Chapter 102 – Sister, I’m Sorry.

“Sister?”

The Awakener’s developed senses faintly caught the voice of Seo-yeon, who was surprised inside.
At the end of the trudging steps inside, the door lock is unlocked.

“Sister?”

Seo-yeon, whose eyes were lifeless, looked at me and cautiously called me with her limp voice.

“Sister? What is this smell?”

I wonder if she was seriously hurt by what I said.
It was scary to see surprise on her face, who seemed to say with an expression that she was sick.

“Seo Yeon-ah, hehe…”

A smile blooms on my face when I see her face.

“Have you been drinking?”
“Um, a little…”
“Ah, the smell! How much did you drink?”
“Ummm, I don’t know.”

I was guided by Seo-yeon’s hand who grabbed me at a distance, and she moved into her room.
Sitting on the porch without even taking off my shoes properly, my brother who took off my shoes scolded me, saying, “I really can’t live!”
He forced himself to get up and took me to bed and laid me down.

“Heh, hehe Seo Yeon-ah…”

Seeing her like that, she let out a sloppy smile without a thread, and her face turned into shock.
Was it so shocking to see her older sister’s promiscuous appearance for the first time?

“Really, how did you find this place?”

If it were her older sister, she looked at me with an unanswerable gaze, as if she would have given up on her liver and gallbladder.
Lying on her bed, seeing her brother’s face that she hadn’t seen in a long time, a smile naturally flowed out.

“Unni, you’re an awakened person~.”
“Ah, sister, jjom!”
“It’s about looking for you, it’s nothing to do with just looking at your face.”

Saying so, she reached out her hand to Seo-yeon.
However, in front of me, a person with dimensional ability, her gestures as an ordinary person were just weak resistance.

“Hehe, my brother.”

I use her dimensional transmission to target Seo-yeon, who runs away in a panic, so that she comes to me.
She eventually holds her in her arms and laughs heartily.

“Really, how much did you drink? Don’t you have to breastfeed that baby?”
“That’s right.”
“But what if I drink like this? What about the baby?”

Originally, I am reluctant to borrow the power of alcohol.
Let’s pray for the power of alcohol and feel better.
And even if I muster up the courage I didn’t have, I think it’s just an act of losing self-control because of drunkenness.

But why today?

“Seriously, what can we do when our Seoyeon is so kind…”

Even though it was clearly an act of alcohol that I hated so much.
Even though it only comes out with the power of that kind of liquid, why am I so grateful for the alcohol I didn’t like?

“Sister…”

Seo-yeon, who was trying to get out of her arms, stopped resisting my words.
On her face, the surprise and astonishment disappeared before I knew it, and only regret remained, making my heart hurt.

“Today, it’s just my fault…”

I think of the abusive remarks that I hurled at Seo-yeon during the day, tearing my heart apart once again.
But even now I hurt her a lot because of her and I don’t want to burden her with her seemingly smiling.

“Ah, sister! Don’t do it!”
“Hee hee, my little sister, our Seo Yeon.”
“Ah, drum really!”

Holding her tightly in her arms, as if she had gone out of her mind without me noticing.
He kisses her lightly on the cheek and smiles foolishly.
But even if she says that I’m dirty, isn’t the love she received after a long time not that bad?

“Sister.”
“Huh.”
“What happened? Why is this person who doesn’t drink and doesn’t drink like this today?”

He asks me again in a gentle voice, as if asking where he had gone after fighting during the day.

“Just…”

As I hugged her seo-yeon tightly, pressure pushed up from under her breasts because of her breasts.
More than that, I felt Seoyeon’s soft body in her arms.
Come to think of it, Seo-yeon is smaller than me to the extent that she can be held in my arms.

“I remembered what I said to you earlier…”

With such a weak body, what did I say to the child who had been looking for me for a year?

“That’s why tears come out…”

In the end, she sheds tears that she didn’t want to see in front of Seoyeon.

“I must have looked hard because I wanted to see you.”
“Sister.”
“I can’t understand your feelings, and I hate myself for saying that to you, Seo Yeon-ah.”

Holding Seo-yeon tightly in her arms, she buries her face on her soft shoulder so that she cannot see my expression.
But that much, she didn’t even know that her shoulders were getting wet.
She didn’t want to cry, but in the end she felt sorry for herself for crying in front of her.

“Do you hate me?
“It can’t be.”
“I know, I shouldn’t have done that to you…”

I quietly muttered to myself as I felt my consciousness sink below the surface.
He buried her face in her shoulder, not seeing what kind of expression Seoyeon was making after hearing those words.
She gradually falls into soma.

