Chapter 763 – Trauma (1)

If you listen closely, the terrible sound of the raging motor in the sea can still vaguely resonate even now that you met Master.

-Slap, slap.

Ah.

The fishy smell of the sea.

Is it the intestines of a spoiled fish or the bloody smell of a child?

In the storage room of a large ship filled with children, adults speaking an incomprehensible language were busily walking around in pairs.

“… ?… !”

Is it Chinese?

How did I come here?

No matter how I searched through my memories, I could not find the starting point of this terrible tragedy.

Ebony’s memory is not accurate. In a way, it’s natural since I don’t even know his name.

What I remember is the children who were kidnapped together.

The children’s upside-down white eyes weren’t staring at anything in particular, but sometimes it felt like their eyes were glaring in this direction.

‘… ‘Oppa.’

It’s heavy, it hurts, and I don’t like it.

It reminded me of the family that took care of me when I was young.

A cargo ship leaving for a distant continent beyond its hometown her.

The children falling helplessly and the occasional laughter of adults was enough to drive Ebonyun into a mental breakdown.

‘Brother.’ I miss you. Where is it?’

The nape of my neck stings. No matter how much I scratched, the itching did not go away.

I was the only one in that room with my eyes open until the end… No, there were two?

Every time the adults entered the room, they would lift the children who were lying down and tie them out one by one. Now I know the terrible truth, but at the time, I was just vaguely aware of the children going home.

It seems like a precious person was with me, but all I can remember is a voice that hasn’t changed.

-Are you okay. Huh? Stay next to my brother.

-I’m sick.

-Hold on, hold on… Umm. Okay! My brother will go out and buy me ice cream.

Ice cream.

Yes, that person.

But no matter how much I searched my mind, my brother’s face did not come to mind.

I can only vaguely guess that I had people who were like family to me when I was young. In the end, after breaking up with my brother, I couldn’t talk to anyone.

Because it’s stuck in my mind. Even now that I lost my memory, my first memory is still a nightmare.

A memory that I can now muster up the courage to tell my loved ones.

… It must have been.

-Puck!!

“Stay still.”

A syringe gets stuck in the body.

When the needle pierces the vein and passes straight through the vein, something with large particles penetrates the muscle.

The feeling of a thin, thread-like bug gnawing inside the body and building a nest inside it.

Inside the transparent skin, a dark brown lump was wriggling and expanding its area.

‘Ah.’

What I didn’t want to think about was the death of the children in front of me.

The moment when I fell prone to an unknown injection and cried out my brother’s name with my self faint.

My brother was taking a step back, terrified by the sound of whimpering breathing.

Considering his age, this would be a natural reaction. Why?

At that time, I looked so miserable.

Pain is engraved in the body. The upper part of my solar plexus suddenly tightened, as if I had suffered sudden illness.

The pain I felt for the first time was scary. It was possible to feel betrayed by him for distancing himself from me, but the simple pain was much more painful.

The front turns white. On one arm, a disgusting shell swayed as if it had an ego.

The day I first lost consciousness.

Arms coiled and twitching to the sound of a large ship’s motor.

Leg. My legs.

I wanted to stop thinking about it.

* * * * * * * * * *

The road to the destination.

I was walking at a slow pace to listen to Ebony’s past, and something happened.

“…”

The reaction of the ebony who stopped walking was unclear. I caught a glimpse of the beginning of collapse and immediately grabbed Ebony’s shoulder.

Ebondan’s memories were full of inaccurate information.

Was he so shocked that he lost his memory, or was it erased by an external approach?

I had no way of knowing. What is certain is that Ebony’s body was shaking violently as she recalled the memory of her.

“Ebony.”

Even if I call, there is no answer.

“…”

“Ebony!”

Let’s embrace her delicate body and call out her name loudly. The guy’s cold shoulder twitched once.

“… ! Yes, Master.”

“Are you okay? “Can you keep talking?”

When I placed my hand on my forehead, it was as cold as ice and my eyes were moist.

It was the first time since the first meeting that the gentle and calm Ebony was so frightened.

