Chapter 115 – The Sudden Ringing Bell

I felt my heart drop.
If he saw this note, I didn’t want to imagine what would happen after that.
Especially since Lee Seo-ha didn’t tell Kim Joo-won the truth about this world.

‘If he knows the truth about the world…’

If Kim Joo-won is terrifying, he is the real guy who did that to me in order to get revenge for what happened to Lee Seo-ha.
Besides, in a way, I’m also the one who created that guy.

Naturally, without looking back.
As if something he hadn’t even thought about had fallen, he reached out and took the note naturally.
Please, I hope that Kim Joo-won will not be interested in this.

“Seoha!”

That was the moment.
When I turned my head in surprise at the voice I heard from behind, I wondered when Kim Joo-won, who was clearly standing behind me, had left the living room.
His voice let me know that he was beyond the door.

“Uh!”

It seemed to brighten up a bit, and raised a voice.
It was fortunate.
Fortunately for him, he probably just passed by unintentionally, not having any doubts about my actions.
I was the one who managed the house, and Kim Joo-won always followed me no matter what I did.

‘I’m really glad…’

Thinking so, I quickly picked up the notebook so that Kim Joo-won wouldn’t notice it.
With the photo of Sae-Ah, into the temporary sub-space that can be created as the ability to handle dimensional abilities has increased.
He picked up the notebook he had to hide and threw it at Kim Joo-won.

“Why?”
“What should I do with this?”

In Kim Joo-won’s hand, Sae-ah’s clothes, which I hadn’t been able to dry before, caught my eye.
Did I leave the laundry behind that day?

“…I know.”

In an instant, the voice quieted down.
Traces related to Sae-ah are everywhere.
He even let out a small sigh as he looked at the washing machine with the laundry that had been washed for several days.
If it’s for me or the guy next to me, I’ll just try and throw it away if it doesn’t work…

‘Of course it’s leaky clothes…’

Hearing Kim Joo-won’s words, he let out a small sigh.
Even if Sae-ah came back, she wouldn’t be able to wear it, but she let out a small sigh as she looked at the small clothes she didn’t want to throw away.

“It’s okay to throw it away.”

Did he think the same as me?
At that, she nodded and carefully accepted the small baby clothes from Kim Joo-won.

“Huh.”

I felt like I was in a fantasy as if I was holding a newborn baby in my arms as I held my wrinkled, damp and dried clothes in my arms.

It was dangerous.

I think I have already broken myself from not being able to give up on Kim Joo-won, the rapist, because I gave birth to and raised a child.
Even that was not enough, and I was afraid of myself as I seemed to be clinging to the child who came out of the relationship with him.

“Never give up…”

After saying that to Kim Joo-won, she took out her baby clothes and folded them.
Even if it’s not right now, I have to go back to the academy today, so I can’t do anything right away.

“Joo Won.”
“Uh.”
“Home, what do you want to do?”

First of all, I hung the baby clothes on hangers so that they could be exposed to sunlight, and went into the living room and sat down on the sofa.
Although this house was a place that provided a stable escape space for us.
Now that everyone was caught, the only thing left was that there was a place to get out of the academy and go back.

“Are you selling it?”
“Isn’t that right from a rational point of view? The house I grabbed to escape anyway. It’s all meaningless now.”
“I don’t care, are you okay?”
“What do you mean?”

I raised my head.
I’m fine, what are you talking about?

“…I’m just a young kid, so it doesn’t matter, but you’re not.”
“What is that?”
“You hate the academy.”

She felt that Kim Joo-won’s words had hit her right in the middle.
Considering that just for being a Guardian, she was brought out by killing a child she was pregnant with.
If you think of the evil that Kim Joo-won brought me there, there is no reason why the academy is good.

“I don’t have a good relationship with my parents’ house there, so I have to continue living there.”
“…”
“Is that okay? I’ll do it if you do as you say.”

Kim Joo-won’s eyes met.
This house was registered under Kim Joo-won’s name, not my name, so if I wanted to sell it, he had to jump in and sell it himself instead of me.
It was because of this guy that he took care of everything on behalf of me, who was unable to move because I couldn’t get pregnant at the time.

“I don’t really want to see that.”

I thought for a while about what he said.
Although the academy is a place we need to be strong.
It was also a place I wanted to avoid.

Perhaps even now, if Sae-ah is retrieved, then we must fight together with the academy.
Hyeonseong won’t welcome Sae-ah, who has the blood of an orphan with nothing.
Because that guy and I are the Guardians, talented people who can’t be given up in this world.

