Chapter 13 – Episode 13- What I Really Wanted

“I took the antidote, so there should be no problem.”

Talia explained to Kang-rim, who was lying on a hospital bed.

“I was worried that I might be using the same poison as last time, but it was really fortunate that it was crude.”

Soo-ah, a nine-tailed fox, attempted an assassination this time as well.
He had a shack around his neck, so it was impossible to use demonic powers.
He can’t curse Kang Rim to death like before.

So, Sua secretly prepared the poison.
Under Advent’s protection, she gathered the ingredients bit by bit.
Until the amount is enough to knock the enemy down.

Admiral didn’t notice this fact at all.
She felt stuffy inside the ship, so it was natural for her to get some fresh air.

Such an easy thought almost led to her own death.

“Just rest for a few days and you will be fine. So don’t worry…”
“…”
“I don’t know if you will listen to me even if I say that.”

Talia made a pitiful expression as she looked at Kang-rim, who was staring blankly in front of her.

“Cheer up, master.”

Iris covered Advent’s left hand with both hands.

“It’s all because of that bitch. The master tried to keep his promise. The one who broke it is that bitch.”
“…”
“So, don’t be too heartbroken.”
“… You.”

Advent asked Iris, who was staring at her.

“Can you say something like that when you’ve been treated so badly by me?”
“What are you talking about…”
“Don’t pretend.”

Advent knew what Iris had done to Grid.

“Your family was a famous knight family. All members of the family were powerful enough to be considered knights.”
“Yes, we often hear that our family is a monster den.”
“I was the one who destroyed that family.”
“…”

At those words, Iris’ expression hardened.

“I killed your father in front of your eyes, and I raped not only your mother in front of your eyes, but also your older sisters, younger brothers, maids-in-waiting, and all the knights belonging to them.”
“…”
“I used it as a seedbed to give birth to a soldier for me all my life.”
“…”
“Can you still cling to me after experiencing that?”

Why are you suddenly revealing Iris’ past?
Even Kang-rim himself did not know that.
Only,

I just feel like everything is futile.
Frustrated, I just wanted to let go of everything.

She tried to be nice, but what was she afraid of when she knew it was pointless?
Regardless of whether Iris was angry or not, Kang-rim was all over the place.

“Talia, you too.”

This time she looked at Thalia and she talked.

“They say you joined the pirates because you suffered unreasonable things, but in reality it was my intention.”

Advent blew all of Thalia’s past revealed in the story of the game.

“I purposely drove you into a corner to make you my subordinate.”
“…”
“Can you keep following me after doing that?”

Iris and Talia looked at Advent in silence, then answered at the same time.

“I will follow.”
“I will follow.”
“… Why?”

Iris answered Advent’s question first.

“I know very well that you broke me. At one point, I was anxious to kill you.”

Iris, like Sua, was waiting for her revenge.

“But it was meaningless.”

Iris said in her resigned voice.

“I couldn’t beat the master. Even if I try, I hear everything. There were many cases of being caught and tortured.”
“…”
“I was even wanted here for belonging to pirates, so do I have a choice? I had no other options but to go mad and follow you.”

The fact that revenge is impossible even if you wake up from death,
Realizing that she was already just a criminal, Iris gave up.
The knight’s pride and honor were all abandoned.
Abandoning everything, she longed for only her affection for her master, Grid.

Because I can’t survive otherwise.
The shattered knight has become a sword only for the master.

“I already knew. The fact that the guy who pushed me into the pit is the owner.”

Talia said she was no big deal.

“But, is there anything special? After joining the pirates, do you have any other options? She will end up being chased by the Navy for the rest of her life.”
“…”
“In that case, wouldn’t it be better to just live a prosperous life with the owner?”
“…”
“It’s unreasonable to live kindly just because you made a mistake now. I’ve done a lot of bad things, how can I be good? I’d rather just live my own life.”
“As I like, as I like…”

At those words, Kang-rim put on a self-deprecating expression.

“Just do as you say…”

Why did she keep saying that she would live a good life?
Why did she believe that she could live a good life even though she found out at some point that she was possessed?
Why did she believe that she could live a different life from the original, like the protagonists possessed by villains in the novel?
If so, she would not have failed miserably, and her life would not have been nearly lost.

– You killed all the men!

Sua said.

You are a hypocrite It’s disgusting to say that I will live a good life after taking so many lives.
I never believed that guy.

That’s right.
It’s trash that did something horrible.
It was absurd to say that Sua would believe in him when he had become such trash.

If only I had known it would be like this in the first place. Wouldn’t it have been better to just leave?

“Forgive me for being late.”

At this time, Atria entered the hospital room.

“We are late trying to identify the assassins.”
“What happened to Sua?”
“Ah, that bitch.”

As if she didn’t want to recall, Atria wrinkled her expression.

