Chapter 149 – Destiny.

“Since when did that man…”

When Helena came out after talking with De Valin, the more she thought about it, the more she couldn’t understand Jude at all. She didn’t even want to understand.

“If only I had that kind of power.”

Helena looked at her own hands. The reason she became an alchemist was because she wanted to fulfill her dream, which Sasha couldn’t, but she wanted to be a wizard more than anything else. Because she was a wizard who could use magic, regardless of her origin, she was able to wield power equal to that of any aristocrat and make a name for herself at the time. If she could become a sorceress, she would be able to save Sasha from being taken away by her lord. She was, so she dreamed.

However, being a wizard was not something anyone could become. Helena didn’t cling to that dream because she was so uncertain that no one knew how she could use magic. Alchemists were treated, if not as well as wizards. She is said to have been resurrected, but she actually understands the sciences that wizards created, and even if the process is complicated, it is great that she can imitate the wizard even slightly.

In fact, there were only less than 20 recognized alchemists in Lantua, including Helena. Even so, she was less than a wizard, but at least she didn’t ask for vague qualifications like magic. Because she could have been, if at least I could understand. She became an alchemist. Still, she couldn’t become a wizard. She was worse than a wizard. That’s why she can’t protect the girl she fell in love with. Her dreams of her past stood in the way of her now.

“Sasha. What should I do?”

I walked absentmindedly with heavy steps and arrived at an empty lot strewn with dead trees and broken swings. Sure enough, she frowned at the sight of the pink bouquet lying beneath it.

“Ha, you really can’t communicate with words.”

How many times have you warned them not to come, and how many times have you threatened them? Still, he came back and left a mark here, and he was so annoyed that he wanted to throw a dagger right away. She was dissatisfied with the presence of flowers that would tarnish her memories until her last days, so she immediately approached and picked them up. This was the place where Helena and Sasha first met. It was a place that no one like him should ever invade. Shouldn’t she have come if she had warned her so much?

Normally, she would have thrown the flower away from the clearing, but Helena couldn’t bear it any longer. As soon as she got out of the clearing, she proudly threw her flowers on the ground, raised her feet, and trampled them with all her might. After stepping on it so that even the shape of the flower was unrecognizable, my stomach felt relieved.

“…Where have you been?”

At that time, she heard a man’s voice, and when she turned around, there was that man. She seems to be trying hard to say it, but she felt a little relieved by her miserable face that she couldn’t hide. She should have been like this a long time ago. She felt sorry for the flower in his hand, but more than that, she was angry and annoyed with him.

“You don’t need to know.”

I really hated seeing him keep his mouth shut at her words. If there was even a sliver of conscience, wouldn’t it have been better if he hadn’t come to this place in the first place? Perhaps it was a pity that I would never come here again.

“Still, it’s comforting that I won’t have to see your face from now on.”
“What? What do you mean by that?”

As Helena passed him, she whispered her whispered words, and he stretched out her hand as if to grab her, but his hand did not reach her Helena. The dagger in her hand was pointed at his neck first.

“Don’t touch me. Your touch is like touching filth.”

He hesitated at the sharp feeling in his throat, but couldn’t help but ask. She knows that she hates even mixing her words with herself.

“What are you talking about. Please. You don’t have to see me!”

As he raised his voice, Helena clicked her tongue and agreed to do her kindness one last time. After all, that was also part of the memory. Even if those memories are the worst.

“I’m leaving Lantua soon.”
“Leaving Lantua… The Federation? Where are you? Where are you? Rukuco? Levidaf?”

Rukuko and Levidaf were the names of the countries currently interacting with Lantua, not beyond the cloud region. Although they did not have a vast land and a large population like the Lantua League, they were countries with excellent military power. I thought it was really gross, but it seemed like he was going after her.

“Do you think I’ll tell you that? Now I really hope I never see you again.”

Helena inadvertently moved closer, and she was slashed by her dagger. She turned back when she saw the blood seeping from his throat. She thought that when she returned, she would thoroughly polish the dagger first. If he hadn’t caught her in her suddenness. Her strong hands on Helena’s shoulders drove her against her wall.

“Keugh!?”

Maybe it was because I had never had anything like this happen before. Helena soon realized she was trapped between him and her wall. She tried to shake him off with force, but she wouldn’t budge. Her base strength was stronger than he was, so she couldn’t help it. The dagger had been let go of the shock.

“Don’t be funny. Until now, I’ve lived with the mindset that I’ll only see your face. Are you kidding me?!”

It was because he had her in his heart that he had come to see her Helena’s courage, enduring all her harsh words. He has liked Helena since he was a child. He was an orphan who lost his parents to monsters, but he couldn’t hide his pretty face even if he was guilty, so he liked him. But he had a hard time getting her attention no matter what. Even if he offered to go home with me or give me something to eat, he was very reluctant. Even if it was pretty desperate.

It was because he seldom reacted properly unless it was a serious prank like lifting a skirt or throwing a small stone. But there was one exception.

“That bastard Sasha, Sasha! Sasha!!”

