket, but I can’t fall asleep.

“Can’t you sleep?”

If there was a reason for that, it must have been because Belka was lying next to him, staring at him in the golden light of the moonlight. Yesterday, I was so exhausted that I didn’t even realize I was falling asleep while having a relationship with the girl, but I couldn’t fall asleep because I was worried about the girl’s soft skin that I could feel through her clothes.

“A little bit.”

But to blame Belka, she just wanted to sleep with him, so she lay by his side. The problem was the flesh-colored feast he saw in the town that came to mind every time he closed his eyes. The sexual desire that came up like that kept asking for a girl, and it was more like dying. If he told me this, the girl might have listened to his request, but it felt a bit repulsive. If he couldn’t stand this desire and continued to covet the girl, he would become the same as the people of this village who made him feel disgusted. At least he didn’t want to be like them.

But again and again he was haunted by flesh-colored thoughts and could hardly sleep. How long did he spend the night with his eyes open and the moon rising? I could feel the twitching movement in his hand. The girl moved upward as if trying to get out of the blanket.

“Belka?”

The girl climbed a certain distance and stopped moving, making it pointless to call her name because she wanted to go somewhere instead of going to sleep. And he was taken aback by Belka’s actions that followed. The girl wrapped her arms around his head and held him tightly to her chest.

“Will I be able to sleep like this?”
“That, well.”

Far from falling asleep, it felt like the color of the skin that had been bothering him to sleep had increased. From the touch of his soft breasts, which can be felt distorted against his face, to the fragrant scent of camellia flowers that fill his nostrils. It was more difficult because there was nothing that didn’t stimulate him. He said, trying to calm his inflated need to remain undetected by the girl.

“Rather than that, why did you think you’d be able to sleep well?”
“Because Usher said he would fall asleep when he was with me?”

Come to think of it, he used to say something similar to that. In fact, there were quite a few times when I was lying with my head on the girl’s lap or leaning on her shoulder, and I was able to fall asleep and spend time napping. But back then, and now, the smell of the girl’s flesh and suppressing her desires were the limit. I wanted to attack Belka right now, but I barely endured it and closed my eyes.

“~♪”

A girl’s hum was heard. It was the first song I heard, but was it because of the girl’s calm voice? The song tickled his ears and warmed his heart. If I stayed still, I heard a pounding sound that I hadn’t noticed before at the touch of my chest. The sound that came at a steady pace, neither too fast nor too slow, combined with the girl’s singing voice, and the girl’s hand patting him on the back when she reached out her hand. When she leaned into the arms of her girl, who had her own head wrapped around her, and heard the sound of him slapping him, she fell into the darkness for a moment.

“Did you sleep well?”

He could face the girl’s gold glittering in the morning light. She must have fallen asleep listening to the girl’s song. Not even her child, I fell asleep to her lullaby. Even though I was ashamed of that fact, when I tried to raise her body casually.

“What?!”

He was taken aback by the soft feel of his things and Belka’s moans. The girl also looked embarrassed. He later realized what kind of attitude they were in. He must have hugged her while she was asleep, and he was facing her and hugging her. There may be no problem until then. The problem was that his stuff was swollen upright. The moment Usher tries to covet the girl even though he thinks he really tried to be patient.

“Usher! Are you home!”

I was able to stop just barely at the sound of voices outside. The girl went into her closet and hid as it was supposed to, and Usher, who confirmed it, opened the door and went outside before anyone else entered the house. And he was offended by the sight of a familiar man he had found.

“Why are you here again?”

The man was Mac. Even though he deliberately glared at him with a voice of shame, he was looking at Usher from the other side of the gate with a smile, whether he was ignorant or shameless.

“Just to check. Could you bring me some masks?”
“Why the mask?”

He couldn’t help but feel suspicious, but he couldn’t help it. He was a grown man who took care of himself first, and no matter how much he didn’t like it, it wasn’t a good idea to rebel against him, at least while he was in this town. He goes back to the room for a moment and picks up the mask and hands it to him.

“Hoo.”

When he saw the mask, he smirked and raised the corners of his mouth in a laugh.

“What, what is it?”
“It’s nothing. It seems like you enjoyed the festival for sure.”

When asked why he was doing that, he said it was nothing and went away. Until the end, he left the word that he must participate in the festival. Usher couldn’t help but watch him go back with a stern expression on his face. He couldn’t help feeling that he had somehow made a big mistake. The night finally came again.

“Do you really have to go today?”

Belka asked anxiously, holding her mask in her hand.

“Uh, I don’t want to go at all.”

Mack’s voice reminded me of the man who had been urging that the festival should be compulsory for those who had just come of age. No matter how it happened, he knew for sure that he was involved. If he didn’t participate, then he would notice it. If he had a chance to leave the village, he would have tried it with Belka, but when he checked it out during the day, the security was as tight as usual, but not less. In the end, he went around the festival wearing a mask with the girl even though he had nothing to do.

I didn’t even set foot in the place I saw yesterday. Still, he frowned at the occasional sight of people having sex in the open street or having sex in the dark. I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t find it yesterday, so I could see it everywhere. It was the time when he was walking aimlessly down the street, thinking that figure was unpleasant.

“Let’s go! A precious item has arrived! A zelkova tree that has lived for hundreds of years?”

Hearing a loud voice from somewhere, Usher stopped and turned around. There was a vendor wearing a mask who piled up wooden blocks and sold them to people. At least as far as Usher knew, the zelkova tree was the only tree in the forest where the girl was. But is even that good for making money? Appearing to be an adult in the village, he was vigorously shouting that it was a wood that was hard to find even in this forest. The zelkova tree being sold was so fragmented compared to the gigantic tree that the original shape could not be found even after washing one’s eyes.

“That’s real!”

It was Belka’s voice that stopped him from approaching him.

“Let’s go back.”

The girl said that even with her own abandoned home in front of her eyes. She spoke in a plain voice, as if she had never had a connection with her from the beginning.

“That’s yours!”
“It wasn’t mine. There’s nothing mine in this world anywhere.”
“What is it.”

Even when Usher muttered in protest, the girl only patted his hand as if comforting him. When he finally turned around helplessly. I was swept away by the suddenly increased crowd and lost the girl’s hand.

“Belka?! Belka!”

Surprised, she forgot that there were many others, and interrupted the crowd by shouting her girl’s name. The girl’s small stature hides her in the crowd. Her heart was racing and she broke out in a cold sweat. The thought that she might let go of the girl at this rate made her empty hands nervous. As time went on, it seemed as if his heart would stop.

“Got it!”

He found a small hand reaching out to him in the crowd and managed to grab it.

Haha, I’m glad.”

And as they made their way through the crowd, they found themselves in an alleyway. I was avoiding places like this on purpose, but as I tried to avoid the crowds, I naturally ended up in an empty alley. I caught my breath and looked down the road and saw many people still walking on the road. It seemed easy enough for him to get out by himself, but the small girl would be swept away again.

“Shall we take a break here?”

When she suggested that she couldn’t help it, Usher sat down on the floor when she saw the girl nodding her head without saying anything.