Chapter 86 – White Liquid

His expression began to harden.
It’s a natural expression of sexual desire for him to fuck me, and it’s not what I’m doing, it’s what he’s doing hard on his own, so I can say that.
The kiss I had just stayed still, but he did it himself.

But putting the condom directly on the guy…

“Joo Won.”
“Huh?”
“…I can’t possibly do that.”

It’s quite a chore to watch that monstrous object snap at me.
Do you want me to touch it with my own hands and cover it with this piece of rubber?
Absolute bunch.

“Then can I just fuck you?”
“Am I dangerous?”
“What.”
“Do I have to tell you with my mouth that I might get pregnant with you today?”

But if he had just backed off with these words, he wouldn’t have done those things to me in the first place.
That’s why, I thought it was necessary to re-recognize my current state.

But why do I always realize that I shouldn’t say that?
If it had been a situation where she just looked at me lightly and asked me to put on a condom.
At the same time as I can see that the dark heart that seems to be really deep in the guy’s eyes is thick.

“Seoha.”

I wanted to be in this state right now, but I heard the guy’s voice saying that it was difficult to endure it.

“So if I do it with you now… You mean you’re pregnant?”

It seemed as if his instinct as a male had awakened to leave a seed for the attractive female he chose and leave a descendant of himself.
Lee Seo-hara.
In fact, it was a woman who was so attractive that it would not be strange to eat her right after taking off her clothes, and confessed her own weakness.
It wasn’t a normal weakness, but a weakness that could only be tied up for ten months.

“Ki, Kim Joo, kyaaak!”
“My baby is in Seoha’s belly…”
“Hey, Kim Joo-won, wait a minute!”

As if it was really unbearable, he immediately grabbed my wrists with both of his arms and pressed me to the bed.
With the momentum to hit it right now.

“Seoha, am I too hard to bear right now?”

He continued talking while holding my arms in a rather frightening composition.
However, the reaction coming out of my body was quite strange.
I don’t think women have ever been like this, at least from my recollection, at least consensually.

“… Seoha?”

Why did fear and dread fill the vacant place where the residual feeling of having to do it with him just disappeared.
You said you were fine
You said you could.

“Seoha, what’s wrong?”

But why, right now, at this very moment, trembling with fear, unable to say anything?

“Lord, Joowon, I…”

Are you shedding tears

‘It’s Seoha.’

It didn’t seem that way until he coveted my breasts in my arms earlier.
I had a hallucination that the image of the guy who was forcing me to look at me now seemed to overlap with Kim Joo-won at that time.
Even though I begged him not to rape me, I felt like I was seeing the same guy who forcibly raped me again.

“Sorry, Seoha. I was really just kidding…”

He must have never expected me to react like this.
Right now, I’m embarrassed to do this because of the memory of that time.

“You bastard, really…”

I cursed at him in a voice that barely came out with difficulty, and I went into his arms as he quietly opened his arms to me.
He began to feel a hand caressing his hair.

“Seoha, are you okay?”
“…Huh.”

For a moment, to be held in his arms and stroked.
Maybe it couldn’t be helped that she was a woman, she was simply held in a man’s arms and stroked.
Even with that small action, I felt a sense of security, and my surprised and fearful heart calmed down little by little.

“Sorry.”

Kim Joo-won’s voice of apologizing came softly to my ears.
She raised her head, as if looking at someone very precious.
She saw his face with a look she hadn’t seen before.

“…It’s okay.”

Then she slipped out of his arms, sat on the bed, and turned her gaze to his dead object.
He probably died because of my sudden strange reaction.
The act of coercively trying to restrain me stimulated my terrible memories.

His hands were still trembling slightly.
But even so, I didn’t feel like running away from this place or anything like that.
This guy who is lying in front of me and looking at me right now.

“I’ll cover it for you.”

Maybe it’s because I know he’s a different guy than the guy who raped me forcibly like that time.

“What?”
“…You kept making me say it twice from before?”

Before opening the condom’s plastic wrap, I gently held the guy’s item in my hand with trembling hands.
At that time, the feeling of bare skin was different from what I had touched in my sleep.
And it didn’t grow, so I started to feel that soft feeling in my hand.

“Yes.”

