Chapter 53 – It’s Going to Hurt a Little

Kim Joo-won touched my cheek for a moment.
Am I right now
It was a question that I had for a while because I didn’t feel that it hurt more than I thought it would be.

But soon he understood.
As for why the Awoken didn’t hurt even though he blew his cheek with all his might.

‘Sunshine chick…’

Because Lee Seo-ha was not a regressor like me.
Don’t you know how to properly grow yourself?
Maybe it was natural.
Unlike you, you don’t even know how to properly train.

‘Your eyes are the same as back then.’

Instead, one thing was certain.
Lee Seo-ha’s eyes, which now raised her cheek.
He said that he had a terrifying resemblance to Lee Seo-ha at that time, which he hated terribly.

How can you show your duality so well?

‘Our Seoha…’

Just like when you bought me a phone the other weekend.
If it’s that kind of look that’s venomous but mixed with worry.
I can see you.

‘I didn’t want to do this.’

He felt a spurt of anger welling up inside him.
Originally, it was really just like what he said.
Although I wanted to at least put her twisted relationship with her back on track.

He abandoned all plans.
Like a machine creaking.
He slowly turned his head and began to look at Lee Seo-ha.

*

Kim Joo-won’s body was solid.
Really sincerely.
Even though he was so disgusted that he was now looking for a normal relationship, so he slapped his cheek.

“…Ah.”

Kim Joo-won only slightly turned his head.
Rather, to the extent that my hand hurt more when I hit it.

“Did you hit me just now, Seo Ha?”

He asked me in a calm voice, as if nothing was wrong.

“Our West.”

But why is it that I get goosebumps from that calm voice?

“What am I really supposed to do with you?”

He touched his cheek for a moment, then he closed his eyes for a moment.
After taking a small breath

“Seoha.”

It’s like trying to hit me.
His hands went up behind his head.

“Even if you don’t remember anything.”

I closed my eyes involuntarily at the pain that I would soon feel.
And before you hear the pairing sound.
I heard something hitting my face.

“Every time you do this, do you know how it breaks my heart?”

Moving over to the side, I managed to hold on to my mind that had been confused for a moment.
Take a moment to look up at him.

“Even if you don’t remember anything.”

Kim Joo-won grabbed my hair and dragged me out of the corner of the bed.
He forcibly pulled my head as if tossing it into a pillow.
In the pain of being grabbed by the hair, for a moment a scream of “Kyaaak!”

“What if you hit your friend like that?”

It’s as if he’s really, really, truly a friend of mine.
As if you don’t know that I truly hate myself right now.
He spat out crazy bullshit like me casually at me.

“…Friend?”

Then emotions started to boil inside.
What?
Do something like that to me now.
Friend?

“Why not?”

But my voice mixed with questions.
Maybe he didn’t like it with his ears?

“Isn’t it?”

He asked in a voice that sounded like he didn’t like it.
Looking at such a guy, I couldn’t keep my mouth shut, wondering if this was really being said.
Like letting go of suppressed emotions.

I took out a word.

“How can someone like you be a friend?”
“…What?”
“Tell me. How can a bastard like you take off your clothes, put on a collar, put on a name tag, put on handcuffs, touch your breasts, touch your pussy, kiss, and do whatever you want except for sex?”

These are the words that have been stored in my heart for so long.
As if I had waited, the sincerity I wanted to spit out to him burst out without any blockage.

Come to think of it, where was that?
Won’t you choke me with a leash on me?
Wouldn’t it make you run around the hallway outside your room naked?

“Reply, this fuck new kid!”

Grabbing Kim Joo-won by the collar, he began to scream.
Before he knew it, his posture was reversed, and Kim Joo-won, who was underneath him, was grabbed by the collar.
When I was staring at myself with bloodshot eyes as if I would kill myself, I just stared blankly at him with an emotionless expression on my face.

“Answer me! Don’t shut up like you ate honey!”

I looked at him and yelled at him with all my might.
It’s as if the things that happened to him in the meantime are exploding all at once.
While holding him by the collar, he was spitting out all the emotions he had accumulated over the years.

“What the hell did you do, mate? How could you say that?”
“…That’s right, it’s Seoha.”

That moment.
The voice of Kim Joo-won, who had been quietly listening to me, reached my ears.

“Because I had no one but you.”

And to those words that I can’t believe.
I stopped talking and started staring stupidly at him.

“Because the only thing that has been with me in my long life is you, after all.”
“What are you…”
“Seoha.”

Kim Joo-won’s hand was placed on top of my hand that was holding his collar and loosened his grip.

“I’m actually a regressor.”

