833 – I Can’t Live Like This – 2

I enjoyed going out with the apostles.

I walked where I wanted to go, where my heart was drawn, where my eyes were drawn. Not to avoid anyone, not to hide my body, but according to my own will.

What a joy it is! What a wonderful thing it is to be able to roam freely without any worries or concerns.

‘I didn’t feel grateful when things were taken for granted.’

At a time when death was called and reigned as the terror of all living things, this free stride was taken for granted.

Who would dare to stop me? Who would dare to block the march of death? That is why free movement was absolutely natural to me, common sense that would never be broken.

Such common sense collapsed and I was left in a deep, dark pit and in the bitter cold for hundreds of years. After finally escaping from prison, I lived in the name of longevity rather than death. I even played the role of a nanny, something I had never experienced in my long life.

Now I have become accustomed to the role of nanny and have accepted it. I have accepted that I have no divinity and that I can never reign over death again.

‘Still, what’s hard is hard.’

Of course, if there was no fatigue in acknowledging one’s situation, the concept of rebellion would not exist in this world.

So I escaped. I have to spend the rest of my life as a nanny for children, so I definitely need some freedom and rest.

It’s not like I’m going to run away completely. I’m just going to leave for a little while, so it’s not too much to ask for. I’m just being greedy enough to satisfy my master.

“Death─”

“Don’t say death now.”

While I was praising his self-control and patience, I stopped the apostle for a moment when he was about to open his mouth.

“We have been enjoying freedom for a long time. If our identity is revealed, this freedom will end quickly. Only outside, call it longevity instead of death.”

“How could I dare do that?”

“This is for our great journey. Also, no matter what you call me, it does not change that you are my apostle.”

Then, Lissianne’s eyes became even more moist.

“I will keep that in mind, Jang-saeng!”

“hmm.”

He nodded contentedly towards the apostle who was prostrating himself on the floor.

He is a loyal servant whom I like. When I was sealed by Enen and was spending my time meaningless, he found a fragment of my power and became a being who transcended humanity. He is a being whose faith and loyalty are also outstanding in proportion to his ability. What a loyal servant he is.

If not meeting this loyal subject during the religious war was my downfall, then meeting him, albeit late, was a miracle.

“Apostle. Get on my back.”

Maybe that’s why I gave my back to this special and loyal apostle.

“yes?”

“I told you to get on my back. Come on up quickly.”

As he lay face down on the floor, the apostle shook his head so much that I was worried it might fall off.

“Ah, ah, ah, no! Absolutely not! How could you do such a blasphemous thing!”

I felt both proud and bitter at the word disrespect. The apostle also knows well what the little guys do to me while I am in the mansion.

At times, my whole body would swell, at times, my whole body would be squeezed, at times, my whole body would be stretched all over the place. It was beyond the level of irreverence, it was to the point where the word blasphemy was fitting.

How loyal and faithful he is, even after seeing that miserable sight, to mention the disobedience of riding on his back.

“Get in. It’s a hassle to keep up with your pace, so it’s better to move together.”

“I am immature and I am rude to you, Jang-saeng…!”

“Okay, get on. This is the last time I’m speaking.”

Only then did the apostle climb onto my back, hesitantly.

It should have been like that a long time ago. Now I can go around here and there with peace of mind.

Unfortunately, the appearance of the apostle and I is not threatening. I am a size that is more like a puppy than a dog, and at first glance, the apostle looks like a small doll.

The combination of ‘a dog that carries a doll on its back and roams the streets’ was born like that. It’s the perfect combination to attract people’s attention.

“Oh my, look at this kid. Did he run away from home or something?”

“It looks like its owner took great care of it, judging by its fluffy fur. It must have run away while the owner was looking away for a moment.”

As I stepped onto the crowded street, hands came rushing in from all directions as if they had been waiting.

It’s a familiar situation, so I’m not particularly surprised. Being touched by all sorts of things every time I walk is just like a daily routine for me.

“What is the doll above?”

“Well, it looks clean, so it looks like a recently made doll. Does the owner have any young children?”

“Oh, really? So you ran away with a child’s toy? The owner must be really upset.”

Meanwhile, the apostle remained motionless and silent, so the people nearby thought of him as a doll.

It’s a natural reaction. With a narrow human mind, it’s impossible to realize what’s on my back. I can’t help but come to the obvious and trivial conclusion that it’s a doll.

“Where did you come from? If I knew your home, I would send you back─”

“Tileglenhen.”

“uh?”

“I came from the mansion of Count Tailglenhen.”

As I opened my mouth to speak to the human who was stroking my head, the humans nearby froze.

I asked and they answered, and this is what they said. They are such annoying guys.

“Ma, did you say something? Did you just say something?”

“No, but you said it was a tileglehen. Was it the Count’s pet?”

“Come to think of it, Your Majesty’s pet… I see there’s already one wandering around…”

Soon they started ignoring me and the apostles and started gossiping among themselves.

It’s even more disgusting. If you knew my true identity, you would apologize right away. How dare you treat me, who is indispensable to the master’s mansion and favored by the master’s children, like a beast?

