Chapter 31 – Feeling Numb Even in the Lower Abdomen

I couldn’t believe it.
Joo Won Kim.
When a woman is forced to be forced, she knows she will be shame, and she doesn’t touch me.
With what she said, you raped me while I was sleeping?

‘No way.’

I even felt a tingling sensation in my stomach.
And even the blood on the bed.
The traces that anyone can see that I was hit while I was sleeping.

Looking at these, a word popped into my head.

Rape.
A word I didn’t even want to think about.
The possibility that had come to me as a reality seemed to come closer to my skin, and it seemed that my eyes would become far away.
I.

It seems like a beggar to have entered the novel unwillingly.
Being a woman sucks, too.
Now you’ve even been raped?

“Crazy.”

My lower stomach throbs a little.
I was so choked that I couldn’t even speak properly.
In the end, go until the guy goes.
I couldn’t even resist and felt that I had been beaten until I was beaten.

“Haha, fuck.”

He sighed and stood up.
I thought I would want to die or something like that if the unexpected thing became a reality.
Rather, nothing came to my mind.

More than anything else.
What kind of expression is Kim Joo-won making right now?
I was curious about that.

So I got up.
I’m just getting hurt anyway.
Let’s go see him one last time before we go.

It was the moment I woke up like that.
He brought his hand down as he felt something flowing between his legs.
After running my finger over the area where I felt something flowing, I raised my hand, and the red liquid on the tip of my finger raised doubts in my mind.

‘Blood…?’

Why are you bleeding all of a sudden?
Due to the setting, the awakened person’s body recovers faster than normal people, so even a slight cut with a knife recovers faster than expected.
Blood came out of the body of such an Awakener?

It was embarrassing.
What does a woman in this world do when she loses her virginity, and her body bleeds?

What the hell happened
I couldn’t understand at all what had happened to my body, so I naturally looked back to the bed I had been lying on.
Look again at the spot where the red marks remained.
The bloodstains left on the bed were dark in color and spread widely to be considered virgin blood.

‘This is… Virgin blood?’

Sometime in the past, when I lived as Lee Soo-hyun, a man.
The memory of winning my ex-girlfriend’s virgin, who was a virgin, came to my mind for a moment.
The bloodstains left at that time, were they literally just faint reddish marks?

No matter how much there may be individual differences.
If so, the bloodstains on the bed were too wide to be called virgin blood.
It’s called a hymen in the first place.
To tear that thin piece of skin that can pierce even human flesh is enough blood to come out…

‘Oh, no way.’

At that moment, a thought passed through my mind.
Because I’ve never lived as a woman.
I didn’t know much about women themselves, so I had a thought that I couldn’t think of.

Period.
How long has it been since I entered Seoha Lee’s body?
About a month and 3 weeks?

‘You crazy boy. Is that all you’re thinking of doing? Uh?’

As I thought about that, heat began to rise in my face.
No matter how much Kim Joo-won suffered.
Rape alone or what, I had a bad thought in my head like crazy.

Haha.”

A laugh came out.
A smile that comes from the depths of the heart.
Yes, even though our Joo-won is a piece of garbage.
He didn’t become a bastard who didn’t keep his word.

It was really funny.
Like a mad bitch, he sees the bastard trashing him just glad he didn’t do worse.

Now I was really going crazy too.
It shouldn’t be like this, but it’s okay to be angry when you see Kim Joo-won.
Why am I so happy with just that little fact?

“Ehh.”

He sighed.
Thinking not to worry about this anymore, I started looking for clothes.
And I could understand why Kim Joo-won chose to take off all of my clothes without even leaving my underwear behind.

‘Bloodstains…’

Fortunately, the pants were dark blue, so it didn’t stand out.
There were faint traces of blood on the underwear she was wearing.
…Of course, he did the laundry.

‘Please do just one thing, Joo Won.’

If you’re going to do trash, just do dog trash so you can hate it.
Or if you treat me well.
Stop doing more crap and do better than you’ve ever done so that I can change my mind.

It was really frustrating why the main character of my novel had become such an unpredictable guy.
The relationship with Lee Seo-ha must have been portrayed well in my work.
I don’t think there’s anything like being hit by Lee Seo-ha or being taken advantage of by taking advantage of being a regressor.
I wonder why is that so.

