Chapter 39 – Episode 39. Sua’s Older Sister (1)

After Seon-woo left the room, Su-ah bowed her head and was lost in thought.

Su-ah, who had been frozen for a while, got up and went to her bathroom to take her shower.

She took shorter showers than usual.

Because she was trying to relieve herself a little, she came out without even masturbating.

The dildo that was kept in the cupboard was washed cleanly and packaged nicely again.

And she put it deep in the closet, somewhere she would never open it again before moving.

… I am not a woman anymore, I am a mother.

I hope Sunwoo doesn’t make the wrong choice.

Su-ah decided to abandon herself.

**

But even though she was prepared, nothing much changed.

All I can do is grit my teeth and endure.

The good news was that her already broken body had no place to deteriorate any further.

But despite her resolve, her body soon reached its limit.

She was feeling cold because she had recently been given cold water to cool her head.

Confusing her cold with the slight fever inside her body, Su-ah worked in a dazed state all day and then collapsed.

She didn’t completely lose her mind, but she fell to the floor and spilled her coffee due to sudden dizziness.

“Oops.! Are you okay, boss?”

“Uh.? Uh. Sorry. I’ll clean it up right away…”

“No, just sit down.”

In the afternoon, Eunseo, the part-timer, helped Sua sit down in her seat.

And she cleaned Su-ah’s floor and made her coffee.

Su-ah just stared at her blankly.

‘Can I survive like this for the rest of my life? … You were prepared. Hansoo, come to your senses.’

However, my physical condition did not improve even if I sat down and rested for a while.

Su-ah, who felt bad about leaving the work to Eun-seo alone, tried to get up, but was soon stopped.

“Boss, I really can’t do it today. Go home and get some rest today. I’ll do whatever I can until the deadline.”

“No, I’m really fine…”

“You always say you’re okay! You don’t look okay at all, right? The presence of the boss is more of a distraction, so go home and get some rest.”

In the end, Su-ah couldn’t say anything due to Eun-seo’s firm words.

Eun-seo, seeing Su-ah still hesitant, snatched Su-ah’s cell phone.

“Who should I contact to come pick me up?”

“. Sunwoo.”

Su-ah unconsciously said Seon-woo’s name.

“Oh, no. I just took care of it.”

“I already made a call.”

Eunseo quickly called Seonwoo.

“… Hello? What’s going on, sister?”

“No, the boss has collapsed. Could you please come?”

“… Yes?”

“So the boss…”

“… It’s a store, right? I’ll go right away.”

With those last words, the phone hung up.

“No, he couldn’t fall down.”

“You did collapse.”

Su-ah felt sorry for Seon-woo for no reason.

Because she wasn’t good at painting, she ended up calling Seon-woo in the middle of class.

Su-ah said it was okay if she didn’t come. She tried to call again, but she couldn’t because of Eun-seo’s restraint.

A moment later, the store door burst open with a bang and Seonwoo entered the store.

“Ugh. Huh. Ugh. What about Su-a. Noona.?”

“Ah. Over there.”

Eunseo pointed towards Sua, who was resting inside the store, and Sunwoo ran straight towards Sua.

“. Are you okay?”

Seon-woo held Su-ah’s hand with a face that looked like he was about to burst into tears.

Seeing Sunwoo so worried made his heart pound.

‘What are you thinking about the child who cares for you.’

Su-ah smiled to reassure Seon-woo.

“No, I’m fine. Eunseo stopped making a fuss of hers.”

“Is it true that the boss collapsed today? So please take him home and monitor him, so he can rest well.”

“. Yes, really… Thank you so much.”

Seon-woo bowed his head and greeted Eun-seo, then helped Su-ah and led her out of the store.

Seon-woo put Su-ah in the taxi he had taken.

“I’m really fine…”

Su-ah tried to tell Sun-woo that she was okay, but she couldn’t continue her words when she saw Sun-woo’s frozen face.

Sunwoo looks like he’s about to cry at any moment.

The image of a child who lost her parents that day and was attending the funeral alone appeared.

While taking a taxi back, the two quietly left without saying a word.

However, Seon-woo held Su-ah’s hand tightly with trembling hands throughout the taxi ride.

The excessive protection continued even after getting out of the taxi.

As soon as he opened the front door and entered, Sunwoo picked up Suah and headed to Suah’s room.

Surprised, Su-ah tried to struggle, but Seon-woo didn’t budge.

Although she thought it was an unusual situation, she was still grateful and happy.

While being held in Sunwoo’s arms, Suah’s heart began to pound.

Big chest, strong and thick arms. Strong male body odor.

He seemed to assert with every fiber of his being that he was a man.

Just from being touched like this, my heated body reacted sensitively.

Su-ah prayed that Seon-woo could not hear the pounding of her own heart.

Seonwoo laid Suah down on her bed and knelt down next to her.

And he apologized to Su-ah with a face that looked like he was about to burst into tears.

“… I’m sorry. Because of me…”

It’s my fault for not being able to forget that this happened.

Su-ah didn’t understand why Sun-woo was apologizing.

“No, why is this your fault, Seonwoo?”

Su-ah raised her body and smiled at Seon-woo.

