Chapter 114 – Notes

Kim Joo-won and I were already delinquent students when we escaped from the academy.
That’s not a day or two, but a long period of a year.
It was as if he had become a target of attention, wondering where he would run away.

But the problem is that I can’t hold on to him because I’m of Hyeonseong’s blood and I’m a dimensional talent.
However, the body that had already escaped once returned.
If you try to escape again this time, it will be difficult to handle, and there is no better place to become stronger to find a new child than the academy.

I returned to my dorm room and took off my uniform.
As this is the academy’s daily routine, it’s a little bit like wearing school uniform outside.

Escape, not escape.
As I was changing my clothes to go out, I heard the doorbell ringing, and I was about to move but hesitated for a moment.

‘What would Seoha Lee do at a time like this?’

What she can do, I can do.
I’m not sure if I’m still at the level where I can freely come and go in a two-dimensional space like her.
At least this would be possible.

“Lee Seo-ha?”

I took a few deep breaths.
Then, beyond the dimension, she stretched out her hand and opened the front door, and I heard Kim Joo-won’s voice, wondering that I was not in front of me.
Click.
Although she nodded when she saw me changing clothes inside the room with the sound of the door closing.

“Seoha. Are you entering the men’s room without wearing any clothes?”
“What? After living together for a year.”

Was Kim Joo-won attracted to my body even in this situation?
She came close to me, and subtly reached her hand toward my body.
He slid his chin over her shoulder as if hugging me from behind her, and thrust his hand between her arm and side.
On top of my chest, where I was wearing only my underwear.

“Let go.”

I felt my chest firmly without being shaken by a word of my warning, and sighed slightly as I saw the guy putting his hand into his underwear.
Okay.
He was such a guy

“Joo Won.”
“Uh.”
“It’s nice to touch it, but it leaks later and you have to pass it on, so do it in moderation.”

Then the hand of the guy who came into his underwear and gently touched his nipple stopped.
When I heard that Sae-ah would eat it, the desire to touch it seemed to drop, and his hand, which had been dug into my underwear, slowly moved away from my chest.
Also, this guy didn’t even talk.

“Are you going out?”

Looking at the guy who seems to have lost his mind, Kim Joo-won nodded her head to see if she could give up going out.
Simply.
It’s not going to be seen by anyone, and it’s just going out for a short while.

“Let’s go.”

Sprite shirt with jeans.
And a very thin white cardigan.

“Huh.”

Kim Joo-won similarly wore a light outfit of black cotton pants and a navy blue shirt.
He nodded and carefully grabbed his outstretched hand.
At the end of the dimensional transfer targeting me and him, there was a train station connecting Cheonghwa and the outside world.

“Wow, are you coming here right now?”
“Because I live…”

Kim Joo-won, is it that surprising that my ability has grown more than he thought?
It’s been over a year since I’ve already lived as the female Seoha Lee.

“But where are you going?
“Um. Well, I don’t know. You were the one who asked me to leave.”
“That’s true, but I didn’t come out with a specific idea of ​​where to go.”

Upon entering, the quiet scenery of the station caught my eye.
It was natural that there wouldn’t be many people coming to see the students of Cheonghwa Academy at this time.

“Then.”

I inhaled and exhaled lightly.
The moment I was about to speak, I had never been there since my encounter with Lee Seo-ha.
It was because it reminded me of our house where I lived with Sae-ah.

“Let’s go home.”
“House?”
“You and me, and…”

To say this, why is my neck hanging like this?
If only I had been strong enough to protect Sae-ah that day.
Wouldn’t I have my child in my arms right now?

“My bird… The house I lived with.”

Kim Joo-won nodded.
I nodded when he told me to sit down for a while and sat down. Soon after, he went to the window and carefully handed me a ticket.

“Seoha.”

He turned his head.
Does this guy feel bad when he thinks of Sae-ah?
Looking at me with a somewhat uncomfortable expression, I stood there with the ticket handed out to me.

“I bought a ticket.”

I took the paper ticket from the guy’s hand.
We still had about 30 minutes left before our train arrived.
It’s such a time to just sit and wait, so I might have done something normally.

But me and Kim Joo-won, as if we had made a promise, sat down and just quietly passed the time.
How long must I have been gazing at the fast-moving scenery outside the window as I boarded the train like that?
Apparently, it took about 1 hour and 20 minutes.
But the feeling.

“Seoha.”

And I’m afraid to go into a cold house where I don’t have any children.
My heart that I don’t want this time to pass is like a chimney, but why does time go so fast.

“We’re almost there.”

