Chapter 58 – The Sword of Words

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“I cleared the undiscovered side world without reporting it.”

And at the beginning of the instructor.
I was very surprised and wide-eyed.
I looked at the instructor once again, wondering what this meant.

“I found him lying down with injuries and brought him in for treatment.”

It is a blatant lie from one to ten.
These are words that are completely different from the truth and are bullshit no matter who hears them.

“Clear unreported…”

Upon hearing the instructor’s words, the doctor’s voice sounded like he had a lot of thoughts.
The doctor must have noticed right away.
That what the instructor just said wasn’t all the truth.

“Nurse Jung.”
“Yes.”
“Could you take your teammates out of your luggage?”
“Yes?”
“Please.”

The nurses look bewildered, except for the man who seems to be the highest-ranking doctor in the place.
I started to leave the recovery room with the rest of the people.
After so many people left.

“Instructor, I will ask you one more time.”

Me and Yoon Shi-hoo.
And in this place where only the doctor and instructor remained.
This time the doctor looked straight at me and opened his mouth again.

“Can I ask why a student came to the academy medical team with a knife in the middle of the night?”

Closed lips, clenched fists
And trembling body.

“What the instructor is saying right now won’t be documented, so please tell us the truth.”
“…”
“This student and that school sitting in a wheelchair over there, no, that girl.”

Apparently, the doctor saw my condition, which was difficult to see as normal, and seemed to have realized that what the instructor had just said was a lie.

“What happened to that girl?”

Even the fact that I am a woman.

Normally, it wouldn’t have been well covered by the school uniform, but now in plain clothes.
A line too thin for a man.
And a body that looks thin somewhere.

“Seoha, can I talk to you?”

Unlike her slender body, her breasts looked slightly larger.
Because I am revealing the fact that I am a woman without being covered by my school uniform.
In some ways, it might be surprising that you don’t notice.

“…Yes.”

In response to the instructor’s question, he expressed his willingness with difficulty.
Then he also needed a moment of preparation to speak with his own mouth.
After letting out a small sigh.

“I am a victim of sexual assault.”
“…Does it constitute a crime of rape legally?”
“Perhaps.”

The truths I tried to hide, but I had no choice but to find out.
The stories flowed from the instructor’s mouth.
The doctor listened to the instructor’s words and called my name for a while after watching me for a while.

“Student of Seoha.”

My body trembled.
Even though I didn’t call you by mistake.
Was it because he was lying in front of me?

“I’ll give you a prescription for morning-after pills. There’s a pharmacy across the street from the main gate of the academy, right?”
“Yes.”
“Go and give me the prescription I gave you and I’ll give you the medicine, but you have to take it as soon as possible. If you can, take it as soon as you get it.”

He nodded his head with difficulty at the doctor’s words.
Morning after pill.
I never thought the day would come when I would have to eat something like that.

“Anyway, student Kim Joo-won illegally cleared the other side of the world…”
“Yes.”
“Okay. For now, I’ll handle it that way. But.”

The doctor’s eyes turned to me again.
Originally, I was a female student who shouldn’t have attended Cheonghwa Academy.
Is she worried about the fact that she attends Cheonghwa Academy disguised as a male student?

“You can get pregnant even if you take the morning-after pill.”
“…”
“You’ll have to come back in five weeks. In the worst case, that student will have to operate too.”
“If it’s surgery…”
“You know. The fact that Honghwa Academy compulsorily conducts ultrasound examinations on students at regular intervals.”

Or are they worried that their precious guardians will not be able to function as guardians?

“If something goes wrong, that student will have to operate too.”
“…It was.”
“Oh, how did this happen…”

However, his mouth only spoke medical facts, restraining Katabuta’s personal thoughts.
Then she looked at me with sad eyes and then turned her head and went outside.

“Let’s go.”

Soon, as I watched the nurses come in, I felt the wheelchair move at the instructor’s voice.
In a wheelchair, as soon as he came out following Yoon Si-hoo’s steps, he raised his hand and stopped him for a moment.

“I’m fine now.”

Saying that, he got up from his wheelchair.
Really funny too.
Does the fact that I have memories of being a man, not a pure woman, work effectively?

“Are you okay?”
“Uh.”

It was hard to believe that she had been sitting down because she had no strength in her legs until earlier.
Even though I was a little nervous, I was able to walk alone.
That’s how I left the medical building.

“Instructor.”

First, I cautiously called the instructor outside and looked at him.

“That, thank you for today.”

In fact, there are still many mountains to overcome.
However, the rest is not something I can do.

“Seoha.”
“Yes.”
“Please come out tomorrow.”

