Chapter 77 – I Left My Phone Behind

“Our Seoha, your hands are very hot.”

After touching his cheek that had been hit by me, Kim Joo-won smiled and turned his dazed gaze back at me.
Then, when I rebelled against him, I thought of the things he did to me, and I tried to shrink my body before I knew it.
His mouth stayed alive and fired another word at him.

“Why, what!”
“No, just because I thought our Seoha was good at using her hands.”

So Kim Joo-won smiled and got up and climbed back onto the bed.
He started staring at me, as if he wanted something.
With an attitude of not caring about the fact that I just got hit by the ball.

“You did the same when you touched mine earlier.
“Shut up, really.”
“Why? I’m just saying what I felt as a man.”
“You, you, that’s sexual harassment. You know?”
“Hmm.”

Then, when he said that I was sexually harassing him, did he think of something?
Still smirking, he let out a quiet voice, momentarily amplifying his anxiety.
He managed to get out the words that would make it impossible for him to be there.

“Then what you just did to me must be sexual harassment.”
“What?”
“That’s right. Touching someone’s genitals without permission is sexual harassment, isn’t it?”
“Yeah, if you put it like that, you’re more. You bastard bastard!”

Memory of the past.
The hot, soft, hard stuff that came up like him, that filled his hand.
That feeling you won’t forget.

His face, which had barely subsided, had a fever, and his hands trembled.
Like I won.
Looking at the guy with a rather triumphant smile, I thought something would come up inside, so I opened the 2D space and ran away from the hospital room.

“Kim Joo-won, you fucking pervert…”

My body trembled.
Last night.
While I was out of my mind without realizing it, I think I would die of shame for the things I did, like jumping on top of Kim Joo-won and showing his breasts and asking him to eat.

There, no matter how sleepy it is.
Kim Joo-won, that bastard’s stuff.
Touching her like a goddamn daughter with my hands.

‘Lee Seo-ha, you crazy bitch.’

In addition, I say I hate my mouth as if I want to do it with you.
I grabbed his hand and put it on my chest…

‘You crazy bitch.’

Then pop.
A question popped up in my heart, I raised my body from the bed and began to measure the length with my hand.
If it’s that long, how far will it go?
I don’t know why, but I was curious about something useless like that.

‘Mmm, crazy. Did that crazy bastard put this stuff in me back then?’

Measuring how far I will go with my hands, I am shocked to see that it goes up to an unbelievable depth.
Realizing what I had just done, I felt like I was momentarily out of my mind.

No matter how physiologically a sudden question arises, that is the case.
He swears at himself, saying, “Why are you checking that kind of stuff?” I hit the bed with a sense of shame.
For no reason, the poor bed made a terrifying thud when I hit it with my fist.
Ignoring the cries on the bed, I screamed inwardly about what had happened the night before.

I can’t believe I acted like a bitch asking a man to fuck me.
Like a real woman.
It was because he did something crazy to check how far his stuff had gone to me.

*     *    *

But today is a weekday.
It’s the day when I have to go to the academy and spend the day, so I put behind my mind that I don’t want to come out of the dormitory.
She had no choice but to put on her school uniform and leave the dormitory.

‘Ha.’

My body was full of fatigue in the morning.
The things that happened last night were also things, but the things that happened this morning were all things that were difficult to accept sanely.
And…

‘Yoon Shi-hoo.’

Thinking that she had to see Yoon Shi-hoo today, a face she didn’t really want to see, she wanted to run away from this place right now.
She’s pushing the guy. She thinks she can.
The fact that he saw me as a woman was still taken uncomfortably.

But apart from that, what I said last night clearly crossed the line.
It is a story that can be concluded by saying that everyone has one story that people cannot tell.

But I don’t stop there, from the fact that you’ve seen my body twice, even though it wasn’t his intention.
Yesterday while you were in class, the story that you kissed Kim Joo-won is definitely…

‘I didn’t want to fall like this.’

I was half sincere when I said I wanted to remain friends.
It wasn’t because she suffered so much from Kim Joo-won, but it wasn’t that she didn’t want to be close to a person like Yoon Si-hoo who had her common sense.
No, I would be more grateful if he stayed with me as a friend.
Maybe.

“…”

Yoon Si-hoo probably doesn’t even want to talk to me anymore.

As if to prove him, there was still silence in the classroom despite the presence of Yoon Shi-hoo.
It must have become a habit to go to bed early, although he came out before me.
Unlike his usual greetings in the morning, he looked at me for a moment, then turned his head and started focusing on his phone again.

However, he and I are not the kind of distance that we can avoid even if we want to avoid it.
First of all, from the relationship between senior and secondary.
And even though Yoon Shi-hoo occupies the position of a class leader on the surface, from the fact that he made me his mental support to some extent.
Lastly, since they are the senior and second seats, even the physical distance of being right next to each other.