I stood up at Kim Joo-won’s words.
As he said, the screen on the ceiling displayed a notification that we had arrived at the station we were getting off at.
The voice announcement that followed immediately made me feel as if I was urging me to get up.

“Yes.”

Even until a few days ago, it wasn’t true happiness.
I definitely thought how I could find a stable time while raising my child.
When I got off the train, I felt as if I was inhaling an air quite different from the one I felt in Cheonghwa.

“It’s all here.”

At my words, Kim Joo-won quietly took the lead and started walking without answering.
Maybe he’s more complicated than me.

A large number of regressions of unknown count.
And at the end, her first child, which she had acquired through him, even though it was something she shouldn’t have done.
He was taken away just because he was weak.
Now I’m heading to the house where I lived with that child.

“Please go to Moojeong Apartment Complex 2.”

I got into a taxi, told the driver my destination, and leaned my head against the window.
The vibration of the taxi heading home was somehow unpleasant, but I was determined.
I leaned my head against the window and headed home.

You will probably feel the cold chill.
As if no one had been there for several days, only a chill lingered in the air.
But-.

“Yes, we have arrived.”

Still, I had to go.
Because I had to rediscover the reason why I had to be strong.

The reason is to find a new child.
Even as a reminder every time there’s a reason I’ll never forget until I find it.
It was because I had to find Sae-ah’s picture, which I hadn’t brought back.

“Whoa.”

I took the elevator and went up to the house.
Stand in front of the front door, clear your mind, and let out a sigh for a moment.
After a few days, I unlocked the door lock by pressing the password on the door of the house, which I did not know was coming in, and opened the door.

Then, as if no one had been there for several days, I was greeted by a house filled with cold chills.
The scenery that I would never have seen if I had Sae-ah stabbed my entire heart and made me shudder.
…If I had known this would happen, I wouldn’t have come back.

“Seoha, let me ventilate.”
“Huh…”

At Kim Joo-won’s words, she nodded her head.
I usually live neatly according to my personality, so it didn’t smell like anything.
The turbidity of the air that had been confined in the house for days made his heart heavier.

A laptop that is turned on as if to show that you have left while working.
As if to let you know that you are living a daily life, the laundry that has not been removed.
And…

When you enter the bedroom, the new child’s bed and.
A diaper box that is pulled out for use at any time.
Even Sae Ah’s month-long commemorative photo hung on one side of the wall.

“Joo Won.”

I called the name of Kim Joo-won, who had approached me, who was standing on the threshold of the doorway without even turning on the light.
If only this bastard hadn’t raped me then.
No, in the first place, if it hadn’t been to me the moment we first met.
Would I not have to feel these feelings now?

“Hey, do you know what I’m thinking?”

Come to think of it, if it wasn’t for this guy in front of me.
I wouldn’t have to hurt Yoon Shi-hoo or Seo-yeon like that.

“I used to be like that, but now I only resent you.”

And also to the baby.
She would not have had to give her the terrible experience of being kidnapped and forcibly separated from her mother by a child who was less than two months old.

“But you know what? I think I’ve said that before.”

Turned her feet
I raised her hand, which was holding her fist, and struck Kim Joo-won, who was looking at me with a complicated expression, on his chest with a resentful hand.

“You can’t even give up just because you’re resentful.”

Then, feeling hopeless at the present reality without a new child, he sat down.
Tears flowed from her eyes.
Why do I have to feel this way

“What am I supposed to do?”

Lifted her head
With a sad expression, she raised her head and met Kim Joo-won’s gaze.

“Joo Won, what am I supposed to do…”

When I came to the place where I lived with Sae-ah, I remembered the happiness I felt while raising her child.
And in contrast to that feeling of happiness, I hated this moment without children.
Because of this, I was pouring resentment toward him.

I felt the phone vibrate in my pocket.
When I took it out, the alarm message that it was time to wash the bird was telling me to move.
Because there are no birds at home that need to be washed now.

“Joo Won.”
“Huh.”
“I need to wash the leak… But there is no leak.”

There was nothing I could do but throw that one sentence at him.
Raised her body
Sitting down won’t help her.

‘Let’s just take care of things, for now…’

Thinking so, she stood up and headed for Sae-ah’s picture.
However, the fact that I forgot.
I had a history of hiding a note that had reconstructed the original to some extent in order to sort out the differences between the original and this world before, on the back of Sae-ah’s photo.
As if to make her pay the price for forgetting that fact now, a note fell from the back of Sae-Ah’s photo.

Thud.
It felt like my heart was sinking.

Because Kim Joo-won was behind me now.