Chapter 252 – 251. Scar (1)

If you’re a man, there are times when you have to do it even if you know you’re going to get screwed.

Like right now.

Inspection and recovery, traces of destruction here and there.

I put all of that away.

After dawn, once again in the morning, I gathered people into the labyrinth.

Starting with Elizarote, Anna, Oinone, Lucy, and Nia. Carnesia, Tio.

Hector and Arash.

Ilias and his followers.

Finally-

Even Gawain is grabbing me by the collar and punching me.

And that fist is aimed squarely at me, towards my face.

Whoa!!

“Ouch.”

“What did you do to my sisters Clark!!!”

As expected, as soon as I showed this to him, he got angry like a dog.

I can understand because Gawain showed his love for his sister throughout the journey.

I didn’t feel any pain anyway, and it didn’t hurt because I used a technique to absorb and drain the shock from my body, but even so, my brother’s angry fist was enough to make my nose bleed.

Therefore, it was my responsibility to raise my hand and stop those who ran in front of me and tried to hit Gawain.

Anyway, showing this and getting Gawain into a state where we could barely talk to him and Gawain getting angry are two separate things.

Naturally, the older brother who saw his younger sisters getting hurt ended up doing just one thing.

Okay.

This is how I beat up the person who made these girls like this with my fists.

Long, from dusk to dawn.

This is despite the fact that only one-third of all the pain Gawain experienced was applied.

Just because he went through all this pain and came back here, his will deserves to be respected, and he deserves to punch me.

I tolerate him because he is this guy and not someone else.

“Relax~ Relax. Lorraine, stay back. Anna, put the knife in. Nia, put the fang in. Lucy, the labyrinth is getting hot, so calm down.”

“Master, the knight of Camelot, master-“

“Put it away. Since when did you start criticizing your teacher’s words, you stupid student?”

“Only in times like this are you using your teacher’s power to suppress you?”

“Yes, if you do it, you will graduate.”

“No really.”

What should I do?

It was Lorraine who said she would remain as a disciple until the end and refused to become independent.

“Don’t think that I will graduate.”

Pestilence.

“I will follow you until the end. As Master said, I will endure it for now, but don’t think I will just overlook this. I will definitely make you pay.”

Lorraine complains loudly, and Anna agrees with Lorraine and tries to pull out her knife.

Of course I don’t allow it.

Now, it is not good to see them suddenly seeing Gawain as an enemy and trying to kill him.

At least, this is not what I want, it is a basic and natural action that we can do as humans.

If my family gets hurt and I don’t get angry when I see it, I will be disappointed in Gawain and hate him.

Being a cold-blooded person who won’t even bat an eyelid when a close family member gets hurt is useful as a temporary work partner, but is not at all suitable as a friend who will be with you forever.

“Master, Lorraine is right. This is-“

Before Anna draws her sword, she places her hand on his hand.

She shook her head at Anna, who was startled but didn’t stop trying to pull out her knife.

“Stick it back. I definitely didn’t give you permission to swing the knife, Nia, don’t pull out the spider web, and stick your fangs in there too.”

With her left hand, she holds Nia tightly.

“…Master, I don’t want to see you beaten by a [Burrow] Like this. And, if you hit me, you will have to pay the price-“

“Calm down.”

“…How do I calm down…”

She looked me in the eye for a moment, and then I guess she realized what I was thinking. Nia quietly closes her mouth and withdraws.

Lastly, Lucy.

“Really, I can’t…Kya!?”

Grab her tail.

As always, Lucy’s weak point was her tail.

There are times when I don’t catch it, and when I do, not only does it make a face that feels strange for some reason, but it also puts me in a bad mood.

“Calm down Lucy. It was all expected.”

“…Ugh, I never thought that catching the tail would stop me from getting angry…”

“If you don’t calm down, I’ll keep fiddling with you.”

“Ah, okay!!! I’ll step back so stop!!”

It should have been like that a long time ago.

Naturally, it is my role to calm down the followers and push them back.

The rest, Elizarote and Oinone, also look at Gawain with a very unfavorable gaze, but Elizarote nevertheless shows an expression of understanding-

Oinone seems to be looking for medicine to apply to me.

There is no need for such a thing.

If you give it to me, should I take it?

Carnesia also widens her eyes when she sees Gawain, but it is unreasonable for her to stand up to Gawain as she has not yet made a contract with the Spirit King.

Unfortunately, Gawain’s skills were so strong that even if he faced Mars, he would not be far behind.

Anyway, after beating up Gaheris and Gareth to the point where we could barely have a conversation, I saw the two of them crouching in the corner, scared to even make eye contact with me, and then I saw Gawain punching me without hesitation. Harris is watching them both.

Yes, this is what an older brother should look like.

It’s not like you’re just an older brother.

“Yes, yes, you can throw more punches. That’s the right attitude for an older brother. Throwing a punch at someone who hurt your sisters is the right attitude for an older brother who cares for his younger sisters.”

