Chapter 563 – Changes in Common Sense (14)

From my days as an idol until now, Siwoo has given me courage whenever I was having a hard time. Really sweet and caring… My manager who supports me. I liked Siwoo oppa because he was that kind of person. No, I loved it beyond liking it. If this man… I confessed my feelings, thinking that it would be okay for us to be together for the rest of our lives.

Fortunately, Siwoo oppa had the same feelings as me.

“I’m sorry, Yeji.”
“… Huh.”
“Now is the time to focus on movies.”
“Huh… “
“So, why don’t we start dating after that?”
“… Yes?!”
“I’ll confess first then.”
“Brother… Yes, I’ll wait!”

Brother Siwoo said he had no choice but to reject me because he loved me, and asked me to wait a little longer. As expected, my brother was a trustworthy man. He is someone who cares more about my future than me. He is someone who cares more about my life than me. This man… You can never miss it. At that time, I was truly moved. My older brother was really cool back then.

-Taaaaa!
“You crazy bastard! Haha… Shii, get away from me!”

But my current brother was not like that.

The increase in skinship and frequent requests for kisses… It’s something that can happen if you’re in love, so I held on to it even if I didn’t like it… Not this. Why, why… Did you attack me? Brother Si-woo climbed on top of me without saying a word and tried to rape me. He was glad he had prepared his mind just in case. I was able to escape safely from the pervert.

“Yes, Yeji?”
“Ugh… Are you really crazy? “Are you out of your mind?!”
“No, I…” “
“How… “How could you do that to me?!”
“… What?! “What did I do so wrong?!”
“Ha?”
“Isn’t it okay to have sex with people you love?”
“… What, what?!”
“That’s right. “Are we in high school?”
“Buy… “We’re not even dating!”
“We promised to date!”
“Still… “Don’t you know that doing something without consent is rape?!”
“Then you were planning to do it with Gamdeokbae under an agreement?!”
“… “What?”
“You don’t want to deal with that bastard either! It’s a first experience that only comes once in your life… Do you want to be with that guy? Even though I decided to date him? No matter how important the movie is… Yeji, I will never see you like that. Just do it with me first, okay? “You like it better too.”
“Brother… “

It felt as if Ryu was looking at Haito, not Siwoo.
There was nothing in his tone of voice, facial expression, or logic that was not dull.

I know you want to be the first person to become your girlfriend, but… Then tell me honestly from the beginning! There must be a minimum mood! They attacked me without any preparation and failed… It was so disgusting that I was screaming like that, it made me nauseous. This was the first time I had these feelings towards Siwoo oppa.

“Oppa, is sex that important?”
“…What?”
“Did you only want to date me for sex?”
“No, that’s not it… “
“Recently, brother… Do you know what was really disgusting? Why do I keep touching my leg while driving? Huh? Why do you keep touching my breasts while kissing? See, what kind of toy am I? “Don’t you think about how I feel about having to deal with it every day?!”
“Yes, Yeji… “
“Besides, what? He suddenly comes to me and asks me to have sex? You think it would be better that way? Ha, yeah… I get it now. Was I that kind of person to my brother? A woman you can visit and fuck whenever you want. A woman who easily opens her legs when you call her. That’s why he tried to date me! I finally realized that… Wow, this is really awesome, oppa!”
“Oh, no… That’s not it, Yeji… “
“It’s okay!”
“No, listen to me! That’s why… “
“That’s it! That’s enough, get the hell away! “Get the hell out of my house!”
“Yeji… “
“Or what, should I report it to the police? Does that make you feel better?”
“… I’ll see you tomorrow.”

Ah really, why do people do that?
Not only has common sense changed, but has Siwoo also changed?

While reading the script, I was angry and asked how there could be someone like Ryu… That person was right next to me. A woman… People who think of it as just a tool for processing sex. A woman… A person who only thinks of someone as a sex object. Surprisingly, Siwoo was that kind of man. He was so disappointed that his hands were shaking. It’s been a long time since I was shocked like this.

In fact, senior Deokbae, who plays Ryuga, was not at that level.

Because of method acting, I become a really dirty pervert during filming… After filming is over, senior Deokbae returns to being an ordinary actor. Even when he often used practice as an excuse to do naughty things, he never felt dirty or dirty desires. My senior always respected me as an actor. So I was able to trust and rely on my senior.

Senior Deokbae was a man who was different on the outside and the inside, in a good way.
Siwoo, who will be my boyfriend, is the opposite.

“Ha… It’s annoying.”

There will be reconciliation in the end…
Is it right for me to date Siwoo oppa?
Shouldn’t we think about it a little more?

