Chapter 144 – Stuck in a Drawer

How much did you kill your feelings alone like that?
I shed a lot of tears to kill my emotions, so my face must have been ruined a lot.
It must have been swollen from tears.

‘Ha.’

I went into a public toilet that I could use at a nearby store and checked my face.
There was no smearing of makeup or anything like that, but I sighed when I saw my red, bloodshot eyes reflected in the mirror.
If things go on like this, not only will Seo-yeon worry about what happened outside, but even Kim Joo-won, who came to work for the first time today, won’t be at ease.

That shouldn’t be the case.
I didn’t want to make a guy who had been unhappy most of his life so far more unhappy.
I don’t know if it will be erased with washing.
Manipulating the future doesn’t work for me.

‘Ha.’

I let out a small sigh and wipe at least the traces of tears from my face.
Seoyeon could know what happened outside, but if she had no tear marks, it would be difficult to know where she was or what she did.
This is a place where you can get there at least two hours by car from home.

‘Let’s go home.’

To the place where Seo-yeon and Sae-ah are, and Kim Joo-won will return.
As soon as I opened the dimension door and got out of the movement, the familiar scenery of the neighborhood began to come into my eyes again.
As I got out of the underdeveloped area and breathed in the familiar air, I felt as if my sunken mood was slightly lifted.

‘I’m crying.’

Enter the building and take the elevator up.
Normally, I would have gone to the front door by dimensional transfer, but today I had to purposely walk like this.

I unlocked it by pressing the password of the electronic door lock.
Then, I heard Seoyeon’s welcome voice from inside, “Is your sister here?”, And soon she appeared in her room holding her new baby in her arms.

“I guess Sae-ah didn’t cry?”
“Yeah. I guess it’s because it’s a house.”

I wonder if I was playing well with Seoyeon.
Seeing Sae-Ah smiling brightly, her heart is at ease.

“My bird, how was your aunt?”

An unfamiliar title to Seoyeon, aunt.
The moment she said that and accepted her new baby from Seo-yeon, a strange energy appeared on her face.
Her sister’s daughter.
To her, her nephew.

“Why.”
“No. It’s just something I’m not used to.”
“What are you saying? From the moment he grows up a little more, until he dies for the rest of his life.”

Carefully place Sae-ah in the crib and put her to sleep, then head to the kitchen.
While she was out for a while, she wanted to feed Seo-yeon, who took care of her child, at least a meal.
But…

‘Ah.’

She let out a small sigh as she looked at her empty refrigerator, which hadn’t been properly stocked yet.
She wanted to cook me a meal.

“Sister, why?”

When she saw me doing it, Seoyeon looked at me with anticipation, wondering if she could get a meal for the first time in a while.
How to do this.

“Yeon-ah Seo.”
“Yes, sister.”
“Shall we go shopping together?”

What do you do?
You can’t not eat rice, can you?

“Huh?”
“There’s nothing in the fridge.”

Seoyeon looked at me for a moment and smiled.
She changed Sae-ah’s clothes, wrapped her in a swaddling cloth, and put it in front of her, then she packed some supplies.

“You really are like an old woman.”
“What are you saying? It’s your future.”
“No, I’m not having a baby.”
“Lol.”

At Seoyeon’s words, she put on a smile that I couldn’t understand the meaning of, and put on her shoes.
Her voice came from behind, “Oh, what!”, But she left the front door as if to run away and headed towards the elevator.

“Yeon-ah Seo.”
“What.”
“I had times like that too.”

There was a time when she vowed not to drink one more drink and get involved with a man.
It’s all a thing of the past now.

“Hmmmm.”

She almost cursed in front of the child.

*

“Hello everyone. My name is Kim Joo-won, who has decided to work with me from today.”
“I look forward to.”

She swallowed her saliva as she received the burdened glances from the boss and two other employees in the cafe.
How long have you been doing that?
It wasn’t like hitting something, breaking it, smashing it, but a peaceful thing like this.

‘Well… Can I do it?’

Looking at the two people staring at me strangely, I took a small breath in and out.
Ordinary people, not guardians.
Essentially, a woman.

‘Seoha, can I do well?’

Apparently, during the interview, a male manager came out and said he would work, but why is it only female?
A cold sweat broke out from behind.
When Seo-ha just finished serving her, she thanked her and started to feel the regret she should have received.
Of course, I don’t know if it’s Seo Ha, so I’ll even hire an employee…

“Is this your first time seeing me?”
“Ah yes.”
“The other day, you probably had an interview with our manager, but the manager has now quit his job…”
“Ah.”
“Is this the first time I’ve seen you? The president is Ahn Yi-seul. The next one is called Joo Hyun-ji.”

