Chapter 98 – Self-Closed

My heart was pounding like crazy.
I don’t know how much I wished for it.
Rather, I was a man who seemed to be really similar to the remaining cubs in my memory.

“…!”

Although his hair color is different from the silver hair in my memory.
It is different from the memories of that time when I wore glasses and had my hair styled neatly.

But, those eyes that seem to be looking at me indifferently.
The moment I received that unique gaze that made me feel like a prey standing in front of a predator, a strong doubt welled up inside me.

“Yes?”

Of all the people I’ve seen in my life, I’ve never seen anyone with such a unique look.
The man I caught seems to be the man from that memory.
No matter how disguised I was, those eyes that I could never forget I saw at that time began to invade my body.

“Hey, what happened…”

Then, I started to get short of breath.
That gaze, as if it could be eaten at any moment, seems to be choking my throat.
Before I knew it, I had let go of the man’s wrist and took a step back.

“Oh, no. I’m sorry…”

Apparently, the expression on the outside looks calm, and the tone of the voice seems to ask casually what’s going on.
But remain in memory.
Now that there is no object to be protected as her sister, with eyes that are terrifyingly similar to that bastard who raped her sister.
It felt like I was about to kneel down in front of him.

“…?”

But before he left like this, I wanted to ask him right away.
Are you the person I know?
What the hell did you do to my sister?
Where the hell did she kidnap her, and why is it that only you are going to college all alone?

“Haha…”

But I couldn’t ask.
To the point where I want to ask my sister how the hell she gets along with that guy before arguing whether there is physical evidence or not.
Because the man was so frightened.

“You crazy stupid bitch.”

I forced myself to sit on a nearby bench, holding back the strength in my legs.
I was so pathetic myself.
I took the opportunity, but I was so scared that I couldn’t even ask.

Maybe even at this moment, she was definitely caught by that man, just like she did in her academy.
Somewhere without a voice, I might be treated as a sex toy by the goddamn scum of the world.

“Sister, I’m sorry…”

Forgetting that she had to go into the lecture, she sat on her bench and wept at her own shame.
It was so funny to sit there scared by that guy with just that much.

But.
If I was going to give up like this, I wouldn’t have even started.

‘If it’s enough for Mr. Mincheol…’

With shaking hands, he took his phone out of his pocket and opened the phone book.
In order to investigate people, we still need more information to know.
However, since that day, the name of the company I’ve been living as if it had nothing to do with me at all.

‘Hyeonseong…’

Looking at the name of a middle-aged man in charge of the corporate group listed in the phone book, he swallowed.
But what I knew from the coincidence earlier.

‘Sister, wait. I’ll go find it soon.’

Over the past year, it seems that the time that I couldn’t reach even if I tried to reach my sister is about to end.
Even if it was a coincidence.
Opening the way to reach her sister, Huddler grabbed his legs and rose from his bench.

Today was a day off on its own.

*

An ordinary day, if ordinary.
Today is the kind of day that I only thought would pass without any difference from other days.

When I open my eyes, I see Seoha sleeping soundly.
Still, the bird wakes up once in the night.
She still had to wake up to nurse her new baby, though her face was still a bit tired.
Did you still not want to wake me up?

‘Good night.’

The way she sleeps with her thumb and forefinger holding only the hem of my sleeve.
Food.
I smile without even realizing it.

‘I’ll have to wake up carefully.’

I got up cautiously and gently poked the cheek of the baby who was sleeping soundly in the crib.
She smiled lightly as her lips moved to match the shape of my fingers, took her clothes and quietly left the bedroom.

Originally, the morning ventilation that Saha would have done.
However, when I opened the door to the veranda window, which was still closed, a warmer wind than when the new baby was born began to embroider the house.

However, seeing the door that did not open, I was reluctant to go in, so I quietly finished my preparations.
However, she hesitated for a moment as she tried to put on her shoes to go outside.
Anyway, we live together.
If you don’t even announce that you’re leaving, you might feel a little bit sad.

“Seoha.”

When I carefully opened the bedroom door, I felt that I had left.
I woke up, but I saw her as if she hadn’t come to her senses yet.

“Woke up?”
“Eh, get out…?”
“Uh.”
“Welcome well. Haha.”

Then, turn on the stretch for a while.
Seeing her like that, I felt something was missing.
Leaving her heart behind as she was about to leave after greeting her, he approached her Seoha from behind and hugged her tightly into her arms and greeted her.

