Chapter 34 – A World That Is Only Closest to a Novel

As I opened my notebook, I thought over what Kim Joo-won had said to me.
I didn’t understand.
I’m sure I’ve never written anything like that.
Why did he talk and act like I was a woman?

“Surely, at this point…”

The question did not disappear from my heart, so I searched through my notes more diligently than ever.
Why did he look at me and not the current me, as if he were talking to another me.
What does Seoha Lee mean to you?
As for why he was talking to me.

Originally, Yi Seo-ha is a man in the original work.
In addition, Kim Joo-won does not have romantic feelings for anyone in the third episode.
He is just a regressor who was focused on destroying dungeons.

Without giving any room for romantic feelings between the two.
Because I really hated connecting with men.

Clearly, from memory, I wrote that way.
However, because of the controversy outside the work that broke out out of the blue.
In the end, he modified the plot and even killed Lee Seo-ha, who was a man at the time…

‘There’s no way I would have written that.’

The most probable thing is that in this world, Seoha Lee was a woman in the previous episode as well.
That’s why the first day he saw me, Kim Joo-won’s reaction wasn’t like that.
It’s as if Lee Seo-ha reacted like she was surprised because unlike the previous episode, she was a woman…

“Shit.”

After searching all the way through the middle of the note, he spat out disgust.
As expected, it was written in the note that he was a man who endorsed and died in the middle, as I remember.

Novel ‘The Regressor Has Everything.’
And even though there are many differences from the original novel, this world has too many.
By the time my head hurt from the gap between the two, this thought reared its head.

Can I call my novel an original novel in the first place?
Although I have abandoned the idea that the world will go back to the way I wrote it in the first place.
Even so, it makes a difference to this extent.
Can I really think that this world was made based on my novel?

…No.
Maybe it’s better to be like this.
If it’s the words and actions that guy just showed me, I think it’s better that way.

Considering that I follow my unconscious to some extent.
It was better that Lee Seo-ha was a woman in the previous episode than that Kim Joo-won was gay.

“Ha.”

He let out a long sigh.
I had to make sure now.
This world is not the world based on my novel.
Maybe it’s just that I’ve come to a world that is most similar to my novel.

‘This…’

I thought about throwing away the note for a moment.
If my hypothesis is correct, this note will no longer be meaningful.
I’m sure the same thing as the novel I wrote will happen, but it will only be a small part.

Lee Seo-ha, already the most important supporting character, has become a woman.

…No.
I won’t be able to do it separately now.
It’s because Seoha Lee exists here as me.

‘I am.’

I passed the dry saliva lightly.
I had a lot of trouble.
In the meantime, I thought of Seoha and I separately.
I thought I was just borrowing Seoha Lee’s body for a while.

It’s simply a means to use in order to survive.
However, seeing how they are being bullied even in such a realistic way, I can’t think of it anymore.

It is not described in the novel.
Every single thing I hadn’t even thought of.

All indiscriminately.

It gradually comes to me realistically and says that this world is real.
You can’t think of it as being in a novel anymore.

To do that, how different is this world?
What kind of existence was it to endorse in the previous episode?

And how many episodes is Kim Joo-won now?

‘5pm…’

Looked at the watch
The time was pointing to 6:50 in the afternoon.
My eyes were on 5 p.M.

I can be alone with Kim Joo-won.
It’s Kim Joo-won’s room.
That time when you can stick close to him in the most private space.

It was not something that could be said to be good even with empty words.
And even though he had a weakness to get out of that position, he resisted him as much as he could.

I will have to change my mind now.

Rather than resist any longer.
I don’t want to follow the world and die like this

As I roughly organized my thoughts, fatigue set in.
The already heavy body felt heavier.
Not physical fatigue, but mental exhaustion weighing down the whole body.
An imperfect reason led me to sleep.

*     *    *

I woke up in the morning and thought for a while.
In the meantime, when I woke up in the morning, I wondered if my body had ever felt so heavy.

“Ah, really Mr…”

Along with that, I wonder if you’ve ever had the fucking experience of getting wet underneath as soon as you wake up.
When I was a child I can’t even remember, the last time I drew a map on a blanket was probably not the last time.

I got out of bed, grabbed a sanitary pad, and headed to the bathroom.
I felt depressed because I thought that she had to change this dog just because she became a woman.
But if you don’t change it, someone will surely smell the blood.

