Chapter 99 – Let’s Go Out Together Tomorrow

“My bird, why are you doing this when your mother is here?”

He broke out in a cold sweat while holding the new baby, who had not defecate in the diaper and was not hungry.
Seeing the child whining for an unknown reason from earlier, I felt stuffy inside.
Still, I can’t help it because the bean pods are already tightly covered in my eyes.
While suffering from the child like that, the beeping sound naturally turned her gaze toward the front door.

“I’m here.”

Why does that person’s face have a strange look of tiredness on it?
Even though he replied, “Oh, are you here?”, The moment I couldn’t pay attention to him because of the whining bird.

“Why bird?”
“I just can’t sleep.”

I looked down at Sae-ah, thinking that something had become strangely quiet in my arms.
With her eyes pointed at him, Sae-ah, who had become calm before she knew it, caught my eye.
…Are you sure you found your father?

“Joo Won, I think you’re leaving today.”
“I’ll wash up and come back.”
“Huh.”

Maybe I just wanted to be grumpy.
After looking at the quiet Sae-ah, he smiled for a while.
“My bird, do you already like your father more than your mother?”
It’s because what that bastard did is amazing, but the face itself looks pretty…

‘Bird, are you saying you’re a woman too?’

I laughed at the stupid thought that suddenly came to my mind.
He was sitting on the sofa with the baby in his arms, and Kim Joo-won, who had just washed and dried his hair, handed him the new baby.

“You must have had a hard time outside, but I’m sorry I left the baby.”
“What, you suffered more because you were at home with your child.”

Kim Joo-won said that, and at some point Sae-ah, who became quiet, said, “Oh, did you miss Dad?”
To be honest, rather than being an adult, I’m just playing around with the smiling Sae-ah for a while.

“Ha, would you like our Joo-won? The baby already likes his father more than his mother.”
“What are you saying? It’s just because you can’t see it, so I guess it’s because you want to see it.”
“Is it really so?”

He said that and got up from his seat.
No matter how much money I’ve accumulated that I haven’t spent yet, I still don’t know what will happen in the future.

“Anyway, I couldn’t do any work.”
“Oh yeah?”
“I’ll ask you for about four hours. You wouldn’t want the master’s traitor writer to be late either.”

The moment Kim Ju-won heard my pen name, he coughed.
Engrave how absurd the words you wrote on your name tag to humiliate me are.
This devilish bastard

“Whoa, it’s four hours. It’s a bit tough.”

Saying that, he sat down on the chair in front of the desk in the bedroom and stretched.
It’s a strange posture that emphasizes the chest when someone sees it, but since no one is watching, I thought it would be okay.

“Are you sure, Kim Joo-won?”

It would have been fine if it hadn’t been for this pervert bastard who wraps his arms around my chest as if he was waiting behind me.

“Hey, bird.”
“Ruler.”
“What?”
“I fell asleep because he made me feel a little bit.”

Plus, a baby who doesn’t help her mother at times like this.
In a world where none of them helped me, I frowned and grabbed Kim Joo-won’s hand and pushed him away.
Did Kim Joo-won already get mad at me?

“Seoha, can’t you?”
“Uh.”
“Don’t do that, huh?”

He usually backed down when I rejected him, but this time with the attitude that he would never back down.
Before I gave my lips to him who looked at me and said he would never let me go.

“It doesn’t matter if you’re late as a lawyer in this life, do as you like.”

After saying that, she accepted his kiss without resistance.

This life is a lawyer, the name of the third novel I am writing.
Today, the person in charge of the novel did not receive the manuscript by the set deadline without notice.
Although he tried to contact the writer as to why the manuscript had not arrived.

“Joo, Joo Won!”
“Heo-eok, heo-eok.”

Before being attacked by him, in front of the silenced phone.
The contact from the person in charge was nothing more than a lonely cry, with no one to hear, trying to avoid being harassed by a superior.

* * *

After having so much fun with him on the bed.

“Seoha.”
“Uh.”

I hope you lie down on the bed in Kim Joo-won’s arms as if you’re dead for a while.
The sound of his voice raised my consciousness that was sinking beneath the surface.

“There’s something I’m curious about.”

This guy is curious about me.
What is it?

“What?”
“I’ve done too many things I couldn’t do to you.”
“Uh.”
“Still, is it okay to be with me like this?”

He is also a human being, and he must have met many women in his life.
Still, after mixing the bodies, did the hurdles in the mind subconsciously lower?
I want to lie down for a while, curious about the look on his face when he asks something he would never have asked normally.

“However, how do you get used to it?”

I wonder if the hurdles in my heart are lowering as well, so I slowly say things I wouldn’t normally say in front of him.

