Chapter 107 – Admission Test (7)

“When you love, you become pretty. This isn’t just talk, is it scientific? Shall I send you the thesis?”
“No… Me, what am I?”
“Oh sorry. It wasn’t about you, it was about a friend, right? No. Because loving your brother is also love… Can family love secrete female hormones? Hmm… Anyway what… I don’t think I became prettier because of my family love, but I mean.”

I was startled by what the senior said as she glanced under my face and around my neck, and it sent chills down my spine to the point that I forgot her heat.
The reason why I wanted to keep a strange distance from him even though he was a senior I liked was for this reason.
As the senior said, he felt good in a very strange place… She had an uncanny aura that made it easy to spill secrets.
I answered the senior, trying to be more vigilant but not showing any signs of being wary.

“What makes you prettier?”
“… All.”
“Yes?”
“All. If we had met in college, I would have confessed too. Ugh, as expected of a succubus.”
“A succubus?”
“Ah, you only know the nickname of the queen, don’t you? Don’t mind. Guys, it’s a bad joke.”

The senior said so, but she was strangely concerned. A succubus… I don’t think it’s the first time I’ve heard the word, but I can’t remember it well.
What did that mean… While she was thinking about it, the senior cut the cake with the fork he had brought separately and held it out to me.

“Well, there is a reason why I like 2D.”
“Isn’t the conversation a bit out of the blue?”
“Listen while eating. The fact that I like 2D means that I want someone I can simply like without worrying about realistic problems, shortcomings, or obstacles. In reality, there are many things that cause a disability just by liking it.”

I listened to what the senior said and felt strange about her, so I ate the cake she cut… As expected, I listened to the story while thinking that Chinese factory-made cakes, which are used in many cafes, taste the same no matter where you eat them.

“Well, if there are a lot of obstacles in a simple relationship, we will break up, but if it is impossible, how many worries must there be?”
“… Yes.”
“If you think logically, if it’s really impossible, I think it’s right to break up. It would have been better if it hadn’t even started. It looks difficult, but what are you going to do?”

Without answering, I purposely looked up at the sun while drinking watermelon juice in silence. My eyebrows were furrowed, and it became easier to hide my upset and upset feelings, so I listened to the senior’s story as if nothing was wrong.

“Anyway, tell your friend to try it.”
“… Yes?”

However, the senior suddenly refuted what he had just said.
I was so absurd that I stopped drinking the juice and turned her head to look at the senior, and as if she had no interest in me, she took out her cell phone and talked while playing games.

“I haven’t tried it, but how do I know if it’s impossible or if there’s even a slight possibility? Do you remember your programming class? Did you make an Arduino?”
“Yes…”
“If you write all the code and run it, it works well, but sometimes it doesn’t work, and sometimes it seems like it will never work, but it works?”

China has been advocating specialization in engineering as a policy to include industry in all studies in the future, and engineering classes were included as a required course for graduation regardless of major. Because of that, I was a little dazed at what he said, citing the class I had taken as an example, so I listened quietly.

“Why would you? It’s because I have no experience. Yes? After you know more, you can see it, and if you want to write something difficult, you don’t know if it will work or not until you try the same thing.”
“… Yes?”
“You… No, does that friend have dating experience? Many?”

I couldn’t say anything, and the senior spoke calmly, as if he was talking about something that seemed like it was really no problem, as if he didn’t even wait for my answer.

“How do you know if it’s impossible if you haven’t tried it? Give it a try, and if it seems impossible, tell them to play Romeo and Juliet.”
“… Ignore them all and run away?”
“If it’s really good, then so be it. If it’s really good enough that I don’t want to meet anyone other than him. That’s something you need to know and think about carefully.”

I really didn’t even think about it at all, and I didn’t think much of it, and I heard the answer of the senior who thought seriously about the concerns that I brought up without much thought. I feel very empty.
Should I call it futility rather than emptiness? I answered so simply as if it was nothing, so it really felt like it was nothing… Complex thoughts were organized and thought simple.

