Chapter 100 – My Baby’s Name Is Saeah

In fact, this world would not have collapsed or anything like that had it not been for the regressor Kim Joo-won.
Even though threats from the behind world loom at every moment.
Because it is this world that overcame the initial threat that seemed to be really ruined and how the system was built.

As far as I can remember, I’ve never thought that without a main character, I would be ruined right away.
Maybe if we can’t completely drive out the other side world, at least this world will roll on somehow.

In fact, I was saying that there was absolutely no need to ruin my current life by going to see Seo-yeon today.
To her, whether she likes it or not, if I show myself as a mother to Kim Joo-won by giving birth to her child.
Life now will change in some way.

‘Are you okay?’

Before going to school in the morning, I remembered the question Kim Joo-won asked me.
The words, “Can I give up the stable life I found now?” Lingered in my head.
This kid with a big smile.
Will I be able to watch as I am pointed at as a child of a rapist?

“Sweetie, what should I do, mom?”

Today, I am seeing Sae-ah, who is toxic and calm.
I wondered if my choice was right, and a part of my heart started to feel uncomfortable.
If today’s meeting goes well, there will be no harm, but if not, what kind of gaze will Sae-ah live with?

‘And Kim Joo-won…’

Well, that’s because you did it.
I won’t be able to do anything until there.
Because Kim Joo-won has already crossed the line too many times.

I got up.
It’s been a year since I met Seoyeon, but I didn’t want to see her in a shabby look.
There.

‘Bird…’

How would Seo-yeon react if she saw the child that came out between him and me?
Even Kim Joo-won said he never had a child with Lee Seo-ha.
Maybe I’m doing something I shouldn’t have done.

There was definitely a time when I wrote such a sentence in a novel.
Was it the way Kim Joo-won said, ‘There is nothing as stupid as a fight without information.’

‘I’ve become so stupid, Lee Seo-ha.’

Helping myself like that, I took off my clothes to wash with the sleeping Sae-ah behind me.
She came into the bathroom and looked in the mirror.
I swallowed my saliva at the sight of myself that was terribly similar to Seoyeon in everything except for the color of my eyes that remained in my memory.

How will she change?
Will it change unimaginably like me, or will it be the same as I remember it.
After staring at the mirror for a moment, she let out a small sigh and turned on the shower head to wash her body.

Me too
What on earth did you think of Seoyeon while looking in the mirror?
Since you gave birth to a rapist’s child anyway, normal dating would be difficult.
… Maybe she’s thinking about giving birth to a child, maybe it’s a relief if she doesn’t get slapped on the cheek.

‘Whoa.’

After taking a shower, I left the bathroom.
After wiping off the water from her body and wrapping her hair in a towel, he picked up her phone and sent a message to Joo-Won Kim saying that she had washed it all.
After that, I hope she sits on the bed for a while wearing clothes that don’t look pretty, but are decent enough to look at.

‘Haa, should I just watch it?’

Even if she sighed for a moment thinking about it.
She got up from her seat, thinking that it was something she would have to go through someday if her new baby was to live a normal life.

After all, Kim Joo-won has to pay for his crimes.
Even if I, the victim, do not want to be punished, I can avoid legal punishment due to my special status as a guardian.
Doesn’t that mean that what he did will go away?

“Hey, do you want to go out with your mother?”

While I was undressing Sae-Ah to dress her, Sae-Ah opened her eyes to see if she had woken up and started staring at me blankly.
First off the diaper, she puts on her shoes as she dresses the baby and holds it carefully in her arms.
No bus
No matter how much you graduate from the level of a newborn baby, you are still a baby.

“Hey, driver. Can you go slowly?”
“Is it because of the baby?”
“Yes, please.”

After all, the only option left for me without a car is a taxi.
Fortunately, I met a driver who listened to my careful request, so I could go to school without harm to Sae-ah.
Even with the child in her arms, her heart started pounding little by little at the thought of seeing Seo-yeon for the first time in almost a year.

To be honest, if I was meeting alone, I might not have been so nervous.
If that was the case, I wouldn’t have been with Kim Joo-won.
Seo-yeon would have been able to meet her older sister whom she knew.

However, if she sees me holding Sae-ah like this, she will definitely ask.
Whose child is she?
She couldn’t believe she was the human child she thought she was.

