Chapter 88 – Was It for the Best After All

“Kim Joo-won…”

I forcibly calmed my trembling body and recited his name in a small voice.
The man looks good
It was a moment, but I must have gone mad.
It was clear that my body could not covet the pleasure of being a woman, and even my mind was leading me into the abyss, asking me to go crazy somewhere together.

“You’re fucking bloody… Ugly.”

That’s why I spit it out for no reason, even to protect myself.
If I didn’t do this, I really thought I’d agree to that crazy idea myself.
The funny thing is, even as he said that, my body flinched at the slightest movement of the guy.

“You are very pretty.”

When I said that, he sighed and smiled.
But even in the midst of that conversation, the topic that took men second.
Maybe she wanted to appeal that her non-virgin body could still wear her maiden mask.

“What…”

A little bit of bitterness came from the bottom where he started to mix his flesh in Kim Joo-won’s arms.
Even though I wanted to set the mood appropriately, I kept making cracks in my facial expression.
And the guy will notice.

“Seoha, are you okay?”

Even though I was trying to do well, when I see you suddenly ask me that way.
He held his hand and felt a soft stroke of his hair.

“…It hurts.”

To be honest, I don’t really want to tell you.
Why do you just spit out the truth you wore?
Not knowing the heart of the owner who doesn’t want to appear weak in front of the guy.

“You’re too big…”

But am I also a person who can’t help it after all?
However, the bitterness that came from the most sensitive place forced me to whine while being held in his arms.
Of course, he didn’t do anything to get rid of it.

“It’ll be all right in a little while.”

I nodded at the boy’s words.
In an instant, I felt that way.
Maybe the reason why I’m so sane is because I’m not a virgin right now.
If today had been the first sex with him, it might not have ended with whining.

“…You bastard.”
“Huh?”
“You’re so fucking disgusting.”

Watching him make a puzzled expression, I wrapped my arms around his back.
At the signal that it was okay to start now, Kim Joo-won began to slowly tease his waist as if he had waited.

‘What, is this right?’

From that moment on, I couldn’t come to my senses.
I couldn’t feel it even with masturbation, and it was a feeling I couldn’t feel even when he touched my chest and sent me away.
And the thrill that was stronger than I thought derived from it started to run through my whole body.

“It’s a shame, ah…”

The inside of the guy started to gain strength little by little in both arms.
Like my body doesn’t belong to me.
나라는 존재가 마치 김주원이란 천하의 이 개새끼에게 종속된 것 마냥, 녀석에게 모든걸 내맡겨 버리고.

“Kim Joo-won, haha, I…”

Without knowing what he is talking about, he gradually melts into the physical pleasures of a man named Kim Joo-won.
As if I found something I hadn’t been able to find before.
Even though I know it’s dangerous, my reasoning is gradually clouded by the feeling that I’m going to get addicted to it.

Haha!”

It’s released before I know it, and I focus all my attention on the thing that was inserted below me, which I can’t feel the thrill of, ravaging my insides.
Even with her eyes closed, now she wrapped her lower body with her legs as if to prevent him from escaping.

“I’m better!”

However, the time to pursue the pleasure of his body does not last very long.
Beneath that bastard who still seemed unsatisfied, he left the most secret parts to him.
I forgot even about the dangerous days when I might get pregnant, and I only rely on the rubber film that I put on in advance.

“…!”

Without even groaning, I let go of my mind.

“Haha…”

How long had he been unconscious?
When I forcibly woke up my body without any energy and came to my senses, the first thing I saw was the face of the guy holding me in his arms.

“Seoha, are you out of your mind?”

The expression on his face while he was coveting me was nowhere to be found.
I nodded my head at the question of the guy who looked at me with loving eyes as if I were really his woman now.
He released both arms and legs holding him and released Kim Joo-won.

“Did you like it?”
“Huh.”
“…Then it’s done.”

But was it regrettable that he had to take it off like this?
Even though I let go of myself, the guy who stayed for a while with his stuff still inserted in my gaze eventually forced me to release my lower part from his stuff.
Instead, as if to use him as a pillow, he stretched out his arm and naturally pulled me into his arms.

“Joo Won.”
“Uh.”
“You must keep your promise.”

I felt Kim Joo-won’s hand gently cover my chest and looked up.
As if he had waited, he carefully kissed me.

A short kiss.
After that, I closed my eyes without being able to overcome the closing eyelids.