Next to me, who was agonizing in a daze, the senior was silently playing a game, and soon after that, it was time for her to finish the entrance exam.
The senior got up from her seat and cleared the table, and she also got up and went to the front of the building to see me off and greet the senior who was about to head to the building where her sister took her exam.

“Thank you for today. Goodbye and see you next time.”
“What do you have to thank me for? Because you’re not that friend.”
“Huh, I don’t know why you don’t date her girlfriend.”
“… To be honest, I’m tired of mental care called dating. The only thing that heals me is Kyoko-chan…”
“… You’re not serious, are you?”
“I’m half serious. Then… Give me something delicious, brother. You must be tired because of my brother… I’ll pay you later…”

While saying that, the senior muttered as he walked away with a somewhat lonely look.

“But why is it so creepy all of a sudden…”

After a while, as I waited in front of the building, her younger brother who finished her exam came out of the building and I smiled broadly and approached my younger brother who must have had a really hard time.
But her brother… For some reason, even though the test is over, it doesn’t look happy, it makes me feel very bad… Her face was frowning in irritation, and the closer I got to her, the more her smile hardened… I carefully asked her worried heart.

“Why, why is that… ? If… What was the problem during the test?”

Then her brother… He looked down at me with very sharp eyes and spoke in a low, animalistic growl that you only hear when you’re really angry.

“Why did he come again?”
“Uh?”
“We were together. I could see it all through the exam room window.”

In my brother’s words… Even though there was nothing wrong, I was startled for no reason, and my blood became cold, and I shivered and my face turned pale.
I didn’t think I did anything wrong, and even though it wasn’t something to be nervous at all, my brother’s words were strangely sharp, so I automatically shrank.

“I saw it during the test… ?”
“After you get hurt.”
“He said he came because of his brother… You saw it yesterday.”
“Brother?”

I really didn’t mean anything, I just said don’t worry about it… The younger brother’s expression was even worse, and his teeth were exposed to the point that he looked ferocious when he was biting his teeth.

“He’s testing in another building.”

Really… I was just talking, but it felt strangely scary.
However, rather than being repulsed and fearful, it felt like a big dog at home threatening strangers by revealing its teeth.
When I thought about that, I suddenly remembered what my senior said about being a werewolf, so I shivered at the cool feeling that I forgot it was summer, and then I suddenly laughed out loud.

“Why are you laughing.”
“Just… There is something cute about it.”

However, after hearing my words, the younger brother’s fierce-looking face hardened… Suddenly, his expression went bad, as if he had lost his temper or was upset.
Surprised by the sad look on my face, I looked at my younger sister and looked at her, but her younger sister suddenly turned around from me and sighed on her own accord and started walking away.

“Uh? Why, why?”
“… Let’s go, just.”

Surprised, I caught her brother’s eyes and ran after her.
But her brother strode along with a much bigger stride than usual, and I kept falling behind.
Looking at my brother’s legs, I suddenly felt that my brother was walking slowly with a small step out of consideration for me.
I was getting a little out of breath just following, and I was busy chasing my brother, and he walked past the plaza with the main road of the university and the lawn with a garden leading to the main entrance of the university.

“Go, let’s go together…”

When the sun rose in the middle of the sky and everyone went inside the building, under the shade to avoid the sunlight, and passed under the shade of a tree on the roadside where no one could be seen, I eventually ran out of breath and called my younger brother to stop. I looked back.
And be still… I kept my mouth shut as if I was full of dissatisfaction, then I sighed long as I wiped the sweat on my forehead as I looked up at my brother in bewilderment, then opened and closed my mouth several times before hesitating and said,

“… I hate my sister.”
“Uh?”

I was stunned by the words I never imagined, and I was really shocked.
Within a short time, my legs were shaking, my head was white, my stomach felt like it was twisting, I couldn’t breathe as if my lungs were hardened, and my jaw felt loose.
Tears are welling up, my nose hurts… As I unknowingly grabbed my sister by the collar and ran, the younger sister suddenly corrected her words in surprise.

