Chapter 76 – Episode 76 Why Do I Keep Thinking of That Person?

“Did you say paladin?”
“That’s right.”

Sebastian lowered his head and replied.
It must be real
Sebastian wasn’t the kind of person who said nonsense to make fun of people.

“Why?”

It was a question that arose because I did not understand the words that came out of my mouth.

“I heard it was to become stronger.”
“To become stronger?”
“Yes.”
“Aren’t you already learning the sword from the leader of the Solarion Knights?”
“That alone is probably not enough.”
“Batram is not enough. Are there any recent knights in the Holy Knights that can surpass him?”
“Does he not know, or is he just pretending not to know and trying to avoid it?”

Sebastian looked at me and asked.
Those straight eyes made me sigh.

“Don’t look at me like that. I know too.”

I am ashamed to say these words with my own mouth, but perhaps it is because I have not forgotten me.
That’s why he trained his sword.
That alone is not enough.

‘They’re trying to join the Paladin so that it doesn’t happen at all.’

All those who have taken refuge in God, including paladins, cannot marry.
It’s the same for women or men.
Marriage with a human was impossible because the act of entrusting oneself to a god meant marrying a god.
Emir going to the Holy Knights.
It was a way to reject marriage requests that kept coming into the family.
It was the best way for her to forget me.
If you forcibly block the marriage, you will slowly forget your attachment to me.

‘That’s not enough.’

Why?
In the end, Emir himself blocked the possibility of marriage.
Once she joins her paladin, she doesn’t have to be forced into marriage, and I don’t have to worry about hooking up with her either.
However.
My, or Maurice’s, heart started beating fast.
Thump thump thump!

The heart beat and the circle vibrated.
When I heard that Emir could completely leave and disappear, my body urged me to stop it.
Damn it

‘Are you serious?’

I looked down at my self-pounding body and thought to myself.
This body. Maurice’s memories from the past.
He still seemed unwilling to let Emir go.

“I don’t really want my master to worry about giving up love for political reasons.”

Sebastian interjected.

“It’s not just for political reasons.”
“I know. Conflict of mind is also close to politics.”
“It’s a conflict of the mind.”

I can talk like that.
However, it was not that simple.
That I can’t be myself because of her.
That there is confusion about my identity.
It wasn’t something that could be simply defined by the word love.
Sebastian doesn’t know my troubles, so he can say such a simple thing.

“So you won’t stop me?”

Thump thump!

His beating heart seemed to warn him to stop Emir immediately.
If I didn’t stop her, she was going to stop.

‘But.’
Isn’t that too selfish?
To not get engaged for my personal and political reasons, but to approach a woman who is trying to forget me and interfere with her difficult choice.

Thump thump!

My circle went on its own, as if it didn’t care about those things.
‘Damn it.’
I clutched my chest.

“Master, are you okay?”
“Okay…”
“Your complexion is not good, and the mana you feel is unstable.”
“Okay… Said she.”

Gritting my teeth, I calmed the mana in my shaking heart.
After concentrating for a while, the mana that was twisting with the momentum to tear the inside of my body calmed down.

“Haha.”

Sweat broke out on his forehead.
The heartbeat, which had been beating wildly, also subsided.

“Are you really okay?”
“Right.”
“I felt it the other day, but whenever I hear the news of Lady Solarion, my mana shakes.”
“It’s none of your business.”
“I am the master’s butler. Master’s health is also one of my areas of care.”
“Thank you for that, but not now.”
“Let’s go visit Lady Solarion.”
“What do you mean?”
“Master, it seems that the young lady still has lingering attachments. Why don’t you go and get rid of your last regrets right now? If not…”
“Are you going to come and confess?”
“If that is the will of the master.”

Sebastian bowed his head respectfully.
It was a heartfelt advice that was concerned about my physical condition.
Even if I look at it, my condition doesn’t look fine now.
I looked at the mirror hanging on the wall.
From the cold sweat flowing from his head his and his face his reddened as if it were about to explode from the beating heart, his breathing rough and his eyes shaking out of focus.
He looked like a pitiful man shocked by the news that the person he loved had turned to God.
So Sebastian must have said this.

