Chapter 77 – Episode 77 I Don’t Want to Send You Into the Arms of God.

“Did the exam go well?”
“Morris? Why… ?”

The emir called Maurice by name in her embarrassed voice.
Has he ever come and met her before?
At least as far as she knows, not since her breakup.
Not once did her Maurice come forward and try to meet her.
Even when she lay in her sick bed.
Because Maurice didn’t find it.

“I heard that she applied as a paladin.”
“It’s none of Maurice’s business.”
“Why not?”
“Yes?”

Maurice took a step closer.

“Isn’t it your business, Emir, and not the others?”
“Are you that interested in me?”
“I have always been interested in you.”
“You speak well. Wasn’t it always the position I was looking for? You never came before.”

Maybe it was because she thought of Maurice until she took the divine power test.
The words that came out of my mouth were even sharper.

“It seems that the paladin is that great. Even when I fell ill, Maurice, who had never visited me before, came to visit me first.”
“It’s a big deal. The emperor’s eldest daughter said she would give up everything and entrust her body to God.”
“Are you here to play a joke on me?”

Emir’s voice, which had been filled with tears, rose a notch higher.
She felt her vision blur.
She couldn’t forget Maurice. She was Maurice, whose face did not shine even once when she collapsed from love sickness.
She didn’t come to her when she was most difficult and lonely, but now she appeared before her eyes when she was trying to forget everything.
‘A mean person.’
He was such a mean person.
A selfish person who wants to keep her in her grasp and not let go.
Why.
Could she not get out of her grasp?

“She heard that she raised her sword again because she wanted to be strong. Is this your choice?”

What Maurice pointed out was the entrance to the Great Temple.

“Yes. This is my choice.”
“If it were you, you would easily get along with the people of the temple. Priests consider everyone equal under the gods, so they won’t even give you special treatment. But does that have anything to do with being really strong?”

Maurice took a step closer to Emir.

“I guess I don’t.”
“How do you determine that?”
“Bartram is a talented teacher. Are there people stronger than Bartram out there?”

The emir shut her mouth.
It was a fact known to everyone in the Empire that the Order’s Paladins had weakened.
A sword master like Bartram was also nowhere to be found among the paladins.

“You came to tease me, too. To belittle you for making a foolish choice and insult you for ignorance.”
“Obviously, but no.”
“Then why did you come? Do you really hate me to go to church? Enough that Maurice, who didn’t even come to visit me when I was sick, personally came to me?”

It was time for Emir to grind his teeth.

“Did you ask if you don’t like joining the Order?”

When I saw Emir frowning, I felt my heart beat.
Just making her sad made her heart race.

Throbbing.

She sighed, putting her distance, so as not to be heard by the Emir.
A deep wrinkle dug between her brows from squinting her eyes.
However, just by coming here, my heart, which had been beating relentlessly, calmed down.

‘Is it this much?’

The mind that this body thinks of Emir.
I gritted my teeth.
I calmed down my quickening breath and opened my closed eyes.
When I made eye contact with Emir, who was glaring at me with raised eyes, I felt a pain in my heart.
Now you hate me
She hates me so much
You should definitely like it.
I should like the fact that Emir hates me.
Why does my heart hurt so much?

“I don’t want to send you to the church. Why do I have to let go? Do you think you can become stronger if you go there?”
“I am not Maurice’s. Going to church is my choice.”
“To become stronger?”

Feeling my heartbeat subside, I took another step.

“Rather, I will try to control your strength by mentioning numerous laws. Is that a place like that?”
“My strength?”
“I just saw the light leaking through the window.”
“To say that alone is absurd.”
“That is the reality. Restraining the strong because of political quarrels within the church. That is why the power of the Church has weakened.”

Emir’s face turned red in anger.
I wanted to refute, but I just kept my mouth shut.
The more she spoke, the more her desire to not send her to her Order grew.
Even if she hates me.
Even if you hate it more than this.
I can’t send

“Did you say you wanted to be strong?”
“…”
“You better come to me. I will make you stronger if you want.”

He made her an offer she would never normally have made.

“Do you think you are unqualified?”
“You are a wizard.”
“Is there a law that says that wizards cannot teach knights?”

If it were me, I would be able to teach much better than the knights of the Order over there.

“Why… It’s preventing me from going that way.”

Tears welled up in Emir’s eyes as he looked up at me.
It was an expression of incomprehension.

“If you pushed me away like that until now, why did you come now… Why are you trying to catch me now?”

I was troubled.
Why you came here
Why did you come
Because this body wants to see you, Emir.
Not.
Because I wanted to stop you from turning to God.
Why?
I like you
In more detail, my body likes you.
It may sound strange to say this, but my body does.