“Oh, no… I hate being your sister.”
“What, what are you talking about?”

My younger sister didn’t like her expression… He looked down at me and grabbed my shoulder.
And how many times… The younger brother who repeatedly opened and closed her mouth… Really, as if talking about something he had endured, he said in a voice that seemed to leak something suppressed inside.

“Really… Nobody knows about me, even if it’s just the two of us… Can’t you think of it as dating practice?”
“Uh… ?”

I listened to her brother… Rather, I was surprised and perplexed.

“… Why not?”
“Yes… ?”
“Yes?”

Just like that, both my brother and I were confused and made strange noises.
Her sister’s question was very embarrassing to me.
Already from her birthday… It’s a little when we’re alone, but I thought it was like that… I didn’t say it because I was shy, but it meant that in itself when I asked her to put her hair up.
It’s okay to do it… When it’s just the two of us, treat them like girlfriends and practice… I meant that it was okay.
My brother is somehow… I’ve been asking questions like it never happened, like it never happened.

“When it’s just the two of us, it’s fine.”
“Uh?”
“Already… You allowed it.”
“Uh, when?”

I didn’t quite understand what the hell he was talking about, so I told my brother what happened on my birthday in a daze.

“On my birthday… That’s good… You did.”
“You just walked away without saying anything…”
“Oh, you put your head up.”
“… Why?”
“Ugh, ugh…”

I am so embarrassed to see my sister’s reaction… I am so ashamed and ashamed.
To think I was alone… Her sister was very confused thinking that it wasn’t like that at all, and I thought that maybe that’s why she said she would only do it once a day while studying hard before the exam.
It was a good idea, of course, and I think I did well, but… Do you really think that I didn’t put up with it so that my brother and I wouldn’t get worse later on, but simply because we had a misunderstanding… It was shocking, yet embarrassing, so my head was dizzy.

“That, so… If you get into college… Three, sex… You said you could do it.”
“Uh?”
“I don’t know! Ah ah ah ah ah… Don’t know… Embarrassing… Alone…”
“Uh? Uh? Uh, when? Was that so? Since when?!”

I thought I was mistaken about something so far, and I really wanted to hide somewhere, so I tried to run away, but my brother immediately grabbed my wrist and stopped me from going, asking.
When my younger brother persistently asked me without even covering my face, I shook my head… I was so embarrassed that I cried and said in a small voice.

“Mmm, head… You asked me to upload it.”
“Why is that?”
“AA AA AA… I can’t speak… I really can’t do it with my mouth.”
“Head? What’s wrong with your hair?! Why did you put your hair up?!”
“I don’t know!”

I’m really confused.
So far so… I was prepared and worried, but my younger brother didn’t feel that way at all… Even when talking about sex… I thought it was because you answered seriously…
It’s a stupid thing to say, but even if you say it’s practice… It wasn’t that I didn’t like it.
Rather, I liked it, but since he was my younger brother, I felt like I had no choice but to practice, and in fact, when it turned out that it was just me thinking about it, I was really embarrassed and didn’t know what to do.

But my younger brother is shy of me, so let’s stay quiet… Grabbing my hands, I pulled my face closer and closer.
And not the usual sharp feeling… I said with my eyes wide open as if I was really desperately courageous with a face reddened with nervousness that clearly felt that I was really younger than me.

“Well, then… I will ask again now.”
“… Yes?”
“I’ll usually treat you like an older sister, so I’ll keep it a secret from others… When it’s just the two of us, I want to be my girlfriend… ?”
“Uh, huh?”

After hearing what my brother said, my face instantly became hot.
But… I didn’t hesitate too much.
It was because I had already thought of my relationship with my younger brother since my birthday, and I was constantly thinking about it.
I stayed silent… Rather, I asked my brother.

“… With that, really… Are you okay?”