Chapter 185 – Nene’s Confession

“Babe.”

“Huh.”

The intense love affair stopped for a moment.
She wails and squirts semen through her two holes.
I lay her on top of her, holding her Nene inside her.

“Promise me one thing.”

“I’ll promise.”

I lean over her and put my hand on the back of her hand.
And put a pod on the back of her hand.

Tight.

She squeezes my little finger like that.

“… You must live longer than me.”

“Huh?”

Nene… Turn her head to her side.
Rosy ball.
Glowing ears.
Recalled expression.

“You must never die before me.
… If you go first, I won’t last.”

“There is no such thing.”

“Then don’t be reckless.
You can be cowardly.
Don’t be brave.”

“…”

“You love me.
… Don’t force yourself to be this small.
It’s the first time I’ve seen you become like this in 200 years.”

“…”

I have nothing to say.
I was also a little excited and reckless.
It would have been okay if I had witnessed the resurrection of the gold dragon and ran away right away.
Just… What if you only took care of Marie and Angela?
If so…
I wouldn’t have lost weight like this now.

But… Well.
Would I have been comfortable?
Ann becomes the dragon’s plaything, and Stella must have suffered bad things too.

Then, would reality be comfortable?
A few more dragons could have been summoned for Stella’s sacrifice.
The Demon King’s army must have fought hard against the dragons of Amitie.
Would have completely lost control.
Because there is no Black Dragon Karamit.

… Isn’t justice always reckless?
So, even if doing justice seems futile, isn’t it beneficial in the end?

But Nene thinks differently.

“I don’t know what happened…
Me, I mean
Even if I weigh the world with you alone, I will choose you.
So Camus.
This… Stupid son of a bitch
You stupid boy.”

“… Huh.”

“You can look at other girls…
You can hold me in the arms of another woman…
Yes, whether I am second or third.
No, it doesn’t matter if it’s a stone.
I can just be your wife…
It’s okay even if you’re a concubine.
I’ll be patient until there.”

“… Sorry.”

“Tell me you love me.”

“Love you. Really.”

… Nene is the youngest of the Four Heavenly Kings of the Demon Lords.
A woman who held that position for nearly 200 years.
There is no way I can accept her position as the second wife because I was only fooled by it.
This is because of her boundless love for me and her guilt.

“… I know you have ‘that kid’.
The child who took my place while I was gone.
Lumica.
Yeah, because she let that kid live on you.
… I almost killed you
Still, I think she is a woman who truly cares for you.
That’s why I’m conceding a little.”

… What if Nene or Rumika said she had a concubine besides me?
Can I stand it?
Absolutely impossible.
I can not.

… But they say they’ll take it for me.
Even if polygamy is rampant in the world.
To those who looked only at me for a hundred or two hundred years.
What should I do to repay you?

“But it is.
I promise you this one thing.
A world without you, don’t let me live
… I will never forgive you for that
If, if then…
I’ll follow you straight to the black sun and punish you.
Okay?”

… I lay on top of her with her infinitely smaller body and her mind.
Have no face

“Okay.
Be sure to stay healthy and live a long, long life.”

“More than I.”

“Okay.
More than you
By your side
Instead you…”

“I will live until I become Grandmother Hoho.
Don’t worry.
… I will definitely give birth to a cute baby that looks like you, and I will see her great-great-granddaughter.”

It is a great ambition.

“Camu.”

“Huh.”

“I mean.”

“Huh.”

“Actually, really… I regret it.”

“What?”

Kwok.

She grips my hand, which is interlocked on the back of hers, tighter and tighter.

“I hypnotized you.”

“…”

“What if, what if.”

Deep sigh.
Return.
Regret.
Something deeper than that.
Her inhaled breath pushes her and me up.

“I… If only I could turn back time
I will go back to that time.”

“… When?”

“The day I hypnotized you.
I’m going to go and slap my past self hard on the cheek.”

“…”

“I will tell you.
Come to your senses.
Tell me to be bold
To be shameless
And you will be promised to me in the past.
Never hypnotize you.
Guilty, don’t do it.
Thinking of unrequited love, don’t even do it.

“…”

“It will give you hope. Will give you confidence
That you will be loved by that man enough.
Therefore… Hypnosis, don’t rely on that.
… Don’t even feel sorry for not having children.
Let’s be a little arrogant.
Just, just… Live happily next to that man.
And some more… Trust your lover.”

“… Yes yes.”

Suddenly, his voice was filled with crying.
She cried and shed tears like jewels.

“Huh, your man, trust me… Called.
Never break up… I will tell you.”