No… In fact, more than then.

When I first met Ebonyi, it was different from how he tried to shake off his fear of me at a borderline.

A face that gave up even resistance after meeting something that was deeply feared.

Her breathing became heavy as she hunched her shoulders like a rabbit trapped in a hole.

“Are you okay. Are you okay… That is. It’s my first time talking to someone… “I was surprised.”

In the meantime, why does it seem so sad to me that he is trying his best not to cause worry?

I held the little ebony in my arms and calmed down for a while.

“Are you okay. Huh? “Stay next to me.”

I thought I was feeling much better, but my hands were shaking.

I held both of Ebony’s hands and held them close to my chest, sharing my breath and warmth with him.

“Nothing. I can overcome it.”

“…”

Panting breath.

Perhaps because my vision was dizzy, the lenses looking at me were not focused properly.

However, even in the panic, Ebony seemed to be able to hear my voice, and gathered courage, corrected her unsteady feet, lowered her head, and buried it in the back of my neck.

-Suddenly.

Convulsions that stop.

The cold ebony hand suddenly aggressively hugged the back of my neck.

Ebony raised his head in that state, and the expression on his face was something I saw for the first time after meeting him.

I was so scared that I was on the verge of tears, my nose turned red and my lips pursed.

Ebondan’s young feelings of wanting to lean on someone spread like a dandelion seed caught in the wind.

“… Uncle.”

Even the title has returned.

“Uncle Uncle…”

I asked again and again, soothing the ebony that was snuggling in my arms.

“Are you okay. You can talk slowly and deeply.”

“Yes. Yes… “I’ll try.”

If you stop here, you will only be revealing the trauma you had tried so hard to forget.

So that the disciple can overcome this without stopping. I guided him as best as I could.

“What was around?”

“There were children. Probably, if I infer from what I heard later… “Children under the age of six are best.”

Does being the best refer to the probability of success?

Flower’s experiment was taking place secretly even before I fell into Taoyuan.

“You were there, Ebony.”

“That’s right, I said I had the best aptitude… The other kids went outside. Maybe…”

“I would have died.”

We focus on reality rather than hope.

There was a high possibility that Eobdan’s family, who existed in my memories, would have died if they had not been able to break through there.

It’s all something Ebony must accept and move forward with.

Ebony swallowed in vain at the expression ‘dead.’ And nodded, hiccuping.

“That’s right… He must have died. It’s definitely true.”

I was given medication there.

I couldn’t overcome the pain and fainted.

It seemed like he had no recollection of the process of being kidnapped and boarding the ship.

I wiped Ebony’s tears with my sleeve and continued to pat her on the back.

“The next memory was of being in a laboratory.”

“… Yes yes. Because I woke up. In a pure white room…”

“Let’s stop here for now.”

It’s good to overcome trauma, but it’s not good to achieve too many things at once.

Until I even let go of the past that had bound my mind. I don’t know how long it took.

Once in an unexplored dungeon with the teacher.

Then, he looked into the future at the Dowon and later interacted with the crown to make amends.

No matter how hard I try, Ebony’s trauma won’t be able to be fixed all at once.

What’s important is this guy’s will.

He flicked his hand and performed a spell, and a wooden chair rose from the floor.

I made Ebony sit there, made a light bonfire, sat next to Ebony, and spent time hugging Ebony.

-Crash, crackle.

The sound of sparks popping in silence.

Ebony’s breathing gradually returned to normal due to the warmth, and I waited for Ebony to speak first.

Ebony closed his eyes because he couldn’t overcome the headache, and woke up after sleeping for quite a long time.

It was sad to see his face frowning as if he was in pain all the time he slept.

“!!!”

Ebony, who suddenly opens his eyes, pushes into my arms and shrugs his shoulders.

Then, when he saw my face, he was surprised and apologized in an awkward voice.

“Crime… Sorry. “Master.”

“There’s nothing to be sorry about.” That’s what trauma is.”

It’s a dark past that can’t even be compared to someone like me.

It was different from me, where the only thing I could do was to let go of my helplessness and guilt.

