Chapter 66 – Never Let Go, No Never Let Go

The lightning sword in his hand crackled and flew sparks.
A cool spring breeze blew through my entire body, unsuitable for April.

A deep moonless night.
It is seen relying on the faint light shining from somewhere.
The position in front of the railing where he was standing gave me anxiety as if he would jump off at any moment.

“What are you doing there…?”

In fact, if he was in normal condition.
Knowing that jumping from the academy’s medical building, which is only four stories high, would not kill you, you must have yelled bitterly not to be fooled.
No, if only I was in normal condition, not him.

“I just like moonless nights.”
“What were you trying to do there?”

However, neither of me and the guy right now were normal.
Like riding a single rope on thin ice.
We were facing each other in a precarious place full of endless cliffs under our feet.

The wounded person was looking at the person who hurt them.
The one who hurt was looking at the wounded with sad eyes.

“Seoha.”

The guy’s voice trembled.
Swoop.
The thunderbolt of the guy who was just holding it began to slowly lift.

“…I really like today, don’t I?”

His heartbeat began to grow more and more violently as his knife rose gradually.
Unlike the calm guy, my breathing gets rougher as I watch his actions.

“Kim Joo-won.”

In a rough breath.
A bit of anger lingered in my voice, which had been anxious until now.
Makes me growl at him and talk.

“I don’t know what you’re trying to do, but stop it.”

What was he thinking when he came up here?
I don’t know what the hell you’re thinking about doing that.

But one thing was certain.
If we don’t stop him now, he will return here today.
By slitting his own throat with that damn knife.

“Well.”

But has he already made up his mind?
He listened to my words with the back of his ear and began to draw electricity into his other hand.
It was as if, if he stopped himself now, he would not even bother fighting me.

“What do you think I will do, Seoha?”
“You say you’re a regressor.”
“You managed to remember.”
“Aren’t you trying to return now?”

However, from the moment I first saw him in real life, he always seemed solid and firm.
As if everything I had shown him was acting, he smiled precariously.

“Why? Is there something wrong? The regressor is trying to regress.”

While being possessed by this world, I mercilessly spit out the worst situation I had imagined.
It’s like I’m really sorry.
Contrary to the single drop of tear in the corner of the eye where the tear marks are not dry.
He opened his mouth in a nonchalant voice.

“There is a problem.”

The reason I came to Cheonghwa Academy in the first place is to stick next to him and somehow survive.
For that one and only reason, he steadfastly stood by his side despite going through all sorts of humiliation.
Even after being raped, I kept going to his hospital room to see if he didn’t do anything stupid.
Even at the restaurant today, I left Seo-yeon behind and went out to find him.

“You… Raped me.”

But what’s wrong with him?
It’s not the 3rd round I know, so there are too many variables, so I don’t know what the situation is.
More than anything, the only thing that’s certain is that he’s not even taking responsibility for what I’ve done.

“You took off my clothes and did all sorts of things, then you forcibly tied me up for getting slapped on the cheek, and then you raped me at will.”

He was now trying to run away from all this he had put in place.

“But what? What’s wrong with regressors regressing?”

Earlier, if Kim Joo-won had moved to me without coming to his senses.
Everything I’ve ever suffered from him is bursting out from within.
In a torrent of emotions that might be more intense than when you stabbed him with a knife after being raped.

“There is a problem.”

Step up to him and stand in front of him.
As if trying to stop him from escaping, he squeezed his neck with both hands and let out anger.

“I made it like this, where are you going to run away?”
“Seoha…”
“I can’t let you go, no, I won’t let you go.”

His hands, which gripped the collar of his hospital gown, were trembling.

“I won’t let you go until I pay you back for everything I’ve done.”

He spat out words that he would never normally say in a voice full of anger, and tried to pull Kim Joo-won by the collar with both hands as if he were trying to drag him away.
Whether or not his body is as hard as a rock.
It didn’t matter if it didn’t move or not, as if it was an underground spirit.

Even if I don’t realize it myself, I’ve been tamed by him before I know it, right in front of my eyes.
It’s like you can’t let go of this fucking disgusting bastard trying to get away.

“Joowon, you have to take responsibility for me. Why? You made me like this.”

Like a crazy year.
While holding the guy by the collar.
Pouring out the emotions that I had been suppressing deep inside in the form of words and pouring them out to him.