… It did.
I said we should break up
She
To me.

[Sorry. I’m so sorry, Camus.
… Let’s break up.]

[Yes… ?
That is… What do you mean?]

[We… Let’s stop meeting
Again, let’s go back to the priest-sister relationship.
… Nothing.
It’s not because you’re wrong.
It’s all, it’s all my fault
… Can’t say more than this
Sorry.
We… Let’s end here.]

[Why!!
Why are you doing that!!
Is it because I’m young?
Is it because the family is not good?
It’s not!
Don’t lie!!
Even without that, we loved happily and well!!
Are you tired of me?]

[No.
You’re not wrong
All… It’s all my fault.
Camu, live happily ever after.]

[What and how can I live happily without you?
Black, until now, hehe, such a way…
Like how to live happily without you, uhhh!
I’ve never taught you, so oh oh !!!]

[No no…
You’ll do just fine
I will meet a better woman than a woman like me.]

[I have to say it a few times for you to understand!!!
There is no better woman than you!!!]

[… Come on.
Go.
Leave without looking back
And forget.]

[Then… Then… Just for any reason
You can’t even tell me if you made it… ?
Me… I really don’t get it.
So, just tell me any reason.
I’m all… I will accept everything.
I will believe
Therefore… Huh?]

[… I hate seeing you eat.]

Then… I didn’t even know why there was a difference.
I wanted to die.
I’m going to die.
Just lived
Just… I lived because I couldn’t die.
I lived because I was alive.
I just lived.

… I lived because I lived.
Even if you send your first love, even if you send that old love.
My… Even if you send everything.
I got to live
Even the shell remained.
Even if you can’t fill the inside of that shell.

And…
In that shell that seemed to be empty forever.
She is filled with her secret kernel.
Lumica.
That child

“Well, then, hehe, we won’t be apart for a hundred years…
Heck, I won’t fall asleep crying and suffering alone every night…
Black, other girls, black, no time to fit in…
Two of us, two of us… I’ll live well…”

How much did you suffer alone?
Put the car,
You said you wanted to break up

Hovering around me every day
Always looking at me

[… Do I really have to take part in a magic tournament so dangerously?
Ugh. Come to me during break
I’ll charge you with magic with ‘Night of Magic’.]

[I recommend Kamyu Franz as the commander of the 3rd Corps.
He combines a long military career with a dedicated character, courage and great insight.
The rationale is as follows.
One, … ]

He even helps me propose to another woman.

[I did.]

[Yes… ?
What did you say just now, Master?]

[I did.
Manipulating your grades.
I am also an academy professor.]

[How… Master… Why… ?]

[I also asked the devil to put in the group assignments.
I also decided on the members.]

Even preventing him from proposing to another woman.

And quite inconsistently.
When the Demon King held a speedy trial.

[To prevent social chaos,
Camus Franz is beheaded.]

On the topic that first provoked me.
On the subject of a fight.

[The disciple’s fault is the master’s fault.
Even destroying the castle of demons,
The fact that he sinned against his disciple
It’s all my fault.
…If it dies, it dies,
If you leave, I will leave.
Please… Please save our Kamyu’s life…]

Lay down and beg to save me.
While kissing the feet of the previous demon king, who was sentenced to death.
Holding a knife to his own throat, saying that if he kills me, he will die as well.

Like that.
Like that… Stayed by my side
I was raising my tiptoe to see my shadow, even from a distance.
… There was a woman snooping in her alley, anxious about when she could approach her.

“Yes yes.”

There was a purple scented lady who was waiting for me so anxiously.

“Aww… !!
If only I hadn’t been hypnotized back then…
If I hadn’t walked… !
Only me, only your girl… !
I… I would have been chaste!!
I, I’m stupid… !
Whoa… !!!!”

“… Come on. You stupid master.”

“Wow!!!
I-I’m so stupid… !!!
Whoa… Kkeuk, kkeuk, kkeuhuh… !!”

… Nene wets the blanket with tears.

I hugged her tightly.

“Love you.”

“Huh…
Me too… I always wanted to be by your side
Sometimes, I see it like this sometimes, huh.
Every time I see you, hehe, just… I want to do my best…”

“You don’t have to do your best.
Don’t overdo it
I like it if you just stay as you are.
Don’t try like that.”

“Heuk, heuh, keup!!”

She groans and wails loudly.

Seruk.

I want to stop her breathing, so she gets down on her body.

Roll around.

Lay her on her back, lay next to her and give her an arm pillow.
… Unlike her original body, her arms are thin and young.

