Chapter 92 – Ten Months

“Aaaaa!”

The faint sound of a child’s cry echoed through the room.
…Did you fall asleep?

“Whoa.”

I slowly got up.
Seoha must have had a hard time during the day when I was out, so I wanted to at least let her sleep at night.
However, it is said that her mother is sensitive to her child’s cries so much that her father is incomparable.

“Are you awake?”

Her voice was heard in her sleep.
When I raised her head, Seo-ha, who seemed not to have come to her senses properly, was looking at me with her baby suckling her breast.

“I should have slept a bit.”
“It’s okay. If you woke up first, that’s fine.”

She closed her mouth at her words.
No matter how much he dresses as a man, it is Yi Seo who should be friendly with the students by this time and go around noisily.
It’s not enough that her life was destroyed because of me.
Seeing him give up his life for a child he didn’t want…

Then and now, my heart is heavy.
I immediately thought that I was a scumbag with no answers.

But she shouldn’t spit out those words.
That’s what I said every time I saw her smiling as she waited blankly for me in her house alone in her full-term body.
There was one word that she forbade her to use, saying that she would at least not use it in front of her child.

“Seoha.”
“Huh?”

Say sorry.
Saying I’m really sorry that it happened because of me was a word she forbade, at least in the house she and I lived in.
To this little one, she is but she is me and she herself is her father and mother.
It was Seoha’s idea that she shouldn’t use such words in front of the child she gave up even giving up her life.

“No.”

“My bird, sleep well.”

When she finished breastfeeding, seeing Seoha smiling at her baby broke her heart.
Is this why people shouldn’t do things they shouldn’t do?
If I hadn’t done those things to Seoha, swallowed my anger, and was good to Seoha now, and we had a loving relationship.

“Sit down?”
“Huh.”
“Now. You have to go out tomorrow too.”
“It’s okay. I know you’re having a hard time at home, but how am I?”
“Then lose.”

At least, even though he gave up his life because of the child, he did it with a genuinely happy expression.
She wouldn’t have smiled as she does now, hiding her sore wounds.

“I can take a short break during class breaks after I leave school anyway.”
“…”
“I wish I could get some sleep now, Seoha.”

He laid her right on her bed, still slightly drunk from her sleep.
Unlike her past, seeing her looking at me without warning even when I touched her body made her feel sad.
Even this is something I have to deal with.

“Huh.”

She naturally came into my arms and I hugged her and started touching her hair.
Wishing that she could sleep peacefully even at this moment.
But.

“Seo, are you Seo Ha?”
“But Joo Won.”

I lowered my eyes in surprise when I suddenly saw her hand enter her pants dance. Seoha was looking at me with the look on her face that had found her prey.

“I’m back home after a month, aren’t you happy?”

With eyes stained with strong obsession.
She was looking at me with a murderous gaze, demanding that the other side take responsibility for making her this way.
I cater to her desires.

“Bar, nice to meet you.”
“But why don’t you touch me? Before running away from the academy, you’re a bastard who always touched me even if I told you not to.”

Referring to the sins committed against him, he gradually climbed on top of me.
I grabbed the back of her head and forced her lips into my mouth.
I close my eyes for a moment while watching her look at me with a good eye.

“Nice to meet you, Seoha.”

It’s like you don’t know what I was thinking just now.
Seeing Seoha smile like a predator, a part of my heart felt cold.

Did they say that revenge begets revenge?
Seo Ha was forcing me to have a relationship with him in the form of revenge.
Seeing her gaze, I had to put my hand through the gap between her pajama top that was open and unlocked.

*

I opened my eyes.
I woke up to find myself lying on the bed, naked.
Last night.
The topic of waking up from sleep, the time when I didn’t want to look like you were holding me in your arms as if you were treating a loved one.

“Woke up?”

So I forcibly forced sex with him last night, awakening his guilt.
He had no choice but to accept the relationship through my eyes.

“Uh.”

Lying down on the bed, I stared blankly at him, shifting my gaze from Sae-ah to me.
Then, did the guy look at me in his naked body and get fed up?
His body collapsed onto the bed, and his hand reached for me.

“Sooooo…”

Soon, I felt his hand gently caressing the skin between my legs, and I shuddered for a moment.

