Chapter 32 – I Can’t Help It

But there is one thing that worries me.
Menstruation does not end in one shot in one day.
In other words, the blood won’t stop even while being dogged by him.
Kim Joo -won, if it’s like a pervert of the dog …

If you’re a woman, you’ll probably take advantage of that unavoidable symptom and pour out all sorts of pervert-like words.

‘Ha.’

I looked at the clock and pondered for a while.
The moment I woke up, I felt something soft under me, so I went to the bathroom with a new, unopened sanitary pad.

Even if I just move, I don’t want to move because I feel something coming out from below.
Even if it’s because of the time that will be soon.
When I remembered the fact that I had to go to Kim Joo-won’s room, I immediately frowned.
…I felt the throbbing in my lower stomach, which I hadn’t experienced when I was a man, as a bonus.

‘This is why every time Eunjung was on that day, her expression was strange.’

I didn’t know about the woman.
She said that, but when she found out that she didn’t want to know again, the first thing she said was a sigh.

Why is Seoha Lee’s body giving me such an ordeal?

In fact, the symptoms weren’t as severe as I thought, so it wasn’t embarrassing or anything like that.
If it’s going to happen once a month anyway, it’s better to adapt quickly.

Just bloody and rolling on the floor of his room.
Then, blood on your body and being teased by Kim Joo-won might be a bit unbearable.

‘I’m going to have a conversation with him…’

After changing sanitary pads, I opened the closet.
The sky blue shirt and white pants that Kim Joo-won bought me as a gift the other day caught my eye first.
If I wear this, at least extenuating circumstances will be taken care of.

“Ha.”

I don’t want to wear them, but I put them on and looked in the mirror.
I didn’t even pretend to be a male at all.
In the dormitory, if anyone looked at it, Seoha Lee was in the mirror, looking like a mess.

‘Uh?’

After putting it on, I finally realized that my pants were white, and I sighed.
This is fine in other situations, but isn’t it completely female if it leaks even a little blood?
…No. Looking at her now, she’s a complete woman even if she doesn’t bleed.

“Fuck.”

She cursed as she placed her hand on her chest again and touched it.
If I had been a man, wouldn’t I have to go through this shit.

No.
Maybe if she had set Lee Seo-ha as a cross-dressing woman when writing the novel, she could have been the man I am now.
… In the meantime, her breasts are indeed soft and soft.

It took a while for the waves of thought to sweep through her head.
She shook her head from side to side to shake off thoughts that were useless at all.
The time was pointing to 4:50.
Now, if you hesitate a little longer, Kim Joo-won will enter the room before I come.

‘Oh, he’s like a crazy bastard.’

A two-dimensional space was opened.
As I rode over the space, the scene of an empty room without the owner caught my eye.
Joo-Won Kim’s room, where I left it during the day, is still there.

Normally, I would be naked.
I can’t possibly be like that today, the moment I waited wearing the clothes Kim Joo-won gave me.
Soon, the sound of a door lock was heard, and Kim Joo-won appeared from beyond the front door.

“Huh?”

Maybe it’s because I’m usually wearing nothing, but I’m wearing clothes today.
As soon as I closed the door, he glanced up and down my outfit.
“Hmm,” He said quietly, and entered the room without saying anything.

“Seoha.”
“…Huh.”
“Now, sit in front of me.”

The guy who took off his jacket gestured to me.
As I tried to kneel in front of him following his words, he said to me, “That’s not it, Seoha.”

“It’s not like kneeling between friends.”

…Now I’m not a slave, but a friend.
It’s ridiculous.

“Huh.”

But his mouth is different from his inner thoughts.
Let’s change the posture he was about to kneel down while spitting out the answer he wanted, and sit comfortably in a cross-legged position.
He finally put on a comfortable expression, then he reached out to me and brushed the hair on the side of me.

“My cute Seoha, I usually do well as I did, so why is it like this today?”
“…What?”
“You usually waited patiently according to the outfit I told you. But today, do those clothes mean a bit of rebellion?”

As expected, he didn’t like the fact that I was wearing clothes.
As he said that, he lowered his hand from touching the side of his hair to touch my shirt.
He looked at the sky-blue, somehow familiar shirt and said, “Huh.”

“What is this? Isn’t that the clothes I bought for you?”
“That’s right.”
“It’s cute rebellion for being rebellious.”

Be cute
How the hell do I have to think so that the thought circuit is connected like that?
I usually listen well, but suddenly I see something I didn’t hear and I can’t think of anything?

“Okay. Then I’ll skip this one time.”
“…Huh.”
“I won’t do that next time, okay?”