“Ehh.”

I grabbed my underwear and pants, which were still wet, and a well-hanging shirt and jacket, but I hesitated for a moment.
A paper bag on the desk caught my eye.
These are definitely the clothes I threw on the floor in anger that day.

‘It’s smooth.’

Was it the aftermath of getting wet on that day because of Kim Joo-won?
The clothes that should have been soggy and smelly were neatly washed and folded well in paper bags.

…I’m going to take care of it like this.
Why are you doing this to me?
The moment I opened a two-dimensional space with them, feeling confused by the erratic attitude.

“Huh?”

Feeling strange about the act of opening the space itself, Yeol closed the space and opened it again.
Every time I use my ability, the feeling of something snatching me completely disappears.
Different from before.
It felt like a perfect fit, as if the ability had become one with me.

“What?”

I closed my eyes and focused on reviving the feeling Kim Joo-won had given me.
What he was trying to teach me
To regain that feeling of magical power.

‘Ah.’

When I opened my eyes, I could see a new world.
Unlike the world that was identical to the reality where I lived as Lee Soo-hyun before.
When I used magic, the world around me felt more detailed and unfamiliar.
It’s like you can see everything a little better, and even feel the air flow little by little.

An extension of the senses happened to me.

‘Has he always seen a world like this?’

Did Kim Joo-won want to teach me these things?
Indeed, a regressor is a truly unknown being.
I wonder if this was the guy who grabbed my hair at that time, saying let’s try it when I ran into him head-on.

‘Wouldn’t it be nice to just leave it there?’

I saw his bed with red bloodstains.
I don’t want the blood to leak underneath, so I put a tissue paper inside the panties with faint blood stains, and then put it on.
Later, I brought the bed linen and blanket that I had washed for my own use and exchanged them for his.
Aside from the bedspreads, there was no way to wash the blankets right away in the room, so I just stuffed them in the corner of the veranda.

* * *

After the immediate situation is settled like that.
It would be impossible to go to the academy today anyway.
It was when I was taking a nap in my room after secretly buying sanitary pads because I was not in good shape.

“Seoha! Are you inside? Seoha!”

Is it Yoon Si-hoo?
Still sleepy and dreamy, I slowly got out of bed and headed for the front door.
With dimensional eyes.
After confirming that there was only Yoon Si-hu outside and no one else outside, he opened the door softly, and heard his voice from the outside saying, “Is it Seo-ha?”

“Ah, that’s Sihoo.”

Yoon Si-hoo was looking at me with a worried expression.
When she saw that look on his face, she realized a fact she had forgotten and suddenly woke up.
Didn’t I go to the academy without talking today?

“That Kim Joo-won said, but you can’t come because you’re not feeling well today.”
“Ah.”
“So I’m a little worried…”

But whether I’m in good shape or not, before that, I’m not wearing men’s clothing.
I couldn’t have a conversation with the door open like this, so I just reached out and grabbed his wrist.

“Would you like to come into the room for a moment?”
“Huh?”
“I’m in a bit of a state right now…”

Yoon Shi-hoo tilted her head, saw her loose hair, and exclaimed, “Ah.” Only then did he enter the room.
When the door clicked shut, she was able to put aside the thought that she might be discovered as a woman.

“You weren’t dressing up as a man.”
“Huh.”
“How are you, are you okay?”

As soon as I entered, Yoon Shi-hoo looked at me and immediately started pouring out words of concern.
The moment when he said that he had gotten better and looked around, and then sat down on the bed again.

“Huh?”

Yoon Shi-hoo was on the desk.
He tilted his head when he saw the square bag, which would normally be rare in a men’s room.
Soon after she started clearing her cough.

“Ah…”
“What, why?”
“No.”

What’s wrong with a woman menstruating?
I stare at the guy who clears his throat just because he saw a sanitary pad.
She lay down again with the words to go back because she will be leaving tomorrow anyway.

“Yes, yes. Then see you tomorrow.”
“Yeah, bye.”

I looked at my watch only after hearing the sound of Yoon Si-hoo leaving.
…Five o’clock in the afternoon was approaching again.
It doesn’t seem like it happened not too long ago.
It’s already that time.

“Oh, that’s ironic.”

She said and lifted herself from the bed.