Chapter 149 – 149. Non-Affection

With a rumbling feeling that jumped through space, I managed to return to the present world once again by riding through the portal that Charles had opened.

In her own space that Nyarlathotep had forcibly dragged her into, I prepared a turning blow, loaded black flames into the bullets through Soul Spark, and, of course, used it to kill everything that appeared.

However, apart from that, even though I killed him by burning him with black flame, the remnants of him, the remnants of his soul, were being absorbed into me, and I was currently sitting on the ground collecting the power of Niyog-Sotep that was being absorbed into me.

“Accept it calmly, Clark. It’s a force that you should have absorbed in the first place, but it’s a force that has now come to you.”

“A power that Clark must absorb?”

“Star beings absorb the power of their parents. It is an inheritance of power, and I inherited that power from my mother, but Clark’s mother, Niyog-Sotep, ran away long ago because she did not want to die.”

That’s how my sister answered Elizabeth’s question, and I absorb this force flowing through my body.

In the first place, it was nice to have this kind of power.

As I sat down, I could see that my dog-like energy was trying to encroach on my body. No, to be honest, I have no idea because this is my first experience like this.

My sister placed her hands on my body and, using her own power, little by little, controlled the energy of Niyo G-Sothep, which was running rampant inside my body and trying to erode my magic circuit.

“… And Clark’s motherly powers, unlike mine, are running amok, actively trying to devour her own son’s body.”

“Wait, isn’t that dangerous!?”

“That’s okay. Because I’m there. Even if I’m not there, Clark’s body will react on its own and eat it up. If that happens… He’ll run wild for a while.”

As I listened to my sister’s words, I felt as if my skin itself was boiling. Something that is trying to eat away from my skin and from my core continues to react to me by reacting with the power of Niyog-Sotep, and is trying to erode into my magic circuit.

As my skin turns black with this power, there are monsters that gradually invade it.

The beast roared at the people who came in as if they were going to rape their brains, irritating their ears with a crunching sound.

Kaaaaah-!!!

The beast inside is suppressing and devouring it. The monsters on my skin were making crunching noises and rushing into my mind in an attempt to subjugate the beast, and some of them were staying behind me and trying to destroy my reason.

And I knew why my mother wanted to eat me.

These were trying to break down my body, my magic, and my power into something easier to digest, and they were trying to break down my body and all of my power. Such terrible pain exists. I would rather not get covered in body fluids from my loafers, it was just unbearable.

He was playing with my skin from start to finish so that someone could eat it, and only when it was time for him to eat it did he try to use it.

And I was angry and angry at the fact that it was my damn mother. And I couldn’t be easily eaten by this, and what I did was set my skin and my entire body on fire.

“Sister…Now, wait…Are you going to burn me with fire? Is treatment…Possible?”

“Don’t worry. I’ll treat it like new again.”

“Wait a minute, Clark! You mean you’re burning your own body!?”

My sister has already figured out what I want to do and prepares magic according to my wishes. In fact, the magic my sister prepared was no different.

Through the sacrificial lamb ritual, he uses the life force of one of his children as collateral to take the damage and wounds I would receive instead.

It is a method that only the older sister can use, and these are actions that only the older sister can do because she is the owner of the lambs and the mother of the lambs who tend the sacrificial lambs.

And although Elizabeth tried to dissuade me by saying that I was burning myself, I instead showed her that I was gradually turning into the hands of a monster rather than a human.

“…I’m going to turn into a monster and go on a rampage like this. I didn’t have any expectations for my mother who tried to eat me…But this is really painful. .”

I spoke to Elizabeth while suppressing my screams, and at some point, I felt that my hands holding the floor were turning into those of the beast inside me again.

The beast is also in pain. I won’t be eaten, but if this continues, I’ll turn into an animal and run wild. I could also see that I was desperately resisting the energies that were trying to destroy my reason and destroy my magic circuit, and that I was suppressing my own instincts.

Therefore, I have to deal with this right away, for my sake and for myself, before the beast inside me runs amok, suppressing my instincts as much as possible.

“…It’s eating away at my body, and I’m proof that the [Guy] In my body is trying to fight back against this. And, I don’t want it to be like this. I really hate it. This “By the looks of it, the way I lost my mind, I ate my father. I don’t want to end up like that. And I don’t want people around me to see that.”

“That-“

“…And it was that damn bitch who was playing tricks on my skin. She said it was my mother. In this way, she was playing games with my skin to make it easier for her to digest – she made them run wild with her tricks and kill me. “I don’t want to lose to those who try to manipulate me as they please – to the dogs who give birth as they please and then discard them as they please.”