“I was locked in a laboratory with other prisoners.”
“…”
“I can give you any punishment if you give me an order.”
“…”
“Whether you brainwash it or turn it into a livestock for life, you can do whatever you want, master.”
“…”
“Should we talk before that?”

Atria put a book on the bed.

“What’s this?”

Iris asked, pointing to a book with a pattern that looked like the leather was twisted hard.

“This, this…”

Thalia was horrified that she had realized something.

“Isn’t that the book with the method of summoning the soul? Why do you have this?”
“What is this book?”
“It is a very dangerous book.”

Looking at Advent, she wondered, Talia spoke.

“It contains a spell to call the spirits living in another world and forcibly settle them in this world.”
“Fit?”
“Yes, you can succeed only when certain conditions are met.”

After Talia, Atria explained.

“You must have a craving.”
“Craving?”
“The longing of the body to settle down and the longing of the soul. The order only succeeds when the two come to an agreement.”
“Wait for a sec.”

Hearing this, Kang-rim suddenly had a question.

“Does the soul you speak of belong to a living person?”
“No, I am talking about the dead. You cannot bring the soul of a living person.”
“…”

The moment he heard those words, Kang-rim felt like something hit her head.

‘If only the dead could do it…’

The self in the real world is already…
Thinking of no way, Kang-rim looked at Atria, but Atria just nodded her head without saying a word.

“Hey, Atria. Could it be that you used this to save the owner?”

Thalia asked.

“It was kind of strange. There’s no way the owner who wandered between death and death could not have been fine.”
“So, then this man is not the master we knew?”

Iris asked as if perplexed.

“No, that’s right, Master.”

Atria shook her head.

“I was just wandering in a dream for a while, it’s definitely our master.”
“But, just now, a soul from another world…”
“Still, you are our master.”

Atria’s claim was firm.

“If not, how would you be alive?”
“Please explain in a way that is easier for me to understand.”

Advent demanded.

“Why did I have the body of such an incorrigible piece of trash, right now!”
“I said it earlier. That the body and the soul crave the same things.”

There is only one way to settle the soul of another world into the body of this world.
There must be a longing that attracts each other.

“Our original master wanted to make all the women in the world his slaves. It was a mask that the method was too cruel, but the purpose did not change.”
“…”
“Then I will ask.”

Atria asked.

“What was your longing?”
“I am an ordinary company…”
“No, that’s not what I really want.”

Atria climbed onto the bed.
Iris tried to stop her by asking what she was doing, but Talia stopped her.

“What did you really wish for in that world?”

Atria asked again while holding her pregnant belly close to Kang-rim’s body.

“What do you really want?”
“I, I…”

What does the human Jung Gang-rim want?
What did Kang-rim, who lived as an ordinary office worker and a money-making machine, wish for?

“I am…”

Recall the past.

-Kangrim-ah, follow your mother when she says nice things.

Kang-rim was a dog who obeyed her parents when she was little.

– If you don’t follow me, I’ll kill you right away?

She had to tremble all the time, for if she did not obey she would be punished.
This was the case even as an adult.

-How do you make money with it? Don’t be silly and study. Study and get a job huh?

Even if there was something I wanted to do, permission was not given.
Even small hobbies were not allowed.
Study and get a job If you don’t, I’ll kill you. Suffered the threat.

So if you got a job, everything would be better? No, it wasn’t.

– Mr. Kangrim. What are you doing right now? Am I funny?

Needless to say, I was taken by an annoying female boss.
Every day I get a grievance for processing a document late once.
I wish there was at least one attractive element, but there was none.
Every day, he longs for himself, a poor pig, for no reason.

Until I become an adult, I suffer from my parents,
After becoming an adult, I suffered from a female boss.

Games are the only way to relieve stress.
〈 Grace of the Fox 〉 Advent was so much fun.

Every time you play that game.
Every time in that game there are female characters who captivate her heart at first sight.
Every time those female characters are made fun of.
Every time I see those female characters break down while being made fun of.

Kang-rim was overcome with a strange pleasure.

I want to try it. I want to try that myself too. Unlike Grid, who is the last one, I want to do it without killing him.
I want to make you follow yourself for the rest of your life.
I want to do it my own way.

Just once, even once is good.
The female characters she has collected, the female characters in the game…

He wanted to make her his own wife.
Like the grid she enslaved herself to.

“Ahaha,”

Kang-rim realized this belatedly.

‘What, in the end I was trash too.’

I thought it wasn’t trash. In the end it was garbage.
Since she was trash, she was possessed by trash.
There was no option for Kang-rim to live a good life from the beginning.

“Your face seems to have realized something.”
“…”
“Then I will ask again, Master.”

Atria, who embraced Advent, asked.

“What do you want to do? What do you want?”
“I am…”

I knew what I really wanted.
If so, isn’t the answer obvious?

“I am…”

●●●

A few days after that.
Kang-rim urgently summoned all her executives.