Perhaps if I nodded at the question, she would be shocked.
She’s Me, though her shock at being raped was overshadowed by the fact that shortly after she was raped, she stabbed Kim Joo-won several times with her knife.
Because of the situation I was in, there was no reason for the shock to come up.
After all, it’s not normal to live with a rapist and give birth to and raise his child.

“Im here.”

Sae-ah got out of the taxi carefully so as not to startle her.
Seeing the scenery of the campus for the first time, tension began to live in my body.
It is probably because it is presumed that Seo-yeon will attend the same school as Kim Joo-won in this place.
If I go back to her right now, she will be able to spend her daily life safely at her house without meeting her.

But how?
She thinks of it but doesn’t get her feet back.
Right away, the mere fact that a young woman is sitting on a garden bench near the front door of a university campus with a baby in her arms draws attention.
If Seoyeon came out after waiting here for a while, she would make eye contact with her.

“New, are you hungry?”

Even if you think rationally, she knows that you shouldn’t meet her yet.
I can’t believe her feet are off.

“My bird doesn’t cry today, you’re proud.”

I deliberately talk to Sae-ah to hide my anxiety.
After handing the jjokjjokgi to Sae-ah, who is playing around with his hand, he stamps his feet while trying to hide her uneasiness.

15 minutes left until the end of Kim Joo-won’s lecture.
She bites her teeth and covers her child’s cheek with her brim so that the sun doesn’t shine in her eyes as she stares at her mother.

But, in spite of everything he does to keep calm.
The madly beating heart won’t calm down.

In the end, in tension, and to avoid the gaze of others.
I deliberately go deeper into the garden and sit on a bench facing away from the central aisle, where my face and bird are not visible.

But that’s not the end.
Even though I came out like this to meet you today.
For a while, I cherish the bad hope that I won’t run into Seo-yeon.

“Seoha!”

How long did you wait for that
I heard Kim Joo-won’s voice from far away and turned her head, as if she had come running as soon as the lecture was over.
There was a little sweat on Kim Joo-won’s forehead.

“I’m here?”

Could it be the aftermath of excessive tension?
As soon as I saw him, I immediately thought of a lot of things I wanted to say.
My voice trembled for some reason, and every word that came out of my mouth was just that.

“Why are you here so early?”
“Early what…”
“I heard you arrived 15 minutes early.”

I nodded at his words and shut my mouth.
It feels like your lips are being burned.

“What about Seoyeon?”
“I don’t know.”
“Didn’t you see?”

Kim Joo-won nodded at my words.
Could it be that he is not directly involved and is following?
Or, because I didn’t get any benefit from the last meeting.

“…Do you want to just go in?”

Are you deliberately not getting close to him?

“Are you okay?”
“…Honestly, I think it would be a bit unreasonable to meet them as they are now.”
“Then let’s go in.”

Either way, maybe it’s fortunate for me now.
Thinking so, the moment I slowly raised my body.

“Sister?”

A voice came from behind me that I never wanted to hear.
This heart sinking feeling.

“Are you my sister?”

As much as that moment, there may have been times when I didn’t want to turn my head.

“Yeon-ah Seo.”

However, the moment I hesitated at the point where I was already called unnie, the game was over.
I have no choice but to turn to the side of the person who called me.

“Sister?”

Perhaps Seoyeon was more than happy to see Seoha Lee.
After losing her sister whom she had been looking for for ten years, she met again after a year.
But she is the older sister.

“Sister… Right?”

If you see him holding a new child in his arms while being with the person who raped him.

“Yeah, that’s right, Seo Yeon-ah.”

And if you see her smiling while holding the child she had with the rapist.

“It’s been a while, my dong-.”

Indeed, as Seo-yeon is her younger sister, what will she think of me?

“Are you lying?”

Her eyes are stained with amazement.
As if her new baby in her arms was empty, as if she doubted her own eyes, she blinked her eyes and couldn’t continue her words.

“Sister, are you showing me strange illusions with that dimensional ability right now?”

She brings out her words as if she doesn’t believe in reality.

“Answer me.”

Instead of speaking, she shakes her head from side to side.
What she is seeing now is reality, she imprints on her once again.

“My child’s name is Saeah heh-.”

Jab-!
The moment you try to say your child’s name.
Her face turned slightly to the side with a burning sensation on her cheek.
It was probably slapped on the cheek by her hand.

But she couldn’t turn away just because she said that, so the moment she turned her head again.
The moment she came into my eyes once again with her eyes wet with tears.

“Stop.”

Kim Joo-won grabbed her wrist.