Elizabeth is silent for a moment.

It only lasts a moment, then Elizabeth lifts her sword and sinks it into the ground.

“…Don’t let it go…Ka-“

It’s a hassle to repair it later.

“…If you’re going to scold me, deal with it all and then scold me. Instead, no one can come around here.”

“…”

We used to do it like this back then too.

He stayed behind us as we went to deal with Diabolus, protecting the back of the party from numerous troops and remaining alone.

I pull Carol off.

And as soon as they removed Carol, she also transformed into a humanoid, and the people inside were appearing one by one due to the commotion in the vacant lot of the dorm.

“Master?!”

Even Anna appeared.

“…Anna, it will be over soon. I need to burn my body right now, burn everything inside my body. Please, I will do it. Here…No one can come…”

Anna must have seen Elizabeth’s expression as she looked at her body changing and contorted in pain, nodding her head.

I don’t know what Elizabeth looks like now.

But – I’m sure she doesn’t want to see this either. You don’t want to see the way I burn myself.

“…What is it? Can I at least help reduce the pain? Even if it’s just a dream, I can make that pain go away-“

Merlin speaks to me. Throwing away pain into a dream. But I won’t do that.

It’s like having your emotions castrated. Blowing the pain away beyond my dreams doesn’t allow me to even engrave it into my resolve, nor the emotional high it brings.

That’s why I refused.

I remembered what Dick had said before.

-Some crazy guy sleeps on firewood for revenge, and he says he tastes gall.

-Humans are creatures that shrink when there is no pain. There are people who make themselves suffer for the sake of revenge and instead of erasing the scars, they remember them. That mental trauma can help you achieve your goals, but it is also a double-edged sword that hurts you.

-For your information, because of that, I couldn’t even hug the women who were running towards me while having sex with me.

-I had erectile dysfunction.

Even if I skip the last dick-down remarks,

Not only have I not yet gotten enough revenge on those who tried to play with me, but this is only the beginning. I don’t want to pass it off as a dream and pass over the pain, and I don’t want to be kind to myself by having a harsh attitude toward it.

“I don’t like the fact that I can throw away pain in a dream and then not feel any pain in this life. I refuse. This pain, this anger, this heart – it’s all mine.”

I will not throw it into the other side of my memory, thinking it was just a dream. I will survive with this engraved in my heart. Anger towards my mother who gave birth to me. And I will move forward, breaking the fingers of those who try to shake me from their grasp.

I scold myself.

That’s why I created a flame in my hand.

The skin is boiling and grotesque in appearance. It’s trying to invade my body somehow, but it’s blocked by the body’s defense system and can’t go any further. My skin is already on the verge of melting, and in order to stop myself from burning myself and blackening myself from my skin-

I burned myself.

Grrrr form

“…!!!”

My whole body is on fire in an instant. All the clothes I was wearing were on fire, my skin, muscle cilia, and subcutaneous fat were on fire, and my eyeballs were on fire. In this extremely grotesque scene, the monsters in my body were all on fire. The insects in the energy that were trying to be absorbed by stamping on Niyog-Sotep’s family and followers were burned to death by the intense heat before they could jump out of my body.

Parasitic organisms that try to invade a host do not actually kill the host.

Unless the host tries to kill itself.

And as a result of the recoil, it tried to seep into my body even more intensely, but the beast inside reacted faster than that, and my flame burned them all up faster.

My body was still on fire, and I was enduring this pain as my subcutaneous fat burned and even my muscles burned.

As soon as I burned down the last bug that tried to burrow into my body until the end, I evolved my magic and my sister held me with her hand as I burned. Her gloves, a combination of my sister’s silk and fishnet that go up past her elbows, are not burned, and her sister’s hands dig into my burned skin and her burned body.

It didn’t feel any pain.

My body accepted my sister’s touch as if we had been one from the beginning, and at the same time, I had to watch as all the wounds on my body disappeared. Little by little, my vision begins to return, and as the burned organs, muscle tissue, skin, and nerves begin to come back to life, the immense pain begins to return to me.

“…”

Anna and Carol were watching the scene, holding on tightly to the hem of her skirt and keeping a watchful eye on their surroundings, while Elizabeth continued to watch over me.

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The cries of lambs can be heard.

And from beyond my field of vision, I hear voices calling to me, along with my sister reaching out to me. I can’t understand these words now, but my older sister was looking down at me and stroking me gently.

The lambs who shared my wounds were recovering before any wounds even formed on their bodies, and I could see them scrambling to beg their mother, older sister, to use them for me.