“… You stupid girl
Think alone again, don’t be depressed alone.
Stop regretting
… I love you again even after hearing all about you.
You knew I’d love you again, so you prepared a rebellion with Khan, right?
But why are you so sad now?”

“Huh, it’s a pity…
If only I had a little more courage…
If you believed that you could have your heart without hypnosis… !
If you believe that we will love each other… !!
I would have been alone with you…
The way other girls get twisted around you… I shouldn’t have looked…
It’s annoying… Decomposition… Mad…”

Ugh.

“I’m sure it was.”

“Black… Whoops.”

“You stupid girl.
Master Mongchong who falls for my tricks.
… I would have loved you
Whatever happened.”

Even if Nene didn’t hypnotize me in the first place.
I would have loved her
Forever.

If Nene confided about her infertility while dating.
I would have accepted her even knowing all the facts about her.
She must have gotten over her self-doubt and guilt.
And I must have married her.
And she’d just live like that.

Since he didn’t propose to Rumika,
The Demon King wouldn’t have noticed my dark blood.
You wouldn’t have been checked.

Just rise to the right level,
Participating in magic tournaments moderately.
Even if I went to magic academy, I would have played without caring about grades.
During class breaks, she must have had a tryst with the hot-bodied professor Nene and went on picnics here and there.
Thrilling academy life.
Since I found a mate early, there must have been no fierce competition.
You must have enjoyed the campus life without incident.
The love with Professor Nene blossoms in it.
I would have lived with Nene day after day.
He must have lived like that in the richness of the Boulanger estate.

Like that…
Rumikado.
Marie too.
Angela too.
I couldn’t have met you

Well, it’s subtle now… Stellar too. Ando.
There would have been no talk of an arranged marriage with the royal family of Amitie.

There is no forbidden love with the only daughter of the demon king,
There is no precarious love like walking a tightrope between a saint and a demon,
There would have been no precarious love story between a female knight and a hypnotist.

“… You are our idiots.”

“Huh… Such a waste…
I, I… I could have been single
I can’t, I… Rumika, she could have gotten ahead of him.
I could have been the first wife…”

Jjook.

I wipe away salty tears with a kiss.

“… Stupid master.
Do you remember what I promised you last time?”

“Black… What?”

“I will love you the most.”

“Black… Huh.”

A yellow handkerchief embroidered with Marie.
I wipe Nene’s eyes with it.

Knock knock.

“… Did you say rubbing your eyes with a handkerchief would make your eyes swollen?
That’s why you take a picture and wipe it off.”

“Hey, turn off, heewing, that’s right…”

“Physique, swordsmanship, magic, taoism, sorcery…
How to wipe away tears
Hug after intercourse.
Wipe it from top to bottom…
I won’t clean again with what I wiped.
Always wash and maintain…
Who told you all this?”

“Hey, me.
Ugh, but…
You’re flirting with another woman by telling me that…”

Oh my.

“I am foolish, so I only know how to do what I have learned.
But I mean…
I never learned to live happily without you.”

“Huh, really?
Turn it off, learn it by yourself, huh, didn’t you?”

“I couldn’t.
So please stay by my side so I won’t learn from you in the future.”

“Huh, really?”

“Huh.”

With my smaller body, I hold her face to my chest.

“Our stupid master.
It’s stupid.
You know everything, but you don’t know the most important thing.
Good though
So good
I want you to continue to be the fool that only I know.”

“Ahhh…”

“Raise your head.
You are not a sinner
The only sin is that you loved me
… Instead, don’t listen to me and plot.
Especially something like a rebellion.”

“Yeah, okay, okay.
Turn it off, I will never do it again.
I won’t judge, huh, on my own.
… I will believe you
Hey, you’re competent, oops, love me, oops!
Because you trust me.”

Even when you wail, you talk well while croaking.

“Master.
Thank you so much for today.
I was really happy.
The best.
But that’s it.
… I hate events that are done out of guilt and debt.
No matter how rewarding the Valkyrie armor is for an anal virgin.
I wish it was a night full of love.
Just like you did to me
I want to give it to you too
Just… The certainty that you can be loved just by being.
Its warmth.
That coziness.
… That’s what made me who I am today.
It created self-esteem.
It gave me the courage to do anything.
So stop regretting it.
From now on, I want us to only love each other.”

“Ahhh…
Alright, kkeuk, darling, kuk!”

“Yep.
Ayu, she’s pretty even when she’s crying~
Our master is an idiot.
I’m crying
… I want to keep crying because it is so beautiful when I cry.”

“Hey, don’t do that, kkeuh.
I, hee, pout, pout.”

Oh really. Sleepy