Fortunately, contrary to my expectations, it would definitely cause a stir.
Somehow, the guy stayed still.
When I thought I could get over it safely, I almost let out a sigh of relief in the moment.
Pretending nothing was wrong, though he nodded his head.

“That’s Kim Joo-won over there.”

But if you think of that word differently, it means to stop taking it off now.
I called out his name carefully before getting up.

“Why, do you have something to say?”

Did he not expect that I would call him here at all?
Kim Joo-won looked at me and gave me a slightly surprised expression.
Soon, he started looking down at me with his usual calm face.

“That… You know.”

Indeed, will you listen to me and just move on?
Anxiety started creeping up inside me little by little.
I don’t think he’ll say anything more about not waiting for the outfit he specified today.
Still, this guy is clearly an unpredictable guy.

“I… Have my period today.”

After taking a small breath, I carefully laid out the lines I had prepared in front of him.
Kim Joo-won tilted his head as if he meant something.
Soon after, he smiled.

“Oh, period~?”

Ominously, he repeated what I had said in his brightest voice.

“But what is it?”

Did he want to let me know that everything in the world is not easily resolved?
He put his hand on the nape of my neck with an expression that he didn’t like.
Took.
I pulled the top button by hand.

“You’re menstruating, what are you saying to me?”
“…Sorry.”

There will be no point in further conversation.
Maybe he knew.
The unpleasant smell as soon as you wake up in the morning, and the blood stains on your bed.
And you must have seen the blood on my panties, but there’s no way I didn’t know.

“Come to think of it, yesterday you collapsed too, so you couldn’t do what you were supposed to do yesterday.”
“…”
“I’m going to have to do that today.”

Before I spit out any more pointless sounds, I got up, wanting to do what he wanted.
I unbuttoned all the buttons, took off my shirt, and carefully hung it beside me.
As he took off his T-shirt, the bra that covered his chest was revealed in front of him.

“What is it, Seoha?”

I was a man
Lee Seo-ha, who was a man.
And Kim Joo-won knows that Lee Seo-ha was originally a man.

These three facts come together, and the result was Kim Joo-won, who burst into laughter at the sight of me now.

“What are you doing?”

He got up from his chair and grabbed the bra hook with his hand and yanked it.
He spoke to me in a mocking tone.

“You said you were a man.”
“…Uh.”
“But can I wear this?”

It was as if he knew how to take off his bra in one go.
The hook had fallen off and made the bra I was wearing no longer function as underwear.

“Oops!”
“You’re completely female, huh?”

Females suck…
I wonder if the guy who used to belittle me for a while as I stood motionless was finally satisfied.
He went back to his seat, and he started watching this side again.
How far do you plan to push people down?

“You wear a sanitary napkin like no other.”

That’s what he said when he took off his pants and saw a sanitary napkin peeking through the light blue underwear.
After hearing that, a thought occurred to me.

I’m an idiot for trying to talk to him in the first place.
What the hell did I expect from a guy who said things like that after becoming a woman?
They say there is no disappointment if there is no expectation.
So, what is it that makes you feel embarrassed?

“It can’t be helped…”
“Why?”
“Because the body is a woman.”
“Are you admitting that you are a woman now?”

Let’s not listen
Talking to him would only hurt me.

Thinking that way, I listened to what he had to say.
It was obvious that I would be damned if I didn’t take it off completely, so when I put my hand on my waist, Kim Joo-won stopped me and said, “Wait.”
This time, I try to hide my gaze and look at him.

“Seoha.”
“Why.”
“There’s no way there’s blood flowing under you. You don’t mean to spill it all over my room, do you?”
“…Don’t take it off?”
“You’re asking something obvious. Well, you can take it off if you want to clean up the blood you spilled yourself.”

He doesn’t want blood in his room in front of him.
He stopped me to take off my panties and waved his hand.
Honestly, if you want to get even a little bit of revenge, you could just drop it off here.
So it wouldn’t make any sense.

“…Okay.”

He took his hand off his waist and reached out to the dog collar and name tag that were on the desk.

My stomach still tingles.
I still stumbled upon it below.
Did Kim Joo-won not want to look at my circumstances?

“I’m ready.”

Put a leash around his neck, attach a name tag to his chest, and kneel in front of him.
That day.
Just like when I sat down with Kim Joo-won wearing a name tag and a leash.

“Okay. So what shall we do today?”

His hand gently placed on top of my head.
After stroking my hair for a while, he headed to his desk.
He opened the drawer underneath it and pulled out a chunk of metal that made a clicking sound.

“Shall we play with this today, Seoha?”

Have told me so

The identity of the metal lump was handcuffs.