“I didn’t run away from home. I just went out for a while. I’ll come back when the time comes, so don’t stop me and get out of the way.”

But right now, my free time is precious, precious time. It is too precious to waste on expressing my displeasure and anger.

“Oh, yeah. Okay.”

“Oh, go ahead. Sorry for stopping you.”

Even the humans felt intimidated by my firm declaration, and retreated to make way.

Although my body has shrunk and I have lost my divinity, I was once a god. I can scold ordinary humans as much as I want. It seems that my dignity has not completely disappeared.

“Be careful in the future.”

Thanks to that, my resentment has subsided a little. I am willing to forgive those who recognize my dignity.

“My goodness. I’ve heard that Your Majesty has many unique treasures, but I never thought there would be talking beasts.”

“Your Majesty’s pet… right? In this empire, only His Majesty the Emperor and His Majesty the Count would keep such a thing.”

As I passed the humans with light steps, I heard voices muttering behind me again.

I felt like I was more overwhelmed by the majesty of the master behind me than by myself, but I decided not to pay much attention to it.

***

About an hour after hearing the news of Jang Saeng-i’s escape.

– We have received word that Your Majesty’s pet is wandering the island.

A call came from the captain of the guard.

– However, the fact that it is a being under Your Majesty’s protection is the animal’s self-proclaimed identity… I have contacted Your Majesty to confirm.

However, the expression on the face of the captain of the guard who made the first contact was extremely complicated.

I understand. An animal’s self-proclaimed name. Where else could you find such a bizarre expression? It’s not for nothing that the captain’s face is subtly distorted.

“That’s right. He’s a special guy who knows how to speak for himself and think deeply. He seemed bored recently, so I sent him out for a while. Did he cause a commotion in the system?”

– How could that be? They say he is a gentle and wise guy, perhaps because he was raised by Your Majesty. Rather, the citizens of the island are surprised to see him, so I am worried that humans will bother the innocent beast.

Anyway, let’s answer politely. The captain of the guard waved his hand and continued speaking.

Gentle and wise. He may be wise, but he is not gentle. Is he staying quiet for the freedom he has finally found after a long time?

– Your Majesty, I will tell the crew to take special care to ensure that Your Majesty’s pet returns home safely.

Meanwhile, the captain of the guard mentioned the VIP security operation targeting Jang Saeng-i.

It’s a nice consideration, but it’s unnecessary. Jang-saeng has already been given a location tracking spell, and for Jang-saeng to be in danger, a magical terrorist attack would have to occur in the middle of the system. If it were Jang-saeng’s ability, he would be able to evade even that.

So, asking Jang-saeng for security would be a waste of the guard’s manpower in a strange place. It would be shameful for an imperial noble.

“It’s okay. The system is always safe thanks to the guards and the royal guards, so why would you want to take separate measures? I already sent that guy out because I trust the system to be safe.”

– I really appreciate your words, but I can’t guarantee how the citizens will react to this strange guy.

“Is that so?”

I touched my chin for a moment at the captain’s words.

If you say it like that, it’s not a good idea to keep refusing. If you keep refusing, the captain of the guard will spend the day feeling uneasy and anxious.

“Then just check whether that guy goes outside the system or not.”

The captain of the guard nodded readily to my suggestion.

Finding out if Jang-saeng-i is inside or outside the system. If you use the simple method, you only need to guard the gates of the system, but if you are the captain of the guards, you will assign two or three guards to Jang-saeng-i under the pretext of finding out his whereabouts.

That’s a waste of manpower, but what can we do? At least that much would make the captain feel better.

***

Disaster is coming.

“Huh? Jangsang? Lisianne?”

“ah.”

“ah.”

A disaster that happened by chance while wandering around here and there.

“Jang-saeng! Lee Si-anne! Did you know I was coming and come out!?”

A disaster that I can never escape with my own abilities.

“…Apostle! Let’s split up for a moment!”

“yes yes!?”

“One of you will enjoy this freedom and go back! If you go in different directions, one of you will survive!”

That’s why I made a decision as soon as I saw the disaster.

Now, let’s run away with the apostles in different directions. One of us will succeed in escaping, enjoy this dreamlike freedom, and then return.

“Lord Jang-saeng! How could I run away and leave you?”

“This is not an escape! This is a strategic retreat!”

He shouted at the hesitant apostle. I know the apostle’s loyalty, but for now, it is loyalty to follow my words.

“Get down! And run! Quickly!”

The Crown Princess will probably catch me before the Apostle.

If so, I will sacrifice this body that cannot be called a god to save the apostle. If you are truly an apostle, do not make this sacrifice in vain!

“Now, Jang-saeng…! Please get out safely!”

Fortunately, the apostle understood my feelings and quickly got off my back and started running.

In less than a minute, both were caught. Because of someone other than the Crown Princess.

“Maid! Thank you!”

Because of the maid who always accompanied the Crown Princess.

I was foolish. If I was a human who always supported that energetic princess… I knew that her stamina would be incredible…

‘Fuck.’

Does my freedom end here?