Chapter 45 – Shouldn’t We Be Leaving Now?

When the transfer between Kim Joo-won and me was over, the blue light disappeared, and the image of the room I usually don’t want to come into came into my eyes.
The place where Kim Joo-won sexually abused me.

In an instant, without realizing it, her fists clenched tightly.
It’s like I’m going to get those bullshit again.

‘Under…’

He must have no thoughts now.
It’s like I’m doing this because I’m scared alone.

“Then I’ll wash up, so wait a little bit.”

But even my appearance.
In Kim Joo-won’s eyes, did it look like a good joke?
“What is it? I’m not thinking about anything right now, did I just get scared?

Whether or not I tried to push myself away with both hands, he held on tight.
Realizing that I couldn’t do it by force, I didn’t let him go until I was tired of trying to push him away.

“…Let go.”

“Don’t worry, I won’t do anything right now.”

In the end, I gave up and said something, pushed by my strength, and then he let me go.

“Of course, considering I haven’t seen you in three days, I should do it now…”

But it didn’t end there.
He suddenly pressed his face as if he were about to kiss him.
The memory of that time comes to mind, maybe it’s because I was surprised without knowing it.
He took a deep breath and took a step back.

It was almost the same composition as when he forcibly took my lips away from me.

“You, you, just do that to me again.”
“Huh? What?”
“That, that, that…”

Kim Joo-won, is my reaction funny?
I grabbed hold of the words that came out without my knowledge.
I’m afraid he’ll do something like that to me again.
I was so scared that I couldn’t speak properly and smiled.

“Key, just kiss me. It’s real lips and I’m going to bite off your tongue.”
“Aha, kiss.”

Then he put his fingertips on my chin.
He lifted his gaze and made him look at his own face.

I tried to slap his hand in such an atmosphere as if we were really going to kiss each other.
The way the guy focused his eyes on me.
He seemed to be saying that what would happen after he broke that figure would never be normal, so he couldn’t beat it.

“It’s a waste.

Kim Joo-won smiled as if he was satisfied, and then he let go of my chin and began to take off my clothes.
I’m sitting on a chair and I’m looking at his phone.
Soon, the sound of the door closing and the soft sound of water as if it was washing began to be heard.

‘Ha…’

It’s like waiting for a man to wash up.
I don’t know how it came to be like this.

‘Let’s be patient for a bit.’

After calming down, he took out the paper bag he had thrown into the two-dimensional space and started looking through information about Seoha Lee.
As the secret agents said, there may be no detailed information.

‘Father, and older brother and younger sister…’

At least it’s better than not knowing.

‘Is there no mother?’

I am definitely not Lee Seo-ha, the character in this novel.
The novelist Lee Soo-hyun, who took on the body of Lee Seo-ha.
Anything you know will definitely come in handy later.

‘Twenty…’

Come to think of it, Lee Seo-ha got accepted into a prestigious university and was brought to the academy because of her awakening.
What an odd fate.
Just because I awakened my abilities, all of my life that was guaranteed in the future was destroyed.

‘Because of the novel I wrote.’

As I clench and open my fists with such thoughts, I feel like I’m going to feel guilty for no reason.
Maybe I am now
Maybe I should be quiet with the guy who was washing inside me.

If I had that guy, the regressor had everything, not.
A happy pure love story or a romance story.
Or if you wrote a successful life on the board.

He’s not an unfortunate regressor, he’s on the road to success.
I could have lived as such a wonderful man.

“Lee Seo-ha?”

Looking at the documents like that, do you think of Lee Seo-ha’s shattered life?
Maybe it’s because I’m unknowingly soaked in sentimentality?

Before I knew it, I was the main character of my novel,
Maybe I was staring too blankly at the door leading to the place where the regressor who must have lived an unhappy life was washing.
As soon as Kim Joo-won came out, he saw me staring at him blankly.
He called my name in a tone that seemed to be why.

“Uh, huh?”

Having come to my senses at his voice, I shook my head once and looked at Kim Joo-won for a moment.

“Get dressed quickly.”
“What, have you been waiting for me?”
“…What.”
“Could this be such a signal? Our Seoha has finally become too lewd, and wants a man-.”
“Fuck you!”

The rest of my anger after listening to the guy talking bullshit while holding my horse’s tail.
I forgot all the thoughts I was thinking until now.
He shouted at him in a high-pitched voice.

“…Do it in moderation.”

And every time I rebelled, I thought of his reaction, and I immediately lost my temper.
But it’s definitely different from what I thought I would say.

“Have I been too harsh?”

Kim Joo-won smiled and turned around.
“Please stay in your room for a minute. I’ll be right there,” He said and pushed me out of the room.
Although I couldn’t understand the situation of being kicked out of the room in an instant.