‘One annoying thing has increased.’

At first, she thought that she just needed to live well with Lee Seo-ha’s body.
But even though it’s simply a woman’s body, I thought I could live by dressing up as a man.
A lot of things went wrong just because I became a woman.

“Whoa.”

I looked in the mirror and sighed.
Even in terms of reality, what should I do if I am bullied like this?
Unable to answer, I washed his body, put on his clothes, and took his half-gloves.

As I stepped out of my dorm room, the usual sunlight greeted me.
Before, I thought it was a world in a novel.
After recognizing it as reality, everything seemed to look different.

Not only that, but even using the ability…

‘The opening of the two-dimensional space.’

Perhaps, according to the current flow of abilities, it is not enough to transfer many people, not just me, by dimensional transfer.
It won’t take long until you open the door to the dimension.
Then, until Kim Joo-won grows up, his one-on-one combat power will not be inferior to him for the time being.
Of course, I can’t resist right now.

‘1 year.’

It’s 1 year anyway.
Even if it may be a reality separate from the novel, big events follow the important content of the novel due to the nature of the world.
The case of Honghwa Academy collapsing will definitely come.
If something goes wrong, there will be no place to kick me out as a guardian, so it won’t matter if it’s discovered that I’m a woman.

‘Only until then.’

Like walking naturally.
If you have passed through a two-dimensional space that you passed through with the feeling of swimming before.
Now I was more naturally immersed in the two-dimensional space, and after taking two or three steps with the feeling of folding the space itself, I arrived at the lecture room before I knew it.

“Uh, it’s Seoha. Hello?”

When I turned my gaze to the greeting, for some reason, Yoon Si-hoo was greeting me with a smile.
Obviously this guy.
Originally, he was the guy who left about 10 minutes before school start time.
Why did you come so early today?

“Uh, hello.”

But before I even questioned it.
Did he even see something in me?
He greeted me warmly and approached me, stopped what he was doing for a moment, surprised to see me.

“Seoha.”
“Why.”
“What happened to you yesterday?”

Is it because I know that I am a woman?
He hesitated to place his hand on his arm, then he looked me up and down and widened his eyes in quite surprise.

“You’ve become a completely different person?”

What made you a different person?
When I raised my hand, Yoon Si-hoo was startled and scratched the back of his head with a shy smile.

“What, do you really not know?”

Yoon Shi-hoo nodded his head at his words.
I don’t want to make a fuss about what I’ve changed.

“It’s magic insensitivity.”

Did the conversation between me and Yoon Si-hoo sound pitiful at that moment?
His voice flowed from Kim Joo-won, who was quietly looking out the window, and Yoon Si-hu and I turned to him.

“Even if you have insensitivity, it’s rare to awaken your magical power, but it happens occasionally.”

Magical power… Insensitivity?
I’m the only one who doesn’t know what happened to me because I don’t feel the magic right now.
Did Yoon Shi-hoo feel that magic from me?

“However, even if he dies, he won’t know. That’s what insensitivity is.”

His words were cut off there.
Originally, things that are difficult for someone who has just entered the academy for less than a month to know.
But is Yoon Shi-hoo still a new chick?

Rather than focusing on how to know that fact.
He showed an attitude that seemed to be more focused on whether I had infertility or something.

“Ah…”

I just nodded my head as if I understood what he was saying.
Kim Joo-won’s words were cut off there.
Infertility.
Come to think of it, I couldn’t feel the feeling I felt when Kim Joo-won forced me to use his mana.

“So…”

Yoon Shi-hoo looked at me again.
People were so surprised at how strong the magical power inside me was.

“Seoha, don’t be surprised and listen carefully.”

Well, I think I know roughly what level it is, but I mean.
At this point, Yi Seo-ha just didn’t know how to use her abilities properly.
As long as you find your own attack method.
Because the simple attack power itself is strong enough to run as an active guardian.

“Now you, you are almost the same as our instructor.”

But for now, I’ll have to pretend to be a little surprised.
At that moment, the back door of the classroom opened.
The conversation between me and Yoon Si-hoo was cut off there.

It’s scary to hear his friend’s voice saying, “Hey, Yoon Si-hoo, did you come early today?”
I headed towards my seat and sat down.