“I couldn’t go to Honghwa because of you, so I only came in Cheonghwa disguised as a man, but you took me as a hostage and took off my clothes.”
“…Huh.”
“And after putting handcuffs on me and tying me up with a leash, you played with my breasts and my pussy as you please.”
“…It was.”
“Then you played with me like a toy as you pleased, not caring about the shame I would experience.”
“…Okay.”
“Even so, you treated me well so that I couldn’t hate you, giving me hope that maybe we could restore our relationship, but then you raped me and destroyed my body and mind.”

In a trembling voice.
Talking about what he did to me.
Without knowing what the guy was feeling right now, he was trying to tell him not to go.

“That’s why you can’t go. I just dressed up as a man for one reason.”

By now, tears were flowing from the corners of my eyes.
Originally, it would be normal not to care whether he died or not.
The time of one month, which is not long, is the mind that has been tormented and suffered, sick and torn to pieces.
Wounds that cannot be healed are left here and there like scars, right here.

“I didn’t do anything wrong to you, but I made it like this.”

I was making him hold on.

“You trampled on me and played with it as a toy.”

The throat that had been spitting out anger was begging the guy not to go with a trembling voice.

“So please don’t go, Kim Joo-won.”
“Stay ha…”
“I’m going to ask you this, huh? If you ask me to be your body, I’ll give you my body, if you ask me to be your toy, I’ll do it, and if you need a lover, I’ll do it, so please don’t go.”

The author and the protagonist.
In such a position where we would normally not be able to meet each other, the guilt that had accumulated while witnessing him who became the victim of my writing.
In no time, it has turned into a maddening feeling of love and hatred that a normal person cannot bear.
Why didn’t I know

“Cheuk-!”

It’s like they’re trying to force me away.
I sat down in my seat as the pain spread through my entire body as the punch struck my stomach.
However, even in the midst of my breath being choked and my vision blurring.
It must have been because the sight of the guy walking right in front of the railing aiming a knife at his throat, as if he was about to die for sure, caught his eye.

“You bastard!”

Even while swearing at him for displaying mental strength that I don’t know where it came from.
A dimensional barrier to the trajectory of his sword.
Originally, I implemented a technology in a realm that could not be implemented with the current me, and prevented the sword from reaching the guy’s neck, while struggling to endure the pain and rushing at him.

And the world turned upside down
Is it because I jumped at Kim Joo-won and hugged him from behind?
We fell off the railing and fell to the floor 4th floor below.
The shock as if he had received a person was transmitted to his whole body, and now even his consciousness was dazed for a moment.

But.

“Hey, stupid regressor.”

Maybe it’s because of the fact that he stopped the guy from returning to suicide?
Looking at the guy with a surprised expression, as if he didn’t know I would do such a drastic action.
I, who had gone crazy even if I went crazy, smiled at him.

“You, just die while I’m down.”
“Eh, Lee Seo-ha?”
“I’ll find a way to return somehow and I’ll chase you to the end of hell, so just die.”

I wasn’t hurt, but the impact was too strong as I fell unprepared from the height of the 4th floor.
After I finished speaking, my vision went dark and I had to lose consciousness.

Kim Joo-won held the fallen me in his arms.

“Lee Seo-ha, bitch. You’re the only one who can tell me to do one thing, you bitch…”

Having already collapsed, I cursed unheard.

* * *

“Hey, student Seoha Lee!”

It was when the night passed and the morning came.
Let’s slowly open our eyes to the woman’s voice that I hear from the morning, and shouldn’t be heard in my room.
The first thing that caught my eye was the ceiling of the hospital room, so I jumped up in surprise.

“Uh, um. How are you?”
“Did something happen last night?”
“Yes?”
“I’m asking because both the student and that patient’s clothes are so dirty…”

However, the mind that was still not whole did not accept the situation quickly.
So, just as I was about to say hello, I came to my senses at the title of student and patient and looked around.

‘What is it, I’m on the patient’s bed…?’

And even on the patient’s bed.
Please this kid
My sense of urgency, wondering if I had returned after hearing what I said yesterday, made me open my mouth to the nurse.

“Where is Kim Joo-won?”
“Patient? I was sleeping in the guardian’s bed…”

I quickly lowered my head at the nurse’s words.
Then, my extremely anxious mind, just in case, quickly softened when I saw the silver-haired man sleeping on the guardian’s bed.
The moment I let out a sigh of relief.

“Excuse me…”
“Yes?”
“It looks like blood is flowing backwards through the ringer line. Are you okay?”

The nurse was surprised by the scene that caught her eye.
“Oops! Guardians, can you put the patient on the bed?” Was an annoying request to me.
And what did I do with that request?

“Hey, you fucking bastard. How many hours have you been sleeping, won’t you wake up soon?”

It was to slap the cheek of a sleeping guy.
It was a rather noisy morning.