Chapter 103 – You’re the Worst

“Sister?”

How shocked I must have been, I would have called my sister again without even realizing it.
The man next to me is definitely the man I know.
The scum of the scum who raped her sister and bound her to herself, the kind she doesn’t want to mix with.

“Sister… Right?”

In fact, everything is good up to that point.
That non-human bastard, it’s enough if I don’t make things to look forward to while avoiding it.
Yesterday I was trembling in fear because of those unique eyes, but that’s a problem that won’t happen if I don’t look at it in the future.

But why.
Is she holding the child she had with that man right now in her arms?

“Yeah, that’s right. Seo Yeon-ah.”

He is an unwanted child.
I think it’s normal to erase him because he’s definitely a kid who looks like that.
What is this sight in my eyes now?

“It’s been a while, my dong-.”
“Are you lying?”

I can’t believe the image of my older sister holding a child in her arms, so she cuts off her greeting and asks me once again.
Then, a bitter smile appeared on her sister’s face.

“Sister, are you showing me illusions with that strange dimensional ability right now?”

However, without properly recognizing the expression on her sister’s face, she said things she shouldn’t have said.

“Who is your father?”

Like a mother
On the cheek of her sister, who cherished and raised me like her daughter, not her sister, when I was a child.
I put my hand on her sister’s cheek just because I couldn’t overcome my anger.

“Do I really have to tell you that?”

Maybe my sister is upset.
It was definitely my fault for putting my hand on her sister’s cheek and pushing her.
But looking at my sister who speaks sharply, why am I at that time?

“Aaaaa!”

Why didn’t you look at me first?

But that thought doesn’t last long.
I wonder if even that small lump of blood felt that a woman he had never seen before was fighting with her mother in her mother’s arms.
I woke up to the sudden sound of a baby crying.

‘What the hell am I doing…?’

However, the feeling of regret always comes in too late.
As soon as I saw her sister’s tight lips, I said something to her sister.

“Why, my father, this bastard who forcibly drunk me next to me is right.”

The expression of an angry older sister.
My sister’s voice, which has become extremely sharp, pierces my ears.

“What’s wrong with your father being this bastard, is he doing this to me?”

As if frozen cold, my heart freezes on its own at the motion of my sister who has stopped.

“Don’t talk recklessly. Yes, I won’t say anything until Kim Joo-won insults him. But.”

That’s why, even when I’m angry with my sister who doesn’t know my heart.
Mouth to her frozen heart, though I regret the words I said to her sister.

“There’s nothing wrong with Sae-ah.”

At the words of my older sister who took the place of that baby rather than me, I think I will burst into tears in the end.

“I’ll go.”

In the end, it slips out of her hands as if running away from the spot.

I still depend too much on her sister.
Tears flow from her eyes as I go to her house, thinking that now her older sister has more priority than me, and that the child she unwantedly gave birth to is more important than me.

– Beep beep beep

But what I hated more.
Even though it was the dark-haired man who did nothing wrong, as her sister said.
Why did I push her sister as if her sister and her baby were wrong?

‘Crazy bitch.’

She came home and lay down on the bed without changing her clothes or washing herself.
The tears she had been holding back began to flow slowly as she was completely alone and thought of her sister.

Sister, I’m sorry.
It’s my fault.
Sister, you wouldn’t want to do that to me.

An apology with no listener resounds into the void, but no answer comes back.
Maybe, am I already late?

How did you meet
Why did I get swept away by emotions without even realizing it?

However, there was one fact I had forgotten.
To her older sister, I am a younger sister.
Even though I could never give you as much love as the child I gave birth to, I was still very precious to my sister.

“Seo Yeon-ah, it’s me.”

When I lay there alone like that, regretting the things I said to her sister.
Even though I said harsh words, the words that came out as soon as I saw her sister who came to visit her drunk.

“Sister? What does this smell like?”

No apology, no word on how they found it.
These words came out of concern for my older sister, who came to visit me through the streets at night in a drunken state.

* * *

And so now.
Seeing her sister sleeping with me in her arms, I let out a small sigh so that her sister wouldn’t wake up.

I honestly had no idea.
The words he said to me became a stabbing knife himself, to the point of crying even though he was drunk like this.

‘Bad.’

Coming out of her arms, I carefully cover her sister with a blanket as she sleeps with her face reddened, and I feel her heart tighten at her words that she couldn’t convey.
Sorry is what I want to say.
Why does unnie take away my player first at a time like this?

