Chapter 869 – Dal-Rae’s Diary (3)

『Today’s corporal punishment was much less painful. Maybe it’s because the bruises have turned into solid wounds. The number of 50 attempts has almost been reached.

I’ll probably be able to spend three days off from tomorrow without any corporal punishment. First, I want to sleep in a little late today. Because I haven’t even had a daily life like that in recent years. I set the time on the betting machine to one hour and filled it with about 20 balls. No matter how tired I am, I won’t sleep for more than 20 hours.』

『When I woke up, all 20 balls in the betting machine were gone. How many more hours did you sleep there? First, I recorded that a day had passed. Because of extreme hunger, a day’s worth of food was crammed in at once.』

『I was writing a report in my spare time, and before I knew it, I had written down almost all the information about Geumhyang Shinga. I think I wrote down everything I could, including the secret structure of Geumhyang Shinga and information about the people who use the mansion.

If there was anyone I didn’t need to write down, it was just one person. She is Geum Na-ri, a younger sister who no longer lives with us, but disappeared a long time ago.
It seems like it’s probably somewhere around Dosihee, but I can’t pinpoint its whereabouts. Only with that child would I, who am currently useless, become useful again. If I had the chance to use my powers again, this time I wanted to stick with that man instead of the golden rose. I don’t know if that opportunity will come.』

『I thought about it a bit, but I stopped writing information about Geumnari for now. If the information is needed, the man will probably request it separately. Perhaps he may have written down information he did not know and caused confusion.

And if I wrote down information about the golden lily for no reason, it might be difficult to prove my usefulness. I don’t want to admit it, but that kid was definitely more capable than me. In fact, she was much more capable than that golden rose bitch. So no. I don’t know if it’s that girl with a bad personality, Golden Rose, but if there’s a girl with a good personality and abilities, I’ll definitely be discarded as a useless woman.

It was so unfair that my memory storage capacity was exhausted. If I could at least appeal to this ability, I could prove to that man that I am capable. Even if Golden Rose hadn’t been used by that bastard, he would still be around for a long time.

First, one thing is certain: the golden rose is now a rotten fruit. If you just submit the report I wrote so far to that man, it won’t be that difficult to oust at least one Golden Rose. The reason I followed the words of that bad-tempered woman until now was because she always won. I have no intention of cooperating with this loser who will soon be defeated.』

『The corporal punishment was already over three days ago, but the wounds are quite throbbing. The number of times I woke up tossing and turning while sleeping exceeded double digits.

Last time, the man treated the wound by massaging it roughly. In fact, he knew that if the only purpose was treatment, there was no need to massage so hard, but he just kept his mouth shut. Because he wanted the pain to end quickly rather than being sick.
I hope the man comes back soon and heals me. In fact, it is harder for him to bear being alone than being sick.』

『There are still two days left. I have to stay in this space alone for two days.

Even though I had completed the number of corporal punishments, I was so lonely that I activated the betting machine once. He positioned himself as if his arms were tied to the restraints, acted like he had given me the order in the first place, and took one hit.
It hurt terrible, probably because I was beaten two days after the self-imposed corporal punishment was over, but my loneliness was reduced a lot. But I don’t think I’ll ever do it again. At least you should avoid getting hit in a vital spot.』

『The first moment I received a week’s vacation, I was so happy that I felt like I could fly, but not now. I hope this wait ends as soon as possible. I was sick, lonely, and the only living thing in this space was so empty.

I missed that man. In fact, he wanted to see anyone, not just the man. He must have been a hateful man who trapped me in this space and even tortured me, but for some reason, I needed him so much right now. I wanted to prove to myself that I was not alone because I would rather be tortured more.

Next time that guy shows up, I’ll have to somehow prove my worth. I must have been neglected because I was of no use to that man now.』

『When are you coming? I think over 140 hours have already passed. Furthermore, I’m sure you don’t intend to return after completing all 168 hours.

To be honest, it’s even more painful to endure even an hour now. I sleep too much and can’t sleep. Furthermore, I thought I was a person who didn’t feel lonely. That wasn’t it. There was just no space to feel it.』

『When and when and when and when and when and when and when and when and when…』

-Palak. Palak.

“…”

The paper I just read was the last page. The last page of the diary that she was supposedly writing right before I returned to this room.

Also, it was right after that I noticed that No. 2, who was out of breath while supporting my body in the bridge position, had a strangely happy expression on his face.

“Haa, ha, haa… Tsk…”

“…”

… Really, it’s absurd.

I’ve always known that foundation women are strange on average, but this woman was particularly harsh. Maybe at a similar level to No. 1, or even higher.

Even that smiling expression didn’t mean that he realized anything like masochism, but simply meant that he was happy to relieve his loneliness. Because the description of not being able to endure the pain was written repeatedly in the diary.

However, it was the moment when I became convinced that this woman’s sexual fetish came from her bond with people, that she could endure such pain and suffering in order to relieve her loneliness.

‘Last time, I thought my mind was broken because I tortured him.’

Actually, that wasn’t the case. The mental state was broken from the beginning, and there is a high probability that the cause was Geumhyang Group or Geumrose.

And after finishing the last two weeks of training, it seemed that the place that that broken spirit could turn to was, paradoxically, not Geumjangmi or Geumhyang Group, but me.

‘Now that I think about it, I think this woman’s sexual fetish includes an item called ‘desire to win.’

Since less than a day has passed since she confirmed No. 2’s sexual fetish, she was able to review the contents of her sexual fetish as much as she wanted.

In this woman’s sense of time, roughly two weeks had passed, but in the outside world, it had only been about an afternoon.

She thought that if she checked the contents of her No. 2’s sexual fetish, she would be able to know how to deal with this woman, so she reopened the system window from earlier and checked.

『Sexual fetish: desire for victory, desire for fame, bond, desire for recognition, top position』

… It seems like some things have changed significantly.

I remember that before it was changed, it clearly had something like a butler harem written on it. Of course, it was only a short time after capturing No. 2.

However, if you look at Geum Dalrae’s current sexual fetish, it appears that such content has completely disappeared and a different desire has appeared instead. As if he was trying to claim that the contents of the diary I wrote and his inner feelings are consistent.

‘A sense of bond’ and a ‘desire for recognition’…’

Bonding is the desire to escape loneliness, and recognition is the desire to have one’s abilities recognized.

The fact that these two elements that were not present when I first saw them revealed themselves meant that this woman was desperate. She has a desire to overcome loneliness and be recognized as a useful woman.

… For some reason, I had an intuition that if I used this part well, I would have to put in a little less effort to treat this woman as if I were her limb.

‘If everything you wrote in your diary is true, then you are probably prepared to submit to me to some extent.’

To be precise, it’s just that this woman changed from giving in to her golden rose to me.

There was a high possibility that this woman’s desire to win was at work. Even if she becomes a bat-like bitch, she has the mindset to stick to the winning side.

And over the past two weeks of training, she seemed to have decided that in order to satisfy her own desire for victory, it would be better for her to submit to me rather than her golden rose. I’m not sure what process led to that decision.

‘If you are saying that you want to stick with me even though I imprisoned you and even tortured you…’

She was literally a bitch who would lie down on her stomach without worrying about her friends or allies for the sake of victory.

It’s not reliable, but it’s really the perfect personality to just use. The first step of my plan to destroy the Geumhyang Group using the two women was going smoothly.