And the sight of them complaining to their mother, saying that they would share the pain with each other, was Jin-guk.

Among them, Nug and Yev were the two who shared my pain, and the sight of them recovering even before the burns and burns on their bodies appeared here and there.

In the world outside the dimension, the world beyond the material world, such things were happening.

` Hehe, take your time. There will be many times in the future when you will share your father’s wounds.”

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Children’s voices.

The sound of sheep bleating is heard.

Meeeee-

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The bleating of sheep wakes me up. The sound of crying, which would drive ordinary people crazy when they hear it, awakens my spirit and strengthens my spirit. Finally, enduring the pain, burning away all remnants of my own contamination, I extinguished the flame in my body.

And…

“…Master?!”

“Master, is your skin…?”

“K…K?”

And then, for the first time, I see two hands in my field of vision.

I could see my body, my hands and legs, which were as white as my father’s skin, and as I looked at them, I realized once again that it was my mother who had been modifying my body all this time, and at the same time, all of this was living and holding me. I had to remember in my bones the heartlessness of eating.

And women who look at me and are surprised at my changes.

Anna’s surprise was especially surprising as she had been looking at me for a long time, but Elizabeth also looked at me with wide eyes.

“Are you okay Clark!? How are you? Does it hurt anymore?”

After sheathing her sword, Elizabeth came towards me, held my face, and looked here and there, tears welling up in her eyes as if she was worried.

I didn’t mean to make her cry, but I really didn’t want to do something like this. The reason she was able to endure it like this was because she was a woman who had been on the battlefield making more difficult choices, and we had made such bold choices without hesitation during the expedition we were on together, and because we knew each other well.

This is because they have now gone beyond that and have become a relationship more precious than each other’s lives.

“For now, yes, but I’m exhausted. That’s all.”

There’s no way you’ll get tired after such a fierce battle.

Starting with the self-proclaimed adversary, he kicked Pierre, who turned into a monster called Alskari, and entered Nyarlathotep’s stomach, only to escape with Charles’ help.

Fighting in the enemy’s space was crazy, but because my sister was there, I took a bold stance, but before my sister could fight, Demon Sultan’s Chosen intervened and put an end to the situation.

What on earth are they thinking?

Dick has clear orders to look after me and takes on the role of guardian, but I have no idea what the others think.

“…I’m a little tired.”

“You worked hard, Clark. Burning your body wasn’t an easy decision, but you worked hard.”

I see my sister’s fingers, which were holding her hand on my body, also coming out of my body, and they too are being filled. My older sister’s grinning body was filled with some unknown emotion, elation, and fulfillment, but I had no intention or energy to pursue it at the moment.

Above all, her magic, which caused the suffering of others to be inflicted on herself and her family, impressed those around her that her older sister was her Shubni Guras and her sheep witch.

“From now on, don’t do anything like that again, okay?”

“…I won’t do it even if you tell me. I don’t want to do something like this because I don’t want to have anything to do. I don’t want to do something crazy like this more than once. I was so angry when these bastards tried to eat away at my magic circuit.”

“…So does that mean I can’t use magic again?”

And I activated the magic circuit in response to that… Huh?

“…?”

And apart from that, the magic circuit was no longer working, and apart from that, the sight of Elizabeth tilting her head as she looked surprised that she could use magic without the magic circuit.

“No, nothing. I can use magic normally.”

Is it not the magic circuit anymore, but magic itself that has become my power?

It wasn’t even a soul spark, it just became my power itself.

And the magic circuit simply existed in my body, and I was able to discover another truth hidden in the magic circuit.

It was my father’s magic circuit, and this…

In addition to absorbing assistance to help my body absorb the new energy, it also includes a protective barrier to protect my body from things that try to erode my body.

…

Father.

I could see my father’s final consideration. And because my father left me more. And it brings tears to my eyes.

Just raise your head and look at the sky.

It was a damn clear winter sky.

The time was already approaching noon, and I, barely suppressing my longing for my father, removed my magic circuit from my body.

“Clarke?”

And looking at the spheres filled with countless circuits inside me, Elizabeth was expressing her doubts and I passed them on to my sister.

“Keep that well, sister.”

You can give it to Elizabeth, but it still needs repairs in many ways to give it to her. As if she understood my intention, my sister also nodded and placed my magic circuit in the music box.

“You don’t need it anymore, the magic circuit.”

“…Because I can now use magic like this without that. And…I really miss my father. He…Stayed here and continued to protect me. “

“…”

I didn’t say anything after that.