‘Lee Seo-ha, you’re really bad.’

Rather, I wanted to apologize first rather than you.
Sleeping drunk on your own, you bad bitch.

‘…It’s pretty, but it’s dirty and pretty.’

Earlier, her drunken sister recalled the shock she had received at her appearance.
How excited I was to see her slutty figure, which I couldn’t normally see.

But even so, I couldn’t nag properly.
If I were to say a word, how many times has that insanely beautiful appearance blocked my mouth today?
…It must have been a man.
Why, do you think you are prettier than me as a woman?

‘This is the punishment for causing my jealousy.’

I grab the cheek of the older sister I hit earlier with my thumb and forefinger, stretch her out, and forcibly create a funny look.
I quit after realizing that it was too pretty to intentionally make it ugly.

“Sister, are you sleeping?”

Instead, she spoke cautiously to her sister, who was certain to be asleep.
Sitting on her floor, her chin resting on her bed, she let out a small sigh as she watched her sister sleep quietly with her pretty blue eyes closed.
Do I know
Tell me how long I’ve been looking for you

“You said you were sorry for me earlier.”

Things I couldn’t say when I was awake.

“But I’m more sorry.”

And I carefully begin to bring out the necessary apologies for what I did today.

“Sister, you didn’t have to come out today, did you come out because of me?”

If you do it when you’re awake, don’t say it’s okay.
Rather, she was the one who said sorry to me for disappearing on her own without a word.

“Because you know I’m looking for her sister, to be considerate of me.”

Over the past year, the things she’s done to find her sister have flashed by.
She can’t even report it to the media, and even skips her school once in a while, using Hyun-seong’s information network to visit places her sister might have gone to.
I remember going to an agency that didn’t mind doing illegal work as long as I paid a lot of money.

“I really found you a lot.”

Carefully lay out the events of her past year.

“You know what? I cut off contact with my dad and my older brother.”

I straightened her sister, who was lying on her side, and sat beside her with her cotton pad and cleansing oil to remove her makeup.
Carefully removing makeup from her sister’s face.

“I don’t know how people can do that. They’re not strangers, they’re family.”

Now that everything has passed, the stories are meaningless.
She carefully takes it out to her sister, who is fast asleep and can’t even hear her.

Her sister was desperate to see that even though she searched all the places she could go, there was not even a trace of her.
What she reported to the press as a last resort after seeing two people who were not looking for her family even though they had disappeared.
From that incident to her family, to the day she entered college to leave the house and somehow survive.
Even the parts that could be considered insignificant were carefully presented to her sister.

A vibrating sound came from somewhere.
Looking around, I found my phone lying on the table.
Judging from the fact that the screen is still off and the black front panel is still showing, it wasn’t a vibrating sound from my phone.

‘Could it be your sister’s phone…?’

Although I know it’s not polite to go through other people’s pockets.
Still, there is a part that can’t be helped.

‘The man…’

When she carefully took out the vibrating phone from her sister’s pocket, a screen with ‘Daddy’ written on it caught her eye.
It must be the phone call from the bastard I saw during the day, who raped her sister.
Could it be that her older sister became her own woman?

“Hello.”

When I spoke sharply in response to the feeling of resistance that arose without my knowledge, there was silence on the phone for a while.
But, it’s really only for a moment.

[Are you Mr. Lee Seo-yeon…? ]

He let out a small sigh at the sound of a cautious voice.
How did you know my name

“Yes.”
[ By any chance, Seoha is there now? ]
“Yes.”
[ Ah. ]

Was it fortunate enough to spit out exclamations of relief?

Okay.
It would be good for you.
She is an older sister who has to raise her own child.

[ …Then Seoha, please take good care of me today.]

It occurred to her that she did not even think about the psychology of her sister, who was mentally restrained by the human bastard who raped her.
It’s only one day today…
How the hell do you think you can come up with something like that?

“Did you say Kim Joo-won?”
[ Yes. ]
“You’re the worst.”

After talking that far, she nervously hung up on her phone.
At the same time, I feel so sorry for her sister who can’t get away from that bastard because of her child.
Tears flowed again from the depths of my heart in my situation where nothing could help.

Sister.
What did my sister do so wrong, should she live like this?

Handing her unreachable questions to herself, she fell on top of her sister and wept silently.