“You look terrible.”

I was weak enough to burn my stomach just by looking at it.
His [Perfectionist] Characteristic of having to look perfect to others was activated and his eyebrows his furrowed.

“Would you like to go and stop Lady Solarion?”

Sebastian asked me.

***

The palace of the emperor, Daeshinjeon located right next to the imperial palace.
In the past, until magic became stronger, it was a sacred place where the pope, who had authority comparable to that of the emperor, resided.
Now that magic has become stronger and the emperor’s power has become stronger as well.
The priesthood was not what it used to be, and the power of the pope was noticeably weaker than before.
It was probably because the power of the divine power, which was called the miracle of God, was weaker than before.
But did they say that even if a rich man goes bankrupt, it will last for three years?
The pope was still one of the few people the emperor could not tamper with.
The state religion of the empire was the main religion of monotheism, and the imperial nobility, even the emperor, believed in the main religion.

In front of such a great battle, Duke Solarion looked at Emir and asked.

“Are you really planning to take a test?”
“Yes.”
“However… A paladin.”
“I know. But father. I have no intention of getting married. Because my love is torn.”

Duke Solarion has seen his daughter his in pain over and over again as he has failed in his love her.
So much so that none of her servants could hear her holding back her cries her.
He knew that it was all his fault his for breaking up his marriage, but he never said his faults his in front of the Emir.
Because that was the attitude of the head of a family.
However, when she heard that her daughter was giving up all worldly happiness and returning to religion, she was in conflict over whether she should admit everything.
Those who have taken refuge in the gods cannot marry or have offspring. Even the family legacy does not go back to the paladin.
So usually, the youngest member of the aristocratic family, who had been pushed back from the succession, was a paladin and a bishop.

She broke off the marriage, but she loved and cared for the Emir. She had already thought of her estate her, which she would give her if she were to die.
She’s her own daughter, why the hell did she turn to religion?
I thought of tens of thousands of stories to stop her daughter her, but the one that came to the mouth of Solarion Duke.

“How can there be only love in a marriage between nobles?”

It was just a formal word.
Everything is caused by you
He couldn’t make a promise that he couldn’t fulfill, since Maurice Dmitry had rejected even the engagement he had secretly handed over to him.
She just looks down at her own daughter, who calmly watches the temple in front of her eyes.

“Sorry.”

The emir bowed her head.

She always was
Every time she has been practicing her to forget Maurice.
Every time she is aware of her own weakness of her.
The back of Maurice, who protected her, came to mind.
She was strong
And… Disappointing, but nice.
She ran away without even asking why, the way she saved herself.

She recalled when she first became engaged to Maurice.

‘Her first meeting her was the worst.’

She was a careless and self-aware person. He only believed in magical talent and looked down on others.
It was the worst engagement ever.
He said he liked me, and the way he talked about it over and over again.
It just felt burdensome.

But one day, the person suddenly changed.
As if he had become a completely different person, the man who only knew himself began to take care of the people around him. He didn’t even show useless pride.
Then, he devoted himself to magic.
From that day on, he stopped being obsessed with her.

Emir didn’t believe Maurice’s sudden change.
Because I thought she changed her appearance to look good to me.
But when it’s been over a day, two days, two months. She thought the man had changed.
Mind was drawn
He must have been someone he didn’t like.
My eyes kept going, and I was interested.
It was wonderful to see her researching her magic her, and I fell in love with her firm goal her.
Around that time, an accident occurred.

The Dmitry family collapsed.
Her relationship her with Maurice ended when her father broke up her marriage her.
I thought it was over.
However, every time an engagement came from another place, Maurice thought of her and she rejected it.
Other aristocratic sons who had good family conditions.
Even the children of nobles who were beautiful in appearance.
A chivalry with a more promising future than anyone else.
She couldn’t compare to Maurice.