“If it wasn’t for Sae-ah, I wouldn’t have imagined being with you.”
“…”

I could feel his hand caressing the back of my head slowly.
Just like he said, Kim Joo-won is a scumbag among scumbags who raped me.

However, my heart is already broken.
No, he is me who has become unable to live without him now.

To that extent, for me, the dog trash bastard named Kim Joo-won already occupied a large part of my life.
Since I had come to this point in my life, I was thinking about what all the things in the past mean.

I have already conceived and given birth to a child with him for ten months.
She feels even her motherly love for that child, and even raises her child with all her love.

“Seoha.”
“Huh.”
“If I hadn’t done that to you.”

Did he think of what he had done to me again?
I could feel his arm trembling slightly behind me as he hugged me.

“How are we now?”

Then, while chewing on the sound that came out of his mouth, I slowly lifted my eyes and tried to look at his face.
Now he doesn’t want to show the face he’s making, so the hands of the guy who doesn’t want to raise his head.
I could feel my hand pressing my head gently.

“I don’t know, but there must have been no leaks.”

He slowly closed his eyes while reciting the child’s name, which was not the fruit of love.
If Sae-ah finds out that she was born through rape.
At that time, I, no, I started to think about what we should do.

“And the day we first met, you knew I was a girl even before the academy started.”
“Huh.”
“I didn’t think we could ever be perfect friends.”

And then, taking advantage of the moment when the power of his hand pressing down on my head weakened, he raised his head.
Seeing the sadness in his eyes looking down at me, his heart began to weaken again.

However, you shouldn’t show off or tell them not to.
The sorrow he will experience now is part of the atonement he will have to make for the rest of his life for trampling on humans.
I forbade saying sorry because I didn’t want to look bad in front of Sae-ah.

“Because it’s a male academy, maybe they were lovers outside the academy or inside their dorm room.”
“Lover?”
“Right now, you don’t push me away because you live together because of the baby, and you hate it. But you’re the only woman I found there without a woman.”

Instead, as long as it’s like this, this tidy up will be fine.
To the extent that I stretched out my arm and wrapped my hand around the back of his neck.
It’s really like being a lover, as if you’re embracing him as a woman.

“Should I tell you more?”
“…No.”

So I looked at his face and closed my eyes.
It was because I had been bothered by the child for about three hours, and my body, having had an affair with him, began to ask me to sleep at least a little bit.
But.

“Seoha.”

I couldn’t sleep.
Normally, even right after mixing with me, I saw a guy who doesn’t talk this much, calling my name again.
I guessed that there was something I really wanted to say.

“Kim Joo-won.”
“Huh.”
“What happened to you at school today?”

Then, a small smile passed across the boy’s face.
I wonder if you can’t catch my eye.
He let out a small sigh as he looked at the guy talking, as if he had forgotten that he had teased that he wanted to be known.

“Seriously, what happened at school when you’re like a father of a baby makes you talk so long, huh?”

When I looked at him and said it urgently, Kim Joo-won let out a small sigh and then said to me in a low voice, “That’s right.”
Kim Joo-won then released the hold he was holding onto me and lay down on his back, exhaling a small breath.
“I don’t think it was a story that would drag on this far,” He said, and paused for a moment to choose his words.

“I saw Lee Seo-yeon at school today.”

At the words that I can’t just stay still, let’s just keep our eyes shut.

“No, I didn’t see it, I even grabbed my wrist.”

A good word to misunderstand if someone hears it wrong.
Seeing him talk as if nothing was wrong, I felt like my backbone was pulling.

“If it’s Seoyeon, is it my sister?”

The words of a younger brother that I was not used to.
As he said that, looking at Kim Joo-won, he nodded his head and let out a small sigh.

“Oh, it must be my sister-in-law.”

Could it be that you are still looking for me?
It’s been almost a year since I ran away from the academy.
Don’t give up on me…

Hearing what she said before her, even though he knew that Lee Seo-ha was like a mother to her.
I wonder how much meaning it has…

“Seoha. What are you going to do?”

Kim Joo-won’s voice came to my ears again.
She probably heard that if she was the original me, she would not have met her because she did not want to give up the life she had barely found.
The moment I met Seo-yeon, it was obvious that my current life would go wrong in any form.

“…If I don’t show up, you’ll probably keep looking for me, right?”

I’ve been looking for 10 years, but I can’t find it for 1 year.
I raised my gaze and looked at Kim Joo-won.
Kim Joo-won turned his eyes to me, as if he could feel my gaze from the side.
Looking into his eyes

“Let’s go out together tomorrow.”

Seeing his completely unexpected expression, she lifted the corners of her mouth and hugged him tightly.