Unless you decide to cut ties with each other completely.
Yoon Shi-hoo and I are still somewhat entangled, so at least until we graduate from the academy, we won’t be able to separate from each other.

‘Ha.’

I sat down and hunched over the desk.
Even though it was definitely my fault, and I know that I acted like I wanted to push him away at some point.
For some reason, I felt quite depressed.
Of course, that doesn’t mean I regret the fact that I didn’t reveal what happened with Kim Joo-won.

“Seoha.”

It was in the midst of lying prostrate for some time.
I heard a voice from the side and looked up to see Yoon Si-hoo looking at me with his phone down.

“…Uh.”
“Hi.”

Are you reluctant to say hello?

“Yes, bye.”

There was no energy in each other’s voices.
What happened, with the man who asked to help me.
It’s only natural if you’re between a woman who spat abusive language at that man and broke the relationship completely.

“Did you sleep well?

After a brief moment of silence, what Yoon Si-hoo said wasn’t very good.
Recalling the conversations between me and him last night.
Depending on what you think, it might sound like you’re attacking me.

“Oh sorry.”

Of course, the guy didn’t have any thoughts at all, but after realizing that he had made a verbal mistake, he quickly handed over an apology.
Probably, if it wasn’t for Kim Joo-won, he wouldn’t even be able to fall asleep.
But he knocked me out because he couldn’t stand watching me talking crazy.
I was able to sleep thanks to that.

“…Not really.”

Maybe he just knows I was in the room last night.

“I see.”

Yoon Shi-hoo said that in a bitter voice and she let out a small breath.
When she saw him, she had a question.
I wonder if this guy still hasn’t come to his senses after hearing such abusive remarks yesterday.
It’s not a good idea for me to think.

“I came to visit your brother last night.”
“…Brother?”

Then, she expressed doubt for a moment when she heard that she was Yoon Si-hoo’s younger sister.
Seoyeon Lee.
It was because her existence hadn’t come to mind for a while.

“Seoyeon?”
“Uh.”

By the way, Seoyeon came to see me yesterday?
I definitely didn’t remember anything like that.

“I heard you came looking for me because I couldn’t reach you.”
“Can’t you reach me?”
“They said it in front of the dormitory building.”

If it was yesterday…
Could it be that the time when Lee Seo-ha was worried about her physical abilities?

‘Where is the phone?’

She quickly put her hand in her pocket and rummaged for her phone, but all she could touch was emptiness.
She must have left it in the room.

‘Oh, what a stupid mistake.’

After being possessed by a novel, I never thought I would leave behind the tools I thought I needed to adapt.
I used it usefully every time I searched for common sense I didn’t know in this place.

“Thank you for letting me know.”

Yoon Shi-hoo’s words ended there.
Originally, she was the guy who would make a fuss about her, asking if she hadn’t seen it.
It was the moment she tried to bury her head in her desk, feeling depressed again at his appearance, which was quite different from usual.

“Yoon Shi-hoo?”

One arm outstretched in front of her eyes suddenly.
And with the feeling of something wrapping around your shoulder, your body being dragged into someone’s arms.

“What are you doing?”
“Seoha.”

Yoon Shi-hoo suddenly grabbed me and pulled me into his arms.

“Let’s talk about it.”

I tried to hide my surprise and said as if to warn him.
He didn’t pay attention to my words.

“I will. But wait a minute.”
“Hurry.”
“Let’s stay like this for a while. I’m having a hard time.”

Say it’s hard
It indirectly revealed that I was hurt by my words yesterday and made me shut up.

However, right now I was in a state where I couldn’t be in Yoon Shi-hoo’s arms.
Perhaps if I was here as a woman, Seoha Lee, I could have stayed still for a while.

But now I am a man.
Because Lee Seo, a cross-dressing woman who entered the academy hiding the fact that she was a woman.
It’s a situation where you shouldn’t let people around you know that you’re a woman.

“Sorry.”

I couldn’t even comfort him right now, I had no choice but to push him away.

“Ah.”

Yoon Si-hoo burst into a sigh when he saw me now.
That he was careless.
It was an action I wanted to be comforted by, but it was because I realized that that action could come back to me with great damage.

“I’ll go out for a while.”

But I left the classroom without even seeing the bruise on his chin.
Why do these things only happen to me?
If the cause of all the problems before was Kim Joo-won.
Because now it seemed that I had some cause for the problem.

“Really fucking…”

He went to a place where no one could see and sat down against the wall, crying to himself.
Previously, whenever I was sad because of my own feelings, whether it was Kim Joo-won or Yoon Si-hoo, anyone came to me.
Now, with no one approaching, only me completely alone.

I was shedding tears alone in a place where there was no one to accept my feelings.

“Seoha.”

I heard a voice and raised my head.
White pants.
How did you find me even though I was obviously running away?

“I left my phone behind.”

Kim Joo-won was standing in front of me, holding out my phone and looking at me.