Even if the target is strong, extending your fist without hesitation is true chivalry against the strong.

“Are you mocking me?”

“I’m not being sarcastic.”

“Are you doing this without saying anything?”

“Then did you at least tell me to do something like that? Oh, it’s really surprising. Is this just the common logic that I can do it and you can’t? Is this really the duty of a knight of Camelot, or is it something that the human Gawain didn’t know about? Is it a part?”

“You son of a bitch!!!”

In the end, it was Anna who caught Gawain’s fist, unable to bear it anymore.

Naturally, Anna can’t beat anyone with her fists.

“Huh!?”

“Anna, let go.”

And that is why Gawain, whose fist is now being held, is in pain. That’s why I tell Anna to let go.

“Master, this is-“

“Do I not sound right? I told you to leave it alone. Your master [Clarke – Dawn Bringer] Told you here, but what I said didn’t sound like words, it just sounded like bullshit, don’t you think?”

And although Anna tried to protest against me, unable to control her anger towards Gawain, who threw her fist at me without hesitation, I did not let her step forward this time and made her back down.

Well, I guess I should have beaten these two.

So, it was ruined in a different way, and to the point that conversation was possible to some extent, it erased the hostility towards me and instilled [Fear] In me.

Until you answer the question correctly.

If you didn’t answer, they beat you until you did and made that pain into your memory.

The result is this.

I look at Gawain again.

Those burning eyes are eyes that want to tear me to shreds if they can.

“…I guess he didn’t like it because I beat him up even though he said we were talking. But what should I do with this? There was no way.”

“There was no way? I didn’t even think about what I said-“

“Oh, really? But why, I don’t want to do it. You’re urging me to do something you don’t want to do, but you don’t even accept what I do, right?”

“Did we have to do this to the injured children?!”

“So you don’t think I did it like this?”

A large knight growling fiercely looks down at me and says.

If it were me, there might have been another way.

Shouldn’t we also think about the perspective of those who are expected to do what they want?

Of course, I understand the feelings of people who feel like grabbing their pants, and since it was a request from a friend who had been with me for 5 years, not a stranger, I could have just ignored it, but I paid some attention to it.

When this happened, her brother, who loved her sister so much, was prepared that her fists would not fly.

Still, I have something to say.

“Their minds have already been broken a long time ago. Even though they look fine, they have to somehow bite off what they think is their enemy. If they don’t bite, their [Family] Will get hurt. Their friends will get hurt. They’ve been gaslighted like this and pushed around. It’s a state.”

“You said you couldn’t manipulate minds. When you saw that-“

“It’s only possible to look at it. Disturbing the mind or manipulating the memory will make the taste go away. It’s better not to touch it at all. If you can’t get better, it’s better.”

“…There must have been another way. If there was such a thing-“

If you saw it, you might be wondering why you did it this way.

As a result, they became wild beasts, true wild beasts that bite what they are told to do and will stop at nothing to achieve it.

After getting hit hard for attacking Carnesia, he even seemed to focus on me again.

Since the only person he can and should target is me, he focuses on me, and uses all kinds of dirty methods to call me a knight, even pretending to cry and trying to kill me when I pretend to let down his guard.

In the end, all that was needed to completely break these temperaments was violence.

Conversation.

ConversationLa.

I did this while continuing to talk.

If they are in a state to talk Well, shall we come? I have no choice but to say this, but at least I will definitely answer the question.

If you don’t answer a question, they will definitely yell at you and kill you.

Not only was it not because I wanted to do this, but the human spirit was shattered and collapsed.

I don’t have enough time to keep holding on to these two, and there’s no reason to leave the bomb alone.

If Gawain gets angry about that, I will humbly accept it, but Gawain still doesn’t understand why he had to do this.

“…ObsessionAnd GaslightingThat seems quite funny. If you don’t follow, you will die. This is what happened because you didn’t follow those who were being killed! “They say they’ve been through this for a whopping 7 years.”

“…These two’s minds can’t be that weak-“

What do you not know?

Of course, this is a story that those who have not experienced it will never know.

I was a person who got really angry and beat up everyone just because I was different from others and had a different appearance after endless bullying, but until then, my life was full of depression.

And the only thing that can break that gaslighting is resistance.

“The knight can’t be that weak-minded. These kids-“

“Just being harassed for more than a month can be so painful that it drives one crazy, and they’ve been going through that for a whopping 7 years.”

After being bullied like that, Lorraine wandered around Magia with dead eyes. No one took Lorraine as her disciple, they only ridiculed her, despised her, and insulted her, and no one recognized Lorraine’s worth.

If you think about Lorraine, who has been reduced to a tool to boost their own low self-esteem, the fact that they have maintained this spirit even after being treated like this for 7 years shows that they are truly mentally strong.

That’s a mental drip.

Gawain, do you think everyone is strong like you?

He’s not stupid.

People simply make the very common mistake of thinking that if they do that, then others will do the same.

In the end, he couldn’t bear even a third of Gawain’s pain and gave in.