My sister knows best how I feel at this moment, when my disgust for my birth mother, who was full of cruelty, and my father, who tried to protect me even if it was only for his convenience, intersect.

My older sister also respected my father and followed him as much as I did, to the point where she sought out and punished all those responsible for causing my father’s death.

Rumbling!

Once again, I feel a huge flame rising underground.

Has an hour passed?

It seems that Leonidas tore up the scroll immediately after an hour had passed.

And I finally realized that only one case had been processed, and I told my sister.

“…My older sister had a harder time. Those kids.”

“Hehe, don’t worry too much. All of my [Children] Are demons. Instead, they are begging me to make them suffer your pain?”

“…”

And I look at the pendant Charles threw to me. The remains of the mother went into this, and I have this. First of all, I was almost completely naked, so we immediately touched each other’s hands, and as soon as we met, I made a noise and put on the extra clothes I had prepared.

Clothes that are comfortable to move around in. I changed into a somewhat heavily armored outfit for a wizard, including black leather pants and a sleeveless t-shirt, white leather armor and breast guard, and got up from my seat and at the same time-

With the impact of shattering the dimension, I saw Dick putting on his wolf mask and holding onto Merlin’s neck.

“What kind of excuse did you come crawling in here, you fucking bitch?“

And I know that Dick has never been this furious before.

And-Merlin said, raising her hand towards me.

“Uh, hey- can you save me?”

“…What did you do that Dick grabbed you by the collar?”

“…I showed you a nightmare from the past.”

You say that leisurely again.

“It’s worth dying for.”

Judging by what Dick said and what this woman was doing now, I knew that Dick must have had a not so easy life as I knew part of the dream, and I can’t believe she showed me that.

I have only one review.

I deserved to die.

And although Merlin says it’s unfair, I have only one evaluation.

“Wow, you deserve to die.”

“I picked someone else’s scar, and even if it was me, I would have killed them.”

What if you showed me the moment I ate my father?

“I don’t know, but I won’t kill you. Really.”

Of course, he touched someone else’s trauma, but as soon as he saw it, he didn’t kill him and grabbed him by the collar. Doesn’t that show how much of a saint Dick is?

If it were me, I would just kill him on sight.

Just like I did to my mother.

And just looking at her not killing her here, Dick…

The original Dick certainly wasn’t this violent.

“If you’re going to hit her hard enough, just hit her and let her go. I have a lot of questions to ask that woman.”

“Do you think I have a reason not to kill this bitch?“

“I need it now.”

“…Tsk.“

In the end, he looked at me and Merlin alternately, then immediately threw Merlin towards me. Even though he acted like he was going to hit me, he didn’t hit me in the end and just threw it at me. I’ll say it again, Dick is a saint.

Okay.

If it ended with the person who showed us his nightmare not even hitting him, but just grabbing him by the collar.

Because I will never be able to do it.

And he grabs it and grabs his two shoulders.

“…Clarke, this is too much. Such a pretty woman is being grabbed by the collar and you’re not helping.”

“Because I am a person who deserves to be punished if I do something worthy of being punished. And it doesn’t matter whether it is a child, a woman, or an old man.”

“We are in a country under the rule of law, is that so?”

“Do you know why civilized people are ruder than barbarians? It’s because they don’t break their heads even when they do rude things.”

That’s right.

He says he can do that because he won’t die, and he won’t die even if he does something like that.

“Hey, I see?”

As she said that, Merlin suddenly broke away from her and stood up straight, taking her stance. Meanwhile, those pink-violet eyes observing me were looking at me with amusement,

Dick also put on his wolf mask and spoke to me.

And that too while looking at my skin intensively.

“…But you, why has your skin become so pale?”

“…”

“You can’t make fun of Geumtaeyang anymore.”

Damn, is that why you’re surprised?

There are many things that need to be explained.

Really.

A pendant given by Charles.

Then I held up the pendant and said to Dick.

“Underwater, Nyarlathotep, Pierre, and even Charles.”

“…Did you meet that guy?”

“We didn’t fight, though.”

“…There must be a lot to talk about. You worked hard. You really got it done in just an hour. We have a lot to settle. Don’t you think so, Clark? “With the Kampfs and the Demon King’s heir.”

It should be so.

“Thank you for telling me. I was so tired I almost forgot.”

No matter how many times you go, you can’t forget to beat up the bastards who screwed up other people.

Luffy, Eris, Carnetia. Other than that, all the other black kampfs.

“…Okay, fuck it. I have to settle the bill… It’s a lot, isn’t it?”