Chapter 113 – Still Pretty

“Yeah? What is that?”
“Student Seoha, although he’s a boy on the computer, he’s a girl now anyway.”

It seemed that the instructor’s words would naturally frown.
If I was going to go to the girls’ class in the first place, I wouldn’t have done all the troublesome things to stay in the boys’ class, starting with getting my uniform reissued.

“Honestly, it’s a bit like that. You’re mixed alone among men, right? When you train for the back world, you mix with men without any outside intervention for a week, and that’s what you have to do.”

Did the academy give me instructions to persuade me to go to the girls’ class?
Watching the instructor’s words get longer, something inside me started to get annoyed little by little.
Why do I focus on being a woman?

“Instructor.”
“Yes?”
“If I had intended to go to the girls’ class, would I have been reassigned to the boys’ uniform?”

In fact, if you think about separating the sexes on purpose, in a way, I am an existence that should not exist.
If you think of it in terms of things from the past, the image of me in a boy’s school uniform right now would be a good subject to bite into.

“It’s not like that, but…”
“I know what you’re worried about. But.”

I stopped talking for a moment.
I couldn’t help but wonder why I had to say this here.
There is only one reason why I came back to the academy.
I didn’t come here to hear a lecture or something.

“I don’t really think about the girls’ class. I don’t want to get involved in that battle of emotions between girls…”

It was because of the ability training to beat Lee Seo-ha.

“Anyway, since I’m not thinking about it, I hope you don’t tell me to go to the girls’ class.”

The instructor kept his mouth shut.
Originally at the academy, the position that the existence of an instructor has is such that students cannot even properly express their opinions.
Powerful powers are given to them.
Originally, I would have had to be dragged into the girls’ class.

However, now I am, in fact, the bloodline of Hyeonseong, the big hand of Cheonghwa Academy.
Every year, we provide huge amounts of funding to Tsinghua Academy.
In addition, he is the son of a corporate group that is leading the development of auxiliary equipment for targeting the behind-the-scenes world in Korea.

“Are you really okay? It must be pretty hard to be with guys…”

That’s why, as an instructor, you can’t recklessly assert your authority.

“It doesn’t matter. It’s harder with women.”

Was it burdensome for me to stare at myself like that?
The instructor clears his throat for a while, then replies, “Okay,” And gets up from his seat first.

“It’s fine to go back.”

Of course, as she is also a strict instructor, she could do that if she wanted to use force against me.
However, the detailed internal circumstances of Hyunseong will not be known.

“I’m rooting for you.”

She bowed her back to her, got up from her seat, and left her consulting room.
Before turning her foot, I looked in the direction I had been walking for a moment.
If it were me last year, I would probably go back the way I came and go back to the classroom without thinking.

‘…Now is not the time to listen to lectures.’

What I need right now is the strength needed to defeat Lee Seo-ha, who has perfected abilities.
Opening the two-dimensional space, I tried to turn my feet to the two-dimensional space, not the lecture room.

But.

“Yoon Shi-hoo?”

I turned my gaze without thinking, and saw a familiar face.
Surprised, I stopped until the name came out without my knowledge.

“…”

The moment his face turned toward me as he walked toward the window.
I had to look into his eyes and swallow his bitter heart.
The moment he looked at me, the vitality disappeared and his empty eyes clearly suggested that he had deep resentment and anger towards me.
Plus, even the way he walked away without saying a word to me.

“Shihoo, wait a minute.”

If I had been so surprised, I would have grabbed the end of his sleeve as he passed me by.
Yoon Shi-hoo, who hesitated, turned his head slightly and looked down at me with an expressionless face.
Seeing him like that, I realized that I had made a mistake and had to let go of Yoon Shi-hoo’s sleeve.

“Seoha.”

Perhaps this was the first time that his voice sounded so cold to the ears.

“You are still pretty.”

I could feel it.
Behind Yoon Si-hoo’s voice praising my appearance, without even asking for help.
Even though I knew that I liked me, I had a lot of resentment for my actions that I ruthlessly abandoned and ran away.

“How are you.”

Because of that, he couldn’t catch Yoon Si-hoo leaving.
I stood blankly, watching his back gradually receding, then turned his feet and moved to the individual training ground.

“It’s here.”

My current situation, having lost the child I had with Kim Joo-won and the friend who once cared for me the most.
It’s all a result of my choices.

