Chapter 61 – Killer Bastard

My brain couldn’t keep up with the situation.
What day is it today
It’s confusing that someone I didn’t know earlier said that he was a young boy and approached me.
Even though she is now Seoha Lee’s family, she is not really my family.

“Brother?”

Maybe it’s because I was so flustered that I stood blankly for a moment without realizing it.
Inside the counseling room, the voice calling me rang again.

“Why aren’t you saying anything?”

Lee Seo-yeon started walking towards me slowly.
Although she was slightly smaller than Seoha Lee, and unlike Seoha Lee, she had black eyes instead of blue ones.
Even so, she is exactly the same as Lee Seo-ha in the mirror.

“I’m very glad to see you, oppa, isn’t he happy with me?”

The fact that she resembles Seoha Lee means that she is also an incredibly beautiful woman.
It was dangerous.
Although Lee Seo-yeon knows me as her family she hasn’t seen in a long time and comes closer.

“Oh, um…”

Because I just saw a strange and beautiful woman approaching.

“…Brother?”

And maybe my reaction was a bit strange.
Lee Seo-yeon put on a puzzled look on her face.
As if trying to confirm that I was indeed Lee Seo-ha, I cautiously approached her.

“…Are you really my brother?”

There I was sure.
Lee Seo-ha and Lee Seo-yeon have a different relationship than the real siblings I know.
Of course, it’s not much more than family.
However, it felt like they had a very good relationship, rather than real siblings who are often talked about in real life.

“Her face is definitely my brother’s, but why do you think she’s the same height as me?”

Soon after, she heard creepy words.
No, her sisters are…
Do you just memorize your brother’s height?

“As a side effect of just awakening.”

However, she doesn’t even want to give me time to think.
Before I knew it, she approached me in an instant.
She spread her arms as if to check on her something.

She said, “She’s heard that there are times when she gets shorter and her body changes.”

The moment she sensed what she was about to do.
I had no choice but to open the second-dimensional space and disappear in front of her.
If she hugs me
At that moment, the curves of my body covered by her jacket would convey her own feelings to Lee Seo-yeon in her arms.

“Brother Brother?”

The fact that I am a woman will be discovered someday.
But, at least not now.
Even if the fact that Lee Seo-ha is a woman is discovered, she is recognized so that she can remain in Cheonghwa without difficulty.
Or you shouldn’t get caught until the time comes when the fact that you’re a woman doesn’t matter.

“You seem to like it a lot, I’m sorry.”

So I couldn’t stay there any longer.
When I disappeared with a blue afterimage in front of his eyes, he seemed to be taken aback.
She looked at her looking at her, calling me over and over again, muttering to her hall.
Lastly, she said bitterly, “…Why did you disappear again?”

“Instructor! Lee Seo-ha is here!”

I used dimension transfer to myself and returned to the training ground.

The topic of today’s lecture is about basic martial arts to develop basic fighting skills.
In other words, it was about martial arts.

*        *

The day passed like that.
The day Kim Joo-won raped me and I stabbed Kim Joo-won with a knife.
Contrary to what I heard through Jang Min-cheol, I couldn’t see Lee Seo-jin.

Has the schedule changed?
Thanks for that day.
I could have avoided things like meeting Lee Seo-jin while my mind was not intact.

Instead, it was because I couldn’t figure out the direction of my work that day.
The uneasiness that comes from that has been constantly harassing me ever since that day.

‘Pup.’

Looking at Kim Joo-won, who was still lying there as if dead, he cursed inwardly.
About a week after that day.
I don’t know why, but I was on my way to his hospital room every day at 5pm.

“When are you going to wake up?”

Stayed for about an hour and went back.
It may be temporary, but it is in such a state that you do a new routine yourself.

“…You fucking bastard I want to kill.”

I try to calm my still trembling hands.
The guy who didn’t wake up with his eyes closed made a smaller complaint.

On the first day, how nervous he was that he only woke up briefly in the morning.
But it was a stimulant that really woke up my consciousness for a short time.
To make an excuse to cover up the affair between me and him.

Unless, of course,
Because of the memory of the night, my hands tremble just by looking at his face.
Even though the memory of being raped made me breathless.

Still, the fact that he hasn’t woken up yet is imprinted in his heart.
Now, it was possible to be there while looking at his face to some extent.
Of course, I don’t know how I’ll react when I wake up, but that’s how it was for now.

What the hell do I like about a guy like this, he personally visits me every day.
Even while cursing myself for actions I don’t understand.
He looked at him blankly and let out a small sigh.