If my common sense hadn’t changed, I would never have known Siwoo’s true face. When I found out about this, worry arose in my heart. Siwoo oppa… It’s true that he’s a good person, but… Not very good as a boyfriend, huh? To be honest, the person I could trust as a member of the opposite sex was senior Deokbae. And to be more honest, I would rather have senior Deokbae…

… What nonsense are you talking about again?
You can also be disappointed with senior Deokbae.

The only seniors I know are seniors as actors. There were still many things I didn’t know about my senior. So for now… Okay, now it was time to just focus on movies. Having a boyfriend or anything like that was a luxury to worry about. After coming to my senses, I looked at the script for practice.

“Ahh… “

As it happened, the filming to be held next week was for a bed scene.

***

“… I’m here?”
“Let’s go.”
“Uh, uh… “

After taking a shower and putting on minimal makeup, I went down to the first floor. In the parking lot… Siwoo oppa welcomed me. Even though I received an apology, it was still an awkward situation. After nodding appropriately, I got into the car and thought about the scene I was going to perform today. Today… It was the day I had sex with senior Deokbae. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous.

As a professional actor, I could endure having sex… But…
… Wouldn’t it hurt? Your dick is so big…
As a woman, I couldn’t help but worry.

“Oh, it’s today…” “
“What?”
“No, that… “
“Just focus on driving, right?”
“… Huh.”

For your information, Siwoo came to me the next day and asked for my forgiveness. They said I felt nervous because I was so precious… Well? It didn’t really feel sincere. Didn’t you just want to have sex so much? If it were Siwoo’s older brother, I would have believed him, but not now. He was the one who touched my legs whenever he got the chance… If you believed it, that was stupid.

But… There’s nothing good about fighting there any more, right?

I decided to be a professional and just move on.
Rather than making things bigger for no reason, it was best to just do something that didn’t exist.

“These fucking bastards are doing it again, again!”
“Deokbae, the way you speak.”
“You fucking bastards are being damned again, again!”
“Ha… “Who’s going to stop you?”
“Look at all the talk about being a bed scene. “You don’t look annoyed?”
“That’s true, but… “Still, you have to be careful with your expressions.”
“I’m sorry, senior. “It’s so shit I can’t stand it.”

However… How did this happen?
When I arrived at the filming site, Deokbae was running wild for the first time in a while. Lately, I’ve been getting angry at someone, even mixing up my self-respected self-indulgence. So I approached to see what was going on, and saw a senior fighting with investors.
It seemed like he was doing that because of the bed scene.

“Mr. Deokbae, it’s okay to be so stubborn and get angry… Haha… “
“Director, if it looks like this, I can’t film.”
“What?! Mr. Deokbae! “That’s not right!”
“If at all possible, the phone must be confiscated. Don’t you know that there are dozens of leaked videos taken by these bastards through hidden cameras? “I never see anything like that.”
“Uh huh, someone took a hidden camera!”
“The boss took the picture, you bastard!” “You think I don’t know?!”

Senior Deokbae gets angry to the point of being a little scary… I was nervous because the sight was unfamiliar. I’m sincere in my acting, but… Is nature really bad? I was afraid of my senior who was swearing at me without any hesitation. It is true that he is a good actor, but if he is a good man… I was worried.

“Yeji, don’t hate me too much.”
“… Yes?!”
“I’m doing that because of you, Deokbae.”
“… “Is it because of me?”
“The boss over there is famous for being a bit evil. He is a person who comes and secretly takes videos of actresses whenever it is their turn to have a bed scene… Ugh, Deokbae does that because he doesn’t like that.”

“Hidden camera? This… Hey! That’s a crime, a crime!”
“Uh-huh, director! It’s unfair! When did we film a hidden camera? “
“Are you unfair? Then, shall we check? Open your phone, you bastards!”
“That’s right! This person! “There are things to say and things not to say!”

In the end, the story ended with the investment company employees who fought with their senior leaving the room, and those who remained confiscating their phones. Even though Senior Deokbae behaved rudely… No matter how much he was an investment company employee, he couldn’t touch a senior with ticket power.

Thanks to this, I was able to film with peace of mind.

“Anyway, you don’t think about your own image and act like that all the time.”
“… “So the rumors were bad?”
“That’s right. “He always takes on dirty and dishonorable tasks.”

It was also my mistake to say that my nature was bad.

Advice from seniors that if you get to know them, they are good kids. After hearing those words, senior Deokbae looked different. But at the same time, a question arose. Senior… Did I help simply because I was a junior? Or because he likes me… Was he so angry because he wanted to protect me? I wanted to know the answer. However, if I thought about it alone, I could not find an answer.

However, I felt fortunate that my first partner was a senior.