“Huh.”
“…What’s going on?”
“No.”

Maybe I didn’t look good.
Joo-Won Kim, who was trying to open and operate the control panel, looked at me with strange eyes.
After receiving his gaze and asking what she was doing, Kim Joo-won suddenly closed her control panel.

“What are you doing.”
“Seoha.”

About three or four steps away, he came up to me and suddenly held me tightly in his arms.

“What happened to you?”

The period we lived together was a little over a year.
Even if it was never good, the period I had to live with as the child’s mother and father passed through my mind in an instant.
As far as I know this guy.

“…”

This guy must have known about me as well.

“Joo Won.”

I opened my mouth.
Hearing the voice quietly pouring out his name, he answered me briefly, “Yes.”

“If that’s the case, I know I shouldn’t be thinking like this.”

I remembered Sae-ah.
Obviously, even if it came about with a bad opportunity.
It wasn’t a long time though, but I could see the smile of the child who taught me what maternal love was.

“If I didn’t run away to have a baby then, and just erased it, at least I wouldn’t have to feel this way right now?”

He slipped out of Kim Joo-won’s arms.
When I slumped down in my seat, he followed me and sat next to me.
Him like that
I looked at the guy who raped me with a resentful gaze, and gently grabbed the hand of the guy who once threatened me.

“I met Yoon Shi-hoo today.”
“…Yoon Shi-hoo?”
“I was called by the instructor and met briefly on the way out, but we didn’t talk much.”

Then he brought his hand to my face and cupped my cheek.
I could feel the warmth of the guy I thought I would never feel.
In that short time after returning, I could feel the calluses in my palms through my cheeks, how much I had gripped the sword.

“It was still pretty.”

Kim Joo-won did not react.
He probably knows too.
Now that I am with Yoon Si-hoo, I am not an object of affection, but an object of resentment.

“Joo Won, was I that pretty?”

When I looked him straight in the eyes and said, Kim Joo-won stared blankly at me without saying a word.
When I let go of his hand, my gaze naturally turned to his hand that naturally fell to the floor for a moment.

“It’s okay. You don’t have to answer.”

He recalled coming here to train to find a bird child and got up.
However, Kim Joo-won.

“Seoha.”
“Why, what why?”
“Let’s not train today.”

Then, suddenly, he made a silly noise to me and grabbed my wrist.
When I scolded him with his eyes, asking what he was thinking, Kim Joo-won seemed to be serious.

“I don’t think you’ll be able to do it right, even if you try.”
“No, I can-“
“Seoha, an imperfect mind often comes as a lethal outcome in battle.”

I was speechless at the sight of him looking straight into my eyes.
No matter how much I am a writer who wrote a novel that is the foundation of this world.
He had no choice but to know more about combat than this guy who had been through all of those things himself.

“And training done in a bad mood is mostly useless for anyone.”
“What do you mean?”
“I know we have to find our child. I know we have to be strong to do that.”

Besides, this guy was a regressor.
A man who lived through several terrible lives, and who accumulated an overwhelming combat experience that no one else could match.

“But, not as you are now. Plus you…”

Kim Joo-won swallowed his afterwords, but I could see what he wanted to say.
I get swept away by emotions a little more easily, and it’s because of myself, but my mind is already in a state of not being whole.
As Sae-ah’s life was at stake, shouldn’t we be a little more careful?

“Sorry.”

Then he, he hurriedly brought out the words I had previously told him not to say.
The reason he told him not to say he was sorry to me was because he didn’t want Sae to show a bad side there.
I didn’t bother to point it out.

“Seoha.”
“Huh.”
“It seems like the first thing to do is to learn how to manage emotions first, what do you think?”

I nodded at Kim Joo-won’s words.
In fact, if you think about it for a bit, you can understand that I meant to go out and spend some time without practicing today.
Maybe I needed a break for my mind.

“…Isn’t this a date request right now?”

I followed him, spitting out a nonsensical sound.
Then Kim Joo-won stopped for a moment, answered briefly, “What are you talking about?” And then walked ahead.
Even if I think about it, it’s nonsensical, but I wonder if he was shocked.

“Seoha. You and I can’t have a relationship like that, can we?”
“That’s true. Because of you, it’s more like a forced relationship.”

Kim Joo-won flinched for a moment.
He smiled for a moment at the sight of such a guy and gently pushed him on the back.

“Let’s go.”