I suffered terrible pain. A guy who spent most of his life trapped in helplessness.

In the end, he was sold into slavery and almost met a terrible end.

‘As expected, it has changed drastically.’

How can a normal child’s mind change like this just by trying to uncover something in the subconscious?

Only three hours had passed since departure. The fact that he suffered from trauma at a somewhat absurd rate showed that there were many wounds festering inside him.

“Still, I’m sorry.”

“It’s really okay. If you’re already sorry, you’ll be in big trouble. “I will keep asking from now on.”

“… Do I really have to say it?”

“It’s hard, but it has to be done. “If you want to continue your revenge.”

Something you can’t think of, something you can’t think of.

I don’t know how many of them I can uncover.

I said it a little while ago. Make plural objects clear.

If you end it vaguely, you will only end up feeling uncomfortable, so you have to give it your all.

“This is an opportunity you worked hard for. “I was trying to make your wish come true.”

Let’s say you wish to become rich to the fairytale giant called ‘Aladdin’.

Perhaps the giant handed over a rough estimate of gold, but there was a good chance that it was not the amount of gold the man had imagined.

“But I am a good giant.”

They say they want to become rich.

So how much?

I was now handing out a blank check and trying to meet the demands of our cutie Aladdin Ebony as best as I could.

“…”

Ebony, who heard my shameless words, blinked and asked back.

“… What is it. “That is.”

“Good analogy. Right?”

“Even if you don’t say that, I know it all… “Master.”

But I got nervous when I heard something strange.

As I grinned, the ebony pursed his lips, checked his condition, and then opened his eyes.

It’s a lot better than before, but the anxiety still remains.

I could tell just by looking at Ebony, who had carefully kept a distance from me, sticking close to me.

“Now we just need some delicious food and alcohol here.”

“…”

“Let’s eat this.”

“This…”

Spicy suyubokki. H cup version.

For reference, there are sizes from A cup to I cup.

It is said that it is only indicated based on abundance or quality and has no other meaning.

Since they said they were going on a journey, Suyu brought plenty of food. It’s been a while since I thought it would be good to have tteokbokki, so I got it.

“Suyu’s sister used to eat it.”

“That’s right. Next to the envelope here, what if you pull the thread that looks like an instant car? That’s right.”

The envelope is full! It puffed up and became hot food in an instant.

When I opened the zipper and put it in a disposable bowl, tteokbokki of a quality that you could not even think of as an instant product came out.

‘Oh.’

This is really amazing.

The founder of Suyubokki didn’t become a huge success for no reason.

Light pink tteokbokki made with half warm wheat rice cake and half rice rice cake, topped with sweet milk sauce.

“Eat.”

“…”

I gave him a signal, but he sat still and looked at me.

In our Confucian Korea, I am afraid that Ebony is the best bride, so I take care of this kind of thing with great respect.

I picked up a toothpick, picked up a wheat rice cake, and put it in my mouth.

-Filth.

Soft and chewy texture as if it was just picked.

The spicy sauce stings her nostrils. It’s a little less spicy than Buldak, but the faintly fragrant scent of milk and the honey-sweet finish finishes off fantastically.

‘… ‘This.’

Feeding. Did you really put it in?

It’s almost similar to the one I sucked.

After hiding under a warm blanket all morning. Wouldn’t it taste like this if you pulled out a piece of fresh milk in the morning and made a sauce?

I was curious about the secret to keeping it fresh, and the science that went into it was unusual.

“… !”

“Is it delicious?”

Ebony liked it too, so I nodded.

Wouldn’t it be possible to forget the trauma for a while while eating food?

‘I heard that girls these days really like tteokbokki.’

Ebony is that age group.

Tteokbokki is quite tasty and disappears quickly despite the large portion.

“Hehe.”

“Ah. I’m sorry, Master. “I ate too much-“

“No, eat more.” “You can eat as much as I love.”

“… ?”

“It means you can eat it all.”

Is it because of the slightly disgusting way of speaking?

The corners of Ebony’s mouth her twitched slightly.