Could it be because Kim Joo-won stretched out his hand before preparing?
I could see the body of the guy who seemed like he would never break down even when he was harassing me, flinching momentarily.
No matter what he does, he is still a human being.
As long as he’s human, his genitals are probably the most sensitive part for him.

“Seoha, you’re too stimulating…”

From the head of the bed, I heard Kim Joo-won’s voice complaining softly.
But compared to what scared me earlier and made me cry.

“Be patient.”

It’s nothing, right?

“Seoha.”

Besides, I have a body that used to be a man.
Since me and him are different people, the points I felt the most may be different.
I think I know better than anyone how and where to touch to feel better.

“I’m just curious.”
“What.”
“You’ve never worked in a big girl’s room, kuh-!”

And because I know what happens when I squeeze this object that has grown and hardened in my hand.
It was literally a piece of cake to subdue a guy who had already given me a weakness.

“If you keep saying useless things, will I just leave?”
“M-I’m sorry…”

But apart from that, his hands were moving hard.
Gently touching the dead guy’s things to put them back together.

“Omg.”

Even gently squeezing and stroking the bag that was supposed to contain two soft eggs located under the pillar.
I myself would probably have done my best to the point of being surprised by the sincerity of the touch.

“Was it that good?”

Sooner or later, just like when you were excited to see me, to build it up again.

In fact, there are reasons for doing so.
If I back off here, he won’t hold me back.
Instead, he will use that as an excuse to hide his past, and then all the time he endured while taking off his clothes in front of him and showing an embarrassing appearance will be wasted.

“Why am I doing this to a villain who asks a woman for something like this in case someone isn’t a pervert?”

Even though I couldn’t just insert myself today, it was a pretty good time from his point of view.
On the other hand, you don’t have to give anything of your own.
Because I wanted to prevent that situation that was quite dogged to me.

“I built it really quickly. I’m afraid someone isn’t a pervert.”

I didn’t want to let him know that there were cards like this that would evade the tournament.
So that’s what I’m doing now.

“Seoha.”
“Why.”
“Where did you really learn from?”
“Oh, it’s not real, you fucking son of a bitch. Do you want to keep distracting me?”

Can’t you see that he is serving me while enduring what I want to throw away?
If it’s good for you, can’t you just shut up as you like?

“Sorry, I won’t.”

Kim Joo-won’s apologetic voice came to my ears again.
Of course, I don’t think that’s a sincere apology either.

He must have met several women while going through a regression.
And based on that experience, you know very well that you have the upper hand in a relationship between a man and a woman.

“Just one more time and I’m really going to go.”

Maybe that’s why they’re joking around like that.
After letting out a small sigh at Kim Joo-won’s acknowledgment, she opened the condom’s packaging.

‘I’m crazy for doing this…’

I regretted it for a while, but I had to sigh a little because I had already come too far to turn back.
It was a moment when I really felt the fact that Lee Seo-ha is now a woman.

Now, if I put this on his stick, that hideous thing will enter my body.
If I recall the image he showed me earlier, he would really fuck me like a dog.
In the arms of such a guy, wouldn’t I just let out a moan and be held in his arms?

‘We decided to do it, Seoha.’

Still, today’s work will be the beginning of correcting the slanted relationship between me and him.
In addition, it will be the first step towards the completion of this work.

But even so, putting condoms on my hands was never easy.
Enough that I had to take a moment to fidget with my fingers that had ripped off the plastic wrap.

To be precise, it shouldn’t be difficult to put it on as I’ve already tried it several times.
In short, the mindset is the problem, and it must have been the time needed to settle that mind.

“Joo Won.”
“Huh.”
“Cover it?”
“Seoha, wait a minute.”

However, while waiting for me, did the fever slightly die?
It was the moment when I stretched out my hand, grabbed his thing, and shook it slightly to set it up again.

But the moment I left everything in my hands earlier, he probably even went on the brink of ejaculation.
I heard Kim Joo-won’s voice as if he was urgently trying to stop me.

“…”

It was after the guy’s stuff started to squeak in his already moved hand, and something came out as if spewing out.
When I brought it closer to carefully put the condom on, I was hit with pure white liquid on my face.
Soon the room fell into silence.