Chapter 237 – Nene’s Life Counseling (With Angela) (2)

Nene’s Life Counseling (with Angela) (2)

〈 This episode is from Nene’s point of view〉

“I do not know.”

“Really?”

“Yes?”

“The expression ‘I don’t know’ is actually used for knowledge.
I’m not talking about feelings.
Emotions are complex, unconfirmed, and unclear.
Emotions are like paint, you can add them, but you can’t subtract them.
If you express ‘I don’t know’ how you feel for Kamyu, it’s not because the feelings are tasteless and tasteless.
Rather, it means that there are so many emotions mixed together that I don’t know what color to express them.
Then tell me.
When you think of the time you spent with Kamyu, what kind of feelings do you have in sequence or for each incident?
Before all the paints called emotions are mixed together, let’s find out what color each paint was.”

“… That’s strange.
I’m seeing you for the first time today, and I feel like confiding in you.
Is this also illusion?”

“It is an example.
Because I told you my story first.”

“Put, you got hit.”

A wisp of spring comes to the face that seemed like midwinter.
This lady is very attractive.
I think I know why Kamyu is anxious.

“Illusion, can I walk you?
Would you be more honest?”

“No, thanks.
Umm…”

She who smiles softly and accepts my words full of her smiley smile.
Eventually, she sinks into her own mind and becomes serious.

“At first, of course… I was disgusted and angry.
I was a demon, an enemy, and I… Because they were shamefully and painfully tortured.”

“Oh my, that.
Sorry.”

“No.”

“Was that the first time you met her?”

“Uh… No.
Her first meeting… Strictly speaking, I didn’t know they were demons, no, I met them while suspecting that they were demons.
At the lakeside near the camp, I met him disguised as a human.
While looking at a family photo, he covered it, so I told him to keep looking.”

“I thought so?”

“They told me to stop watching.
Now that I think about it, I think it was because I was afraid I would be found out.
At that time, they said there was a fixed amount to see per day.
I was afraid that if I saw it too much, thoughts would overflow from all kinds of heads.”

This lady, I wish I could see the teacup now.
What would happen if she knew that her own face reflected in the tea water was smiling happily?

“What was your first impression… It was cute and charming.
The man looking at the moonlit lake.
The feeling of being soaked in excellence was very impressive.
It was the first and last time I first felt a crush on someone of the opposite sex and talked to them.”

What a surprise.
The knight of the moon, who was blown by the winter wind, turned into a spring maiden just by recalling memories.

“And what happened… It was as wild, savage, and cruel as I was prepared for.
He is also a cruel demon hypnotist.”

Back.

She holds the teacup tightly.

“What’s even more heinous is that he manipulated my body to make the process… It’s what made me feel it.
He manipulated every cell in my body and turned even pain into pleasure.
Even the wind that brushed by me made my brain wet with ecstasy.
I… They called her a female knight and mocked her.”

Kamuya… How nice…

“I used to take it for granted.
It is natural to give and receive pain on the battlefield.
I was a knight too, and I am the one who brutally killed his family.
… He deserves to bully me.”

Huh?

“But I have no right to insult my chivalry by calling it bitch knight.
So I hated it.
Hate… I would like to.”

“Don’t you hate it?”

“Hatred… Do.
I am working hard.”

She is a girl who just wants to make fun of me.

“Can I help?
To hate.”

“Yes? Oh no, that’s fine!
I can do it alone.”

I was kidding
This article is as stupid as it is honest.
I can be Kamyu’s faithful companion.
If you free this child’s heart, wouldn’t Kamyu also like it?

… No
How can I do whatever I want with the mind of the person and the intellect?
Then, my life got twisted.

Let’s just be honest.
So that you can know your own heart.
The rest will do what each other thinks, and it will flow.
Just as water flows to a lower place, naturally.
I don’t know if the end is the sea of ​​Kamura or not.

“Doesn’t working hard mean that it doesn’t work out?”

“… It was the day he was hypnotizing me and dating me.”

I don’t know why, but I’m a bit annoyed.
Maybe it’s jealousy?
Then I’m still far away.
To be angry at the three letters ‘date’.

“Camu, the night he told me old stories about my father.
I realized
Just because it’s a battlefield, killing each other’s loved ones can never be grave.
My father passed away after being imprisoned in a dungeon due to an accusation by the nobles of Amity.
Funny enough, I was blaming the demons for that.
He was trying to restore his father’s honor by making a contribution on the battlefield like a knight.
Paradoxically, you and the hypnotist Kamyu, two demons, pay homage to my father, a human knight.
Thinking of the honor of the father of the enemy he encountered on the battlefield and the man who killed his compatriots and family…”

Tears welled up in Sir Angela’s eyes.
Her father’s story seems to be her weakness.
Everyone has a point where emotions are stirred, right?
Her father seems to be that kind of person to her.

“Now we form an alliance with the demon king’s army and participate in the human civil war.
I can’t figure out what…
A demon who brutally violated and resisted me.
The hateful hypnotist who hypnotized me into falling in love.
It turned out that he was the benefactor who restored his father’s honor and returned his father’s knights to me.
Fighting together risking his life for me, coming to my rescue with his finger cut off…
Adore me even though I was sold… Such an honest man.”

