Chapter 54 – Just Die

The body that accepted the man for the first time complained of pain.
The insertion of Kim Joo-won, who did not acknowledge the circumstances.
As if you are not a woman, but an onahole to relieve my sexual desire.
The pain was telling me that I had been inserted.

“Seoha, are you sick?”

As a man
Something I never wanted to go through.
And I didn’t prepare because I thought he wouldn’t cross that line at least.
As soon as I realized that intercourse with him had become a reality.

“Eup, oops!”

Even in the middle of a sharp pain that seemed to come from a sensitive place and penetrate the whole body.
Maybe he didn’t want to feel the foreign body feeling from below.
My body started to flinch, trying to escape from his embrace.
…There was no fuss.

However, nonetheless.
Even if I want to say something urgently to ask for something to devour my most intimate place.
I had to despair as I listened to the voice coming out with a moan from being blocked by the gag in my mouth.

Did he get even more excited seeing me like that?

“Seoha.”

Or how I am now.
I wonder if I was satisfied with the way I looked now, with the gag in his mouth and only groaning under him.

“Shall I take it off?”

Like a joke.
The guy who is stepping on someone casually looks at me and smiles.
“Huh?” He asked, gently pulling it out, then forcefully pushed his object under me.

“Huh, huh…”

Tears didn’t stop flowing from my eyes.
He knows that people should give only to those they love and cherish the most.

Without even resisting.
The feeling of not wanting to get hurt.
Crying over the shattered belief that he wouldn’t do it.
And the horrible feeling of being bullied by him.

“Ah, I gagged you.”

All this combined was making the tears in my eyes not stop.

“Sorry, I told you to answer me after I kept you from talking.”

The gag in his mouth was undone.
But crying
And the body tired of receiving his body just cries.
I couldn’t answer him.

“Now, how? Should I take it out, Seoha?”

Even though Kim Joo-won didn’t know that, he smiled and asked me.
Without any resistance.
He just received his stuff and saw me lying there as if he was dead.
He put his hand on his chest and started kneading it, asking me playfully again.

“Are you standing?”

But I’m tired of crying with no energy at all.
Now let’s lie still thinking that it will be as it should be.
Kim Joo-won once again teased me and called my name.

“…”

Let’s raise our eyes without energy.
Perhaps he was even worried that I was wrong now, and Kim Joo-won’s restless appearance came into my eyes.

“…Why.”

Then, with difficulty, he opened his mouth.
A subject that already does everything it wants to do.
It was because I was curious about what he would say about the subject of forcibly violating me regardless of my will because I wanted to fuck him.

“No.”

But did he have a hard time holding back his own lust?
Seeing me moaning under the ground and not being able to move, I wonder if I felt a strange sense of conquest.

“I just called.”

Where did the restless look go?
While smiling

“Whoops!”

Are you trying to make fun of your waist?
I felt as if I had gently pulled out half of my stuff inserted under me.

“Oh no, oh!”

After the raw flesh is torn.
The feeling of touching the entire vaginal wall by moving an inserted foreign object that rises between the pain in the most sensitive place.
Even though I hate this situation of being unable to move and being helpless.
It will completely erase even the remaining reason.

With the feeling of becoming a female, not a woman.
Coming up from below
A pleasure more intense than the masturbation I had done without knowing the other day when my sexual desire was boiling gradually began to cover my whole body.

“Hey, hey, hey!”

The more he moves his waist little by little and tries to pull the moment to relieve his lust quickly, the more intense the teasing of his waist gets.
My weak body swayed in sync with the movement.
The moment when pleasure gradually fills the void left by the pain.

“Seoha! Cheap!”

Now he said something to me who couldn’t hear what he said.
With a feeling that knocks on my deepest part.

“Huhhhhh!”

Even a line of rationality was completely blown away.
As if I were being held in the arms of the one above me.
His entire body stiffened and his back bent like a bow.
As if the act of holding me with both arms is unnecessary.

“Haha…”

How far did reason fly away like that?
The blurry vision slowly returns to focus.
As soon as he was about to turn his head slowly, he placed his hand on the back of his head.
I could feel his lips touching mine.

Like a doll
When I realized that there was no resistance to a guy who did everything he wanted to do to me, I had this thought.
Perhaps there is no expression that suits me more than this.

“Seoha.”