Now I just came to solve a situation that I can’t solve today.
You should be thanking him.

“Yes.”
“…Don’t think badly, you must come out.”
“All right.”

Short conversation.
And a short greeting to enter carefully.
But the instructor was sending me alone because it was written in my heart.

“Sihoo student.”
“Yes.”
“Take care of Seoha. I can’t help but look at her.”
“Yes, just leave it to me.”

In the end, I handed over such a request to Sihoo.
I turned around more than the day I went back.
However, I tried to ignore the instructor’s request to Sihoo and walked alone.

What kind of expression would Yoon Si-hoo have made when he saw me like that?
I wonder if I didn’t look bad after being hurt by Kim Joo-won.
Or, this time, I directly experienced the fact that I, who was a friend, was a woman who could receive the seed of a man.
Did you start looking at it from a different perspective?

Even though he knows in his head that I am a woman, having been through me all this time.
It would have never felt like that in her chest.
Of course, there would have been no part in my actions that made me feel that I was a woman.

But.

“Seoha.”

At least one thing was certain.
Now I am not a girlfriend to him.

“Why are you going alone?”

To look like a woman.

“…”

I don’t know how far I’ve moved.
Late at night, on the road to the dormitory.
Someone from behind hugged me and stopped me.

It was Yoon Si-hoo.

“I want to be alone.”
“Why.”
“…Just.”

Kim Joo-won and Yoon Si-hoo are different people.
The only thing they both have is male, just a different gender from me now.
Other than that, in the rest of it, he’s a completely different person to the point of being completely opposite.

Okay.
It’s not that I don’t know that fact.
Please tell me they are not the same person.

But, why is it for me now?

“Sihoo, let me go.”

Kim Joo-won, who raped me, and Yoon Shi-hoo, who worried about me.
How is it that they are accepted the same way?

“I’m so scared.”
“Seoha…”
“I can still see what he did to me.”

My hands trembled.

“When he forced me to do that, he told me that.”
“…”
“Would you like me to take it off?”

Once again, the memory of that time came back to me clearly, and my voice was not intact.

“Forcibly doing it to me without my consent, he said he would take it out of me as if he were patronizing me.”
“Seoha…”
“But you know, even though you’re not like that, I remember that scene so vividly because you hugged me.”

With both hands, I gently released Yun Shi-hu’s arms from behind me and slipped out of his arms.
I know I shouldn’t have said this to someone who worried me.
I know that I shouldn’t commit an assault on Yoon Si-hoo with these words.

But now I’m really selfish.
To get out of this current situation of being embraced by a man.

“Sorry.”

Taking out my memories at will and laying them out in front of him.
The assault that tears the heart as a memory is not the target that deserves to receive that memory.
I ended up putting it on my side, which is rare.

“I’ll go.”
“Seoha-.”
“I won’t do anything bad that you think.”

That too.
Until I cut off the person who wants to worry about me.

“I’ll go to the academy tomorrow as normal, and I’ll act as usual as if nothing happened.”
“…”
“So I want you to treat me like you normally would.”

And tell the guy who can’t see me like he used to see me like he used to.
A unilateral notice was handed over to him.

“If I can’t because I look like a woman.”

I turned around and saw Yoon Shi-hoo looking at me with a complicated expression.

“It would be better for you to pretend you don’t know me at all.”

Even the heart that worries about me seems to be torn to shreds.
I stabbed him in the chest with the sword of the horse.

“Hi.”
“…Carefully enter.”
“Huh.”

And that too, with a tear-stained face and even a smile.

“See you tomorrow. Sihoo.”

In a deliberately bright voice.
As soon as I finished speaking like that, I was immersed in blue light.

And saw.
Beyond the blue wall that divides the second dimension and the real dimension.
A tear trickling down his cheek, as if asking why did you have to go through this?

‘Sorry.’

She handed him an inaudible apology and returned to my room after seeing Yoon Si-hoo heading to her dormitory first.
From now on, he won’t want anything to do with me anymore.
With a person who throws such harsh words in the heart that I want to run away.
Who would want to be friendly

‘Kim Ju-won.’

Instead, he gritted his teeth as he recalled the three letters of his name.
To the man who made me this way.
Thinking that I will pay back the things I suffered someday.

So the next day.

“Lee Seo-ha.”
“Yes.”
“Come to the teachers’ office after work today.”

Hearing the instructor’s call.
The time to weigh the fate of whether or not I would be able to remain in Cheonghwa gradually approached.

5pm.
The time when I always go to his room to be bullied by Kim Joo-won.

“You’re here.”

I hadn’t even seen your face in a while.
It was the first time I met the people of Lee Seo-ha’s family.