A sigh seemed to come out from within.
…Just quit?
However, if I really quit, she would have no face in seeing Seoha, who cheered me on and told me to learn well and come back.

“I look forward to.”

For now, he hides his shyness and greets lightly.
However, there is one thing that is inconvenient.
When I was with Lee Seo-ha, nothing bothered me.
My senses as a long-time regressor were telling me that something annoying would happen to me now.

“Did you say Kim Joo-won? Please take good care of me!”

A lively voice echoed through the store.
It gives off a feeling that can’t be found in Seoha.

*

“Sister, I’m going.”
“Yes. Be careful going in.”

I sent Seoyeon away and shook her hand.
While with her, her depressed mood suddenly recovered, bringing a smile to her face.
Well, maybe for a very short while.

‘What is he trying to do now?’

Kim Joo-won does not work long hours at a cafe.
Practice is also practice, but the important thing is the basics.
I was thinking of doing it properly if he wanted to do anything, so I signed up for an academy so he could go there after work.

‘I’m glad things went well.’

After killing Lee Seo-ha, everything was going well.
Now, in addition to being able to live freely without being tied down by the academy, to the fact that I gave birth to a child during the time I was out, I didn’t hear much about it.
There’s also Kim Joo-won.

‘I hope only good things happen in the future.’

I sat down in front of my laptop and thought for a moment.
But in order to do that, I will definitely have to talk about myself someday.

“Baby, do you want to go see Daddy?”

She takes her child in her arms and uses dimensional transfer this time.
Originally, it was a skill I wouldn’t use when moving with Sae-Ah, but now I don’t have much time left.

‘It’s the first day, so I guess I didn’t have an accident.’

You must have worked with a male manager.
Didn’t you see the president’s face?
I’ve been told not to worry about anything strange going on, though.

‘Are cafes only for men?’

It’s nonsense.
Whether the boss is a woman or the employee is a woman.
I needed to stigmatize it so other bitches wouldn’t look away.

‘Was that secretary then? She must be that woman too…’

Our relationship is still not that kind of definite relationship.
Maybe he was anxious
As much as Kim Joo-won did to me, I am now the same person who has committed a crime against Kim Joo-won.
Whether that was intended or not.

“Is it here?”

The guy showed up near the cafe he was talking about.
Of course, it might be a burden for a guy who is just on his first day, so he moved closer without going into the cafe.
If you want to see it anyway, you can see it all with the eyes of the dimension.
But…

‘I want to go in.’

It’s not as much as in front of me, but when I see him smiling in front of another woman, something feels strange inside.
It’s not a very good feeling either.

‘Should I settle for a coffee shop?’

I hope you will stand there for a while, worrying about what you can’t do when breastfeeding your baby.
Seeing the guy who appeared in the store, all those worries vanished before I knew it, and I was the only one who called him.

“Hey, Joowoong Kim!”

When I called him, Kim Joo-won turned his head and ran towards me with a bright expression.
Asking what was going on here, I quietly responded with a smile to the smiling guy and carefully placed Sae-ah in his arms.

“How was your day?”
“It’s just, well… It was just like that.”

Maybe, it was difficult to deal with someone other than a guardian.
Looking at the guy with a little tiredness on his face, I sigh.

“Do you want to go to school too?”
“Huh.”
“You must be very busy this month.”

But, everything he said he would do.

“Ah, I’m done.”

When we arrived in front of the academy, Kim Joo-won brought up a story as if he was sorry.
But on that face, there was the joy of a person who was looking for the direction of life he wanted.

“What, call me later when you’re done.”
“Okay.”

I saw that guy’s face and a smile came across his face.
Maybe it’s because the flame that always dominated my heart now has no trace of it.
Like in the old days, things that made him look hateful were nowhere to be found.

Seeing him step into the building, I felt Sae-ah wiggle in my arms and turned around.

“Let’s go home, baby.”

But apart from that, I was anxious.
Because I felt that the moment to reveal the truth about me to him was getting closer and closer.

I could feel that my footsteps as I returned with my child in my arms were becoming more and more precarious.
In addition, I get anxious thinking about the existence of a notebook I put in a drawer at home.