Did he finally come back to his senses?
After parting my lips, I slowly turned my gaze to his face at the sound of his voice.
Are you still not excited?
Or was it that I was excited again seeing myself now captured by me?

“Can I do it one more time?”

It’s not even funny, he asked me to say something like that.
I see a guy like that

“Fuck.”

Instead of an answer, he responded with a curse.

“What’s a bastard who does everything he can do one more time?”

Then, once more, in my cunt, which had already been torn and pierced with raw flesh.
Its stuff penetrated underneath me, trying to pierce me.
While I was out of my mind, I was like saying that I was going to do whatever I could.

As it was, I left my body in his hands.
Because it doesn’t matter how exactly.
It might be right to say that I threw my body away as a toy.

“Okay?”

Kim Joo-won laughed, threw a word roughly in response to my words, and then started teasing his waist again.
My body without energy is helpless at his touch.
Pleasure rose once again and began to completely erase my sanity.

I think I fell asleep after being beaten by him like that.

* * *

I had a dream.
As Seoha Lee, I am a woman.
It was a dream like walking affectionately while holding hands with a child who may have come from someone else’s relationship.

Just like being a mother.
At an amusement park, when a child points to what he wants to buy, he heads there.
It was not such a funny dream.

But if it had ended there, it might not have been a nightmare for me.

When I turned my head to the sound of “Seoha!” Calling my name from behind.
What is the face of the man who is presumed to be Lee Seo-ha’s marriage partner?

“…!”

It was because it was creepily identical to Kim Joo-won’s face.
Seriously, I can’t believe I became a woman and gave birth to someone’s child.
Would you have woken up in shock the moment you saw that guy’s face?

“Huh, huh.”

As soon as I woke up, I was breathing heavily.
The dream I had earlier was so terrible.
The day I was raped by that guy, the dream I had was such a dream.

‘Kim Joo-won…’

I hear breathing next to me and turn my head.
The figure of a sleeping bastard, unaware of the world, came into my eyes.
He doesn’t even know what I’m thinking right now.

I felt a slight pain in the lower part.
Slowly get out of bed and lift your body.
There were reddish marks on the bed, proof that Lee Seo-ha’s body was a virgin.

It was clear proof that I had been subjected to something I thought would not happen to this guy.
The moment I saw him, the feelings that had intensified in the nightmare became colder than ever.
However, it began to cool down in a state where the line as a human being was frozen and cracked.

“Kim Joo-won…”

Was the guy happy?
I wonder if he was satisfied that he could satisfy his lust by eating me as he pleased.
Or did I feel a sense of conquest to get revenge on Lee Seo-ha, who had done bad things to me that I did not even know about.

There were so many things I wanted to ask.
All I did was
All I had to do was stand up, look at the sleeping guy who was unaware of the world, and call his name with a trembling voice.

“Hey.”

But how many times did he do that?
Even if I call myself out in a shrill voice.
He was still asleep, unaware of the world.
Seeing him like that made me feel like a part of my heart was getting cold.

“Joowon… You seem to sleep well, don’t you?”

A vengeance began to bloom in a corner of his heart.
Someone just like you.
He took the fact that he entered the men’s academy dressed as a man as his weakness and started doing nonsensical things.
He ended up raping someone for punching his own cheek.

There was no more pity for him that he was my main character.
A bitter vengeance.
The only thing left is that I have to pay for what I’ve been through.

“Something like you…”

As if I had made up my mind, I began to act incomprehensible to myself.
Have you ever been to the kitchen?
When I came to my senses, I was holding the kitchen knife in reverse and with both hands.

“…!”
“I don’t need a bastard like you, so just die!”

To cut the guy’s stomach with that kitchen knife.
Something I would never have done if I was a normal person.
It was running as if something was broken.

It’s not just a one-time stab.
Screaming to die
Several times.

“Seo… Ha?”

How many times have you stabbed him like that?
The moment the blood splattered on his face.
Maybe I finally came to my senses, I heard his voice in my ears and looked away.

“Seoha…?”

And I could make eye contact.
Kim Joo-won frowned as if he was enduring the pain.
Then, realizing what I had done, I saw his belly spurting blood as if there was a hole in it.

“Ah…”

I feel like my mind is breaking in an instant.
I quickly found my phone and started calling somewhere.

Without knowing whose number it is.