“Who is not a pervert and a rapist?”

Even if his mouth mercilessly cursed at him, his body was already given to him anyway.
I waited for him to stroke me while I lay still, then the guy who got up from his seat said to me that his business was over.

“Sit down a minute, I’ll get you some water.”

After he nodded, there was a haggard look in the eyes of the guy who had just entered.
Maybe I was holding back my sleep because I thought I had to see Sae-ah.

“Thank you.”

Maybe he wanted a little reward for stroking my bottom in the morning.
After drinking a glass of water Kim Ju-won brought, I crawled on the bed and headed towards the crib.
He brought his finger to the sleeping child’s cheek and poked it very lightly before speaking nonchalantly.

“Sleep.”
“I didn’t sleep. I have to see you, but how do you sleep?”
“You tried so hard.”

The bed shook very slightly, as if the person sitting in the seat had woken up.
When I turned my gaze, I saw that there was a lecture from the morning, and the figure of the guy wearing clothes caught my eye.

“But it’s Seoha.”
“Uh.”
“Is it really right for me to go alone like this?”
“Let’s start again, huh?”

However, I frowned at the words of the guy who brought up a problem that had already been discussed before.
Civilian Kim Joo-won.
Under the setting of a repeat student, a freshman who succeeded in the college entrance exam this year.

“Didn’t you run away with me to take responsibility for me?”
“…Right.”
“But I’m talking about why you’re going alone again. Someone’s going to take care of my daughter when I go to college.”

And I dropped out of high school and played with fire with this guy in front of me and became a mother at 21.
A life without an answer, with only this man in front of me.

Made by me to hide us as guardians and live as civilians.
The settings of Kim Joo-won, a diligent male student who contrasts with the original us, and Lee Seo-hara, a delinquent who gave up her life at will.

“So is it.”

This time, I put my hand over the part where his item was supposed to be on top of his pants and held it lightly, and Kim Joo-won’s body flinched for a moment.

“So, if you want to take responsibility for being a victim whose life is ruined anyway, don’t talk nonsense from the morning and listen carefully to the lecture. You know, right?”

Was it because he touched her genitals while exposing her body, which was no different from when she was a virgin?
Even though he was with me last night, I could see that he was having a hard time since the morning.
The urge to knock me down and lie on top of me at any moment seemed to flow through his tightly pursed lips.

“Yes.”

But there was one unspoken rule between us.
Relationships are unconditional, only when my side wants them.
As much as I got pregnant while he was teasing my dick, the guy who knew women carelessly needed punishment.

You can’t touch me even when you want to.
At least from the point of view of a man in his early 20s who will be full of blood, it’s a fairly harsh kind of thing.

“Then kiss me before you leave.”

Ten months was a longer time than I thought.
The woman who was helpless at Kim Joo-won’s touch disappeared, and even the man who regarded such a woman as a toy is nowhere to be found.
It was enough to leave only the man who felt guilty when she saw her blankly smiling at her when she came back from her pregnancy.

I could feel his lips overlapping mine.
To play a newlywed couple who got married in an accident, but their affection has not cooled.
And since you’ve realized that you’re the opposite sex, let’s do an act of kissing to satisfy the primal desire we feel for each other.

“Seoha.”
“No.”

Perhaps it was really unbearable, but Kim Joo-won’s hand tried to reach my chest and buttocks.
Blocking that guy’s hand, this time she shook her head left and right.

“If you want to do it, come back and try to seduce me well.”

Then, as if the devil were laughing, he smiled at the guy and said the words like thunder from the sky.
But I just can’t stick with the whip too much…
Wait a moment to look at the guy who turned around a bit sullen.

“Perhaps the hurdles for me at that time were low.”

When she said something that might give her a little hope, Kim Joo-won nodded her head and said “I’ll be back” Before turning around.
At that moment, as if she had just waited, she heard Sae-ah’s cry like a ghost from the room and headed to her room quickly.
The sound of the front door closing lightly echoed through the house as she held her child in her arms.

“My princess, why are you crying because you’re uncomfortable this time?”

Like that time when I was taking care of my child like that, and every day at 5pm after I first saw him at the academy, I was dragged and bullied by him.
The waiting time began to eat away at my body again.