In the end, tears that shine softly like the moonlight in the night sky drip down.

“I hate him…
He was lascivious, cruel, and savagely committed.
I hate to be creepy.
I hate him for making me feel my body, for making me feel pleasure as a woman, as a bitch.
So… I’m more angry.
I keep stepping on him, I’m worried, I’m thankful… It’s frustrating because I want to depend on you.
We are enemies, temporary allies, enemies who have inflicted indelible wounds on each other.
The die has been cast, and these memories and emotions cannot be erased.
I will remember!
All these favors!”

She barely swallows her cries.
Even when her throat is sore and wobbly, she continues to speak.

“So… I promise every day.
I’m going to hate him
I won’t forgive you!
I’m trying…
But I don’t know why, why you keep coming into my eyes, why you love me as you please!
I really hate him…
He should hate it…
I’m really angry.
Once a wicked man, he will remain a wicked man to the end…
I don’t know why you keep approaching me sweetly and kindly.
I don’t know why you act like a warm person, a man who really loves me.
I don’t know why, why the hell I’m shaking.”

Shuk.

He holds out a handkerchief without saying a word.

She nodded and took my handkerchief.
She silently weeps.

… The method of wiping tears so that the eyes do not swell that I told Kamyu.
… Really this guy!
I was told not to flirt with other girls, but to wipe my eyes or yours!!!
Next time we meet, it’s a reservation for Geumgang Takbam 2 rooms.

“… Thank you for being honest.”

“No, no.
ぅ, talking about it, hehe, a little… I’m relieved.
… Excuse me.”

Even when she cries, she puts her hand on her lap and cries in a straight posture.
I’m really a tired person because I’m overly straight.

“I understand everything.
No hatred, no contempt, no gratitude, no worry, no reliance.”

“…”

“Because Kamyu is also a victim of hypnosis by me.”

“The victim now becomes the perpetrator and repeats the same thing.
I must have learned from you.”

“He is reflective, just like me.
So I also learned how to pay for my sins.”

“How?”

“To risk one’s life and fully love.”

“…
When I was hypnotized, I said that I would compensate him for killing his family.”

“Then you will understand better.
And you know.
That he really likes you and is sorry.
Let’s shamelessly set off the wrongdoing and don’t say it.”

“…”

“He’s a demon who doesn’t count the hurt he’s inflicted on his family, only the hurt he’s inflicted on you.
Those who forget about bonds and only think about debts.
You know that too
What is he talking about like a habit?”

“… I’m sorry, it’s all my fault, I’ll take responsibility.”

“Is it so.
He is such a man
Foolishly honest, sincere, unnecessarily hot-blooded, Hogu only suffers losses.
So I told you not to major in hypnosis…”

“Did it dry?”

“It was dry.
But to no avail.”

“Why?”

“Because I heard it.
I lamented to myself that none of my students majored in hypnosis.
The sound of worrying that the hypnotic magic will be cut off from me.
After secretly hearing that, he chose hypnosis as his major.
You know what?
He’s usually a gentle guy, but when he’s stubborn, he’s so stubborn.
Even if I try to stop it, I insist on majoring in hypnosis…
He said that he chose hypnosis as his major because he thought I would keep smiling next to him.
Put, isn’t it cute?”

“… That’s a very good decision.
That’s really the answer.”

“What about it?
Can you tell me?”

“… The fact that you decide without hesitation for the girl you like.
Even if that decision puts you at a disadvantage in each battle, you don’t blame others until the end and take responsibility yourself.
His tenacity to do something even without changing his major in the end.
And… His will to make the woman he likes happy.
Really Kamu, that’s it.”

The Knight of the Moon is quietly shedding tears and smiling broadly.
It was so sad, longing, and happy that it seemed like it was going to die.

I’m sure
The Knight of the Moon, I got it.
Own mind.
Emotions that are buried deep in the heart.
Irreversible heart.

“That’s right.
Me too, I’m going to die pretty.
Just watching him breathe is cute.
… The human queen looked at me like I was wearing a bean pod.
It’s true, so there’s nothing you can do about it.”

“… I don’t love that much yet.”

“Oh, does it sound like you love me a little bit?”

“?!?!?!?!”

Be cute
To be ashamed of a pretty woman who cried and then laughed and her face turned red.

“They say that laughing after crying causes serious changes in the body.
Whoops. I want to show you the expression you made while talking earlier.”

“…”

I was so happy that I laughed without even realizing it.
Like the girl who lives here, she is very shy.

“Remember the feelings you felt when you just said it.”
Maybe, you already have the answer, right?
And maybe.
You may know.”

“…”

Dreuk.

After thinking for a moment, Sir Angela wakes up.
Bow, say hello.

“… Thank you for your hospitality.
I’ll just go.”

“I also enjoyed it.
Come over anytime.”

“… Thank you.”

As she left the tent, her steps seemed somehow lighter.