And it seemed like he wouldn’t reveal it to anyone.
I couldn’t ask because I shouldn’t have known that he was a regressor in the first place.
The guy started to bring that fact out of his mouth first.

“What? Regressor?”
“A stupid bastard who didn’t let go of his life to untie the link tied to you.”
“What nonsense-.”
“You won’t believe it. Because you gave up on returning.”

At that moment, Kim Joo-won’s hand, which touched my wrist, instantly went to the back of my neck.
An intense current passed along with a tingling sensation.

“…!”

Like that time
Like when I was forcibly kissed by him, I started not responding as if my whole body was paralyzed again.

“You, you!”

A ray of anxiety rose up in his heart, and he began to write the evil he had stopped for a moment again.
Screaming, tell Kim Joo-won to release this thing that paralyzed my body right away.
In an instant, quickly unfasten the handcuffs on your left arm and the leash on your right arm as a substitute for handcuffs.
I wanted to say that, but

“Our Seoha, you can’t talk about it from now on.”

Where did Kim Joo-won prepare it, after putting a gag on my mouth.
I got up and put my hand around my waist to take off the school uniform pants that I hadn’t taken off yet.
I put my hand on the buckle of the belt I was wearing.

Then, the uneasiness in my heart turned to ominous.
My heart was pounding, and the thought that I had to get out of here immediately began to dominate my whole body.
A body that did not move, and an arm restrained upward so that it could not be covered.

“…!”

And a gagged mouth that couldn’t even speak properly.
It was telling me that I had to endure the fate that was to come.

“Eup!”

Please let me go
Because I did everything wrong.
Just do it here

Whatever you do in the future, I will listen carefully to you.
If you want to be friends, do it, if you want to be lovers, do it.
I’ll do it if you want me to play with you like a toy.

Please don’t rape me

“Seoha.”

A plea for him rose from the depths of his heart.
Soon there was a crackling sound.
As if everything was ready, I heard Kim Joo-won’s voice.

“I was originally planning to apologize for what I did to you today?”

As if everything that happens from now on is my fault.
Kim Joo-won looked down at me with a cold gaze.

“But I’ve changed my mind.”

Bring your hand to me, bound and paralyzed, motionless and weeping.
He put his hand on my chest and started rubbing it.

“I told you earlier that I was a regressor.”
“Eup, oops!”
“But do you know why it kept regressing?”

Then one nipple.
I rubbed it with the tips of my thumb and forefinger and held it with force as if pinching it.

“It was all because of you.”

Before putting my nipple in her mouth, she brought her mouth as if she was about to suck it.

“If you hadn’t done that to me, you and I could have lived happily ever after.”

He said that as if he hated the past.
Then, bit by bit with his mouth, he began caressing my breasts.

Even though I hate to be creepy.
In my body, I feel the desired sensation gradually rising up my spine.
As if the tear ducts around the eyes were broken, tears flowed uncontrollably.

Originally, the guy who didn’t touch me more than a certain line.
I don’t know why.
Maybe today

Tears came out of fear that he would not leave me alone.

Why do I have to go through this?
What did I do so wrong
Should I be treated like this?

A question that came up from deep within.
The questions I really wanted to ask him, and the questions I had to ask him, were blocked by the gag in my mouth.

“Huh, yup!”

And I’m blocked by that feeling unique to women that melts my brain little by little.
Without even being able to speak, I felt my body gradually fall into his hands.

“Huh, black…”

With half of reason blown away, shame and fear filled the vacancy.
And it was horror.

But it doesn’t end there.
It seems like I can never be tied to those feelings.
The carnality of wanting something that should not be felt gradually in the body.

“Huh!”

Even if I want to tell you to stop.
Without saying a word, my hand reached below.
It penetrated between the skin and was secretly hidden inside.
The lewd petals of Lee Seo-ha were gradually blooming at the tip of the guy who touched them.

“Huh, huh…”

The terrible feeling of becoming a doll for the purpose of relieving sexual desire, not a human being.
I can’t even properly tell you to stop.
The moment I felt like my reason was gradually being completely erased.

“Seoha.”

I lift my gaze with difficulty at Kim Joo-won’s call and see the guy looking down at me from above.

“It’ll hurt a little.”

The guy lost his finger.
Hot and thick underneath.
Something squeaks and squeaks and touches me.
A ray of reason began to ring the alarm bell.

“But don’t be resentful.”

But even if I try to resist, I know that I can’t resist.
Just staring at him.
I shed tears.

“Because all of this started with you.”

Soon, with the feeling that something is forcibly torn and entered.
The pain of tearing raw flesh ran through my entire body.

“Huh!”

The gagged mouth let out a painful moan.