Maurice took its place in Emir’s mind.
And the only time she met Maurice again was when her life was threatened by assassins sent by Seria Siegfried.
He saved himself and played an active part in the civil war as a mage belonging to the imperial faction.
I noticed then

‘I couldn’t forget this man.’
The emotion I’ve felt so far is love.

Her feelings of her, then attracted to her, were still haunting her.
The feeling of love kept blocking Emir from moving forward.
So I chose a paladin.

If I keep remaining, I think I will forget my greed to become stronger.
Because she couldn’t seem to get away from Maurice.
So I chose.

“Ha.”

At the resolute voice of her daughter her, Duke Solarion let out a deep sigh.

“It won’t be unconditional that you put it in. I heard that priests are nasty and go through a rigorous selection process. So.”
“It’s okay. Do not worry.”

Emir said she was confident.
Because I didn’t consider myself lacking in qualifications.
Thought it would be absolutely possible.

“Go and see. I have to go to work at the palace.”
“All right.”

Duke Solarion smiled and watched her daughter’s back as she entered the temple.

***

“This is the end of the interview for the faith test.”
“You worked hard.”

The Bishop, the Paladin’s enlistment manager, said.
The emir let out a sigh of relief from her.
It was an interview to prove her faith in her in front of a total of three recruitment managers.
Judging by the expression on his face of her, it seems that his faith of her has passed.

“Now, we’re going to check if the sister matches the divine power, if there is no resistance, and what kind of holy relic she matches.”
“Yes.”
“If the divine power suits the body, we will check how well the power blends with the holy object. If you pass that far, the sister will have the conditions to join our Order of the Holy Knights.”
“Is it over there?”

The Bishop shook his head at Emir’s question.

“There will be an internal review. Finally, when the pope blesses the holy relic containing the sister’s energy, the final decision will be made based on the reaction.”
“You’re strict.”
“That is the path of those who want to believe in God. Anyone can challenge, but not everyone is qualified.”
“All right. Let’s begin.”

The bishop laid his hand on the emir’s body.
Pure white divine power flowed through Emir’s body his.
The divine power that flowed into her body and gently wrapped around her body.

“Good. That’s enough.”

The bishop, who had recovered her divine power that had spread through Emir’s body her, took out the church’s holy relic this time.

“It is a sword blessed by the gods. Give it a try.”
“What can I do?”
“All you have to do is imagine the image of God you think of.”
“Is that all?”
“Yes. Then the holy relic will react on its own.”

The emir nodded her head and grabbed her sword.
She closed her eyes and thought.
‘The image of God I think.’
I have been told that God is always perfect.
Everything can be achieved, everything is forgiven.
When people are in danger, they show up and save them.
Reaching out and comforting the lonely.
Sometimes it looks cruel, but it is limited to those who pose a threat to believers.
In Emir’s head thinking of all this.

Morris.
Maurice Dmitry came to mind.
At the same time, the sacred object Emir held reacted strongly.

Whoa!

“What is this?”

I opened my eyes when I heard the surprised bishop’s voice.
Then, a light so intense that it hurt her eyes her enveloped the sword.

***

“It’s really great. The light overflowing even though it filled the auditorium? It’s the first time I’ve ever had anything like this!”

The manager, the bishop, exclaimed in a fluttering voice.

“I will handle it according to the procedure, but you will probably be able to join.”
“Is that so.”
“You can look forward to it.”
“Yes.”

There was no blemish in Emir’s neatly lowered head of her.
However, unlike the bishop who smiled with excitement, her expression was dark.
That would be too.

‘I came to forget.’

Even at the place where she proved her divine power her, she thought of Maurice.
Her returning emir covered her own face.
When she was told to think of God, she thought of Maurice because she was ashamed of herself.

‘It’s crazy. It’s crazy.’

I have to forget somehow.
Have to forget
So, never think of Maurice.
The emir took her heart and lifted her head.

I’m trying to go back to the mansion.
‘Does it look empty?’

A man similar to Maurice was seen standing at the entrance of the temple.
It was not an illusion, it was the real Maurice Dmitri.