A girl named Sasha was a sullen, eerie girl who always wore her hood down with her robe. In fact, at the time, most girls and girls went around like that, so it wasn’t strange or offensive, but he was especially annoying to Sasha. It was because Helena, who had always been squeamish to him, was as happy as ever if she was by her side. He met Helena first, and he tried to befriend her Helena first, but it was Sasha who gave Helena her heart.

So he took the opportunity one day and took off the hood of Sasha, who was hanging out with Helena. Because he wanted to see the mug himself. He was surprised at how much prettier he was than he thought, but it was a problem after that. It was word of mouth to the people who saw it, and the story about Sasha entered the ears of the lord and was dragged away. He just wanted to see what kind of guy it was to monopolize the attention of the girl he likes.

“It was simply a mistake! It was a childhood mistake!”

Even that was a long time ago.

“Because of that, I’ve been treated as a criminal by you for over 10 years. You’re leaving!?”

Didn’t Sasha even become happy by marrying the next lord? But why should he still suffer from it?

“Isn’t it about time you accepted it?”

He was now at his limit.

“This is why I hate you.”

However, what returned from Helena were indifferent eyes and cold words, not even interested in him. Something snapped in his head.

“Ah, yes? Then let’s see if I can take your girl and stay that way.”

He immediately knocked Helena to the floor. It was fortunate that there was a roof over this alley, so the ground here did not get wet. She couldn’t escape his power as easily as she thought. She didn’t even think that she would win by force because she’s usually so sharp and fierce. As he laid her down, he lifted her skirt. She decided to work at the lord’s castle again, and she liked that it was a maid’s uniform. Her resistance was less than expected.

“Actually, you weren’t waiting for me to do something like this, were you?”

As he smoothly pulled Helena’s underwear down her skirt, there was a secret crack where a pink bush grew like her hair. Thinking that a long time had passed, he slipped down his pants and took out his belongings. Then he spread Helena’s legs open and pressed them against the crack between them. Seeing her without resistance, he pressed her on the waist, and his thing burrowed into Helena as if it were being eaten.

“Eww!”

Helena’s short shriek and a soggy feeling wrapped around his things. It was very stiff and difficult, but it was a sensation I had been waiting for a long time. After staying still for a while to enjoy the sensation, it seemed as if her pulse and warm body temperature were transmitted through his things. And the moment he checked where he was connected to her to confirm her beginning, he had no choice but to stiffen. Even after he washed his eyes and searched, he couldn’t find even a single bloodstain there.

“This is what it is.”
“It’s been a long time since you checked my place. You still think of me as the me back then.”

Helena laughed at him. Cause she wasn’t already her virgin. There are less than 20 certified alchemists in Lantua. Because it was such a difficult and great study. In order to learn alchemy, there was no choice but to learn it from a nearby alchemist, but alchemy was a discipline that had to pay a very high price just to learn it.

“How I was able to learn alchemy. Without knowing anything about how I learned alchemy.”

Helena was an orphan. She lost her parents to monsters and wandered her streets, where she was barely surviving with the help of her friend’s father. How could she learn such a science as alchemy?

“No way.”

Her smile grew thicker as if he said he was right.

“We were lucky. An alchemist lived nearby at the time.”

I don’t know if I was really lucky. Helena said that not long after Sasha was taken away, she went looking for him. She had nothing, but she clung to him with only her desperate heart. I would do anything, so ask him to teach me alchemy. He initially expressed her disapproval, but when he saw Helena’s face, he proposed. Can you really do whatever you want? Without hesitation, she nodded her head and was led straight into his house.

“And I went through the same thing as now.”

Only then did she learn about sex for the first time from the alchemist. It was strange that she, being an adult, didn’t know, but she couldn’t help it. Because she only had people around her who didn’t know that she didn’t know, or who knew and pretended not to know.

“Did you enjoy teasing me who didn’t know anything?”
“That’s it!”

He would often lead Helena into her alley, make her hold up her rag-worthy dress, thrust her head under her, remove her underwear, open her cracks, and sometimes lick them. He claimed to be washing her, sometimes sticking her tongue or fingers in and toying with her insides. And by the time he realized what that meant, he had already received the alchemist’s affection.

“Are you going to claim that was also a childhood mistake?”

From then on, Helena lived as an alchemist, chewing and swallowing contraceptive herb leaves every month. When he ate her food, he first made her lick and suck on her own, then fed her on his, and then had her eat. When he was taught alchemy, he did it with his erect cock inserted into her cunt. He embraces the affection that sometimes fills her inside. When she was washing, she waited on him and licked his body. Even when she slept, she had his things tucked in.

“Noisy. Noisy!”

He shook her waist as he put her things in her. He moved her waist at will, feeling that the intense pleasure of her bites him and won’t let go. He grabbed her large breasts and teased her to the fullest. And at the end, he pressed her waist tightly and poured out his affection inside her.

“What the hell was I supposed to do?”

After everything was done, Helena gathered her clothes and sat back against the wall of her alley. The worst memories, full of scars, were the worst to recall.