“Sister, I’m sorry.”

Like that, she didn’t hear it.

She fell asleep

*

That day.
The night she met the man she was scared of.

‘My lady, then you should be well until the next time we meet.’

I chewed on the words of Mr. Jang Min-cheol, the managing director, whom I met to help her find her sister.
You should be fine.
Perhaps that would mean a lot to me if her father and older brother had gone all out to find her missing sister.

‘Come now…’

Lying on the bed, just a clichéd greeting to me, who still misses her older sister.
No, because it was a cliché, it became a phrase I didn’t want to hear anymore and was tormenting me in my head.

After I lost her sister, who I had barely found, who was her mother herself, everything about me lost its value.
What does that mean when you’re doing well?

– Sister, when will you see my message?

I close my eyes, looking at the number 1 next to the message that still doesn’t disappear.
While hiding his identity at Cheonghwa Academy, he recalls those dream-like moments spent with her sister for a while.

Just like everyone else
Although sisters and brothers who do not get along are common.
I remember the time when I stormed into her sister’s room and forcibly dragged her out to dinner, thinking that it was not so with her sister.

Also, because of my father’s talk about seeing him.
That moment when she happily received the message from her sister who had contacted me to ask for help.
And to her older sister who had no memory of her, she tells the story of her past and remembers the moment when she recalled her memories of her last happy childhood.

‘Did he say Kim Joo-won…?’

But that happy moment is short-lived and ends quickly.
As always, her older sister, who was afraid of the silver-haired man named Kim Joo-won, lastly.
And with her father and her older brother not looking for her older sister, the happy time is gone.

After that, I lay alone in a small 8 pyeong studio room.
Realizing that there is only one woman left who only looks back on her memories of being lonely and happy.
Just like she always did

‘Sister, where are you?’

She stretched out her phone and looked at her sister’s picture, and must have fallen asleep.

But today was different.
Maybe, I found a clue that might be able to reach her sister.
Because of that, she even met the character of Hyeonseong, whom she had never wanted to contact.

Maybe, today is a more valuable day than the past year.
Because it was the first day I caught a clue to approach that person who hadn’t been caught like fog.

No.
I haven’t taken a clue, but it’s probably the man.
The conclusion that I can draw on Nagi, who could not forget the eyes of the person who wore the hospital gown that day.
The black-haired man I met this morning must be.

– That’s the guy I know –

‘Tomorrow, when did the class for freshmen with him end?’

In fact, I still feel my whole body constrict when I think of the gaze he gave me.
I don’t even know if I can properly stand in front of that person.

But, you’ve decided.
To find her sister no matter what.
If I can find her sister, no matter how I feel.
I’m sure I’ll have to meet that dark-haired man again.

‘I can do it, Seo Yeon-ah.’

I spend the night with my eyes open, but I make plans to meet the man again tomorrow without feeling any fatigue from him.
Thinking that she would never give in to mere glances again, she tried to calm her pounding heart.

One hour, two hours.
Hold on until morning, hold on, and move on to school again.

Maybe the lecture that day didn’t come into my ears at all.
Because it was the university she chose to have the strength to endure in order to find her sister in the first place.
By the time I found the dark-haired man, the lecture was completely useless to me.

“Then everyone suffered-.”

Before the professor finishes talking, he quickly runs out of the classroom.
I ran to the building where the dark-haired man went.

But what
As soon as I arrived at the lecture room where the man was, I had to believe my eyes.
I was sure this class would end at this time.
I’m sure it’s something I heard from someone with a connection to this section, but the man didn’t even show his nose.

‘What, what is it?’

You don’t know how much my heart was beating.
Anyhow, just in case.
If I think I recognized myself, if I went into hiding again.

I was about to lose again the only clue to reaching her sister.

‘Oh, no.’

At the same time as his heart was pounding, he must have been extremely desperate.
Probably to the point of rummaging through the classroom building, half lost, and running around looking for the man with all his might.

“Seo Yeon-ah, do you have an older sister?”
“Sister?”
“There’s a really pretty girl in the main garden? But she looks a lot like you.”
“That’s right. But the color of his eyes is a rather mysterious blue.”

And to the point where he ran without answering the sudden sound.

But fortunately, did I say that God repays those who are earnest?
At the sight of the back that I really wanted to see, emotions surged up on my own.
So I said the words I really wanted to say.

“Sister?”

What came back to me was holding the baby from the relationship with the rapist in my arms.
It was completely unexpected, and that’s why it was a very shocking image of an older sister to me.