“Seoha, sleep well.”

Normally, I would have told her to stop touching her.
Couldn’t the body, which had lost all its energy to him, overcome the drowsiness?
Kim Joo-won greeted me as I gradually fell asleep, and did not hesitate to touch his chest and nipples to fill up his shady mood.
I fell asleep little by little.

Put me to bed first, and after he fell asleep.
As if the time had come, the lights in the room were turned off and it was immersed in darkness.

* * *

After spending the night in Kim Joo-won’s arms, I was the one who woke up first.
The sun has not fully risen yet, so it is a bit gloomy.
Opening my eyes, I slowly raised my head and looked at the face of the sleeping guy who was unaware of the world.

‘They say everyone in the world is like an angel when they sleep.’

It’s like you don’t want to let go of me even while sleeping.
After carefully removing the arm that was resting on my body lightly, I slowly raised myself.
Then, naturally, the blanket was lifted and it came into my eyes.
Seeing me and his naked body, that was the first thing I thought.

I really did it with this guy as a man and a woman.
They said that they would listen to what happened in the past, that as a woman, they were put under him.

‘Whoa.’

Maybe, I might have regretted it a little.
Not even love
No, to give your body to someone you couldn’t love.

‘Was that the best thing in the end?’

I got up and headed to the bathroom.
Seeing that the curtains were not drawn and nothing was moved, I turned on the water quietly, thankful that no one had come and gone all night.

After washing myself in such a light shower.
After wiping off the water while watching me reflected in the mirror, I went outside and picked up the underwear and clothes he had thrown away.
I could feel that the genital area of ​​the panties was slightly moist, but I wasn’t going to keep wearing it anyway.

“Kim Joo-won.”

After putting on her clothes, she carefully woke the sleeping guy.
It took a while for the guy with the dreamy eyes to come to his senses.

“I go first.”

When she talked to the guy who looked at me with Izzy’s returned eyes, Kim Joo-won replied with a nod of her head.
Does it look like you haven’t woken up yet?
However, he will come to his senses when he hears what I have to say from now on.

“You are discharged today.”
“…Uh.”
“I have to check today too.”

Although I hated having to say this to a guy who regretted raping me.
Still, I have to say what I have to say.
I should know that the consequences of what I’ve done could leave permanent scars on me.

“What test?”
“I’ll check if I’m pregnant when I get back now.”
“Surely yesterday was dangerous…”
“That’s if I wasn’t pregnant that day.”

At those words, Kim Joo-won’s mouth was tightly closed.
Is it that my heart is aching at the thought that there might be a result of what I did in anger inside me?

I really hate to say
He’s a guy who still regrets what he did to me, but it’s like putting a dagger into the wound once again.
But.

“I’ll tell the doctor when I’m pregnant.”

Still, I have to say something.

“I’m pregnant and have to have a baby.”
“…”
“He said he’d help. He knows my circumstances, so he won’t let me know that I’m a woman.”

I had to stop him from doing the same to me in the future.

“But in return, your children will never see the light of day.”

If there is a child in me
Even if I didn’t want it, it’s not just me, it’s also his child.
Because you should know

“Isn’t the world like that? It’s a guardian hat, so it’s a woman and it’s not considered pregnant, and it’s forced to erase the child and roll it somehow.”
“…Yes, it was.”
“Therefore.”

She opened the second dimension space and turned around.
As a writer, I hate it when my main character is sick.
But, still, after leaving the last word.

“I hope I’m not pregnant.”

I went back to my room and opened the drawer.
The pregnancy test I had bought in advance was placed in a small packaging box with a note.

‘Please…’

Praying for one line to come out, I took the tester and headed to the bathroom.
I opened the lid, carefully sat on the toilet, looked at my business, checked the results, and carefully put on my clothes to go to the academy.
Then, when I went to the academy, strangely, the time was the same as I usually go.

“Hello Seoha.”

Like yesterday, unlike yesterday, he always came out early and greeted me.
Receiving greetings from Yoon Si-hoo, just like I usually do when I receive morning greetings from him.
He smiled lightly and said, “Hello,” And then sat down.

However, the same thing was just my outward behavior.
My heart was torn to pieces from the moment I checked the results of the morning.

“It’s Sihoo.”

Because, the results from the morning pregnancy test were.

“I’m pregnant.”

Because it was two lines.