But Maurice’s body, not mine, couldn’t say that he hadn’t forgotten you.
I can’t say that I’m a possessor, so I won’t be able to convey the true meaning of these words to you.

A lot of words lingered in my mouth.
What to say
‘Can you understand?’
Can I not be hurt by my words?

“She said it was okay to have a concubine. It was Maurice-sama who rejected me. Why…”

Tears welled up in Emir’s eyes as he spoke.

“Are you finally holding onto me?”

I thought that it might be a wound to her just because I came to her.
I can’t turn it around

Had I ever looked into Emir’s eyes for so long?
But I didn’t want to avert my gaze.
It was beautiful.
It was so beautiful that I wanted to keep looking at it.
To the point that I don’t want to lose it to someone else.

However, how can I explain the gap between my body and consciousness that arises because I am a possessed person?
‘He was in a situation where it was obvious what had happened to the empress who revealed that she was the possessor.’
Could not reveal
Just.

“All for political reasons.”
“Is it just because of that?”

I hide my true feelings and tell lies.

“However, you did not force me to learn. But the temple doesn’t fit. If you don’t want to learn from me, learn from Bartram.”

The training process will be painful.

“Morris, I don’t know. Don’t know Why am I trying to enter the temple?”
“Why are you going in?”
“I can’t tell.”

I saw her
She was speechless, her eyes reddened.

“For reasons I cannot tell you.”

She too was like me.
Sincerity that cannot be spoken to each other.
Between the truth that I can’t open up like that.
This was the distance between her and me.

“Then what should I do?”
“You shouldn’t have come.”
“Still, we were once engaged. Her fiancée is making a choice that will determine her life her, and you have to come.”
“So you’re saying you want to teach me swords?”

Emir’s eyes lit up as he looked at me.

“Okay. If you want.”

***

‘How can I say that.’
To forget Maurice, she said she was entering the temple.
That’s why I said that I shouldn’t have you next to me.
Biting her lip, Emir passed Maurice.
She made up her mind
Enter the temple
That was Emir’s choice.
Even if Maurice came to visit, she did not let go of her goal of forgetting him.

“Is that so?”

Maurice’s sad voice came from behind Emir.
However.
He, too, did not capture Emir.
It seems that coming this far was the last of patience.
Just let her go without saying anything to her.

If only it was like this.

‘Why are you appearing in front of me and shaking my heart?’

The emir is heartbroken that Maurice does not hold her.
She still wanted to hold on to Maurice, but the wounds she had suffered so far prevented her.
As she approached Maurice, she feared she would relive the pain she felt.

As Emir returned, his heart ached as if it would break.

***

“Ha.”
I returned to the magic tower and sighed.

‘Why did you do that?’
I didn’t want to send it.
Originally, I just pretended to block it and tried to calm her body’s dissatisfaction with her.
After seeing Emir, I didn’t want to send him to the temple.
You don’t want to send it?
You can teach better than the knights of that church?
Drunk with excitement, he spat out nonsense.
A swordsman and a wizard obviously have different paths.
It was funny.

‘Emir and I crossed the river of no return.’

If only I knew that the aristocratic assassins who attacked Emir were the ones I sent.
She will curse me
Her own maid her died because of her her me.
Because she almost died because of me.

‘By the way, will you keep it next to me?’

I really wanted to do that on the spot.

‘Is it gradually encroaching on Maurice’s body?’

It was difficult.
This is difficult.
I pressed the bridge of my nose between my eyes.
My head hurt.
Maurice’s body seemed to be blaming himself for not holding on to Emir properly.
Throbbing.
Her heart her kept tightening.

I saw Maurice in her mirror her.
Her handsome face her. A chilly expression with a cold charm, and even a stretched out body.
She really was as perfect as her appearance of her.

“Maurice. Why do you keep torturing me like this?”

Damn you son of a bitch
I let out a sigh.

It was then.
“Minister.”
I heard Jane’s voice in her.
“What is going on?”
“An invitation has arrived.”
“Where are you?”
“This is Solarion. By the way…”
“By the way?”
“It has the emperor’s seal on it.”
“For what reason?”
“It’s called a party to celebrate the rescue of Lady Solarion.”
“Party?”
“Yes.”

It was a party to appeal to the fact that the imperial faction had blocked the aristocracy.
That sounds funny.
The conspiracy of the aristocrats was not stopped by the emperor or the imperial faction. Because I blocked it
It just worked out as I had previously planned.
The imperial faction did nothing.

‘If this is what the emperor wants.’

Get along
I just won’t hang out.
“I get it.”
I thought of Cecilia.
Now, the date to evacuate her was approaching.

When the emperor is intoxicated with a sense of victory.
I will send Cecilia out of the capital with hallucination magic.