Seonwoo lowered his head and continued his words as if he was giving a confession.

“It’s because of what I did.”

“It’s all because of me.”

“Because of my greed…”

Water droplets formed on the tip of Sunwoo’s nose as he lowered his head.

“It’s just… I guess I had to live like this as Su-ah’s sister’s son.”

“No, I guess I should have just not come to this house then.”

“If that were the case, my sister wouldn’t have viewed me as her son.?”

“… If that were the case, would I have had a chance?”

Suah’s heart ached when she saw Seonwoo shedding tears.

Why do you hate being a son?

I was so happy that you were part of my family, Sunwoo.

Sunwoo, how much of a help you have been in my life.

Without you, we might not have the harmonious family we have now…

Su-ah recalled her old memories.

**

It was a difficult and difficult time.

Su-ah’s husband died in an accident, and she had to raise her two daughters alone.

It was a time when I was just busy with work here and there without any foundation.

There wasn’t much that Su-ah could do as she had no experience or skills.

So, he put his body aside, put aside his pride, put his head down, and did the work.

Thanks to his striking white color and body, various temptations came to him.

Just once. I also heard an offer to give Su-ah several months’ salary just for that.

However, she refused them all because she wanted to be a proud mother to her two daughters.

Even if the income is small, I believe that if I work harder, the sun will shine one day.

Su-ah has persevered and persevered through her hard work.

Ironically, the reason that decision wavered was because of my daughters.

It was when she saw that her daughters had suddenly lost their smile.

Su-ah always got off work late at night.

When she came home, her only pleasure was to see her daughters sleeping.

She returned home very carefully, but Sihyeon would wake up every time rubbing her eyes.

Su-ah always felt sorry for her daughters because she couldn’t cook them a proper breakfast or dinner.

Every time Su-ah felt sorry, her two daughters told her.

“Mom, we’re okay.”

At some point, Si-hyeon and Si-eun’s smiles became overshadowed.

That means she’s okay.

That became a dagger and stuck in Su-ah’s heart.

Su-a shed tears holding her breath in the bathroom.

That day was an unusually busy day.

As I continued to leave work late and come to work early, my physical strength gradually reached its limit, and whenever I made a mistake due to my limited physical strength, people around me poured out ridicule.

“You don’t know how to do anything other than flirt with men?”

“Soo-ah, I think something else suits you better. Wear something a little more revealing… Hehe… Then I’ll often go.”

Words of jealousy and contempt towards women.

She heard sexually harassing comments from men.

… Is it okay like this?

When that question arose, the hand of temptation came to Suah once again.

“How about once a month? I heard you have two kids. So you’ll need a lot of money, right?”

“It’s not that much to do, but you’re paying me more than your salary per night, so you’re turning it down?”

“Do it while she’s at least a little young. I’m worried because our Su-ah is growing up again. She’ll do it when she’s at least a little plump… You know, right?”

I couldn’t tear up the business card, which I would have normally rejected and torn up right before her eyes.

This is because I was bothered by the shadowy smiles of my two daughters.

She proudly wanted to become a mother.

But is it okay like this?

Rather… Even if it’s such a shameful thing. If you just close your eyes once, you will be much richer.

I could spend more time with my daughters and do more things with them…

In the end, Su-ah couldn’t tear up her business card.

When I was so worried, it was you, Sunwoo, who brought me out of the shadows.

You were the light to our family with your sun-like smile.

Even if it was a coincidence or a whim, it didn’t change the fact that you helped our family.

How long has it been since I saw my daughters smiling brightly? .

Sunwoo, you erased the shadow from my daughters’ faces and eased the worries in my heart.

It’s such a shame that I even thought about it like that now.

At that time, I was so focused that I had to seriously think about it.

Sunwoo, you don’t know how grateful I am to you now.

One day, when we were alone, the day I said thank you to you.

Sunwoo, the day you actually thanked me.

It might be a bit rude to the couple next door, but…

Even though I didn’t give birth because my stomach hurt, I promised myself that I would cherish you like my own child.

I always wanted you to be happy…

At that time, I didn’t know that such a tragedy would happen to you.

How heartbreaking it was for me to see you grieving in a dark funeral hall without even being able to shed tears…

How heartbreaking it was for me to see you shivering alone in the cold winter…

That time when you called me mom.

Even though it was a mistake, when he called me mom.

Sunwoo, you don’t know what I was thinking and what I was prepared to do.

I really meant to accept you into my family.

But because I was unreliable, you always tried to stand alone.

I couldn’t take my eyes off that dangerous-looking figure.

At some point, Sunwoo, you became the finger that hurts the most to me.

Maybe even more than Si-hyeon or Si-eun…

The reason I held on even though my body became so strange,

Even if I had to endure like this for the rest of my life, I was able to make up my mind.

It was all because they didn’t want to be a bad influence on you, Sunwoo.

… But when you cry like that in front of me, my mind turns completely white.

If only I hadn’t come to this house. How much of a hurt these words are to me.

If you cry like that and ask for a chance, I…

Sunwoo, if it’s what you want, I can really do everything.

… Even if it’s wrong.

**

“It’s okay. Everything is okay.”

Su-ah held the crying Seon-woo in her arms.