“Yeah, I’ll go.”

But even for the sake of her, who gave up everything of herself, looking only at me.
When her now must let her go.
I had no choice but to leave her house with Seoha in her arms.

“It’s leaky.”

But wouldn’t this arrangement be fine?
Before leaving Seo Ha in her arms and leaving her bedroom.
After looking at Sae-ah who is sleeping soundly, she clears her throat for a while.

“I’ll bring my dad, so you can’t rot your mother, okay?”

Say hello to your baby.

Family.
Seeing Seoha staring blankly at me and Saeah sleeping soundly on the crib, the words sounded very heavy.
Abandoned in front of an orphanage when I was a child that I can’t even remember, I thought I’d never be related to Nawan.

“Pu-hu.”

After leaving the house, I came to the bus stop, waited for the bus, turned on my phone and looked at Sae-ah’s picture for a while.
To be honest, I don’t know that it’s too much for me.
I know it’s a situation I shouldn’t have liked, but my situation right now feels like a dream.

– Thank you.

It’s like I wish this time would last a little longer.
I end up embracing the thought that I shouldn’t have in my heart.

‘I work hard today too.’

For the two people who will now only look at me.
Determined to dedicate this life to the only two people I have to be responsible for, I got on the bus, put earphones in my ears, and started playing memorized English words on my phone.

But, as life always does, show your dreams and then smash them to pieces.
I wished nothing happened today.
The dream-like situation is shattered the moment you get off the bus and go to school.

“Hey, wait!”

I hesitated at the woman’s voice coming through the instructor’s voice through the earphones.
The moment I turned my head and looked at who was holding me.
I feel like my heart is beating down.

Maybe it wasn’t the most embarrassing moment since I ran away with Seoha.
The person who thought he shouldn’t be here.
Because the woman she never wanted to see, with an outward appearance that bore a terrifying resemblance to Seoha, was standing there.

‘Lee Seo-yeon.’

During the time she ran away with Seoha, the name she had lost was resurfacing on the surface.
Maybe this wasn’t the first time he looked like a reaper trying to steal this time.

Her relationship with her sister-in-law always ended badly in all of her episodes with her.
In this episode of hers, as always, she tried to avoid making a relationship with her as much as possible.

Why does fate want to take away the opportunity for me and Seoha to live together?

“…”

The gaze of a man who finally had a chance to correct what had gone wrong.
He stares blankly at his girl’s brother, who is trying to get in the way he was thinking.
Not mixed with favor at all.
I look at her with her unexpected threat that if I touch her now, she won’t be safe.

Regressor.
As much as I’ve lived multiple lives back in time.
The gaze of a man who had to learn how to inject fear in order to meet and live with more diverse human groups than anyone else.
The woman’s expression gradually becomes terrified.

Emotionless, but with eyes filled with life.
The moment she saw Lee Seo-yeon, all the thoughts in her head were erased, and at the same time, the defense instinct that jumped out to defend herself thrust a knife into her throat.
She made me let go of her hand holding my wrist.

“Yes?”

Then, when her wrist was grabbed, the thought that had been suspended for fear of being caught began to move slowly.
Only then did the thought come to her mind that she shouldn’t show such a gaze here.
He withdrew his gaze from staring at the enemy, collected his voice inwardly, and uttered a single word slowly.

“Yes?”

So that I can’t be sure that I am that Kim Joo-won with my voice.
Instead, he opened his mouth with a short but clear meaning.

“Oh, no. I’m sorry.”

Have you already been terrified with just my eyes?
As if running away, she slowly withdrew from me, taking two steps backwards.

But seeing her like that, the thought that she made a mistake dug into her head.
In fact, if she hadn’t met at all, I wouldn’t know.
I’ve seen Lee Seo-yeon in this episode a few times before she ran away.
It was because of the thought that I might be sure who I was with the eyes I saw earlier.

So I had to get away from her, taking her steps as if she were running away.
If she does anything wrong, she has the same power of observation as Lee Seo-ha.
Because I thought it would give me evidence to recognize that I was that Kim Joo-won.

“Shit…”

I sighed inwardly.
When dealing with them in moderation and avoiding them isn’t enough, why do they want to leave such strong memories?
Obviously, I might have strong doubts about me and sell my back.

‘…Was it Hyeonseong?’

Thinking that she should talk to Seo Ha later, she moved on.
Fortunately, Seoyeon wasn’t following me.