“Whoa.”

What the heck do I like about this guy?
I don’t think it’s because he’s been saying shit to me or something like that.
I won’t be able to find you for a while.
All in all, at 5pm…

“What are you thinking?”

Is it because I am sitting alone?
I felt that I shouldn’t be sitting any longer today, so I got up faster than usual.
I felt like he was going to catch me, so I hesitated in my steps to leave.

In the first place, the subject who was the victim of the victim, what are you worried about coming here like this.
As soon as I thought of a perfectly normal thought, I barely took a step.

“Ha.”

Even so, when I put my hand on the doorknob of the hospital room, I couldn’t open the door.

Just in case Kim Joo-won wakes up and asks me where I am going.
Then, I am afraid that my body, which has been taught violence and fear by him, will not obey my will.
In the first place, if you think about it with common sense, in my relationship with him right now, it must be me.
Now, realizing that I am acting like Eul, I feel frustrated.

…However, despite knowing that.
I can’t open the door again.
Again, like yesterday, I return to my seat and sit in front of him, staring at him lying dead.

“Haa, Lee Seo-ha really is such an asshole.”

Inwardly, he curses at himself.
But nonetheless I
I was stupidly back in my seat like a dodol.

“I’ll check the patient’s condition.”

Before I knew it, I heard the nurse’s voice and stepped aside.
At that moment, her eyes met hers.
When I read the emotion in the nurse’s eyes, I started feeling choked up inside.

Pity.

She doesn’t know what happened to me.
I just knew the lie that I found the stabbed guy late, and I always stopped by every day feeling guilty that he had fallen like that.
Of course, I don’t think so.

“Rest.”

The nurse finished her work and left the hospital room.
Unlike earlier, when there was even a small sound checking Kim Joo-won’s condition, the hospital room fell into perfect silence again.
Even the clock hanging on the wall is a quiet object that can’t hear the sound of a stopwatch.

The clock pointed to 5:40.
But I was still sitting in my seat, having had the thought of going out until earlier.
Just wait for the time to pass
Suddenly, my gaze shifted to a specific part of him without my knowledge.

“Crazy bastard.”

And he cursed at the guy.
Do you eat me like that, and stand still while sleeping?
The futon that had risen before me seemed to tell me that I was having a fucking dream.
A dream that would have been aimed at me, not someone else.

It felt like vomiting was coming up inside.
Obviously I was a man too.
So even though I know in my head that it is an unavoidable physiological phenomenon.
A feeling of hatred toward him began to rise in his chest.

So, as if running away, I got up and tried to get out of the room.
It was as if the memories of that day would come back to me if I stayed here any longer.

‘I won’t come unconditionally from tomorrow.’

Gritting my teeth, I reminded myself every day.
Resolving that useless decision, I reached out my hand again to open the door to the hospital room.
I thought that if I just open this door and go out, I won’t have to see his face anymore.

‘I will never, unconditionally come.’

I put my hand on the doorknob and tried to push the ward door to the side.
But.

“Heo-eok-!”

My body felt as if it had become ice at the sound I heard from behind, like breathing out.
It just stopped right there.

And I could tell
The identity of the disgust that had risen earlier.

“Heogee, heogee…”

It was a trauma.
It was a memory that remained so intensely in my brain that I would never forget it and turned into trauma before I knew it.

My hands were trembling and my breathing started to slow down.
The only ones in this room right now are me and Kim Joo-won.
And I’m not out of breath.

“…Lee Seo-ha?”

This means only one thing.
Joo Won Kim.
Until I put a gag on my mouth, so I couldn’t speak.
That the person who made me stop even asking me not to rape me woke up conscious at the moment I was there.

And now I’m in this hospital room.
I am alone with the perpetrator who raped me.
Normally, I should have escaped the room as soon as he woke up.

Unfortunately, I turned and looked at him.
Before I knew it, I met eyes with a guy who was sweating profusely.

“Why are you here…”

Body froze
Joo Won Kim.
My eyes started to get dizzy to the extent that I didn’t even notice that the regressor, who wasn’t surprised no matter what I did, was surprised.
Memories of that day started flooding my body again.

The memory of him restraining my arms and forcibly spreading his legs and invading below me.
It came to me again.

But.

“Kim Ju-won!”

Wasn’t I already normal after being bullied and even raped by him?
I was conscious for a while.
What did I do to the guy who immediately lost consciousness and was about to roll under the bed?

It was to run to him and catch the falling guy with my body.

A faint blue afterimage remained where I had been standing until just now.