‘…Well, it’s good that nothing happened.’

Please sit in my room for a while.
If you go out wearing a dress for no reason, your eyes will be drawn again.
I wonder if it would be better to wear something else.

‘…What would you like?’

He lifted the bed mattress and quietly opened the box beneath it.
Women’s clothes I bought without knowing.
Several sets of clothes that could be worn comfortably with Lee Seo-ha’s exact body shape caught my eye.

“Kim Joo-won…”

Among them, how do you know Seoha Lee’s size?
The shirt and cotton pants Kim Joo-won bought for her, as if they were tailored to her body.

‘This is not it.’

Rather than clothes that stand out for nothing, clothes that can cover me.
After all, I thought it would be appropriate to just wear sweats around here, so I put a hood on my sweats.
And the moment I put on my hat and waited for Kim Joo-won.

Ding-dong-.
A bell rang outside, as if he had pressed it, so I quickly moved to the front door.

“What, did you change your clothes?”
“…What.”

Did Kim Joo-won not like the fact that I changed into sweats?
“No, no,” He said, pushing me away and entering the room.
That I hadn’t been able to sort out.

“What are you doing!”

What I saw as I closed the door and ran into the room.
Kim Joo-won took out all of my female clothes and laid them out, and she began to think about what to wear me.

“Whatever, you’re choosing what to wear.”
“Why do you search as you like, huh?”
“Why?”

It was then.
Did you not like my question?
Kim Joo-won’s hands reached the nape of my neck and grabbed my collar.
It was to rip the hoodie I wear with my sweats.

“It’s because I don’t like the tail you’re wearing.”
“You, you crazy bastard, for real!”
“Well, what should we wear Seoha?”

Looking down at the torn hood for a while, the moment I tried to glared at him with eyes asking what to do with this.
Kim Joo-won for a moment.
He showed me the look in his eyes when he forcibly removed my lips.

“…!”

Thanks to that, my body froze on its own at those eyes and shut my mouth.
When I became quiet, did it become a situation only then?
He turned his gaze back to his clothes, looking for something to wear.

“What, did you have something like this?”

I bought it just in case.
Pick up clothes you thought you would never wear.

“You can wear this. Along with the shirt I bought you.”

As if he knows what I hate to wear.
I just pick out clothes that I will never wear and will never wear.

“Then Seoha, I can wait for you enough time to change.”

He kicked me out of the room so I couldn’t see him when he was changing.
As if he should appreciate my change, he occupies my chair.
As soon as I saw the guy sitting in front of the desk, my heart seemed to drop.

“…!”

Notes about my novel.

“Why?”

It was in the drawer under the desk.
Fortunately, he didn’t seem to notice why I was doing this.
Even if you react a little wrong here, the atmosphere will immediately become strange.

“Aren’t you leaving?”
“What.”
“I’m going to change clothes, so why don’t you go out?”
“Why? We’ve seen everything we’ve seen, haven’t we touched everything we can touch?”
“This pervert is really…”

Fortunately, I had a good excuse, so I was able to get over it safely this time.
Thinking of changing the location where the notes are hidden.

“If you touch me, I will kill you.”

After throwing a word as usual to completely avoid suspicion.
I reached out to unzip the back zipper of the dress I was wearing.
But at that moment.
Kim Joo-won, did the words that I just said, that if you touch my body, I will kill you, sound funny?

“You!”
“Seoha, how did you upload this by yourself?”

Even though I didn’t allow it, he casually came up behind me and grabbed my back zipper.
It was to die for.

“This is probably something you can’t wear alone.”

And in an instant, she spread the zippered dress left and right and pushed it forward.
He put his hands between my arms and put them on his chest.

“Take it away.”
“Why? You helped me, but I can’t even touch this much?”
“Remove, this pervert cub!”

Whether I’m fucking glowing or not.
He put his hand inside my bra and secretly grabbed both my nipples with his fingertips.

“…!”

He fiddled with both nipples, making me unable to resist.
I don’t know how.
Unlike the first time I was bullied by him.
Now, does he even intend to let me know that I know where to be sensitive and how to be weak?

“Please, heuuu, noh…!”

Breathing hard
Around the time I started to feel a little tingling in my lower abdomen.

“Let’s not mess around in the future, Seoha.”

Kim Joo-won finally let me go.

Like that, the dress was half peeled off.
Stare at him with half-closed eyes for a while.
Is he running out of patience?

“Shouldn’t we go out soon, Seoha?”

He laughed, but he told me that in a voice without laughter.
With wobbly legs.
I had no choice but to get up and grab the clothes he had given me.

“Right.”

Looking at me like that, he threw a word that seemed satisfied.