Not only that, but this place is also the new home.

“Are you really going to sell it?”

Kim Joo-won’s voice came again, as if he wanted to make a quick decision.
Maybe the guy doesn’t want to sell.
For a guy who hadn’t had a family for an unknown period of time, even though it wasn’t a true and normal family.
Still, this house is the first place that made that possible.

“What would you like me to do?”

I also didn’t want to sell it much, even thinking of Sae-ah.

“I am…”

Kim Joo-won hesitated for a moment to answer her.
Seemed conflicted.
Honestly, with your heart that you don’t want to sell.
The nightmare place where she was raped and conceived her child, gave birth to and raised the child, about whether it was right to leave the house behind.

“It’s okay, so tell me the truth.”

He scratched the back of his head as if he was worried for a moment at my words.

“Honestly, I wish I hadn’t sold it.”
“Okay?”
“Uh.”

He smiled at his words and nodded his head.
Then I got up from my seat and lifted myself up.

“Then why don’t you sell it?”

Then the boy’s eyes widened.
Since she was a guy who always harbored feelings of guilt towards me, he must have thought she would sell the house as well.
If I focused on myself, I would have thought that this house would be a place where I could not be truly happy.

“What?”
“I’m not selling the house.”

I took the guy’s hand.
In fact, this house, for me, is the space that made me live with the guy who raped me.
But more than that, what’s important is that Sae-ah needs a place to come back to.

“Joo Won, it’s true that you’re a bastard, but if you don’t have this house, Sae-ah has nowhere to come.”
“…That’s right.”

I could feel the corners of Kim Joo-won’s mouth go up slightly.
Contrary to the mouth, the corners of the eyes went down, giving a very bitter expression.

“Still, it’s not bad here, except for having to live with bastards.”

She headed to the veranda.
Because I just had to be patient.
Then, you can make Sae-ah a home that at least looks normal on the outside, so the view from the veranda of the selected house.

“You see the river over there.”
“Uh.”
“The reason I chose this house at that time was to show it to Sae-ah.”

A breeze blew in through the open window.
It was this.
One of the reasons I felt happy after giving birth and raising my new baby, even though it was a short period of time.

“Actually, since it was originally intended for escape, I think selling it is right, but I don’t really want to do that.”

As he said that, he turned his head to Kim Joo-won.
In an instant, his eyes trembled slightly and his hand moved to my cheek.

“Seoha.”

I heard a man’s voice carefully calling my name.
Let’s look at the guy who gently strokes the cheek, asking why.
Kim Joo-won smiled at her with various emotions in her eyes.

“Yoon Sihoo, that guy said he was pretty to you.”
“Huh? Uh…”
“I shouldn’t have thought of you like this. I think I know why he said that.”

After he said that, he came closer to me and gently caressed his chin with the hand that had been touching his cheek.
He brought his head closer and started kissing me.

I closed my eyes at the kiss he had walked in first.
Did he make me look so pretty?
Or, did he feel some emotion that Yoon Si-hoo had said that?

The reason is unknown.
But, from the tongue do not put.
I could tell at least one thing from his arm and hand that gently held me.

Quite different from the sexual contact I had forced upon myself the other day.
Now that he values ​​me so much that I get the sense that he values ​​me so much.

“Joo Won.”

I called out the boy’s name carefully.
It was a short kiss that wasn’t long, just feeling each other’s lips.
More than I thought, the impact that contact had on me seemed to be more profound than I thought.

“Can I ask what you meant by that?”

It was to the point that I forgot for a moment that this bastard was a dog.

“Uh…”

Why is my heart beating so fast right now?
It’s been a long time since I’ve abandoned the idea that I can’t feel strange feelings for a man.
However, it’s been a long time since I thought of having a sincere heart for a man because of this bastard in front of me.

“If you didn’t want me to, you wouldn’t touch me.”
“Yes.”
“But why today-“

Ding-dong.

The moment I asked him for an answer, both me and Kim Joo-won flinched at the sudden ringing of the bell.
At this moment, I heard a voice that I shouldn’t have heard.
As I turned my head to look toward the front door, the ringtone that seemed to be an electronic reconfiguration of a doorbell came through the intercom once again.

No way…
Probably not
Even though I thought it wouldn’t be, I stopped asking for an answer to Kim Joo-won’s words, “I’ll go and see,” And quietly followed him.

“Press.”
“Huh.”

I looked at Juwon Kim’s fingertips trying to press the connection button on the intercom, swallowing in tension.