Gawain is truly strong because he endured it all.

“Do you know what I mean? Camelot has made it easy for them to do what they want and like by making them into idiots.”

Once ordered, capture or kill [Golden Sun].

The actions he took to keep that order were so barbaric and despicable, and the way he fought while claiming to be a knight was, to be honest, at a level that would make it difficult to call him a knight with his eyes open.

If Gawain had seen him, he would have said he was not worthy of a knight.

Well, I’m glad I didn’t see that.

Perhaps he would have hurt Gawain even more, saying, “What the hell is wrong with me?”

There is only one reason why I face Gawain’s fist in front of them.

In order not to destroy the memories of their older brother who protected them when they were young.

With that, I was able to engrave Gawain in their memories once again and make them recognize him.

-Oppa… Oppa… It… Hurts so much…

-Brother…It hurts…It hurts…

These were the words he uttered whenever he was almost on the verge of death.

Naturally, these two, as they said, were missing Gawain, and that was why they hoped that Gawain would protect them and save them.

In her pain, she hopes her brother will save her sisters.

I pushed these two so thoroughly that my mind briefly reverted back to my childhood, and I kept reminding them of them and causing them pain, over and over again.

“…No, why on earth!!! Why is this happening-“

“Do you know why? It’s the best way for a new power to subdue existing vassals and make them do as they want. There was no need to insist on another path when there was a faster way, or they didn’t even think about anything else. This method was “The person who thinks he’s the best did it, and I tried it too and it worked really well, right?”

“…Clarke, Dawn Bringer- you!!!”

The hand holding my collar clenches tightly.

“You have to tear out the festering wound so that you can also save the parts that can be saved, Gawain. Isn’t it too conscienceless of you to leave that festering wound as is and hope it gets better?”

Whoa!!

Once again, fists fly.

What-

It may be true that he cannot forgive me for knowingly hurting and causing pain to his younger sisters.

Okay.

So what?

“Besides, they treated my student like a bastard. Is there even one reason for me to treat him well? Think about it, Gawain. What have the bastards of Camelot done to my student, beyond what you think? I have done all this to him. “Do you really want me to let it go to you two? Really?”

“You already did it!!”

“…I’ve already done it. If I tried to screw you up, it would never end like this. You who were with me didn’t know that? Are you pretending not to know even though you don’t know, or don’t want to admit it? You threw these beasts at me andEat itShould. “I understand, but you have no conscience.”

“Clarke!!!”

Tsk.

I’m getting tired of being beaten all the time.

Sigh!!!

“…Huh!?”

Hold your fist.

The hand holding the collar also applies force.

“Let go.”

And the hand that held that hand, the fist, was thrown away.

I wanted to keep hitting him, but if he kept getting hit, it seemed like the people behind him would eventually lose their self-control, so if he just gets hit here, Gawain will really die.

He pushes away, and at the same time, Gawain is pushed away.

…

“I stopped him from going on a rampage. And in return for being such a half-asshole now, well, if you want to blame me, feel free to do so. If you want to use it to mourn your sisters for becoming like this, then do it. If you think I am wrong, I can always raise that sword and attack you. Come forward and aim.”

No matter what choice I make with this, I will regret it, but I will endure it.

Okay.

…

Even if we had no choice but to fight like this, I couldn’t stand to see families fighting among themselves.

I look at Elizarote.

And, he gave an order to Hector.

“Hector, please protect Elizarote. I will remain calm, but you never know.”

“…You, no, that’s it. Follow orders.”

“Elizalotte, if you have any questions, ask them, and organize the information. It will be helpful to the resistance.”

Eliza Lotte looks at me with the same gray eyes as her sister.

I don’t know what those gray eyes are thinking, but they ask me while looking at the area where I was hit.

“Is that okay?”

“It doesn’t hurt. It looks like a blood vessel burst due to the shock.”

“…Really?”

“…I don’t know what you’re talking about, but yeah, really.”

“…How can it be the same as what you said?”

After hearing Elizarote say that, I somehow miss her.

Liz, you carry so many things around, but are you worrying about me in so many ways?

Even during the journey, I would exchange greetings with her younger brother through letters.

…

I don’t know how to talk about myself to my younger brother and family, but I hope there are no strange misunderstandings.

“You may have heard something strange, but forget it. And don’t spit it out.”

“…Are you sure?”

I left Eliza Lotte, who was sticking out her tongue, saying I knew that would happen, behind her, and gave an order to Ihot, who was waiting for my order next to me.

However, he still looks at Gawain with fierce eyes and looks like he’s going to chew him up.

I hope you don’t see it that way.

Because I understand how the older brother feels about having younger sisters.

To put it bluntly, if my sister had been like this, she would never have been able to maintain her senses.

“Ihot, let me out when the interrogation is over.”

“Before that, this is my plea, but I fucking-“

“Watch your mouth. This is my colleague. [Not yet].”

“…I understand. Master-“

Okay.

…

This is it.

In order to restore relationships between families, friends can also play villains.